Here is chapter 4. I'm not sure if I've said before, but I have loads more chapters for this on my DeviantArt page.
Under my bestest-friend V's instruction I am uploading more of my stuff on here, because she said it's annoying her that I upload DeviantArt more than I do on here.
Jon woke to see that Edward was not in bed with him.
He inhaled gruffly and ran his hand through his hair, letting a throaty cough come from him. He blinked slowly and got to his feet, stopping for a second to reposition his pyjama bottoms.
Edward was most likely downstairs, making food.
He couldn't smell any food though. How odd. Maybe Edward had just made him cereal or something.
He stumbled down the stairs, and saw no food on the table. He frowned; Edward always made him food.
What the hell?
"Edward?" Jon yelled hoarsely, "Edward, where the hell are you?!"
He looked through the house. No Edward.
"What the fuck? …Little shit…" Where would he have gone this early in the morning?
They had milk, eggs, sugar, tea, juice, bread.
Nothing that Edward would go out to get at this time.
He looked out the window, and a small smirk spread across his face.
Edward was sitting on the curb outside. Still in his pyjamas, his hair still mussed, his back hunched. Staring out at the road.
Jon shook his head gently, and opened the door, approching the small man, he was playing with a stick, dragging over the floor and pushing small pieces of gravel across the floor.
"Hey, kid, whatch'a doing out here? Still hung up On that nightmare?"
Edward shook his head, barely looking up from his stick, "Nah, I'm... I'm just thinking about something."
Jon laughed loudly, outstretching a hand and ruffling Edward's hair, making the man jump slightly, "Oh, Eddie... you shouldn't think, you'l hurt yourself."
Jon took Eddie by the arm, helping, almost forcing him up, "You scared me for a minute. I was starting to think I might have to make my own breakfast." He tugged at Edward's arm, and began leading him back into the house, "Come on, we can't have people seeing you out here like this."
"Ok Jon," Edward said listlessly.
Had Jon even noticed that he was upset? He definately had. Did he simply not care?
jon closed the door behind Edward, and sighed, a sigh directed at the smaller man, but Edward wasn't sure what it meant. "Do you plan on making me breakfast or what?" Jon eventually said with a soft smile.
Edward nodded and walked into the kitchen, he pulled out his phone, once he was sure Jon was no longer watching.
Dent: I hope I didn't upset you last night. I just want to make sure you're ok.
Edward smiled sadly to himself.
Why couldn't Jon be more like Harvey?
Harvey ... Harvey was different.
Harvey admitted when he had made mistakes, Harvey didn't treat Edward like his lesser, Harvey so obviously cared about Edward's feelings.
Harvey wouldn't demean Edward's intelligence like Jon did.
I'm fine, I'm just trying to decide.
He looked around the kitchen, trying to find something to make for Jon.
"Toast?" he called through to the livingroom, where Jon lounged on the sofa, cradling the TV remote in his hand.
"Nope," Jon called back.
Eddie chewed his lip, looking through the cupboards, "Wheatabix?"
"Nope."
"Cornflakes?"
"Nope."
"Shredded-wheat?" Eddie asked, his voice growing slightly higher with the word; fearing Jon's response.
"Edward," Jon almost snapped, Edward heard him get to his feet, and felt himself tense as he heard the man approach, and felt a hand grasp onto his arm. "What the hell is going on with you? You know I hate shredded-wheat," he shook Edward's arm slightly, "Get your head on straight Edward."
He let go of Edward's arm, leaving the smaller man to cower in on himself. "S-sorry, Jon."
"Make me scrambled eggs," Jon said slowly, a small smile on his lips, "And don't burn them," he waggled his finger gently, as he walked back to the livingroom.
Edward found himself fighting back tears, his inside scrunching up inside him.
He silently walked to the fridge, and took three eggs from it. He blinked rapidly, trying to swallow the lump in his throat, not being able to, finding his throat quivering.
He quickly cracked the eggs, and put them in a bowl with some milk. He placed them in the microwave, feeling his throat tightening more with every second.
"C-can you k-keep an eye on them for m-me," he half-whispered to Jon, biting hard on his lip to stop himself sobbing.
"Yeah sure," Jon said with a wave of his hand, "Just don't take too long."
Edward ran up the stairs, trying to be as quiet as possible, and he shut himself in the bathroom. He sat on the toilet seat and put his head in his hands.
Tears began to pour from him and he began to shake.
He felt so scared.
He felt like a black hole had sparked inside him with Jon's words. Making him want to collapse in on himself.
He stomped his feet gently, digging his finger nails into his scalp, tears falling into his lap, silent sobs escaping his lips.
The third time this week.
This was the third time he had found himself locked in here, crying because of something Jon had done.
Why did he put up with this?
Maybe Harvey was right, maybe he should just leave.
There was no way he could just leave. Jon depended so much on him, and… Jon wouldn't just let him go.
He got annoyed enough when Edward left the house for extensive periods of time. The mere idea of Eddie leaving would send the man mad, he was sure.
"Eddie! Hurry up you… silly kid…" Jon's voice called up. Edward wiped his sleeve quickly across his eyes.
Edward got to his feet and looked at himself in the mirror; his eyes were puffy and red, the sight made Edward let out another scoffed sob; Jon hated seeing Eddie cry, it made him shout, which made Eddie cry more, which made Jon shout more, and so on and so on.
He cleaned his face and walked downstairs.
He looked over at Jon, who lay, uncaring, on the sofa, he didn't even bother to look up.
He swallowed again.
How could he do this?
How could he betray a man he had been with for this long?
How could he possibly escape this life, the life he and Jon had crafted together.
How could he justify this?
How?
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