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Katniss POV

Chapter 3: Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again!

As Prim and I met in the waiting room of the Encore she gave me a tight hug. "How did it go?" she whispered. "I'll tell you when we get out" I whispered. As I straightened up I chanced a look back in the direction from which I have just come. He is still standing in the door way. Is he smiling at me? He is defiantly smiling. I turn away quickly and can feel the heat rising in my cheeks.

As we start to walk out the hotel I can feel little ducks eyes burning into the side of my head. This could turn into a huge enquiry as to how everything went. "Well?" she asks impatiently as if she has been waiting a great deal of time for this information. "Well what? What do you want to know?" I look at her... waiting for what I know is coming.

"Seriously, Katniss? You just spent 30 minutes in a room with Peeta Mellark! I want to know every little detail! And don't you dare miss out a single detail!" I sigh knowing I am defeated and will have to tell her. "Come on, I'll take you for a coffee and will tell you everything. And I promise not to hold out on you before you even ask."

We walked the short distance to the tube and took the 30 minute tube ride back into the centre of London. We spent the time filling the awkward silences of Prim's wait discussing what was happening in her life. We talked mainly of school and touched briefly on her new found romantic relationship with Rory Hawthorne which was a touchy subject since his big brother was my best friend... and before a knew it we were at Saes Coffee House. As we got settled in my usual corner I started to inform her of what had developed in the audition.

"... and after all this shouting and arguing he walked over mouthed for me to 'trust him' and then kissed me..." before I can go any further I am interrupted by the ear splitting squeal that erupts from my young sister. "OH MY GOD KAT!" She shouted before lowering her voice to a whisper to continue with "Why the fuck did you not mention that earlier? Like, straight after you came out the audition room? What did you do? Did you kiss him back?"

Was she honestly asking that? Did she not see him standing in the door way watching us as we left? "Because he was standing in the door way watching me leave dip-shit. He walked me out of my audition. And in answer your question if I kissed him back, yes I did. After I slapped him!" I knew she would have something to say to that.

"Y-you... You slapped Peeta Mellark?" she hissed at me over her coffee mug, eyes wide with shock. "What the hell where you thinking?" I look at her in disbelief. She read lines with me all day so she knew it was in the script. "The script said to! I apologised! He says I have a good right hook." I say with a self satisfied smirk on my face. "After that there was only a few more lines and it went in to the song."

"What was he like to sing with? How far did you get with the song before they stopped you?" I thought my little sister had faith in me? Just now it wasn't feeling like it though. "Thanks for the vote of confidence Primrose." I start sarcastically. Upon rethinking where it could have ended I started over. "It went fine thank you. He has a wonderful voice and was amazing to sing with. And in regards to how far we got, we got to the second last verse before they stopped us. Saying I had left them with much to discuss and I would hear from them in 24 hours about a role in the movie."

"You should go home anyway and I need to start work before Sae starts yelling at me. I will see you when I get home if you are still up. And don't say anything to dad, not until I have heard from them." She gave me a brief hug along with a fleeting "see you later" and she was gone from the coffee shop... finally some peace after a long and testing day.

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The next seventeen hours past by in a blur, full of emotions I am unsure of how to fathom. I wasn't working today so I rose and left early without waking anyone and went somewhere I haven't been in a while, I went to visit my mother's grave. When I arrived I placed the flowers I had bought on route in front of the head stone and sat on the ground, just staring at it for a long time, reading the engraving.

Here rests

Lily Paula Everdeen

Beloved wife and mother

Best friend and healer too many

Gone but never far from us

Days like today are when I miss her most of all. She should be here with me, anticipating this phone call with me. As I sit here I think of all the memories in my childhood that where my mother and I following this dream. The drama groups, my first dance lesson, the first show I did in a real theatre, the singing lessons... all of which could have helped me get this job.

"You were all that mattered, you were once my friend and mother" I whisper bitterly to myself. Then I remember I have no right to feel bitter. Not when this is my fault. "Wishing you where somehow here again. Wishing you where somehow near. Maybe if I just dreamed you would be here." My voice is barely auditable. Only just loud enough that I am aware I am saying it aloud.

"All this" I motion around me, as if she can actually see me, "it's all to cold a companion for you mum. You where warm and gentle, you always put us first." I sit in silence thinking of what to do and say. So I choose to tell her about yesterday. And so I start at the beginning and tell her how Prim told me and pushed me to go, how dad and I fought about it, how I hadn't even told Gale what I was doing and finally I told her how my audition went.

"No more memories or silent tears. Help me say goodbye. I am struggling to do this without you mum. I wish you were somehow here again." I whisper through the tears that have started to sting my eyes. "I need to go mum, I will come back soon, and maybe I will have exciting news." I choked out as I begin to fully break down. I decide now is as good a time as any to go and see Gale. Fill him in on what has been going on.

Within the hour I am sitting in Saes with a huge mug of Saes Mexican Coffee sitting opposite Gale. We have been sitting in silence for the past ten minutes. I can feel his eyes burning in to me and I steal a glance at him. "For Christ sake Catnip, are you gonna talk at all or are we going to sit here and have a bloody stare off? And where the hell were you yesterday?"

Shit, its Gale, I should have known I wouldn't be able to get away with jack shit. "Nice to see you to Hawthorne, I'm fine thanks and you?" the sarcasm drips through my voice as we seem to have bypassed basic conversation. "And in answer to your question I was at an audition yesterday."

"You, Katniss Everdeen, skipped school for an audition? I don't believe it for a second!" He looks at me sceptically as he takes a sip of his coffee.

"Yes actually. What about that is so hard to believe? And I didn't skip, Haymitch authorised me to have it off. It was for a movie for extras. All the girls had to audition for the lead females' part as they were re-casting her for some reason. Haymitch said it would, if nothing else be good experience." I don't understand why I am justifying this to him of all people. He skips for auditions all the time.

"What is this movie then? And why didn't you tell me about it?" He actually sounds hurt, but then I realise he's jealous. Jealous I never took him, some best friend. "It is the new Peeta Mellark movie and I didn't tell you because I thought it was about time I did something for me." I snapped back, couldn't he just ask how it went like any normal friend would?

"Wow! Calm down snappy, I'm only asking a few questions. Now come down off your fucking high horse and tell your best friend how it went." This was the Gale I knew. Things have been a bit off since we had a drunken kiss 6 months ago but things seemed to be going back to normal.

So I told him about how it went and hoped he would just be happy for me. And he seemed to be fine. He asked all the usual questions and we even discussed the possibility I had a chance of playing Hope. I laughed it off. There was surely better actresses that auditioned. "So when are you meant to hear the outcome?" Gale asked at the end of the retelling.

"Some point today. Find out when I am needed and where. It's kind of exciting." And for me it was, it was the first time I was in this position. On my own anyway, mum was always here in the past. "Anyway, I had better get home, no one knows where I went as I left before they were up. I'll let you know the outcome of yesterday when I hear." And with that I hugged him and gave him a chased kiss on the cheek and walked out of Saes.

Within 5 minutes of leaving Saes, I had the outcome of yesterday. Little did I know it was going to change my life completely.

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A week has passed. A whole week has passed since they called me. Called me and told me I had the role of Hope. I accepted of course. I would be stupid not to. It could be what launches my career. But then I remember what dad said? What about school? Can I really afford to miss 3-5 months worth of school. Haymitch told me its fine, he would do open correspondence with me while we film. So I don't fall behind.

My dad, well, he's another story entirely. He's unhappy to say the least. There had been a 3 hour screaming match. Then the silent treatment started. It's still going on. He will never be happy with what I do in life. He's not mum. He doesn't understand.

We start on Monday with a read through of the script and start filming on Wednesday. There is just so much to take in...Like the script. Oh my god what have I got myself into. There is just so much to consider. There is just so much to adjust to, for example not seeing my dad and Prim every day. And I won't get to see Gale every day either for that matter. I am going to be working with new people every day... I'm going to have to work with Peeta Mellark every day. And kiss him most days.

Oh my god. I genuinely get to KISS Peeta Mellark!

What the fuck am I bitching about? I get to kiss him, touch him and talk to him every day for at least the next 3 months. I have no reason to not be ecstatic and bouncing from now till Monday. And I get to travel. They are filming scenes in New York and Rome. So hopefully when we are there we will get a day or so free so I can look around.

I have been reading the script like mad, reading lines with Little Duck as often as she can spare her time. But we both know it's not the same. I need to start reading with Peeta. We need to start working on it together. Build on the existing chemistry.

When I return home from my walk I pick up the envelope that help the script which had been sent to me and a slip of paper falls out.

Katniss, welcome to the team!

Your audition was breathtaking. I look forward to working with you.

I will be arriving back in London on the Friday before filming starts if you want to meet to run lines before we start up.

If you need anything between now and then my email is on the back.

Till next time,

Peeta

I turn the slip of paper over in my hand, there staring back at me in black in white, is his email address. What was a girl to do? Surely there was only one option for me to take. I should email him shouldn't I? And so that is what I do.

I sit and stare at my open laptops screen for a good 20 minutes before I even start typing anything. How can I process this? I am emailing a heart throb actor. A heart throb who is my co-worker and on screen boyfriend. I sit and recall my audition. His beautiful blue eyes could force themselves into your soul, his blond hair that I just wanted to run my fingers through and twist at the top of his neck. Then there is his lips, so pink and plump and ever so slightly chapped so they don't feel as soft as they look.

I remember the kiss, oh god that kiss. I feel the fire of desire ignite deep in my belly just like it did when he first placed his lips on mine. I start to replay it on a loop in my head the way he felt and tasted, the way his body felt flush against mines, how he had a hand wrapped in my hair and the other rested softly on my hip. I am embarrassed to admit that, like now, it made my underwear damp with want. Don't get me wrong, Katniss Everdeen is no prude. But at the same time I have never made it past 3rd base... and no man as ever made me wet by a simple kiss and a brush of my hip.

I decide now is the time to forget my nerves and bite the bullet and I email Peeta. I apologise for only contacting him now as I only just found his note. I tell him I am looking forward to working with him also and I would very much like to meet and run lines before we start and I offer to show him round London before or during time off from filming.

I must admit I felt like an idiot after I sent the email. Convinced I sounded like a prat I expected not to hear from him for a while, if at all. However within 10 minutes of sending my rambling email I had received a reply.

Peeta would be landing in London late Friday, he wanted to meet me at 11am at the London Eye to start our tour and take the opportunity to get to know one another a little better prior to filming commencing.

I can't believe it. I am going to be showing thee Peeta Mellark around London. And I had just been cast to play his girlfriend in the movie of the year. Could life get much better than this?