Chapter 3

Mixed Feelings

The only reason I didn't tell my brothers that Michael wasn't dead was because I didn't want them getting overprotective of me especially Edward. Jasper and Emmett thought that Michael and Sammi were dead but just the opposite. Sammi was definitely dead no doubt about that Michael wasn't dead he had joined a coven of mean vampires…he had created. I suddenly knew who the men were and I was having a flashback. I closed the door in fear of Edward hearing me which he probably would anyhow.

It was the night Edward and I went to Port Angeles, about a year and a half ago Edward loved Bella already and wanted to watch out for her but decided we would just hang out so we were driving and he heard men thinking these repulsive thoughts that were insulting and rude to any woman.

Then they said "AHA don't move we caught you…we saw you in the dress store."

"Come with us…honey bunches."

"We LOVE you!"

And Bella tried to run but she had nowhere to go.

Meanwhile Edward and I were in his car just driving like normal people when he slammed the brakes and went at full speed.

"Get in the backseat" he ordered me.

And he slammed the brakes curving and jumped out of the car I stayed I saw Bella.

"Get in the car" he said. Bella got in. "Please distract me so I don't go back there and rip those guy's heads off" Edward said.

Bella looked at me with confusion and I gave her a scared nod "why, what happened?" she asked.

"You don't know the repulsive things those guys were thinking" he said.

"And you do" Bella asked.

Edward sighed knowing he couldn't expose us. It was those men Michael had recruited and it was those men who were after me and Bella, for partial revenge on Edward and just for stuff.

I knew I had to tell Edward but I was too scared who else could I tell. Well there was another reason I couldn't tell Edward I mean I know he wants to protect me and all but he's a BOY he wouldn't understand anything.

Alice? Possibly but she'd tell Edward and Jasper and Emmett and it would turn into a production and we would have to go to war or something.

Rosalie? She may appear to be a bitchy girly girl but my sister Rosalie was tough she was a bitch sometimes but she was tough for a girl. It would be weird since I didn't really confide in her and we never really spoke. I wouldn't go to any of my brothers though there was something with us Cullen kids because technically we were siblings by blood and not adoptive because we were created by the same person…Carlisle. But we shared a bond like no other siblings could imagine we trusted each other with everything and anything. I made my decision I was going to go to Rosalie.

I started down the stairs and slowly walked which was unlike me and Edward was bound to know something was up I crept into the kitchen which we never used and walked to where my siblings were. Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, & Alice had decided to come home after all we were a coven we should live together right?

Rosalie and Emmett were making out, Jasper and Alice were reading a book and Edward and Bella were sitting together. Carlisle and Esme were out spending time together and I awkwardly sat there so I flipped on the TV. I decided to make up a show that I would just do called "The Hazel Cullen talk show" and I pretended to have people on the show and then I saw Emmett get off the couch and I immediately stopped knowing he was just probably coming over to tell me I was being a stupid dwarf and had to stop.

But he didn't instead he told me to hang out with them and Edward sort of looked at me with a knowing look and I knew. He held his arms out and pulled me closer to him I always felt safer when I was in my brother's arms. I closed my eyes and I knew nothing and no one could harm me because I was safe in Edward's arms. I had to realize how lucky I really was to have him as a big brother.

Edward said he would take me out today just the two of us because Bella was spending the day with Alice and Rosalie and Emmett and Jasper was practicing fighting. We left the house then and I remember thinking about the time where Bella was first introduced to us. It was pretty funny and Edward thought it was just weird.

We went to the Olympic Mountains because we were very thirsty. I caught 3 elk and 1 mountain lion. Edward caught 4 mountain lion one of the mountain lions tried to fight me…not a chance…not a chance in hell. When we were done Edward and I saw at the base of the mountains I leaned on him but he cradled me like an infant I guess in a way. I was nestled in his arms and he kissed my head.

"I love you" he told me.

"I love you too" I told him.

"You're probably thinking this is my brother and that this was just weird but Edward & I our relationship was…different than typical siblings. See, Edward was very protective and sensitive to me he wouldn't let anyone who was unsafe come near me.

I had many flashbacks and I just remember certain things. I remembered the 3 days of my transformation and how I slept through the whole thing. I thought of Edward and Bella's wedding.

Edward asked me a startling question, "Are you going to tell me what's bothering you?"

I shrugged.

"Hazel…" he said in the firm tone that Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper, & he would use if he were being serious.

I lay back and thought if I should tell him but then I said "can we go home?"

"Why?"

"I'd feel safer if I told you there" I said and we ran home.

When we got back to the house the phone rang and I automatically knew who it was. Remember that time when James tricked Bella into meeting him but he called her first. Well this was sort of a similar thing.

"Hello, we know your secret now sheet!" I heard a familiar bitchy voice.

I groaned and Edward growled. It was Tiffany and she was a vampire. Michael had transformed she and Caroline.

"Meet us alone at the old cave where Edward and Bella hung out" Michael snarled in my ear.

I gave Edward a frightened look and he got the message. "Give me the phone!" he angrily stated grabbing the phone "Hello" he said in a sarcastic happy voice "guess who this is…Hazel's big brother, Edward remember me?"

…

"I know what you want and guess what if you want it fine Hazel and I will meet you where?"

…

"Hazel is not going alone do you understand or she is not coming at all she will be with me."

…

I heard him curse and then said "No I said I'm going with her the end take it or leave it."

Then Edward hung up and held me tight. "Why didn't you just tell me Haze?" he asked.

I shrugged. "They didn't want me too."

"Hazel Lucy Masen Cullen!" he said "do you understand what could happen. What would happen to all of us and I would be a wreck."

"I'm sorry but he told me to come alone and I was sure I could defend for myself."

He shook his head "Hazel, he could have an army and remember what happened last time?"

I shuddered at the thought.

"It is my job to protect you…Hazel, you're my LITTLE sister I know we're vampires and we can fight well but you are my sister…my biological sister. I still have to watch out for you. Remember what I promised mom and dad" he hung his head.

I leaned against him and his arms were around me.

"We're going to have to go you know, so we can defeat them" I said.

"I know."

"What did Michael say?"

He gave his "Edward laugh as obvious questions" "on the phone?" still 'Edward laugh.'

"Yes on the phone."

"Hold on Hazel, why don't you go outside to practice karate I have to talk to Emmett and Jasper about this.

"Come on Ed!" I said.

"What" he said knowing the most obvious answer "Hazel, just go please everything will be OK I promise."

But everything wasn't going to be OK and Edward didn't know it.

Edward and Bella went to a "classified information" place for the rest of the day and me and my other siblings hung out. Other siblings meaning; Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, & Alice at first it was a little awkward but then Rosalie got a good conversation going.

"So who is angry at Edward?"

I stared at the floor remembering that that was me at one time.

"The only thing he cares about is Bella now and ever since they found each other. He doesn't care about us he doesn't care about anything but Bella. He even said to her nothing is more important to you, you're my life now. No one and nothing is more important" Emmett said.

"He used to be your best friend" Jasper looked at Emmett.

"Bella isn't bad or mean or anything just it's kind of well annoying maybe."

"It's even changed Carlisle and Esme notice they are only Edward and Bella Edward and Bella. We all have a pair now except Hazel and I think we should still give her the same sympathy we've been giving Edward all these years" Alice said.

"I agree" Emmett said.

Of course naturally I didn't say anything because I didn't like talking badly about people behind their backs. Not that my siblings were doing that because I could see and feel their pain. Edward had deserted them I was definitely going to have to let him know the deep hurt he's caused his adopted siblings.

"It's not just that though they can't even be apart anymore. Starting today Edward and Bella are not going to separate. They are going to be together 24/7 and I mean literally. He's going to be all over her and just toss us in the trash" Jasper said.

"I still don't get it after all we've done for him. At least we were there for him and at least we included him. We were the fab 6 and now we're just being torn apart…by Bella" Rosalie said.

I knew exactly how my sister felt. But I didn't understand though ROSALIE the beautiful one, was feeling bad about what EDWARD thought. She had Emmett and she was the prettiest of all the Cullen girls. But I could definitely see that she was me struggling with the fact that Edward had moved on.

"Come on Cullens lets go hunt" Emmett said.

"Yes let's just pretend that the animals are what's slowly ripping this family apart. You know what we aren't a family or coven for that matter we're just being ripped apart. And there's a problem with that. But look at us we sound like spoiled brats" I said.

My siblings stared at me because I had been silent the whole time.

"We most definitely do not sound like brats dwarf" Emmett said.

"Wait a minute Emmett, Hazel has a point we sort of should be happy for Edward but then again Bella has been ruining our family" Rosalie said.

"OK OK they're getting married guys and then it will all be over." Alice said.

"Then she'll be one of us" Jasper said.

"Listen Edward and Bella are going to be at their classified location for 3 days so we need to spy on them" Emmett said.

"ARE YOU CRAZY" Alice said.

"I'm not going to spy on my brother in his Bella time" Rosalie said.

"Are we going hunting or what" I asked.

"Yes let's go hunting" Emmett smirked and I knew what he was up to.

The Cullen siblings now only 5 ran into the woods to our special meeting spot. The Quileute land was just in a 2 mile radius so we were safe. We sat down on the hard rugged dirt and I fidgeted with sticks trying my best not to track Edward. I wanted to talk to Rosalie about what she had said earlier I know what you're thinking Hazel shouldn't be complaining Edward loves her and he pays attention to her. But I needed to be there for my siblings.

I suddenly sensed 2 things though…1 that we would have to move away from Forks soon because of the Volturi and 2 I was having these strange illusions of Edward being killed and stuff. I knew it was stupid but I was just mixed about everything.

Emmett called my name "Hazel, are you with us?"

"y-y-yes" I stammered.

"Good now we have to discuss important matters. Here in the court order of Emmett Cullen, Rosalie Hale, Jasper Hale, Alice Cullen, & Hazel Cullen."

"What are those important matters?" Alice hinted.

"Edward and Bella what else" Rosalie said in a bored tone.

"We will go around this circle if you will and tell our stuff about Edward and Bella and how we are…emoticated."

"I'm pretty sure that's not a word Met" Jasper said using the nickname he called Emmett which was "met."

Sitting next to Emmett was Rosalie on his left, next to Rosalie was Alice, next to Alice was Jasper, & next to Jasper was me.

Rosalie went first "Edward hates me. He calls me an annoying stupid ignorant bitch; he loves Bella too much and is choosing her over us. The family that has been there with him through thick and thin I wish he would at least acknowledge our existence a little."

"Thank you Rosalie" Emmett said "we will now hear the testimony from our dear sister, Alice Mary Cullen"

"Is this really necessary to do it so formal?" I asked.

"Yes…yes it is dwarf" Emmett said.

I raised my fists "STOP…" Jasper had calmed me down and I slugged him "Jazz" I said in my firm "Hazel tone."

"What" he said.

Alice dramatically cleared her throat just to get our attention.

"Sorry Alice" Jasper said looking at me.

"I'm happy for Edward actually, think about it we've all had a pair and Edward's been alone and now he's found Bella. Hazel will find Jason and we will all be a great coven or whatever family perhaps. Just give him a chance. He loves Bella and will do anything and maybe we need to accept the fact that he loves her more than us and that she really is his life" Alice said.

"Thank you Alice Mary. Now it is time to hear the testimony of Jasper Hale"

"Edward needs Bella guys; I think we're being selfish. We could at least talk to him but not try to break them up" Jasper said.

And Emmett said "Jasper's right we are being selfish. I'm sorry guys I'm just angry I mean Eddie's always been like my best bud and now well he doesn't pay attention to me anymore."

I felt so guilty I knew exactly how my siblings were feeling I was them I mean in the beginning I really was them but I felt bad like really bad I wanted to change the subject so I said, "wanna play basketball?"

Jasper and Emmett perked up "hell yeah!"

I looked at Alice and Rosalie.

"Well we'd love to Haze but..." Alice started.

"Alice and I have a facial appointment at the mall" Rosalie said.

I shrugged "OK."

"Race you back dwarf" Emmett said and I sprinted up.

We got to our basketball court that we built in the backyard overlooking the water cliff. Jasper was already there I ran to get the ball and fixed my shorts. Emmett and Jasper stood there waiting and we were figuring out the teams.

"Why's dwarf playing?" Emmett asked.

I slugged him.

"Bad example Emmett" Rosalie said.

"Yeah Emmett bad example" I said.

My sisters laughed. We were just going to shoot some hoops for a little while.

When Rosalie and Alice came back however, I decided to talk to my sister about what she has said earlier regarding Edward. I crept into Rosalie's room and saw her sitting on her couch.

"Rose?" I asked.

"Yes" she said.

"Um remember what you said about Edward why do you care about what he thinks."

"Well I at least want him to like me…HE HATES ME" she said "he thinks I'm a stupid stuck up but really… I'm just very insecure. He loves ALL of his siblings and me…HE HATES." She was really upset.

"I can talk to him. But Rosalie will you listen to me?"

"What?"

"You and Alice are the best big sisters anyone could ever have. THAT'S from my perspective so don't mind that brother of ours."

We went downstairs and Edward was sitting with Bella cradled in his arms. I missed my brother so I went over to him and sat on the couch beside him.

"Hey" I said and he ignored me so I waved my hand in front of his face. "Hello!"

Then he started kissing Bella's hair and without warning he tackled me.

We went outside and the weather was sunny and pleasant. I felt the warmth hitting me and my skin was getting sparkly I closed my eyes and embraced the sunlight. Edward playfully had his arms around me from behind.

"Edward" I asked.

"Yeah Haze?"

"Rosalie thinks you hate her and Emmett, Jasper, & Alice think so too. I think…I think we should just have Cullen sibling week just like it used to be…without Bella."

"Hazel, Bella is my life now. What am I going to do if I'm away from her? She won't be able to stand it. But if you do insist she will most certainly go over to her friend Jacob's house. He is still healing from his broken arm so she will want to see him. She must…must have Charlie with her at all times" Edward said.

I nodded.

Edward laughed "go tell the others" he said.

And I ran back to the house with a smile on my face the whole way there.

Emmett and Rosalie were making out and I have no idea what Jasper was doing. Alice however was with Bella putting on makeup and doing hair.

"Bella…" Edward began "I know that you've been missing the dog" Edward refused to call him Jacob. "I'm giving you permission to go WITH CHARLIE to Jacob's for the weekend."

"EDWARD NO I CAN'T BE AWAY FROM YOU" Bella said.

"I know but Bella. I have to do this for my siblings. They need me" he winked at Jasper, Alice, Emmett, & Rosalie.

"OK I understand. But I can't go for the whole weekend Saturday night I'm sleeping over at Angela's."

"Alright" Edward said.

Later that night when Edward was at Bella's my siblings and I played basketball and this time Rosalie and Alice played. Carlisle and Esme would be coming back in 3 days so we had some time before they got back.

I wondered what we were going to do this weekend of course Alice would probably know because she has like a precognitive thing going on or I don't know. I could only track and detect lies. I didn't understand why the Volturi wanted me and my useless things. They should want someone more useful right?

Anyway I went to my room and sat on the open ledge by the window. I loved sitting and staring at the moonlight. Twilight as Edward called it. When night was over I was still at my window. I went on my laptop to check the time it was 9:34am. I heard the door open and I held my breath…waiting for Edward to walk in the door.

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