Chapter 20

Second Coming

Edward would go to get Emmett and Jasper and I would go to get Alice and Rosalie. The movie was over and Esme was painting while my sisters were looking at the new Fashion News magazine.

"Hey" I said casually coming in.

"Hazel, come here look at this dress isn't it gorgeous" Alice said grabbing my arm and forcing me to sit down to look at the magazine.

"Um sure" I said and Rosalie laughed. "Do you guys want to go early?" I asked and automatically knew the answer.

"Sure, just as long as I get to go to the mall" Alice said and I groaned.

"Come on Haze you knew she was going to ask this sooner or later" Rosalie said.

"Yeah I guess" I said and my sisters got up to get their stuff and go. Edward, Emmett, & Jasper came downstairs and were ready.

"Are you six going out?" Esme asked coming out of the room.

"Yes" Emmett muttered.

"You should probably take a car even though you can run" she said since she overheard our conversation before.

"Oh joy Alice wants to go to the mall" Edward said sarcastically and Jasper and Emmett looked at him.

"Totally Alice" I said.

Then I heard her say "don't go making fun of my fashion sense it's not my fault you four don't have any!"

"Are you making fun of my swag?" Emmett said.

I rolled my eyes at the new term everyone had started using, it was funny since how over the years we had gotten to see new trends and fads and stuff that was constantly "new" and "old" swag was now a new thing everyone was saying and currently Emmett's favorite word. I was just glad he wasn't calling me a stupid dwarf as much.

"Dwarf" Emmett muttered as if he read my thoughts and I slugged him. "Oh and so shot we are taking my car."

"Cool with me" Jasper said since he didn't have a car. He had a motorcycle and Esme and I were the only ones who didn't have a car. I didn't have one since people would look at me like I was a kid driving.

Edward groaned "your car has such bad mileage Met."

"Hey don't go insulting my baby!" Emmett threw back.

"Oh so now your car is your new baby…what happened to Rosalie?" I asked playfully.

"Rosalie is my swag babe."

"Oh my gosh enough of the swag because guess what you don't have any…word" I said and my brothers laughed.

"Hazel just served you again" Edward said.

Emmett furrowed his eyebrows, "You will pay little dwarf" he said in a French accent and I rolled my eyes. My sisters came gracefully walking down the stairs and were ready to go.

"Shotgun" Rosalie called although she didn't have to…usually she was the one that got it since she was Emmett's mate and Emmett always drove the jeep since it was his car.

I had to sit in the backseat with Edward, Jasper, & Alice. Emmett's backseat can hold four people so we had enough room. Usually if Bella was with us I would sit on Edward's lap. Edward sat next to the window and I sat next to him and Alice. Jasper was on the other side.

"OK I don't want to hear anything but we are going to the mall first" Alice said.

"Yeah" Rosalie said and my brothers and I groaned.

"Fine but I'm going to Dick's even though I don't need anything there." Emmett said and my brothers agreed and I guess I did too. As long as we didn't have to go to their stupid dress stores then it was cool.

"Hazel can you please come with us" Alice said.

"No" I said.

"Well we could always make her" Emmett said.

"No because then I would just hit you and you would start crying like the baby you are" I said.

Emmett stopped short "wow you did not just say that" he said.

"Actually I did" I said and Edward smirked at me.

Emmett hit the pedal even harder and ran the red light just like he always did. When it came to driving none of my brothers ever followed the rules.

. . .

"OK here's the deal Rose and I are going to Jessica McClintock, Sephora, Nordstrom, Macy's, and a bunch of other makeup, clothes and dress stores. Hazel this is your last chance are you…" but I cut her off.

"NO!" I said and my brothers and even Rosalie laughed.

Alice frowned and said "fine…but we are going to be here the whole day and I don't care what you have to say about it."

I just stared at her sometimes my sister could be a little…stubborn but no matter what she always got her way. I was pretty stubborn myself but when it came to arguing with Alice no one did and no one would go into that zone.

"OK let's go" Emmett said and I tracked the Dick's store.

"It's on the third and fourth floors going…" but of course Emmett cut me off.

"No shit Sherlock we can all catch the scent of the materials they sell" he said in a voice too low for humans to hear.

Edward took my hand and we walked towards the sporting goods store. It was basically one of my favorite stores besides FYE, Hot Topic, & Brookstone. I was definitely an electronics type of girl. Sometimes I wondered how I ever lived in the early 1900s without any electricity. Well I didn't know what it was so I didn't know what I was missing just like when you have an allergy to something and people eat the stuff and they say wow it must be so hard not to be able to eat such and such you know but when you don't really know what you're missing it doesn't really make a difference to you.

Once we reached Dick's Emmett tore through the store…looking at everything. He probably would've run with his ultra-vampire speed but it was strictly against the Volturi's rules to expose ourselves.

"Hey…this makes me look swagger" Emmett said looking at a grey shirt that would probably make him look more muscular than he really was.

"No" Edward and I said at the same time.

"Oh so now you two are ganging up on me?" Emmett asked.

"No" I said.

"Is that the only word you know how to say today dwarf?" Emmett asked.

"No" I said and Jasper and Edward cracked up. Emmett shook his head.

"You're messing with my swag" he said but I was already off looking at the soccer stuff and thought of Jason…he loved soccer just like me except I think I liked baseball a little more since I was better at it.

In my human years I was more athletic than most girls (athletic as in running) since back then we didn't really have sports. Even if we did girls wouldn't have been able to play anyway.

Edward came up behind me although it wasn't a surprise since because of my tracking I knew where he was.

"So how do you like casual human day so far" he asked sarcastically and I gave him thumbs up. Edward chuckled and ruffled my hair. He grabbed my arm and swung me onto his back.

"Hey!" I said in a voice too low for humans to hear and he looked at me with his "Edward – Hazel smile."

A bunch of random kids were walking around…they looked like they were maybe fifteen or so and were talking to Emmett about swag or whatever. Emmett was getting annoying with the "ringleader" who was being a smart aleck with him and as you know Emmett hates to be corrected.

Edward continued holding me on his back and I muttered to him "we look like retards…do you know that"

Edward smirked "Haze, I can hear what people are thinking" he said in a voice too low for humans to hear.

Well there was no arguing with that. He could read the minds of others and he wasn't lying.

"Do I need to give you an example?" Edward smirked.

"Yes" I said.

"OK that girl over there she's way more concerned with getting her first kiss from Byron than what you look like, that other girl with her friends is more concerned with being a slut than what you look like right now…there satisfied" although he was perfectly capable of knowing the answer.

"OK well number 1 you shouldn't judge people." I began but was cut off.

"No she was actually thinking that" Edward said reading my thoughts and he wasn't lying.

I couldn't help smirking. He set me down on the ground and took my hand to lead me towards the mechanics display. Edward was both a mechanical (car) and doctor type of person. He had two medical degrees so Science class could bore him sometimes since he already knew all the stuff that the teacher would be teaching unless he took a super advance course. But even that was too easy.

Carlisle had always warned us that we couldn't be too "showing" of our vampiric skills due to the fact that humans might get suspicious. So we would have to pretend that some things that were easy for us and hard to other kids were hard for us as well. We always had to make sure we did well on tests but not too well. If the topic was hard for everyone than we would just pretend it was hard for us too. OK you are probably tired of hearing about my school education life so I'll get back to my main point.

Edward's eyes got wide…like he was in danger…I knew that face I'd seen it many times before he heard his phone going off and immediately went to it.

"Alice" I mumbled.

Whatever Edward had heard Alice had probably seen it coming. Edward texted Alice back furiously fast and whispered to me "get everyone the hell out of here…NOW!"

I knew he meant what he said so I went out to the parking lot and shouted "HEY EVERYONE THERE'S A 95% OFF AT…MODELLS DOWN THE ROAD…DICK'S EMPLOYEES ARE WELCOMED TOO…FREE DAY OFF LET'S GO PEOPLE IT'S GOING TO EXPIRE IN TEN MINUTES UNLESS PEOPLE SHOW UP!"

Some people looked at me for a second until I saw Jasper come running behind me and he manipulated everyone's feelings.

"YEAH LET'S GO!" some random guy shouted. People started piling out like no one's business and within ten minutes the whole store was cleared out. People would be mad when they found out there was no sale but they would be safe.

"Jasper...bolt the doors and make sure no human can enter the building. Emmett, go to the eastern wing of the mall, Hazel, go to the..." but I cut him off.

"Edward what is happening?" I asked in my 'demanding to know' voice.

"Just do what I tell you and it'll be fine. Go to the Western wing and I'll go to the Southern Wing…Jasper when you're done scan the southern wing for anyone else." Edward said.

I stared at him…analyzing the situating before Emmett grabbed my arm and made me run before I realized what I was doing. My siblings were running all over the mall…SHIT! I smelled smoke…smoke could harm vampires…who cared about me right now I had to get these people out. The alarm wasn't going off and it was weird. People looked at Emmett and me like we were crazy.

"GET OUT OF THE MALL NOW!" I just shouted at everyone and they stared at me like I was a loon. I prayed that they would just observe my franticness and GET THE HELL OUT! I knew that something bad had happened and even though these helpless humans couldn't smell the smoke I could and I had to get these people out before anything bad happened because I would be feeling my Harley – guilt all over again.

I came across an elderly man who was lying down in the smoke near the area where the fire had broken out. I knew this fire had been caused by someone and wasn't an accident. I went over to the old man and he coughed. He was praying…I recognized it as Hebrew from the time I went to temple with Jason. I knew he wouldn't notice the fact that I was a "child" carrying him so I picked him up and ran with my ultra – vampire speed to get him outside where EMT's and paramedics were waiting.

"Are you an angel" he asked me.

"No" I said softly before running back into the burning building which had started to collapse.

"HAZEL!" I heard Emmett shout.

"What?" I yelled back and he gestured upwards to the front column that had started falling down…along with the building.

Quickly and instinctively I ran to hold it up which was a piece of cake. The building was pretty much cleared of all survivors. Emmett ran over to me and I tracked Edward…he was with Jasper and Alice and Rosalie was outside with the people to comfort them.

"Edward said if I let anything happen to you I'm dead" Emmett said and I nodded nervously still holding onto the column. The second front column fell and Emmett ran to catch it. I ran up the wall to support the inner structure of the building that was weakening and pretty soon the people outside would get suspicious to why only one section of the building was still being supported.

The noise of the cement falling was overpowering to my sensitive vampire ears. Emmett pushed me out of the way and I curled up into a ball to avoid any cement getting in my eyes (not like it would do anything just it would feel uncomfortable). I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket and I was surprised it wasn't broken but then I remembered my skin was extra hard so it probably protected it. I opened up the texting board screen.

Edward: WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU

Me: relax I'm fine Met tackled me out of the way…we're in the rubble

Edward: GET THE HELL OUT…PLEASE I'M FREAKING OUT

Me: why?

Edward: even though I can read your thoughts I'm just afraid that I'm imagining it

Me: kk Met and I r coming

Edward: love you Haze

Me: right back at you

Sometimes Edward and his overprotective style was just annoying. I knew he was just being Edward but still…you know what I mean.

"Emmett" I whispered and saw a searchlight glowing in the distance.

We had to get out NOW if they saw us and we weren't injured we would expose the vampire population.

"I'm coming dwarf" Emmett muttered although I could hear him. I pushed the large block of cement out of the way that was blocking me. Emmett knocked it also. I sprinted to the outside and tracked Edward.

Emmett stared at what used to be of the mall "my truck" he muttered.

"Rosalie moved it."

"Really?"

"Yes" I said and Emmett 'yessed.' "You care about your stupid truck in a time like this?!" I yelled – asked him.

"IT'S NOT A STUPID TRUCK DWARF!" Emmett yelled back at me and I rolled my eyes. Emmett and I ran over to where the rest of my siblings were

"Why don't we go to the woods…to our old clubhouse" Jasper said with a smirk.

"Dude we haven't been there in ages" Emmett said.

"Yeah that sounds cool" Alice said.

"Count me in" Rosalie said.

"Fuck yeah" I said.

We all looked at Edward who shrugged "sweet" and my brothers were talking about hunting and stuff.

We took Emmett's car back home and ran to the old tree where we had carved a door and an underground hang out area. I touched the area where my name had been carved (Hazel Cullen 1968). I'm not going to go into all sorts of boring descriptions of the old clubhouse because I'm sure you all get the point of it.

. . .

"Straight" Emmett said slamming his cards on the floor. Edward smirked since he was reading Emmett's mind and shuffled through his cards looking like the dude on the Dracula comic book advertisements.

"PUT THE DAMN CARDS DOWN ALREADY!" Emmett shouted.

"OK" Edward said with a smirk still on his face. "Four of a kind."

Emmett scowled "cheater" he muttered.

I shuffled the cards since I was the dealer and gave my siblings all each five cards.

"OK this is illegal that Jasper is playing since he is from Texas so he is going to beat all of us in Texas Hold Em."

I rolled my eyes "you are so stupid Met" I said and Rosalie elbowed him in the ribs so he would shut up.

"Two Pair" Alice said and Edward threw three nickels in the center where the "money stash" was. My siblings had a very interesting way of playing poker.

"Raise" Rosalie said and put four dollars in the center.

"Full House" Emmett said and he took half of the stash.

"Can we please just play Card Battle?" I asked this was a game we made up basically war with multiplayers.

"Fine" Emmett said and my siblings agreed.

I took the stash of cards and divided it all up. The way you played was basically everyone started out with a certain amount of cards and you would spin the spinner that was in the center whatever it landed on you picked which set of cards it would be (Diamonds, Hearts or Spades) then you would basically pick the card of your choice but you couldn't pick anything in the other two categories. If you got "gambler" then you would pick whoever you would "showdown" with. If you win any of the spinners or showdowns then you collected your card and the other player's card they put in. If you lose all of your cards you are out.

"Showdown" I said as I spun the spinner first I smirked "Emmett."

"Dwarf" he muttered.

Edward read Emmett's mind "no cheating" Emmett said.

"Coming from you" I said and selected my "High Spade" card which would only beat Clubs and chances were Emmett would pick a spade either lower or the same level but most likely a club card because that was what he usually picked.

"Ready and waiting" I said since I had already selected my card.

Emmett smirked "yeah so am I and I will win so be prepared little dwarf."

"I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that" I said and Edward laughed along with Rosalie, Alice, & Jasper. Emmett and I each put our cards down.

"OH WHAT NOW IN YOUR FACE" I said as I saw he had chosen a six spade.

"COME ON…YOU CHEATED!" Emmett shouted.

"Sore loser" Rosalie and Alice pretended to cough.

"I thought she was just a stupid dwarf" Edward said smirking.

"Don't pretend to be so innocent Eddie" Emmett said.

"Gosh you're in a bad mood today" I said turning away.

"The hell I am" Emmett said storming off and my siblings and I cracked up. Emmett was such a comic relief of the family even if he wasn't even trying.

"I'm going hunting anyone wanna come" I said getting ready to go out the door of the clubhouse.

"Yeah" Edward said and I rolled my eyes knowing that it was what he would say.

"Let's just all go unless Emmett's afraid he's going to be a sore loser" Rosalie laughed.

"No I want a grizzly…you bet I do."

My siblings and I sprinted out the door and headed in our different directions when hunting. The different animals we liked were sometimes in different areas. Emmett's favorite was grizzly so he went north towards Canada. Edward and my favorite was mountain lion so we went to the Rocky Mountains that went from Colorado to Canada. Alice's favorite was wild cats or raccoons, Rosalie's favorite was also bears although not just grizzly any type of bear. Jasper, since he was the newest to "vegetarianism" as we called it hunted the closest thing available. Although he had been doing a lot better lately, being around Bella was a bit easier for him and he was learning some self-control. I didn't realize how thirsty I was until the mentioning of hunting. Jasper and Alice went together because Alice was the only one who could stop Jasper if he lost control. Emmett and Rosalie went to go hunt bear and Edward and I went.

I caught the first scent of mountain lion after running about six miles east towards the Colorado Rockies. There was one that was hiding in the trees and watching me with its beady eyes that seemed to be glowing in the darkness. It growled after I sprinted to it and tackled its large body. It scratched my face but I wasn't injured I grabbed it by the neck and bit into it…the blood was warm, sweet, & good. It tasted nothing like sheep's heart but it was good enough. The mountain lion's body went limper as I continued to suck its blood and eventually died. I felt bad that we had to kill animals but it would be worse if we killed humans I think in a way. I turned around and saw Edward wrestling with a mountain lion that he had in a headlock and sucking its blood. I couldn't imagine what Bella would do if she saw him in real vampire action. He wiped his hands off on his jeans and sprinted off to find something else. I did the same.

I caught the scent of some hunters and ran the other way since I didn't want them seeing me and since I was in hunting mode. Let's just put in a way that when I was in hunting mode things were dangerous because when I smelled blood it was possible to lose control (not that I ever did) but I was close several times and witnessed it firsthand with Jasper many times and Emmett as well. I have only seen Alice and Edward lose control once or twice. But Rosalie, Carlisle, & I never have lost control…we haven't killed a single human for blood.

After we went hunting we went back to our house. Edward and I hung out in my room and his room.

"Edward?" I asked.

"Yeah Haze?" he said.

"I know you don't really like to talk about it but what happened during those four years you left?" I stared into his eyes which I could tell were thinking. I knew it had been a tough time for him and he never liked to talk about it.

He sighed and ran his hand through his hair like he did when he was thinking that usually meant he was on the border of an answer. "OK fine since you are my little sister and I've been dying to tell someone what happened I'll tell you but I'm warning you."

I cut him off "don't warn me Edward, it's not going to change my wanting to know" I said and he laughed.

"You are such a Hazel."

"Yes I am." I said and he did his "Edward to Hazel" smile. He lay down on the bed in my room that was there for when Bella came but we used it sometimes. He pulled me with him and put his arm around me and held the side of my arm. He began to tell his story.

"Well as you know I left a note for Carlisle and Esme to read when they got back from their hunting trip. It was 2:19am and I remember the exact time. You were in your room in our apartment in Michigan writing in the journal you used to keep. I walked into the room and sat down on your floor. You asked me 'what's going on' since you could always tell what I was thinking. I said to you 'Hazel, I'm leaving I want to try the new lifestyle make me a promise and stay out of trouble. I love you and won't ever forget you.' I kissed your hair and tried to make a last memory of you before I left. After I left I sprinted north to Canada I needed to figure out a plan. I thought that if I didn't feed on innocent people I was OK so I figured I would hunt criminals. I remembered when Esme told us the story of what happened to her so I figured the first person I would hunt was her abusive husband Charles Evanson. I wanted him to suffer…to pay for what he did. I made his death slow and realized what I had been missing out on with human blood. I began to feel sorry for you guys and how you were missing out on human blood. Now you are good you haven't even killed a human. Charles Evanson was the first human I killed and it felt good in a strange way to know a predator was off the streets. I built a burrow for myself underground so I could hide from society. I knew they would fear me and think I was a monster because of my eyes that had now changed colors to a dark purple and if I kept feeding on humans would turn dark red not the crimson that we had when we were newborns. I began planning what types of criminals I would go after and would use my mind reading powers to be able to see who was and who wasn't a criminal. Some people I let loose from my list depending on the severity of their crimes. I only went after murderers, pedophiles, necrophiles, abductors, animal abusers, child abusers, you get the point. It would give me some sense of accomplishment when I made them look me in the eye and acknowledge what they did. Eventually I didn't' really find it amusing anymore and began hating myself. It didn't matter that they were criminals they were still people and that hit me hard. I imagined all of those lives I had taken away. Those people had families and I had done damage to them. I was a monster and wanted to destroy myself. I wasn't sure if I could go back to Carlisle after what I had done. I knew I caused him pain. I knew I caused Esme pain but what hurt the most was I caused you pain. I wasn't sure if you would forgive me or accept me anymore. Finally I made my decision to go back to Massachusetts which was where you were. I made sure it was at night so I wouldn't be seen. It was December 12, 1931 and it had been a little more than four years. The day I left was August 2, 1927 I slowly approached the apartment building and climbed to the roof. I went down through the elevator. I heard the slow and steady breathing of all the humans but I could only make out one sound. The sound of you…talking to me, I remember the exact words you said 'Edward if you can hear me wherever you are just come home…please' and I remember walking into the room and yeah you remember." Edward said and my eyes were wide with anticipation from the story. It was interesting yet sad at the same time.

Edward stayed with me for the rest of the night. I stayed in his arms and we spoke about our human years and other stuff. I loved talking to Edward because I could talk to him about anything (except my Jason problems).

"Edward?" I asked.

"Yeah Hayz" he said.

"Can you still hear Harley?" I asked.

He furrowed his eyebrows then down casted his eyes before taking a deep breath and saying "no, she's in heaven now…happy. I know that." I swallowed and Edward patted my head I smiled at him. "Did I ever tell you that Marilynn ever thought about you" he said.

"She did?" I asked.

"Yep of course she did…every day until the day that she died. She told her children and grandchildren about her. Even her first great grandchild she told about you although he probably doesn't remember the story but she never stopped thinking about you." Edward said.

"I find it amazing now how everyone in our past is dead" I said.

"I know Haze…I know" he said and held me tighter.

This was one of the reasons Edward and I were so close…we had been through so much together. Edward had been there with me since the day I was born although excluding the time he left in 1927 – 1931 the time he just described but my point is that I was going to have to find a way to keep Edward in my life with Jason. I knew he was calmer and not so awkward when I wasn't thinking about it but he would have to get used to the fact of Jason being my mate.

Although for some reason whenever I was in Edward's arms all of my worries and fears disappeared and the only thing that mattered was the presence. I felt safe and nothing could get to me. I remembered so many times that Edward and I had gone through horrible things together. It amazed me how much had happened over the course of the year and almost made me realize how lucky I was to have him in my life. Edward stroked my hair and began to hum our song. Ever since I was a little kid he would sing it to me and play it on the piano. It described the promise he made to me when I was born. Sometimes I sit and wonder however of what would've happened if I remained human or if the outbreak hadn't happened.

Well if the outbreak hadn't happened I wouldn't be alive right now. I wouldn't be here with the Cullen clan today or be with Jason. I wouldn't have even met Jason. Edward would've probably joined the army and I would go on to be a "typical lady" like most girls were forced to back then. I would probably have gotten married or something at a young age maybe a double wedding with Marilynn. I may have had children or grandchildren and probably would keep in touch with Edward when we got older. Maybe I would've met Emmett, Rosalie, Alice, or Jasper as a human if they were vampires. But chances were if it wasn't for the outbreak Carlisle would never have transformed any of them (Esme, Emmett, & Rosalie) Alice and Jasper would've been vampires either way. But if it wasn't for the vampires that transformed Carlisle he wouldn't be a vampire and therefore I still wouldn't be here today. Let's just say that my point is I owe a lot to Carlisle and still believe that no matter what everything happens for a reason.

I was wrapped up in my thoughts that I didn't realize I had closed my eyes and pretended to sleep since I had thought I was a human for a second. Edward was singing my lullaby to me the one he used when he wanted to relax me when I was freaked out. He was still holding me in his arms and I was still reminded of the time before we went to the hospital…the last time we were in our human home. Edward held me the exact same way when I got sick and he carried me to the hospital.

"OK, please stop thinking about our past" Edward said since he could read my thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I don't like to think about it either" I said and Edward shrugged.

"It's alright…it's still a part of who we are" I half smiled and Edward put me next to him.

"I have to go to Bella's she has been wanting me…I love you Haze" he said kissing my forehead and leaving. I sighed a little. I hated it when Edward left.

I tracked Jason and saw he was playing with pebbles near the brook which was near our waterfall. I texted him from my phone but he already beat me.

Jason: meet me the waterfall

Me: kk I missed u

Jason: missing u more

Me: k coming

Jason: how was ur weekend

Me: gr8 (sarcasm)

Jason: what happened?

Me: tell u l8er

Jason: OK?

Me: k

Jason: c u in a few min

I snapped my phone shut and jumped out my window. I landed on the ground and had some dirt on my pants I wiped them off and sprinted towards the waterfall. Of course I hadn't beaten him there…I never did and never planned to. It was a Jason thing especially since he was the one who showed me the waterfall first. He was closer in the beginning so it wasn't fair in a way. I saw the way the rocks were all almost perfectly aligned and how the water flowed over it like it was purposely made that way. It was amazing how this wasn't man made. It was pure and from the Earth. The sound of the beautiful water rushing over the rocks and flowing into the perfect brook.

"Get over here!" Jason said and I jumped onto him.

"Wanna go in?" he asked me.

"It's the middle of February" I said.

"So?"

"What the hell" I said and he jumped into the brook water that wasn't too shallow.

It was a good thing this was a wild brook or we might've gotten into trouble. Jason's hair was so hot wet his messy spikes were half spikey and half flat he shook his hair so I got wet a little bit and I scowled before diving into the water that felt warm to me (but would feel below freezing to a human). Jason swam over to me and kissed my forehead. I "tackled" him underwater and kissed him and his tongue brushed mine slightly. When we came up I splashed him and he splashed me.

"Alice is so going to kill me" I said.

"Why?" Jason said coming over to touch my hand and see my history.

"Look at my clothes…she hates it when I get them like this" and Jason laughed before putting my hand down in the water and widened his eyes after seeing the mall incident only laughing when he saw me beating Emmett in cards.

I climbed the top of the rocks and jumped into the water and Jason followed me.

"Come on Hazel" Jason called me and went out of the water he pulled me onto his back and ran back to his house. He stopped at the tree that overlooked his room and he was facing me with my back to the tree.

Jason's kiss was different than the other times it was aggressive and passionate. I could only do the same to him back. I ran my hands through his wet hair and he fell back onto the ground letting me kiss him. I closed my eyes and prayed that Edward could not hear mine or Jason's thoughts but he was making out with Bella so I didn't think he really cared what I was thinking.

I suddenly saw all of my moments with Jason flash before my eyes and it was weird it was as if…I was in a montage to realize how much Jason brightened up my life and now seeing that I had a mate I realized what happened with Edward in the beginning when he first met Bella. I realized how much confusion he felt with the different relationships with me and Bella. I loved Jason the same length I loved Edward but our relationship was different. I guess I was lucky though that my brother wasn't a complete jerk towards me (cough* Emmett *cough) just kidding but Emmett was a jerk towards me most of the time…no ALL the time. It was weird how the most random things came into my mind when I was kissing Jason…it was like a life flash.

When we pulled away from each other (which we always did at the same time) I guess we both just knew when we were supposed to do it. He took my hand and led me towards his house…sprinting as usual. When Jason opened the door Kyle was on his laptop forging documents (vampire thing).

"Sup Kyle" Jason said jumping on the couch.

"Hey Jason, hey Hazel" Kyle said.

"Watcha doing" Jason said.

"Doing work for one of my clients…he's an immigrant who is legal but is being pursued by the government who claims he still hasn't paid his immigrant fee. He is going to disguise as an American." Kyle said.

Jason furrowed his eyebrows "interesting?" he said.

Kyle laughed "stop trying to be interested in my work."

Jason smirked, "Um OK" he said.

"See you guys later" Kyle said "OK" we said together and we both went outside again.

"Wanna race?" Jason asked when we were standing on the cliff almost east of Seattle.

We weren't quite in Canada though but we could clearly see its border across from Washington. This reminded me slightly of the time when Edward and I used to go to the cliffs and ran into trouble carelessly a few times. Jason looked at the water that was frozen and was turning an icy white color as opposed to the "new ice water" color that was like a lighter bluish grey. I looked around and tried to make sense of everything…my life, my "death", my human life, vampire life, everything that was going on around me. I was trying to find my meaning in the world and what I was supposed to do.

"Maybe" I said tackling Jason to the ground and kissing him.

"Come on Hazel…you're just afraid I'll win" he said.

"No…I'm just afraid you'll lose" I said.

Jason laughed, "You always know a good comeback" he said I smirked he brushed my hair out of my face and I heard my phone ringing. I gritted my teeth and took it out of my pocket…it was either Emmett or Edward either annoying me or telling me I had to get home.

Emmett: sup dwarf

Me: shut up asshole

Emmett: at least I'm not a stupid dwarf like you

Me: why are you bugging me?

Emmett: IDK I feel like it

Me: Well leave me alone

Emmett: dwarf

Me: goodbye

I snapped my phone shut "sorry it was stupid Emmett" I said and Jason shrugged as he kissed me hard.

"Do you think it was our fault Harley and Gabe were killed?" Jason asked I looked at him and cringed at the thought.

There was no doubt I thought about them every day but I wasn't about to be faced with a question that brought back these types of stuff. I thought for a second and took a deep breath. Jason still sat looking at my with his irresistible eyes that he knew I wasn't going to resist his question.

"I half think it was and not. I mean think about it we weren't the ones who killed her…those vamps did but would they have come if I wasn't there…probably not…it's not your fault it's my fault." Jason cut me off.

"Hazel, stop it this wasn't your fault and if I hear you say it one more time…I will have Emmett sit and call you dwarf for the rest of your existence" he said.

"Seriously?" I said even though I knew he was joking.

"What do you think" and he kissed me again.

I had been thinking of many other things…the things Bella said to Edward to get what she wanted. There was one thing she said to him when he wanted her to marry him. She wanted him to take her virginity. There must have been a rush…something that made her all of the sudden come to the conclusion she wanted that. Now I know what you're thinking how do I know this. Well number 1 I was the first person Bella came to afterwards and Edward had mentioned it to me on one occasion. But my point is do you really know what you want at the time that you want it.

My phone rang again…it was Edward.

After I had to say goodbye to Jason I raced home awaiting whatever my brother wanted even though I knew EXACTLY what he wanted…EXACTLY. This time was dreaded because this meant Edward was going to go into his "Edward lecturing overprotective mode." Sorry but when he got like this it annoyed the hell out of me. I was probably starting to sound like a typical twelve year old preteen girl but sometimes I was and I was only "normal" if you know what I mean sometimes I was more normal than most vampires. As I sprinted home and jumped through my window in my room. I took a deep breath before facing my brother depending on what type of mood he was in this confrontation was either pleasant or not. I was just praying something positive happened with Bella so he was in a good mood and not a typical grouch mood. I walked out of my room and tracked Edward in his room. I knocked on the door since he was reading a book that Bella loaned him.

"Hey" I said.

"Hey, sit down" he said oh gosh I thought to myself and he smirked after hearing my thoughts.

"What's up?" I asked.

"Oh nothing" Edward said casually and I gave him my "firm" look as he laughed again probably not taking me seriously.

"Edward what's up you texted me" I said.

"I just want to talk to you" Edward said.

"Is everything OK?" I asked in my half nervous half puzzled tone.

"I heard your thoughts and… Edward said HOLY CRAP! I was thinking. "Hazel, listen to me" he grabbed my shoulders "I know that you are technically one hundred and…" I knew where this conversation was going.

"EDWARD PLEASE" I shouted.

"What?" he said trying to sound innocent.

"I hate to ruin your fun but Alice already beat you to 'the talk' about five years ago" I said.

"Five years ago you didn't have a boyfriend" Edward said.

"You're unbelievable" I said.

"Maybe I am and maybe I'm not" Edward said enjoying himself and I groaned.

"I'm going over to Bella's again you wanna come?" Edward asked.

"Sure" I said since I hadn't seen Bella in a long time. I knew Edward was just being himself and trying to give me and Jason "separation" or whatever but I knew he was just being himself and I was just going to have to deal with it.

When we reached Bella's house Charlie wasn't home so we could basically just be cool and not all awkward. Edward politely knocked on the door even though he didn't have to.

"Hey Edward" Bella said hugging him.

"Hey love" Edward said.

"OMG Hazel!" Bella practically screamed and she picked me up since I was light enough.

"I haven't seen you in forever" she said.

"I know" I said and Edward laughed after Bella put me down.

Bella had just started watching Through Life Till Death starring Alejandro Alvarez, Madeline Herrera, & Jenny Lido. We were going to finish watching the movie with her until Charlie came home which meant we had to leave and as usual Edward would go back at night. Bella led us to the room where she had been watching the movie. I had seen this movie once before and knew it was rated R for some violent and intimate scenes and also involved some coarse language.

The movie began on a dark stormy night where Carmen (Jenny Lido) is running through the woods after having an argument with her stepmother. She is sweating and wet from the rain and is moving very fast. It is visible that her leg is bloody after she trips on a branch. Carmen eventually collapses from hunger and exhaustion. The movie then blanks out from the forest and to the globe and then we see Carmen is in Mexico and the globe then zooms in on New York City where we see it is the next day and Kenny is getting out of his classroom. He is walking with his best friend Adam and he sees several schoolgirls selling cookies. Kenny is then reminded of the little sister he had that died when she was eleven of swine flu and is still haunted by the memory he was the last one to hear her final words. We then see where Carmen is (a laboratory) and a Mexican doctor is there. We also see he is planning an experiment where he is going to connect three people together and make them a literal "human spider" the camera then shows how one night Kenny is beaten and robbed and is taken to the government office and he is asked to do an inside job for them…to shut down the Mexican doctor. Kenny agrees but is captured in the process he meets a girl names Jessica (Madeline Herrera) who is also captured by the doctor and Carmen, Kenny, & Jessica plan a bust out. Unfortunately the doctor catches them and they are all severely punished. Kenny and the two girls have to plan a new escape route and when the doctor finds out he kills Carmen in a rage and brutally injures Kenny. Jessica is experimented on and loses too much blood. Jessica and Kenny lay in Jessica's blood and Kenny and Jessica link hands to die. The camera fades to one year later where Adam is sitting in the cemetery and he sees a note on the ground from Kenny.

Bella had fallen asleep and Edward had her cradled in his arms. Charlie had come home and Edward woke Bella up so it didn't look like something else if you know what I mean. Edward and I said hello to Charlie and goodbye to Bella before leaving.

"What's next?" I asked Edward and he smirked a little.

"I don't know Emmett, Jasper, & I were going to wrestle you can watch if you want" he said.

"I'd prefer to fight if that's OK with you" I said sarcastically and Edward smirked again.

"Sure" he said.

"Yes" I said since I loved fighting and wanted to beat Emmett to show him I wasn't a stupid little dwarf. Jasper, Edward, & Emmett I am one of the best fighters in the Olympic Coven. I was quick but smart whenever I made a move and thought it over to make sure I was doing to right thing. Edward picked me up and swung me over his shoulder.

"Put me down!" I shouted.

"No" Edward said casually and I slugged him.

Edward pretended to be hurt and then continued to "torture" me until we got to his car. I got into the passenger seat and Edward started driving except a little slow for him.

"Why are you driving so slowly?" I asked and Edward shrugged. Most of the time I knew what my brother was thinking and something told me he heard someone's thoughts and didn't like what he heard.

"Are you OK" I asked him and his eyes were just grim and in pain almost in a way.

I hated seeing Edward like this it made me hurt I didn't know if it was a thing because he was my brother or something because sometimes biological relations can be strengthened once both are vampires or even one as a vampire their relation changes too. I switched my position so I was facing my brother who had one hand on the steering wheel and one hand through his hair (something he always did).

"What's wrong" I mused.

"Nothing" Edward repeated again and I gave him my "firm" look. "Alright I'll tell you" Edward said and I looked up. "Charlie told Bella that Jacob is coming over for the week and she is forbidden to see me. I then read the dog's thoughts and…ugh that little bastard" Edward said.

"What" I said.

"Jacob is torturing me on purpose and Bella is forbidden to see me for the rest of the week." Edward said.

"Did you do something wrong?" I asked.

"No…at least not that I know of" Edward said and I nodded slowly when I was being myself. Edward pulled his car into the driveway and went to get Emmett and Jasper.

The full moon's light was amazing. It was white but it was blue and red at the same time. My favorite type was a solar eclipse though because it was really cool how the moon completely went over the sun so it was like the rays were coming from the moon. Although full moons meant it was still completely over the sun anyway so it was almost a similar effect. Most of the time I would stay by the window at the time of the solar eclipse with my camera so I could capture every detail I liked to compare it with past solar eclipses.

Alright enough about Science I was busy staring at the moon when Emmett crashed into me as he was fighting with Edward who had Emmett in a head lock on the floor. Emmett kicked Edward…hard. Edward pretended he was hurt but then "flew" and jumped on Emmett again who pushed him against the hard sharp rock that was in our backyard. For a second it looked like he was going to push Edward off the side of the cliff but Edward flipped Emmett and mounted him so he was pinned. Then he took his arm and twisted his elbow backwards it was usually how we ended a fight (by playing mercy or you could have your joint ripped off). Emmett decided to have his arm ripped off and put it back.

He slugged Edward who said "it's not my fault you were just trying to be the tough guy" and Jasper and I laughed.

"I want to verse dwarf" Emmett said.

"OK but first we're doing winner fight remember?" Edward said.

"Yes Eddie" Emmett said in his girly voice.

"Shut the hell up" Edward said and Emmett pretended he was scared.

"Why don't you verse Jasper because we all know he is a good match for Edward to fight with and he will beat me in rock, paper, scissors again" Jasper laughed.

"It's not my fault" he did an imitation of Edward.

"Besides Jasper will win anyway" Emmett said obviously a sore loser.

"Sore Loser" I coughed.

"OK that's it dwarf you are so dead next fight." Emmett said.

"No you are" I said and Emmett would've tackled me if we were fighting but we weren't so he couldn't until we were. I watched as my brother's fought. Usually when they were practicing they weren't as aggressive but they were trying to learn better ways of practicing and fighting after the Volturi incident. Just as they were in mid fight we all heard a bloodcurdling scream.

"Holy shit" Emmett said and he sprinted off my brothers followed him and so did I. I figured it was an attack of some sort because that was usually how things happened in the wooded area. I smelled blood and hurried faster. I saw Bella…lying on the ground with blood all over her shirt.

"No!" Edward yelled and picked her up. He ran towards the house faster than I had ever seen him run before.

"What happened" Esme asked when we walked in and Edward put Bella down on the couch.

"Bella, love are you OK" Edward asked these were times I guessed he wished he could read her mind but she probably didn't want him too since it was something that couldn't happen. There was one thing I could think of that could let us know what happened…Jason.

"It wasn't the dog" Edward said since he could read Jacob's thoughts.

"I'll get Jason so he can see her history" I said.

"Will it work?" Alice asked.

"Yeah because her 'shield' per say only works on things that affect her mind." I said and my siblings looked at me like "how could you possibly know this" but I had my ways.

Me: Jason, come over ASAP

Jason: what's wrong u OK?

Me: yea I'm fine something happened with Bella

Jason: OMFG is she OK

Me: it doesn't look like it and we don't know what happened

Jason: let me guess u want me to see her history

Me: that and I want to c u

Jason: k b right over

Me: k love you

Jason: love u too

"Jason will be right over" I said and Edward sighed of relief. I was almost positive that Jason would be able to find out what happened but that might necessarily be a good thing for both the person who did this and for Edward.

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