Chapter 21

Nothing to Hide

If Alice could see this happening then no one would but since the future involved something she couldn't see it was blurred. I heard a knock on the door and caught Jason's scent. I sprinted to the door and opened it to see Jason standing there looking more worried than ever.

"Hey Hazel" he gave me a quick hug since Edward was standing in the other room and we couldn't really do anything.

"Hey Jason" I said and we both went to where Bella was. She was sitting on the sofa under a blanket and an oxygen mask due to the loss of blood and she was beginning to have trouble breathing.

"Is she going to be OK, Carlisle?" I asked.

"Yeah it looks like she'll be fine but it may take a day or two." Carlisle said

Edward still remained in his position. "I swear if I see that little…."

But Carlisle cut him off "son, stop" and Jasper calmed him down. Edward was still mad though not that I wasn't used to seeing this kind of stuff when someone touched "his Bella" Jason went over and took Bella's hand. Edward sat down on the couch and took her head in his lap.

"Edward" she said in a weak voice.

"Bella love it's OK go back to sleep" Edward said but Bella had already closed her eyes.

Jason started to see her history and Edward was reading his mind. I could tell what they were both seeing. Edward's eyes got wide with pure anger and revenge and Jasper tried his best to calm him down but sometimes vampire emotions are too strong to be reversed and that was how it was with Edward right now. When Jason and Edward had seen it all their eyes reflected everything and Edward's lips were quivering with anger trying to hold back everything he felt.

I stared into his eyes telepathically telling him "keep your cool Eddie, don't lose it" and he somewhat lightened his stiff position. He squeezed Bella's hand and she gasped a little his eyes were still reflecting his pain. Jason whispered what he had seen to Carlisle since it involved her treatment and he was wide in his eyes as well.

"Jason" I muttered in a low voice too low for almost anyone to hear.

"She was stabbed and beaten" Jason said and I sucked in a breath and my eyes went wide. I looked at Bella who didn't deserve what had happened to her.

"Bella, love I need you to tell me if this hurts OK" Edward said his medical training kicking in a little bit.

"OK" Bella croaked and it hurt me to see her like that. I didn't want to watch her suffering but I knew I had to be strong for Edward. I looked at Jason's eyes that were black and I could tell he was suffering.

"Jason…are you sure you're OK" I asked him and he opened his mouth to speak and pointed to his throat. "If it hurts you…" I began.

"Are you sure you're OK?" Jason said.

"Yes…trust me her blood is overwhelming me a bit too" I said in a lower voice.

"Well you do have more experience than me" Jason said before turning to go. He kissed my hair and said "tell me how she's doing later OK."

"OK" I said and he left. I went back to the couch to sit with Edward and Bella. Carlisle was cleaning her stab wound that needed to be stitched and Edward was feeling parts of Bella's body to make sure she wasn't injured there although bruises were already forming on her arms, legs, & face. Her eye was swollen and black to make it obvious she had been beaten.

"There's no way Charlie can see her this way" Edward mumbled to me and I could only pathetically nod. I rubbed Bella's hand to feel that it was already broken and it was obvious that a shoe had done it.

"Edward" I said.

"Yeah Haze" he said his voice quivering a bit.

"Her hand to her elbow is broken…it's a shoe print." I said and Edward bit his lip to keep from going mad.

"OK hold on" he said and brushed his hand against hers.

She winced, "it hurts Edward" she said.

"I know love…I'm sorry" he said.

"Why are you apologizing?" she asked.

"Because I should've stayed with you" Edward said and Bella shrugged but then winced again.

"OK, OK it's OK love" Edward said rubbing her shoulder. "Carlisle she's beaten pretty bad" Edward said in a voice too low for Bella to hear.

"Bella" I said.

"Yeah Hazel?" she said.

"Can I feel your arm, tell me if it hurts I just need to see what kind of break it is" I said and Bella nodded. I had had some medical training from Edward and Carlisle so I knew how to detect a break. Edward pressed his hand gently on her shin and Bella let out a bloodcurdling scream.

"OK love I'm so sorry" Edward said.

"It's OK" Bella said and Edward brushed his hand on her shin to see what kind of break it was.

"Carlisle she has a severe leg break" Edward said and her arm break was a half full snap and half bone crack. I whispered that to Edward who took an IV and put it gently in Bella's arm. The IV had blood in it so the bone marrow would strengthen a little bit from the break.

"Edward what exactly happened?" I asked and his eyes widened a little bit.

"I'll tell you later" he muttered.

"OK" I said and Bella coughed.

"OK love you're doing great" Edward said and Bella looked him in the eyes as he stroked her hair and brushed it back out of her face. Bella closed her eyes, she looked so… peaceful.

Edward injected Bella with a numbing medicine to numb her when Carlisle was giving her stitches. Bella held onto Edward's shirt and buried her face in his chest when she wanted to scream. He kissed her hair and tried not to look like he was in pain but he looked at me and his eyes seemed to be screaming an expression like "help me" I shut my eyes and prayed I was dreaming and that Bella and Edward were both not in pain. After Carlisle was done with Bella's stitches Edward would apply her casts and sit with her while she mended. Bella winced as he threaded the needle through her stomach (where she was stabbed). He had done X-rays to make sure no organs were punctured. Nothing was but let's just say it wouldn't be good if it was. Carlisle gave Bella a shot so she would fall asleep and Bella lay in Edward's lap and fell asleep. Edward held out his arm for me to go sit next to him. He pulled me close to him careful not to hurt Bella who was sleeping soundly as Edward cradled her with one hand.

"What exactly happened?" I asked.

Edward sighed, "Bella was walking to our house because she wanted to see me. She wanted to have one night with me before her weekly ban so she was walking through the forest and a doctor…this crazed man I know what he looks like." Edward got a look on his face that I had only seen once.

I gripped his arm so he would calm down.

"Thanks Haze, now back to what I was saying. The doctor was doing an experiment…the human centipede like in several movie portrayals. Well this guy was so inspired by those movies that he decided he was going to do it for real. He had a man and a little girl but he needed an older female so he went looking for one. He found Bella and followed her to her house and saw her watching the Till Death through Life movie so he thought she would be interested in his 'experiment' well he thought this would be his perfect opportunity to kidnap Bella when she left the house alone in the deserted area. She tried to fight back…but this man had stuff with him including medical tools. He tried to pin her down by her arm so he could pick her up and take her but that resulted in a shoulder fracture and arm break. She then tried to fight back but he was stronger than her so he got angry and stepped on her leg repeatedly with his steel shoes that were very sharp. He then took time kicking her which resulted in several other things to happen. When he was done and frustrated he stabbed her and that was when we heard her scream. He got worried someone would find him when he heard us coming so he got in his car and left." Edward said.

"Let me track him" I said.

"No...Haze, no" Edward said looking me straight in the eye.

"Why…then he won't hurt anyone else…he can go to a mental hospital where they can help with his problem and…"

But Edward stopped me right there. "This guy isn't HUMAN…he's not HUMAN he's like the people on that TV show Heroes. Where the people have extraordinary abilities…he's the only one there is out there a pre vampire as they call them." Edward said.

"So big deal" I said.

"Hazel…what if he hurts you" Edward asked.

"Then I'll bite his head off" I said.

Edward smirked, "I'm serious Hayz…I can't lose you" he said.

"Who said anything about dying?" I asked.

Edward rolled his eyes "hear me out Haze…just…no, no, no, no I won't let you."

"Fine then I'll do it now" I said.

"HAZEL NO!" Edward shouted and almost knocked me to the floor good thing he didn't move or Bella would've woken up. I looked at my brother and felt bad about teasing him.

"Edward?" I asked.

"Yes" he said.

"Are we going to catch this guy" I asked.

"Fuck yeah" Edward said.

"Well" I said.

"We'll send Emmett and Jasper and I'll go if it's OK with Bella even though I really don't want to leave her I'll fight." Edward looked at Bella and I just stared at him. "Do you get me" he looked at me and I laughed as I rolled my eyes. Edward ruffled my hair and held me as we both waited for Bella to wake up.

I spent some of that time on my phone texting Jason with my phone on the lowest volume but even then could I still slightly hear my ringtone going off. We basically texted about everything Jason would ask about Bella every so often to make sure she was OK and I would give him the latest update.

Edward spent his time watching Bella sleep like he did almost every night but occasionally he would pause for a second and listen to her heartbeat which I knew was his favorite sound in the world. It was good to see that at least he still had that to listen to if you know what I mean. I also knew that it may or may not be one of the reasons he wasn't going to change her because if he did he wouldn't get to hear his favorite sound. I almost would've suggested changing her right then and there but I knew he didn't want to because these injuries weren't as severe as the time where James got to Bella and he didn't want to change her so I guess I knew exactly what his response would be.

Edward closed his eyes for a second and smelled Bella's hair. I looked at the monitor that was hooked up and her heart was beating very fast. The blood around her stab wound was dried now. Bella's broken arm was in a sling that was around her neck and her shoulders were in the sling as well. Her leg was propped up by a small desk like thing and her leg was in a soft cast. Bella moved uneasily in her sleep and winced a little bit Edward stroked her hair letting her know he was here. Bella's left eye was black and swollen shut…there were clear bruisings on her eye and face along with her legs and arms. Bella swallowed and flinched as Edward shut his eyes tight since he didn't want to see Bella in pain. It hurt me to see him this way…it hurt me a lot. Edward and Bella didn't deserve this, especially since Bella was just a fragile human (even though she hated to be thought of that way).

The house was quiet, Carlisle was upstairs in his office, Esme was painting in her room which she had taken too most of the time. Emmett and Rosalie were hanging out in their room and Jasper and Alice were also in their room fooling around. I wanted to go after that man who did this to Bella (ME! I wanted to do it) I knew Edward wanted to as well but he wouldn't leave Bella. I would have to recruit Jason who would definitely help me. Emmett would probably be willing to as well since he would never miss out on a fight. Alice and Jasper probably would as well but Rosalie wouldn't Carlisle and Esme would just want peace. I had to try my best not to let Edward hear my thoughts and planning of this. Although it was annoying since he was biologically related to be he could hear me from farther away.

I carefully moved Bella's uninjured leg and got up from the couch. Edward looked at me "where are you going?" he asked the look in his eyes made me feel the need to stay with him.

"Nowhere" I said and sat down in my original position.

His expression calmed a little. He looked so vulnerable like a burning man that whatever could happen would kill him. It made me take a look at life for a second and put myself in exactly his shoes…although it was a strange vampiric thing that could almost make me feel exactly what he was feeling. It still didn't change my anger towards the man who did this to Bella. Not only did he hurt her physically but he had emotionally tortured my brother…I looked up to Edward and whenever I saw him like this it made me mad…mad enough to kill. This guy wasn't necessarily a normal human but if I had enough will like that time I had when I killed Michael Levine I would be able to kill this man. I looked at Edward who was staring at Bella still praying she would be OK I knew he would know what to do (change her if he had too). But he had so many things in mind, not only just Bella but Charlie, Renee, & the rest of our coven. I leaned on Edward's shoulder and he stroked my hair.

"Thank you for staying" he whispered.

"No problem" I said and Edward sighed painfully as Bella moved a little in her sleep. I was going to do something about this…at this point I didn't really care about my life right now I cared about how this was affecting my brother and Bella.

Bella woke up and I left to give them some time together. I convinced Edward he needed it. I really needed to see Jason…I missed him. I went to my room to find him sitting there playing with something.

"Really!" I shouted as I saw Jason and he laughed.

"Hey" he said.

"Did I give you permission to go into my bedroom?" I asked.

"No" Jason said.

"At least you haven't been here a while" I said remembering I had only tracked him about 5 minutes ago in his house.

"Bella's with Edward" he asked and I nodded.

"Yes, now I can hang out with you" Jason tackled me to the floor and kissed me. I kissed him back and once again my mind went into that random thing I did (it was so weird but I was used to it by now). We both pulled away at the same time.

"Hazel, I will never leave you…you know that right" Jason said.

"Yes?" I said in a puzzled voice although I somewhat knew where he was going.

"I love you" he said.

"I love you too" I said and Jason sighed for a second and I looked at him and blinked in a flirtaicious way he just stared at me and shook his head.

"Are you trying to torture me?" he asked.

"No" I said and he just laughed and he rolled his eyes.

Part of me was thinking everything and how much had happened over this course since the Volturi…it was hard to believe that that even happened it seemed like not that long ago but it did. In a way it seemed like things that had recently happened were farther away than they actually were and things that happened well…not recently seemed like they happened recently it was strange but I guessed it was part of the interference with my human and vampire life and memories. Jason stared at me as I walked to the other side of the room and fingered the wall. Jason walked over to where I was and we both sat down on the floor. Next to the open window in my room that had the woods in good touch.

"I would say to go to the waterfall but after what happened with Bella I would say Edward would kill me." I said and Jason laughed.

"You're probably right" he said and he put his arm around me to pull me closer to him. If my heart could beat it would've been beating faster than my running speed.

Jason had basically known all about me since he had seen all of my history. He "gave me permission" to ask questions about him. I said that I would guess and after that we basically just sat and talked about stuff. I asked Jason if being around humans bothered him and he said sometimes he had a hard time controlling himself. He was amazed at how well Kyle did it and he was still learning to be as good as him.

"How is your relationship to Kyle?" I asked Jason and he smirked.

"Well I mean he is my creator but only older than me by nine years technically. Sometimes he's like a father to me but mostly he's like a brother. I look up to him for guidance and stuff but we don't really act like father and son. He's more of a brother. At times he's a bit strange but that's cool. It's what I like best about him. I almost feel as if he is my brother." Jason said and I smiled at him.

"Do you get along with your brothers?" Jason asked me although he knew the answer he wanted to hear the answer my perspective.

"Well Emmett and I fight sometimes but it's playful you know like teasing. Jasper and I are friends I guess and he is my brother but we aren't as close as we used to be. But he is still my brother so we get along better than Emmett and I. Edward and I are very close as you know." I said.

"What about your sisters?" Jason asked.

"Yeah we get along but they're very feminine and annoy me sometimes but they care about me." I said.

"And Carlisle and Esme?" Jason asked.

"They're like my adopted parents I am very grateful to Carlisle for saving my life and Esme is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet." I said Jason nodded.

"Have you ever had the feeling where five seconds ago your 'heart' per say wasn't full…but more in half?" Jason asked.

"Yes" I said knowing where he was going.

"Hazel, I need you in my life…you can't ever leave me do you understand that" Jason said.

"Yes…Jason yes you can't leave me either" I said and Jason had a smile on his face that I had seen similar to the time Edward had on his face after Bella said yes to his proposal.

"Hazel Lucy Masen Cullen" Jason crooned.

I laughed slightly as I smiled at him, "You know you're the only person I know that's almost never lied to me" I said.

Jason raised his eyebrows, "I'm just cool like that" he said and I laughed again.

"You're so weird" I said.

"Yes I am bitch" Jason said then he added "a bitch in a good way."

"Uh huh sure" I said and Jason looked at me.

"Seriously" he said.

"Come on let's go see how Bella's doing" I said.

Jason shrugged, "Cool with me."

We went downstairs to where Edward and Bella sat and they were also joined by Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, & Alice. For the first time it felt good to not be the only one without a mate now that Jason was here.

"Hey guys" Jason said shyly.

"Hey Jason!" Emmett shouted.

"Emmett shut up you're going to scare him" Alice said and I rolled my eyes.

"Alice, Jason is twelve you're making it like he's three" I said.

"Well do you want Emmett to be an asshole?" Alice asked.

"It's OK Alice he's not being that bad." Jason said.

"OK okay." Alice said in her dramatic voice and Jasper laughed with Emmett, Edward, Rosalie, Jason, & I. Only Bella didn't find it funny.

"Is it necessary for this kind of immaturity?" Alice asked.

"No" I said still smirking.

"Good."

I sat down on the couch next to Edward and Jason sat down next to me. Emmett pressed play on the remote control and we went back to watching the football game. That was being broadcast on the Forks Channel at Forks High School. It was Forks Spartans verses the Seattle Bay Titans.

I'm not that much of a football fan so I'm not going to describe this boring game that my brothers (and Jason) enjoyed watching. However, I'm just going to say one thing I'd been meaning to say and something that was dear to me. There was something I had realized…I know that after all Jason had said that he didn't want me to leave but if he somehow did say he wanted to go…be free…break up per say I was willing to accept that. See, when you find a mate your feeling changes I wasn't going to force Jason to love me if he didn't anymore. I wanted him to be happy. Whenever I saw him smile it was like my world was bright and everything was in place. It wasn't normal this feeling but I was willing to accept truth…I loved Jason and I know Jason loved me but if that wasn't always the case I was going to accept that…sometimes the happiness of others is more important than your own happiness. Especially if that person is someone you love, you would do anything for them…not for yourself…they came first. I realized for the first time in my existence that that was my attitude towards most things and that was what Edward had been talking about all along. I looked at him for a second and he just smiled and nodded as if to say "yes Hazel" I smiled back at him and then looked at Jason who smiled and shook his head. I wanted to kiss him so badly but I couldn't without Edward freaking out later. So instead I just playfully flicked his nose and he laughed and flicked my nose back. We both just laugh – smiled as if we were sharing some sort of inside joke.

The Titans won the game and after the game Jason left after kissing me goodbye. I went to my room and worked on my scrapbook. I heard a knock on the door and tracked all of my siblings only to catch Alice's scent. I missed spending time with my sister and I guess I needed it.

"Can I come in?" she asked.

"Yes" I said and Alice gracefully walked into the room and sat down on the floor beside me.

"I feel like I haven't seen you in forever" she said.

"I agree" I said.

"So how are things going with Jason" she asked me.

"Haven't you seen anything?" I said rolling my eyes.

"No…I want to hear all about it" Alice said.

"Fine…from what point?"

"Did he kiss you yet?" Alice asked not in a nosy way but in a sisterly type of way.

I slowly nodded my head and Alice squealed with delight "OK Alice calm down" I said and she froze for a second.

"Wait does Edward know?"

"What do you think he read my mind anyway and do you think I would even mention it to him?" I said in a half serious half joking way.

Alice rolled her eyes in a "duh" way and we both laughed. We basically just chatted and I missed these types of chats with my sister. I could talk to her about certain things that I couldn't talk to Edward about *cough* Jason *cough*.

After hanging out with Alice for a while I went to see what Edward was up too. He was sitting with Bella who was still on the couch and Jasper and Emmett were still watching sports on the television I sat down next to Edward and Bella smiled at me. Edward ruffled my hair and he put his arm around me.

"I see you were with Alice" Edward whispered.

"Yes" I said in a puzzled voice and Edward smirked for a second as I rolled my eyes.

"Don't worry Haze I feel your pain" Bella said.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Edward asked in a playful voice.

"Oh nothing" Bella said shrugging and I had to fight to keep from laughing. Edward widened his eyes as if to say "seriously" and Bella just stared at him. I couldn't help but cracking up.

"Oh now I see where the influence is coming from" Edward said looking at me and I pretended to be innocent.

I think Edward would've jumped on me if Bella wasn't injured lying in his lap. She was definitely doing a bit better but her bones were a bit broken and her eye was still swollen and bruised. Bella adjusted her hand but it brushed against her IV which was unhooked and her hand was cut. Jasper and Emmett hadn't hunted in a while and weren't as used to being around Bella when she was bleeding. Emmett just held his breath but Jasper's eyes turned a deep black and I was ready to get him outside if he couldn't handle it.

Edward turned around reading Jasper's thoughts and then furrowed his eyebrows "it doesn't bother you anymore Jazz?" he asked and Jasper could only nod.

"When we were prisoners I overcame it." Jasper said and we all just stared at him.

"Damn" Emmett said.

"But I probably should hunt" Jasper said.

"Me too" said Emmett and they went to hunt although they knew that Edward would want to stay with Bella they asked him to come anyway. Bella told him to go but Edward wouldn't (of course).

"Hey I'm so putting on South Park" I said Bella and Edward rolled their eyes but gave in.

"How do you like that show?" Bella asked.

"Believe it or not it's pretty good" I said.

"She's actually right…at times" Edward said and I looked at him with a playful glare.

The episode was the one with the vampires so we were cracking up throughout the whole thing…even Bella who didn't appear to like the show at first. The next episode was the one where Lemmiwinks had to defeat Wikileaks (his brother) that was posting evil rumors about the kids in the elementary school. Next Edward put on the history channel and I told him not to but he was being Edward and not listening. The only reason he did was because he wanted Bella to see exactly what time period we were from since the special was about the Spanish Influenza outbreak. Film clips rolled by of people in hospitals dying.

"But one of the most hard hit areas was Chicago, Illinois" Cameron Dean (P.H.D) said and clips that were in Chicago hospital were shown.

I buried my face in Edward's shirt since I was unable to watch…it still pained me to watch these things that happened in my past. Edward stared at the screen with a sullen expression and Bella watched in horror.

"Dr. Carlisle Cullen is here to say a few words with us" said Jerry Spring (a reporter in the early 1900s).

Carlisle came onto the screen (in black and white of course). "We do not have direct proof where the source of the virus is occurring but all we know is that hundreds are dying by the day and a cure is in the process of discovery…but slowly." Carlisle said and the camera went to people who were dying in hospitals.

"It was reported that as of September 18, nine teen eighte-"but I shut it off…I couldn't watch it anymore.

"Haze?" Edward said knowing I probably was about to have a nervous breakdown.

"Sorry" I said.

"Why are you sorry" Edward asked.

"I don't know" I said burying my face in his shirt again.

Edward stroked my hair and told me everything was fine but I still couldn't erase the scars of my past that were cut through me for all eternity.

There was something strange going on…it was like I was spacing out…it was something vampires did rarely. It was weird...I was in the Volturi castle again and they had broken their promise…"NO! NO! NO!" I was screaming and I had turned…it was like that time where we were in the castle after Edward tried to kill himself except Felix didn't stop killing Edward.

"NO! I screamed and snapped out of my trance. Edward was holding me close to him and stroking my hair telling me it was OK. I had realized that I needed my brother and due to all of this constant confusion everything was spinning in circles. I had been so naïve lately it was crazy. I was beginning to wonder if I was going to turn into a paranoid mess though.

"I'm going to see what Jason's up too." I said.

Edward raised his eyebrows "OK" he said and I gave him a hug before leaving (same with Bella). I texted Jason from my phone only to realize he beat me to it.

Jason: sup bitch (good way)

Me: WTF

Jason: jk lol wanna come over?

Me: hell yeah!

Jason: Kyle's not home so we have the house to ourselves

Me: I see where this is going…

Jason: just come over

Me: kk

I jumped out my window and sprinted to Jason's house. Jason had beaten me to the door and we said hey to each other. He led me to his bedroom and we sat on the bed.

"So" Jason said.

"Yes" I said and Jason raised his eyebrows.

I rested my head on my shoulder and looked at him…taking in how lucky I was that this beautiful boy was standing right in front of me…I knew what he wanted and it was hard for me to admit I wanted the same thing…I wanted him. I lay down on the bed in his room and motioned for him to come over. He kissed me passionately and I kissed him back. It was unlike the times before though…more rough…aggressive.

"I love you" Jason said.

"I love you too" I said I realized why in the middle of this he was telling me that. I unbuttoned Jason's shirt and threw in on the floor he turned over and I was now on top of him…

"I want you so bad right now" Jason said and I let him take my shirt off as well. I knew what I was about to give up…but I was ready. I had died every single day waiting for Jason and now I felt as if there was nothing in the world that could take me from him…nothing. As everything continued I was in heaven…I know it might make me sound like a boy obsessed girl or whatever but I didn't really care.

I had him right now…now. Jason was mine and I was his. I was giving it up to him…he was the one I loved…the one who would be mine forever. I felt like my body was a live wire…it was in electric shock overdrive. I felt myself about to go crazy. I ran my hands through Jason's hair and his arms were wrapped around me. I picked myself up and kissed him again…my eyes closed I was taking the moment in I opened my eyes at that second and just stared at him realizing what I had. Jason kissed my neck passionately and I listened to the sound of his breathing. It was still weird to me that I was losing my virginity before Edward but that wasn't my concern right now. After this however, I would have to face Edward and whatever he wanted to throw at me. Jason did it at that moment and I took a deep breath. We both just looked at each other and it was like I was seeing him for the first time.

Jason pulled me closer to him and I closed my eyes taking in his scent. He kissed my hair and I playfully tapped his lips. He smirked for a second and hungrily kissed my jaw.

"Jason" I said in my "pretend annoyed" voice.

Jason laughed "Hazel" he mocked I pinned him down and he pretended to be scared. "Please don't hurt me" he said and covered his face. I rolled my eyes and smirked at him. I looked at the clock it was 8am. I had been here for officially fourteen hours and I tracked my siblings to see what they were up too. "Wanna go to the waterfall today?" Jason asked.

"Hell yeah!" I said.

Jason shook his head jokingly, "You're so awesome" he said and I raised my eyebrows. "You need to chill Hazel seriously" Jason said putting on swim trunks. I was just going to go in my clothes anyway (not that I cared) they were my plain shorts and t-shirt (don't ask me why I was wearing shorts in the middle of February). Jason took my hand and swung me onto his back as he jumped out of his window and sprinted towards the waterfall.

I stayed with Jason for the majority of the day until I got a frantic text message from Edward…

Edward: WHERE ARE YOU!

Me: relax Eddie I'm fine and with Jason

Edward: can you come home?

Me: yes

Edward: thanks

Me: you're welcome?

Edward: c u soon

"I have to go home J" I said and Jason sighed.

"K bye Hazel…love you" he said and gave me a quick hug and kiss before I sprinted home…in my wet clothes not to add.

I wondered how I was supposed to explain this to Edward but I also remembered that if I just didn't think about it when he was around I would be safe…right? I knew that if I let my guard down that there would be trouble for both Jason and I. I sprinted through the woods and when I reached the house I made sure I didn't look too suspicious…just a little wet (Edward wouldn't care about that right). I jumped upstairs to my window and changed my clothes into a plain white t-shirt and a pair of grey jeans. I walked downstairs and saw Edward sitting with Bella who was eating a plate of fruit salad, and a glass of milk (good for injuries and bone healing).

"Hey Haze" Edward said pulling me towards him and I laughed.

"Sup" I said trying to sound like Jason and he flicked my hair. I shook my head jokingly and smirked. To Bella I said "how are you feeling?" although I knew the answer.

"I'm feeling a little better, still sore and broken bones but other than that I'm mending" she said.

I nodded, "I guess that's good" and she smiled "oh yeah I forgot…SOUTH PARK!" I shouted jumping on Edward's hair.

"Haze!" he said shaking me off and I laughed before grabbing the remote and changing the channel (and putting my feet on the couch since it annoyed Edward). "Put the feet down…you're supposed to be a 'good little girl' your feet are dirty and then you go putting them on the couch?!" Edward said making me put my feet down and I rolled my eyes.

"Neat freak much" I said and Bella laughed.

"What?" Edward said in a threatening voice or pretending.

"Oh nothing" I said.

"Nothing?"

"Nothing"

"Nothing" Edward said in pretending to be innocent and trying to be funny voice.

"You are so stupid" I said and his eyes went wide.

"What?" he said with his eyes wide trying to keep from laughing.

"Nothing" I said.

"Oh you said something Haze" he said ruffling my hair and nearly "suffocating" me

"Eddie!" I said not helping laughing and he left me alone. Except he tortured me by singing and forcing me to listen while Bella just laughed amused by the whole thing and as usual (like normal siblings) Edward and I had sibling times like this.

As much as my life was as perfect as it seemed everyone had their little…problems if you will. I had some at this current minute but I was trying not to think about it as much in fear of the consequences. I threw on South Park (channel 190).

Edward rolled his eyes and turned to Bella "do you believe her" he said smirking.

"Oh come on she's not that bad" Bella said.

"Thank you Bella" I said and to Edward "YOU SEE!"

"I was just kidding" Edward said through gritted teeth jokingly and ruffled my hair.

Cartman was yelling for help and Stan and Kyle were saying how they had to get out of there. Next thing we know an army helicopter comes onto the screen and the guy yells. "Don't worry everyone the government is here to save you."

And one of the citizens say "Oh wow what a swift and speedy rescue."

Stan says that they have to get to the roof and a part of the staircase falls. Just as Kyle is about to go with Stan to the helicopters Cartman stops him.

"Not so fast Kyle" he says and Kyle looks at him and asks what he is doing. Cartman asks Kyle to hand over the gold and Kyle asks "what gold" Cartman says that Kyle knows what he is talking about but Kyle insisted he didn't.

"All Jews carry gold in a little bag around their necks" Cartman said

Then they got into this whole thing where Cartman forces Kyle to hand over his Jew Gold because Cartman pulled out a gun. Kyle and Cartman's love hate relationship reminded me of Emmett and I how he would always make fun of me and call me dwarf but was cool at the same time. Kyle and Ike kind of reminded me of Edward and I. I'm not going to go into all South Park overdrive because once I start I probably won't stop until 3000 (which South Park will sadly be over in).

Sometimes life is just one jumble of events when you are thrown onto the planet and have to fix things that seem like you're doing but it's not in a way. Sometimes you think to yourself that this is meant to be life? Is life all it's cracked up to be? If you really think about it the truth is not really. But when I think of life and existence those are two different things…existence doesn't end…life does. I still am overwhelmed by the amount of gratitude I owe to Carlisle for saving my life that night and I could think to myself how could Edward not think that in the beginning of his rebellion years? I wanted to be someone in this existence I wanted to be heard…having someone know who I was. I knew Edward and Jason did…but they were just about the only people who I only let in…the only ones who I could turn to in a time. Actually there was really just one person who knew every basic thing about me and had firsthand seen it. The person who had been there with me through thick and thin…the person who I looked up to and was everything I wanted to be…the only one who I let into my life and the "girl" I really was…the person was Edward.

Edward had one arm bent with Bella nestled between his upper and forearm. Her eyes were closed and finally asleep after a quick battle of consciousness. Edward had his other arm around me holding me close to him. I loved being in Edward's arms I could just not think about anything and just not worry about anything as long as he was there I was safe.

"Hazel" he crooned in his comforting voice and I sighed for a split second. He stroked my hair and kissed it. I laughed and closed my eyes as I breathed in his scent. He gave me his "Edward to Hazel" smile and I rested my head against his shoulder.

"I know I'm a monster and I'm not going to go into it but every day I pray I won't hurt Bella. When I returned from my rebellion I prayed to him and asked him to never let me hurt you and…" I was sick of him doing this to himself why couldn't he just see the good in himself…did he only see himself as a vicious, self-loathing monster because that wasn't how I saw him.

"Eddie…I'm not going to let you go any farther OK whatever you think of yourself it's not true. You think that you're the worst creature in existence but you're not…the only thing you think about is everyone else. If you were the person you thought you were would you have turned Bella by now…yes. But no you kept her humanity because you cared about her…you thought about her. I said.

Edward pulled me closer to him and held me tight I shut my eyes and took in every minute of it. I know that it was stupid but for one split second…just a second I was able to sleep.

Even though I loved having Jason in my life (existence) I missed the old days when it was just Edward and I (even before Bella).Edward did though go through a very tough period and we both had each other when we were mate less. We basically just stuck together it amazed me how we had been through practically everything together. Edward had practically been with me every day of my life. Bella moved uneasily in her sleep and coughed for a second. Her heart monitor sped up and Edward's head sprang up in less than a tenth of a second. I rubbed his arm assuring him everything was OK and he relaxed his tense position slightly.

"Are we ever going to find whoever did this to Bella?" I asked and Edward looked at me for a second.

"You know Haze…I wish we could but I'm going to control myself and make sure that guy gets something coming to him…he's a crazed man but he'll be caught" Edward smirked for a second and I realized what he meant.

"Wow Eddie" I said and he shrugged in a sullen way.

"He's a fucking lunatic he should pay…he kidnaps innocent people for no freaking reason and then attacks a poor helpless girl for no reason. Then he tortures his victims…sick. Do you see what Bella is going through right now and how much it pains me?" Edward said although he didn't know it there was more than what was going on right now…but he just didn't know it yet.

We stayed with Bella for the rest of the day/night and spent somewhat of just Hazel and Edward time. Edward promised me that he would spend a day just with me when Bella got better. I knew I had to tell him about Jason…eventually. I knew I would have to go to one of my sisters. But it turns out Alice had already seen our conversation.

"Hazel" she said in a whispery voice. I turned my head and saw what she meant because she was gesturing half to Edward and half to my room.

"I'm going to go see what Alice wants" I said trying to make it like I was oblivious and Edward smirked as he kissed my hair and ruffled it as I got up from the couch. Alice had already beaten me to my room of course.

"So" I said.

"I saw it" Alice said and I rolled my eyes.

"SERIOUSLY ALICE!" I almost yelled.

"Sorry it's not my fault your maniac of a brother kind of made me" Alice said.

"Oh gosh does he know?" I asked and Alice shook her head. I felt no vibration I should've known Edward would make her do something like that.

"Well you're lucky that you are my sister and one of the only people I can talk to about this." I said since I knew Alice wanted to hear everything and she sat with anticipation.

"Geez can you at least calm down" I said.

Alice shook her head, "Geez Haze" she laughed and flicked my hair.

"Beginning?" I asked.

"What do you think?" Alice said.

I rolled my eyes. Of course Alice was going to pull this crap on me…she hated missing one little detail but I guess it was normal because after all if that wasn't the case than my name wasn't Hazel Lucy Masen Cullen. I wondered if when Jason became my "official" mate (even though he practically was) that my name would become Hazel Lucy Masen Cullen Weismann that would be a long name but I decided long ago I would always keep the name Hazel Cullen. It was something I owed to Carlisle for saving my life so I kept his last name so I would always be his adopted daughter technically. Alice cleared her throat impatiently and I had my head wrapped up in too many thoughts that I was so caught up in.

"OK well first it started out as just me going to his house. I got there and he told me what he wanted. I had been realizing I wanted the same thing…I just wouldn't admit it to myself. We both lay down on his bed and just kissed he told me he loved me and right then and there I knew that I was going to give it up then and there. I took Jason's shirt off and he let it go willingly. I let him do the same to me. Basically it was everything you saw and…" but Alice wouldn't let me off so easily.

"COME ON HAZE!" she merely shouted.

"Fine" I said and Alice squealed with delight as I looked at her with slight anger, annoyance, & playfulness.

"We just basically kissed the whole time and exchanged a few phrases here or there. Everything unfolded pretty smoothly if you will and basically it was one of the best nights of my existence. I had my eyes closed practically the whole time and took in every moment I could. I was afraid I was dreaming and I would wake up and be back in the hospital or dead in is only one thing I am dreading and that is when Edward finds out." I said. Alice bit her lip "No" I whispered knowing what she was about to tell me.

"He does find out and it's not pretty" she said and I knew she wasn't lying.

"He will be mad" I said.

"Not only that but he won't be mad at you…but mad at Jason." Alice said.

"What is he going to do?" I said.

"I don't know the vision went blurred after that" she admitted and I sighed. "We have to do something" she nodded in agreement.

"You know even though you are a bit annoying and fashionable you can be a very good sister at some points" I said.

"Thank you" Alice said and I rolled my eyes smirking in the slightest way.

I knew I had to be serious about Jason right now…I cared about him deeply if something happened to him I didn't know what I would do…I would probably die or something. I knew Edward wouldn't do something that bad to him though right…I mean he would probably only just go into overprotective mode right? I knew he was just trying to protect me but what was there to protect me from? Jason wasn't dangerous but of course in overprotective Edward's mind there was more to a story than there really was.

I would have to tell him sooner or later wouldn't I? I was dreading the fact if I had too. It was like there were signs flashing in my face that had Jason's name written all over it. My guilt overflowed into a complete wave of utter confusion. Alice looked at me with empathy…I could always count on Alice for a shoulder to lean on so that was just what I did. She stroked my hair and if I could I probably would be crying right now from the amount of stress in an overload. I felt myself getting a headache and gritted my teeth from the pain that was eating away at my heart.

I knew what I needed…to see Jason. I needed to see him and hear his voice I needed to make sure he was real and not some illusion created by my stupid mind. I needed to make sure he was OK and nothing had happened to him because if something did like I said before it would be a complete overload of my fault…right?

Sometimes life is just one big confusion box and misunderstanding. When something was supposed to be the best night of your life it ends up being one stressful overload. What if doing one thing hurts someone else but doing another thing hurts you or what if you are hurt both ways. I knew if it came down to life or death I would sacrifice myself…Edward would have to see that I loved Jason that much.

I looked at Alice and knew we both had to come up with a plan whether we liked it or not. The dependence was totally on our shoulders and the outcome of the situation rested in our hands…it was as if I was being thrown into a dark tunnel with two paths…one good and one bad except I had no light to guide me the decision was totally on my own. I was torn between two options…I had to go see Jason and Alice would come with me…we would tell him everything but I wasn't too sure about that because for one option Edward was sitting right downstairs. It was a possibility that he had heard my thoughts and I thought about possibilities I would have to endure…what consequences I would possibly face. Would I have to run? Hide? The thought of having to run and hide away from my own brother…EDWARD for that matter I was dying inside because of all of this. Decisions and stress were overruling my ability of thought. I knew one thing…if Edward didn't lose it (even though I was positive he would) it wouldn't be a good thing and I knew that it wasn't me he would be attacking…it was Jason.

Alice and I got up from the floor and listened for anything suspicious. I tracked Edward to see what he was doing and thought about asking Alice to use options 1 or 2 meaning she would say he either had or hadn't heard it. I didn't want to know however. It pained me too much to know the fact that my brother would be hiding the fact from me. I saw he was sitting calmly watching reruns of The Life and Death of Billy Plumb a radio show that had been on in our early years of vampire life and was turned into a TV show in the 50's. I knew one thing and that was that when Edward was depressed (from receiving news) he turned on programs from the fifties. So far this news was not turning out to be so good…no it wasn't for sure it wasn't I was afraid to go downstairs…afraid of what I might hear.

"We're going to have to do it sooner or later Haze" Alice said.

"Do you think he really heard because I'm just praying he didn't" I said.

"You tell me…lie detector" Alice said and I sighed knowing she would catch my feeble attempt to pretend that I had no lie detector or the fact that I wasn't using it. I still felt like the lights were flickering and that there was now no way to get out. This was definitely something I would have to get out on my own. I turned to Alice.

"I'm going to talk to Edward…you stay here I'll come back with any news. We may have to flee to Jason's house because if he is in a rage it's better that we leave him for a while to calm down. If you know what I mean…are you following" I said and Alice gave me a serious and joking look as if to say "I'm not stupid."

I groaned and put on my "think clearly" cap and opened the door to my room just a crack. I heard the sound of typing going on in Carlisle's office and Jasper in the room next door on the phone with clients that were part of our illegal document forging company. Rosalie and Emmett were hooking up like they did a billion times. I heard Esme mumbling to herself about the book she was reading. Bella was humming and Edward was still grumbling to himself. I rolled my eyes at how immature he was being but I guess I probably should be putting myself in his shoes and if I was him. But I knew he and Bella were going to do it during their honeymoon and I didn't really care but I guess it was the whole "little sister" prospective of it all and Edward's overprotectiveness.

I made my way down the stairs ready to face his anger…if he had any that is but I knew I was just lying to myself if he did…NO HAZEL STOP WHEN HE DID! I was mad at my mind for creating these illusions I knew Edward had caught my scent so I took a deep breath and walked down the stairs faster and into the den.

"Edward" I said in a soft voice almost cracking a bit. Edward looked at me for a second as if I was a victim of a horrible crime or whatever.

"He will pay" was all he said and my eyes widened as I tore back up the stairs horrified at both myself and my brothers own words themselves.