Ok I know I haven't updated in a really super extremely long time and there's no excuse for that. Soooooooooo yeah you can commence with throwing things at me T^T. Anyways here's the new update on Deadly Love!

Recap:

I look at Paul as he is apologizing to me and realize that he is sincere. I start to tear up as a feeling sweeps over me. A feeling that I haven't felt in a long time washes over me. Happiness. Love. I begin to cry again. Great I'm crying again! What the hell is going on with me.

"Oh shit Kira I didn't mean to make you cry. Aw man I'm such a douche bag Kira I'm sorry I should've never forced myself onto you either of times. Kira please don't cry please." Paul tells me as he tries to sooth my tears. I begin to laugh an actual heart filled laugh.

"Kira are you okay?" Paul asks me and he looks at me with concern. "I'm fine Paul."

I look him in the eyes. "I think I'm going to be just fine."

Kira's POV

Weeks had passed. Paul had kept his word and took care of me. The-um-ahem-kissing incident hadn't happened again and for some reason I was both grateful and saddened by it. Paul hadn't forced me to speak more than I wanted to but I noticed that I kept wanting to tell him more. I kept wanting to open myself up to him. Because for some unknown reason I had been given a second chance. I had been given hope and love once more. As I sit on my window sill looking up into the sky I wonder what kind of other being out there would want to screw with my life so much with these ups and downs. I heard the door from downstairs open and close indicating that Paul was back from his grocery shopping.

"Kira!" I heard him call my name out and didn't bother moving knowing that he would be able to smell me with his wolfy senses. I chuckled remembering my bewilderment when he told me that he was able to shift into a wolf. Apparently all the guys that I had met had that ability. It was a shock what came as more of a suprise was when Paul told me about vampires. I remember thinking that that was the reason why that asshole Edward was able to read my mind.

"Kira." I turned my head to the doorway to see Paul standing there. Leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest. Seeing him like this, no not just like this anytime I looked at him, sent my senses into overdrive. My heart would begin to beat faster and faster until it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. I was overcome with the woodsy metallic smell that is Paul and want nothing more to lay in it forever. I realized that I hadn't stopped staring and lifted the corners of my lips a tiny bit. I still wasn't used to full out grown smiling. For now this was the best that I could muster.

Paul crossed the distance between us and stopped just a few steps away. He had been doing this to show that he would give me time. He knew that all of this, these feelings, were still new to me and at times I would feel uncomfortable. So he would stop just like he had now to let me cross the space to him. I got off from where I was sitting and closed the distance. I wrapped my arms around and laid my head on his stomach almost meeting his chest. I felt his arms wrap around me and hold onto me as if he was afraid that I would disappear. I took in the smell I had grown accustomed to. I let it wrap itself around me fill me and become part of me.

"Is everything alright?" I heard him ask me. I took a deep breath and held it in before letting it out slowly. My resolve hardening before I slowly tucked it away in the back of my mind. I blinked a few times before finally looking up at him. I studied his face. Taking everything that was him in. I studied every fine line in his face starting from his forehead moving down into his eyes down to his nose at his cheekbones his chin and back to his mouth.

"Yes Paul." I told him. Remembering that everything I had told myself. Using it to strengthen myself to give me courage. He looked at me wondering somehow doubting if everything was alright. I removed my hands from him and to make up for the missing warmth reached for his hands. I rubbed circles with my thumbs on him. He squeezed my hands moving them up to place soft kisses on both of them. Making my heart flutter and my body temperature to rise as he did.

"I'm sorry Kira but I have patrol until 2 tonight. I'm supposed to start already but I just wanted to drop by and tell you before taking off." I took everything in. I nodded my head to show that I understood. He placed a gentle kiss on my cheek and gave me one last hug before he set off to leave. "Kira." He turned to look at me. "You know you have my heart. You've always had it. I'm not going to make you give me yours. But I know that you're trying your hardest to give me what you can. So thank you." He said before taking off running. I sat there watching where he once was. My resolve faltering the slightest bit. I sank to my knees silent tears making their way down my face. Love spreading throughout my being enveloping me in it's warm embrace. And I let it.

Paul's POV

I took off running to begin my patrol. Jake, Seth, and Quil were there sharing this patrol.

"Hey Paul. How's Kira?" I heard Quil ask me.

"She's alright. Well she says she is atleast." I said confusion filling my thoughts.

"What do you mean?" Jake asked me.

I showed them how I had seen Kira staring off into space and her somewhat hesistance with me at times.

"It's probably because she's still not used to all of this." The guys had known all that I knew seeing how it was practically impossible to keep any secrets from the pack.

"Yeah Seth you're probably right." I hoped that he was right. But for some reason I couldn't shake this feeling of worry and dread from me. I looked up to the sky in my wolf form stopping from my run for just a moment and prayed. Prayed with everything I had for my fallen angel and that everything would be okay.

When my shift finally ended I made my way to Kira's home. Where I had been staying for these past couple of weeks even though Blake had already returned and even though Kira's hand was healing just fine. I opened the door and made my way to the shower. I showered quickly and let myself into her room. A sigh of relief escaped me as I saw that she was still here in her bed sleeping. For some reason I thought that she had left making my heart constrict in pain. I soon found my way beside her bed and joined her. I covered myself with her blankets and wrapped my arms around her small lithe form and took a deep whiff of her. Her scent and the sound of her deep rhythmic breathing to lull me to sleep. I welcomed the much needed rest. And with I fell asleep forgetting the dread and worry from today.

Kira's POV

I woke up around 5 in the morning noticing that Paul was fast asleep. I managed to get out of his arms. I placed a small kiss on his forehead and grabbed the bag that I had packed earlier from the closet. I knew from what Paul had told me that Paul, Jake, Seth, and Quil had the last patrol for today so my leaving wouldn't be interrupted. I opened the window steadied myself on the sill and allowed myself one last look at Paul. I wanted so badly to climb back into bed and just lay there with him as I had done everyday since telling Paul all about me. But I remembered that this was for him. I was doing this for him. Because I truly cared for him I wasn't going to risk his life with my prescense. And with that thought in mind it gave me the strength and will to jump out of my window. I ran to the car shop that I had visited while Paul was on patrol in Forks. I had already explained to the owner that I was going to come by around this time and to just leave the car that I had left in his care with the keys in the ignition. I found the black charger and sure enough there were the keys. I had already given him money for taking care of it and took off down the road. I knew Paul would wake up around 6 like he always does and would head over to Emily's for breakfast. I looked at the clock and noticed that it had almost taken me an hour to get here. I was driving out of Forks when my phone rang. I didn't even need to look down to see who it was. I simply answered it.

"Hello?"

"Kira! Oh thank god where the hell are you?" I could hear Paul's voice hear the worry and relief that it held. I could hear everyone's voices so I guessed that he was at Emily's.

"Paul put the damn phone on speaker." I heard Gizmo's voice. "Alright alright." I could hear that I was on speaker now. "Kira what are you doing?"

"What do you think Blake. I'm sorry but I just couldn't. I couldn't put his life in danger like that." I said.

"Kira! Please just come home. Please don't worry I'm okay just please come home." Paul said it sounded like he was trying his hardest not to cry.

"I'm sorry Paul but believe me when I say that this is the only way."

"No Kira! Damnit no it's not! Just come back and we'll talk about this. Please don't do this I-I need you." I closed my eyes willing myself to not slow down and just turn around. I took in my surrounding noticing that I was alone on the street. I noticed how fast I was going and pressed on the brakes. Well tried would have been a better choice of words. I pressed again and again and noticed that I was not slowing down.

"FUCK!" I cursed loudly.

"Kira what happened?"

"Blake. I-I-I'm sorry." I realized that this was it. The car owner's face flashing in my face when I realized that he had looked familiar and remembering where I had seen him. He was like me an assassin and I had let him screw with my car. "Kira what are you sorry for?" Blake said letting the wory slip. "I broke my promise. Looks like you won't be the one to kill me afterall." I told him. "Kira wait just a fucking minute! What the hell are you saying?" "My car's brakes have been screwed with. They aren't working and I've only got a few more minutes left before I run straight into the curve. Blake thanks for everything you've ever done for me. Find someone Blake and hold onto her. Fight for her and don't ever let her go. Don't continue this like I did. Sam, Emily, Jared, Kim, Leah, Seth, Embry, Quil, Jake, Brady, Collin, thanks for giving me a home even though I probably didn't deserve it. I know I acted like a total bitch and none of you deserved it. Jake tell your dad that he's a pretty cool guy and thank you for making me go with you guys that first time we met. Paul-" I swallowed seeing the curve come nearer and nearer. "Paul thank you. You gave me my second chance. You gave me hope that I thought I had lost long ago. And for everything that you've given me Paul thank you so much. Paul-"

"Damnit Kira don't talk like that I'm gonna find you just try to steer or something I'm gonna be there just wait-"

"No Paul I need to tell you before it's too late. Paul you told me that I had your heart. Now Paul I need to tell you that you have my heart. Even though I've been too stubborn to admit it Paul you've always had it. Paul. Paul I-I love you." I finally say it as this warm tickling feeling spreads through me even though I'm getting closer and closer to my death.

"Kira please don't don't talk like that." He's crying and my heart aches knowing that I'm the cause of his tears.

"Paul please I need to hear you say it. Please." I hope he knows what I'm asking for.

"Kira-"I hear him sob a little "Kira I love you. I love you with everything I am."

"Thank you Paul. I really." I cut off letting the effects of his words fill me with joy. I gasp as my car crashes through the railing and I'm heading for the water. I'm going through the over 30 feet between me and the crashing waves.

"Kira-Kira!" I hear him. The tears fall freely and I accept them.

"Paul I'm glad your voice is the last one I hear." I tell him. The waves coming closer and just as they are about to hit I think of my parents "Mommy. Daddy." Is all I can say as the impact hits me and knocks me unconscience. I hear Pauls voice.

"Kira...Kira...KIIIIIRRAAAAAA!"

WIth the Pack at Emily's house Blake's POV

"Mommy. Daddy." Is all we hear before the sound of the impact fills the phone line.

"Kira...Kira...KIIIIIRRAAAAAA!" Is all Paul can say as he falls to his knees as the line goes dead. We sit there in silence. The sorrow filling each and everyone of us. I look around all the girls are crying. I didn't even realize but I'm holding onto Leah as she cries her heart out for the girl who died too early. I let her go and turn around and head to the nearest wall. I lay my head on it putting my hand on it before punching it. I keep punching and punching.

"Damn you Kira! You fucking bitch! You were supposed to kill me! I was supposed to kill you! We weren't supposed to die like this! Fuck you you took the easy way out! You couldn't fight me like we agreed on!DAMN IT!" I yell taking my sadness my anger my frustration on the poor wall in front of me. Blood covers my hand as I tore through the skin and tears cover my face. I look at Paul and notice that he's just there holding onto the phone saying her name over and over again. I wish that we could have her back. I just wish.

Paul's POV

There's nothing left. I want to be numb of all of this I want to be with my love my Kira. I want to bring her back. Why can't I bring her back. Why? What kind of cruel God would do something like this. Give me this wonderful girl just to rip her away from me. Why...why...

Back at the Crash site

A figure looks at the place where the car was last seen before going over the railing and plunging into the merciless waters below. The person turns around and looks back once again before heading to a waiting car and leaves to somewhere unknown.

(Dodges things being thrown) The story isn't over! I'm sorry but there's still another chapter where Paul is coping I'm really sorry but this is the only thing that I could think of and honestly I like it. So review flame me if you want. Thanks. I'll probably update sometime this week again. :)