All That I Got Chapter 4: This Pizza's For You, an orphan black fanfic

Author's Note: Thank you everyone who has followed this story and is reading it. I hope you guys are enjoying it. I haven't gotten any reviews yet but I'm guessing you lot are getting a kick outta it. This chapter is a bit on the funny side. Some light in the midst of darkness.

Chapter 4

The Pizza's on Us

Sarah sat down across from Cosima and Alison who were nervously wondering what they were going to tell Paul when he got back from his mission with Delphine. After the phone call with Helena, Paul had decided to take everything on. He wanted to bring down the organization. Delphine was right behind him. She was determined to get a cure for Cosima. Sarah decided it was time to go after Helena once and for all but it didn't really go the way she had planned. Helena had escaped and they wondered what went wrong. Something was missing.

Now, the girls looked from one to the other with worried and confused faces. "Do we even know exactly what happened?" Sarah asked frantically.

"Okay, how about we each tell the story from our own view," Cosima suggested. "From there, we can each get our stories straight. Right? That can't hurt. Can it?"

"I'm fine with that," Alison said. "I'm shocked she didn't kill us all to be honest with you. What was I going to tell my kids if I died?"

"Alison, hold on, yeah," Sarah said putting her hand up to stop her from speaking.

"You wouldn't be able to tell your kids anything cause you'd be dead in the ground," Cosima said nonchalantly.

Alison gasped and put her hand to her chest. "Cosima!"

"I owe you," she said matter-of-factly.

"Who wants to go first, yeah? Anyone?" Sarah asked.

"I'll go," Alison said.

She began her story when the phone call came through. From the very beginning.

"Well, it all started when Sarah received a phone call from the psychopath, Helena. You were here for that, Paul. You as well, Delphine. So I don't have to tell you this," Alison began.

Sarah shook her head. "They were here for that, Alison," she criticized. "Start from where they left. We have to re-count this with them. Which scares the living shit out of me."

"I want to do this as thoroughly as I possibly can," she retorted. "Are you going to interrupt each time you don't like what I have to say or can I go on?"

Sarah put her hands up in defeat. "Yeah, alright, go on."

"Thank you. Now as I was saying, Paul and Delphine reacted to the phone call in a panic. Delphine wasn't sure how it was possible so we all asked Sarah to re-count what happened. She did and Cosima came up with an idea. She rose from her chair with a eureka moment all over her smug face."

Alison continued to re-count the events the way she saw them:

"I know how Helena could have regenerated," Cosima said. "She could have had some kind of regeneration property in her skin perhaps? Or maybe it's on a cellular level! Like how Kira survived that crash cause let's face it, without that, she would have been dead."

"Cosima, if you say it like that one more time I'm going to punch you in the mouth, yeah?" Sarah said as she inched closer to Cosima.

Cosima backed off, as she usually does. Sarah was the boss and had to take control of everything. You know how it is. Anyway, I was just sitting there innocently watching the events unfold.

"I didn't mean anything by it," Cosima defended herself. "Sarah, let's face it. You passed something to Kira and if Helena is your twin, she's got the same properties in her biology."

"So are you going to shoot me to see if I live just to prove a point?" Sarah asked.

"No, why the hell would you even say that?" Cosima shouted.

"Because you're always on about science!"

Paul broke up the fight and said, "come on, there's no reason for this."

And then Delphine said, "Yes, what he said."

Paul looked at Sarah with a hint of lust in his eyes. I think it's because he enjoyed the fact that Sarah was so passionate about everything. He held onto her arms dramatically and said, "I'm going to go look for Kira with Delphine. You should go with the others. Go with them to find Helena. Maybe all of you can end her once and for all."

That's when Sarah replied with, "Yeah, we each have our strengths. I'm brave and strong while Cosima is intelligent and resilient. And Alison, well, Alison is just Alison. She can't do much but we'll take her anyway."

That's when I said, "I can do a lot! I was called a head strong woman you know."

"Hard headed maybe," Sarah scoffed at me.

I was offended but let it go. It was after Paul and Delphine left that I went with Sarah and Cosima to track down Helena. We left the apartment and drove in my SUV to the diner where Helena was meeting us.

It was such a dump. I mean, it was really falling apart. I don't understand how anyone in their right mind would even eat there. Anyway, Sarah made a comment about how her and Helena had eaten there before. I guess I got my answer about the whole who eats there thing. I laughed to myself while Sarah and Cosima both thought I was insane.

So we walked inside to see Helena slumped over in her chair eating what looked like Jell-o but it had a ton of sugar in it. Quite frankly, I think Helena might end up dying from diabetes before any of us kill her.

She looked up from her meal, if you could call it that, and motioned for us to come closer. It was extremely unsettling and creepy. This was the first time I was even exposed to Helena. I didn't like it but I soldiered on to meet her bravely.

I took a seat across from her and Cosima sat next to me while Sarah sat next to Helena. We all looked at each other as if we didn't really think any of it was real. That's when Helena spoke. "So these are the others?" she said. Her voice made my skin crawl. Most likely because it was my voice but with a sick and twisted rasp to it. Oh and not to mention that Ukrainian accent!

Anyway, Sarah nodded her head and said, "I think it's about time you meet the rest of us, meathead. How did you survive?"

"Not here, I will tell you later," Helena replied. "I want to know about the others."

"How do we know you won't kill us like you did the others?" Cosima asked.

"I will not," Helena said. "I only hurt those who hurt me."

"How did the other clones hurt you?" Cosima pressed further.

"Tomas told me they were hurting me so I hurt them," she explained. She then stuck her face in a bowl of oatmeal. I couldn't make that up even if I tried. Well, after that happened, we all stared at her for a moment.

As she resurfaced I said, "You do know that God frowns upon murder."

"He only frowns upon it when it is not done in his name," she said. "Tomas told me that I was the original but seestra tells me that I'm not that."

"Why do you trust me so much?" Sarah blurted.

"You are my seestra," she said. "These others, they are mere copies."

"We are a bit more than copies. We are all the same. Even though you and Sarah shared a womb and are closer in genetics which is odd considering we are all clones, so it should be the same. And you know, science stuff that I say too fast no one can really catch what the hell I'm saying," Cosima explained the best way she know how.

After that, I was stuck paying for the check. Thankfully, Donnie still left money in our account. So, we walked out of the place and into an alley. It was deserted. Weirdly so. That's when Helena told us to follow her. We went with her and Sarah had her hand on her gun.

We walked into this large warehouse that seemed to be all but abandoned. Helena turned around to look at Sarah.

"You know you put blood stains on my favourite jacket," she whispered. "It was my favourite and now I cannot wear it."

"I'm real sorry Helena but did you forget that you shot and killed our mum?!" Sarah shouted.

That's when things got weird. Sarah pounced on Helena sending her backwards. Sarah then started to shout something. I didn't really catch it. But that's when I heard her hitting Helena. Poor Helena! I mean, she did kill people and that's horrible but I think there was a child-like quality to her. She didn't know any better! Oh God, why am I defending her? Right, let me get back on track.

Cosima and myself rushed over and pulled Sarah off. That's when Helena said, "you do not understand what it was like for me! They only taught me to hate. Never to love. That woman is the reason I am what I am."

I looked over to her and said, "We should bring her to Tobias."

"You would like that right? Letting your new boyfriend see Helena and try to help her? No, she took everything from me and it's time for her to die."

Sarah was about to shoot Helena, again. As if that was going to work. Cosima jumped in and stopped her.

"Alison has a point," she said. "She's obviously had some seriously psychological shit happen to her. It would be good to get her back to someone who could try to help. It's a long shot but it might help."

"Cosima, even if that did help, there is no way she'd be ready for society," Sarah said.

While they fought back and forth, I made my way over to Helena. I crouched down next to her and placed a hand on her shoulder. "Helena, can I ask you something?" I asked her.

"That was already a question," she replied to me. Smart mouth and psycho. Great combo.

"No, I mean, another question other than that one and this one," I said with a sigh. "If you grew up with Sarah, do you think your life would be better?"

"Yes, I would have had my Seestra to help me and I would have had a brother as well," she replied.

I felt a pang of sadness for her. That's when I shouted, "GUYS! Please, can we just take her to Tobias. This isn't fair. She's not really in control of anything. Can't we give her an insanity plea here and get her some help?"

"The only way she'd get any good help is if we stick her in an insane asylum," Sarah said angrily.

"I just think that might be the best for Helena," I said. "It can't hurt."

"Who is Tobias?" Helena asked.

I turned back to her and replied, "He's a very nice man who helps people. He would know how to help you."

"He cannot take away the past," Helena said. "It is done."

"Right but the future is still being written," I said. "You can still have a good life, Helena. You can if you let him help you."

So, long story short, Helena agreed so we took her to Tobias. I had to fight Sarah on hand cuffing Helena to the roof of the car.

Once we got there, Tobias was surprised to see us. His hair looked perfect. He was standing there in those jeans I liked and he was really charming as usual.

"Alison, what a surprise, what's up?" he asked.

"I need help," I said. I entered first and then the rest of us did. We stood there in front of him. I don't think he had ever seen us all together. I think I heard his balls hit the floor. He looked at each one of us carefully. It was if he was examining us. When he got to me, she smiled at me and kissed me lightly. It was nice but Helena kind of didn't know what to think.

"You are with him?" Helena asked.

"Yes, that's how I know he's a good man," I said. "We all have our lives. Each one of us so different."

Tobias walked back across from us. He crossed his arms over his chest. "So, what can I help you with?"

"It's a long story but Helena here is psycho and she needs help," Sarah said harshly.

"Sarah!" I turned to her and shook my head. "That's not nice! She's right there! She's been nothing but compliant. The least you can do is give her a fucking chance!"

"Fine! You want to help her so bad, you go ahead and do it," Sarah said. That's when she stormed off. Cosima stayed with us.

"Okay," he said. "Um, Helena, would you like to take a seat?"

Helena nodded and sat down on the couch. Tobias sat across from her while me and Cosima took his love seat. Helena seemed like she was studying Tobias.

"Helena's a pretty name," he started. "It's a strong Greek name."

"They name me this because they told me I was the holy body of God," Helena said. "I was the original."

"Helena," Cosima interjected. "None of us are the original. Cloning doesn't really work that way. You see, you need an adult to take cells from so whoever our original is, she's older than us. She has to be at least eighteen years or older than us. That's if she even is still alive. They could have cloned someone who has since passed away. We don't know. There are a lot of uncertain things about this."

"Is that because science told you?" Helena asked. "How do you know science is right?"

"Well, it's because we have proof," Cosima replied. "You can see science, you can feel it and it's all around us."

"There is proof of God," Helena said. "We are here because of Him."

"I don't know if there's a God, Helena," Cosima went on. "There isn't proof. I'm not sure what they told you but that's not true. I can show you whatever you want me to."

"Helena, how did you feel just now?" Tobias asked.

Helena looked at Tobias. It was like she was thinking. Thinking about something, I'm not sure. It was deep though. Like she was looking into him. He shifted a bit in his seat but then she finally said, "She is very smart."

It was more about what Helena thought than what she felt so Tobias said, "That's not a feeling. Are you happy, sad or mad?"

"I do not know," Helena said. "It is mixed. I am happy that you are all kind. Sad that seestra does not like me."

"Sister?" Tobias looked from Helena to me and Cosima.

"Well, the cell inside of their surrogate birth mother split while it was inside her," Cosima said.

"So, their clone twins?" Tobias asked.

"Please don't use the c-word," I said. The word really did make me uneasy.

"Okay, sorry," Tobias said. "So, Helena, why do you think she doesn't like you?"

"I have killed," Helena said. "I killed three people and she is upset."

"No, you killed four!" Cosima interjected again.

"I did not kill four," Helena said. "I kill only three."

"Okay, now, Cosima why do you say it's four?" Tobias asked.

"There were three clo-people she killed in Europe and then she followed a German one of us, Katja, and she killed her!"

"I followed Katja but I could not kill her," Helena said. "There are others."

"Sarah told me they found a doll's head at the crime scene. She told me that she found a Bible with a passage circled. The place was trashed and there was a doll's body on the Bible," Cosima stated. "Are you telling me that you didn't do that? They could have taught you to be a sniper. Did you know that women make better snipers because they are more patient?"

"It was a woman," Helena said. "Someone else."

"Who?" Tobias asked. "Who was it who hurt this girl?"

"She would not want me to tell her name," Helena said.

"You're in a safe place, Helena," Tobias said. "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay."

Helena looked over at him as if she didn't believe at first but then her eyes, well, they lit up. Like my kids' eyes lit up on Christmas day.

"You could go after them, yes?" she asked. "Make them hurt the way I hurt others?"

"Revenge leads us down a dark path," Tobias said. "We want to heal, we want to move away from the violence. Would that be okay with you?"

Helena sank into her chair. "I suppose so."

"Good," Tobias said with a smile. "Now, Helena, I want to talk to you more. Is that okay with you?"

Helena looked Tobias over from head to toe. She was thinking about something deep. Her eyes gazed into his and she finally nodded her head softly.

"Alright, can you come back here alone tomorrow?" he said.

This is when I interjected. I didn't want him alone with her. What if she hurt him? My mind went into overdrive so I shouted, "NO! I have to be here or someone has to be here! Sarah could be here! She loves Sarah!"

Tobias turned to me and placed hand on my knee. "It's fine, Alison," he said. "Helena isn't going to hurt me." He turned back to her. "Isn't that right, Helena?"

Again, Helena nodded her head slowly. She looked from me to him and then over to Cosima. "I would like this very much."

"Can we have a side bar over here?" Cosima then asked. This is where it all went to shit. We effed this all up right here.

We went off to the side and Cosima asked me what I was doing and I answered her. We got into a fight while Tobias tried to break us apart.

"We have to give Helena some trust here if we don't, she'll never recover," Cosima said.

"She's right," Tobias said. "Everything is fine. I'll have my cell phone on, if anything goes wrong, I'll call for help. If it really makes you feel better, perhaps Sarah can bring Helena and she can stand guard."

"I don't think that is going to work," Cosima said. "Helena killed her birth mother in front of Sarah. She was angry because she split them up. I think she really just wants to get close to Sarah and that was the best thing she could think of. It's programmed in her."

"Sarah mentioned something about deprogramming her," I stated. "She told me about it. She said that was what Leekie told her."

"Leekie wouldn't be the one to deprogram her, it would have been my father," Tobias said. "There is no way he would be gentle about it. I have to do it. Allow me to do this."

I guess while we were talking, Helena escaped through his window because we turned around and she was gone. We were really stupid.

"Look! She's fucking gone! Now what?" Cosima yelled. "Sarah is going to have a heart attack! I'm going to go find her. I can't handle this and Alison, you damn well know why."

Um, some things were said in private between me and Cosima following that and then Cosima left. I was there with Tobias and he said, "We can track her through the GPS on her phone. She wants redemption. She wants to be in her sister's life. She even wants a part of your lives. She just doesn't know how to do that. She's like a child. She's stuck in that mind set. Children want structure. They need it. The structure she received was one of abuse."

"She didn't mention abuse," I pointed out.

Tobias shook his head. "She didn't have to. I can tell. This girl was taken and programmed to kill. There was no other motive. She looks like she's been through hell and back. She's not an evil person. When I was doing my internship, I sat down with sociopaths and psychopaths. They had no remorse. They had nothing. There was no feeling for no one else. Helena, she's different. I have to help her. She can get through this. Hope isn't lost for her."

"I guess this is her second chance," I said.

After that, we kissed and I left his place. I ran back to Felix's and here is where I waited for the rest of you. Which you took a while! I don't even know what happened after that.

As Alison finished her story, Sarah and Cosima sat with sour looks on their faces.

"Is that how you see me?" Cosima asked.

"Yeah, I mean, you're so science minded. I had no idea what you were talking about half the time," Alison said as if she were dismissing her.

Cosima had a look of offense on her face. She shook her head. "That isn't how it played out exactly," she said.

"Fine, what's your version?" Alison asked.

"Fine, I'll tell you my version!" Cosima said.

Cosima began her story:

What I said about the regeneration was more along the lines of, "I know how Helena could have regenerated. She could have had some kind of regeneration property in her skin. Or maybe it's on a cellular level! Like how Kira survived that crash or how Wolverine regenerates his wounds. Yes, that all makes sense! It's a cellular thing. It's like what I told you Sarah, about the whole lizard thing. If it wasn't for that, Kira might have died that night."

That's when Sarah did get in my face and told me off a bit. I tried to apologise but she wasn't having any of it. She was really hurt I guess from what I had said.

"Sarah, I'm sorry if I offended you but you have to admit that you may have passed something to Kira and if Helena is your twin, she's got the same properties in her biology," I said in my defense.

"So are you going to shoot me to see if I live just to prove a point?" Sarah asked.

"No, why the hell would you even say that?" Cosima shouted.

"Because you're always on about science! That's all you care about! When I told you to stay away from Delphine, you went on about the science and I was right wasn't I? Blah, blah and more blah!"

That's when, as Alison said, Paul broke up the fight and said, "come on, there's no reason for this."

That's when Delphine stepped in. "He is right. There is no reason to be fighting. I understand that I was not to be trusted but I'm on your side. I promise you that."

That's when, Paul did look at Sarah with a hint of lust in his eyes. He pulled her into his arms dramatically and said in a husky handsome voice, "I'm going to go look for Kira with Delphine. You should go with the others. Go with them to find Helena. Maybe all of you can end her once and for all."

Pretty heroic of him. That's when Delphine said, "Yes, we must look for Kira. She is important and we cannot rest until we find her." That's when I looked at her, kissed her and she left with Paul.

Sarah chimed in with her usual, "Yeah, we each have our strengths. I'm brave and strong while Cosima is intelligent and resilient. And Alison, well, Alison is just Alison. She can't do much but we'll take her anyway."

That's when Alison started to complain and she said, "That's not true! I can do so much more than you people give me credit for! I'm so sick of being left out of things and you two thinking I'm nothing more than a stupid house wife! You know someone called me head strong and they admired me!"

"Hard headed maybe," Sarah said.

It was after Paul and Delphine left that we all left to go track down Helena. We got into Alison's SUV which was really roomy. What model is that again? Ouch! Sarah, that hurt. Okay, I'll continue.

As Alison said in her story, the place was a dump. We looked at it and then Sarah said this was the same place she ate with Helena before. Alison laughed like a bitch. For the record, I knew what you were laughing at. Ass.

Anyway, we walked inside to see Helena eating the Jell-o. Which did have a ton of sugar in it. I'm wondering if she did get diabetes if she could regenerate her insulin. Would that even be possible? Oh, right, anyway, she kinda looked up at us and was wondering why there were more people than just Sarah.

She did this really creepy thing with her finger and called us over. That's when Alison stopped short and started to whine. "I can't do this. She is way too scary. Isn't this your problem, Sarah?"

To which Sarah said, "This is all of our problems because if this bitch gets loose, she'll kill us all."

So we took our seats as Alison mentioned. But she left out the part where she pitched a fit about not sitting next to Helena which made her feel like shit I'm sure. Good going, Alison. That's when we all looked at each other. It was the most surreal experience of my life.

"So these are the others?" Helena said breaking the awkward silence.

That's when Sarah nodded her head and said, "You have to meet the rest of us at some point, meathead. How the fuck did you survive anyway?"

"Not here, I will tell you later," Helena replied. "I want to know about the others."

"How do we know you won't kill us like you did the others?" is exactly what I had asked.

"I will not," Helena said. "I only hurt those who hurt me."

"If that is true, than how did the others hurt you?" I inquired.

"Tomas said that they hurt me so I went and hurt them," she explained. She then stuck her face in a bowl of oatmeal. That much is true. I wasn't sure what the hell she was doing but then since I was across from her, she kind of lifted her head out and smiled at me. That's when she licked it off her face and grabbed a napkin like a kid and just rubbed her face. She left some oatmeal on her face which I had to reach over and remove. But I guess Alison wasn't paying attention to that.

That's when Alison said something stupid. "God doesn't like murders because it says so in the Bible that you shouldn't kill people. Killing people is wrong! Helena, that hurts people! God doesn't like that."

"Tomas told me to do it so I did," Helena said as she stuck her tongue out.

"Why do you trust me so much?" Sarah blurted out of fucking no where.

"You are my seestra," she said. "These others, they are mere copies."

Now to this, what I really said if you were paying attention was the following: "We are a bit more than copies. We are all the same when it comes to the inside. You and Sarah shared a womb. That's something that none of us have done as far as I know. Anyway, you may feel like you have a connection because of simple psychology and biology. There's been a few experiments done. For example, in one experiment, one twin was asked to select a particular card out of a group of cards. The twin was then told to concentrate on the image that was displayed on the card and try to communicate it telepathically to his twin. In a separate location from this twin, the other twin was then asked to pick a card. The results indicated that the receiver accurately picked the target card about 50 percent of the time. The test was re-administered but this time a research assistant picked the actual card from the deck and asked one of the twins to try to transmit the target image to the other twin. Again, the receiver twin was asked to pick a card. This time, however, the receiver accurately picked the target card only about 25 percent of the time. This led them to believe the initial 50 percent accuracy rate was based on shared preferences rather than telepathic ability. The 25 percent accuracy rate during the second half of the test supports that theory. Because one twin actually selected the card during the first half of the study, the fact that the other twin accurately selected the same card 50 percent of the time simply could be based on the fact that the two would both be attracted to similar cards due to a shared preference for certain shapes, colors, patterns, etc. This could easily be explained by the biological factors in the brain that you both share. Since we are clones, sorry Alison, we could have the same preferences to certain things. That could be nature, not nurture."

I said that and you all looked at me as if I was insane so I said, "forget it. Let's just go." So, we walked out and into that alley. That's when Helena told us to follow her. I was behind Sarah and yes, she did have her hand on her firearm.

We walked into this large warehouse that was abandoned. Helena turned around to look at Sarah.

"You messed up my favourite jacket with blood," she whispered. "It was my favourite and now I cannot wear it."

"I'm real sorry Helena but did you forget that you shot and killed our mum?!" Sarah shouted.

That's when things got intense. Sarah relentlessly pounced on Helena sending her backwards. Sarah shouted, "DID YOU FORGET THAT?" And that's when she started to punch her or something. I don't know. It went by really fast. I looked at Alison and she was thinking what I was, for once. So we rushed over.

We managed to pull Sarah off but she was still kicking and screaming. That's when Helena said, "you do not understand what it was like for me! THEY ONLY TAUGHT ME HATE!"

Alison gulped pretty loudly and said, "We should bring her to Tobias."

"You would like that right? Letting your new boyfriend see Helena and try to help her? No, she took everything from me and it's time for her to die."

Sarah was about to shoot Helena, again. Which, yeah, it wouldn't have worked unless she would have shot her in a vital area and even then we aren't sure the rate of the regeneration. For all we know, she could get shot in the heart and still live. It's all very uncertain and very fascinating.

That's when I had said, "Alison has a point. She's obviously had some seriously psychological shit happen to her. It would be good to get her back to someone who could try to help. It's a long shot but it might help."

"Cosima, even if that did help, there is no way she'd be ready for society," Sarah said.

"Yeah, but it's worth a shot," I countered. "Wouldn't you want someone looking out for you if you were in her shoes?"

Sarah stayed quiet and we looked over to see Alison talking to Helena. I caught this part: "That was already a question," Helena said.

"No, Jesus! That's not the question! I mean I want to ask you something important," Alison said with an exasperated sigh. "What if you did grow up with Sarah? Do you honestly think life would have been better? Sarah had it tough. She grew up without parents too. She had to fight for herself. It wasn't all sunshine and flowers. The grass isn't green on the other side."

"You are wrong. I would have had it better. I would have had my Seestra to help me and I would have had a brother too," she replied. That's when she pushed Alison a bit and walked over to us. She shouted out, "Can we just cut the shit and take her to Tobias. This isn't fair. Nothing is fair. She has a point and she's not in control. And now I see the error of my ways. So let's help so I can feel better."

"The only way she'd get any good help is if we stick her in a house for nutters," is what Sarah said in her angry way.

"I just think that might be the best for Helena," Alison whined. "It can't hurt."

"Who is Tobias?" Helena asked.

"He's a very nice man who helps people. He's really dreamy and when I talk to Cosima, I can't stop talking about him. I know he would help you."

"He cannot take away the past," Helena said. "It is done."

"Right but the future is still being written," is what I said. Not you, Alison. For fuck's sake.

That's when Alison chimed in and said, "You can still have a good life, Helena. You can if you let him help you."

We got the fuck out and we headed over to Tobias' place. Which is a dump by the way but I like the way he decorates and he had some cool toys. Did you see that one-OUCH! SARAH! Okay, so Tobias and Alison were making googly eyes at each other for like a few minutes. Then we got inside and he was like "what a surprise" blah, blah, blah.

"I need help," Alison said. "I can't do this alone and I need a big strapping man to do it for me."

He looked at us as if he was going to lose his lunch. I don't think he had seen us at all in the same place. Not even in a photo. I mean, he was really shocked. So he looked at each of us. He gave me a smile. I wonder if he liked my hair? I bet he did. Anyway, he pecked Alison on the lips. So Helena was curious.

"You are with him?" she asked Alison.

"Yes, he's wonderful and I know he's a good man", Alison said. "We all have our lives. Some of us live ours more, freely shall we say, than others."

Tobias asked, "What can I help with?"

"It's a long story but Helena here is psycho and she needs help," Sarah said harshly.

"Sarah!" Alison whined. "You have to be nicer. Why are you so angry all the time? Helena needs love too!"

"Fine! Do it yourself," Sarah said. "I'm going to go be angry and emo somewhere else." So she left. I stayed because this was a great opportunity to study Helena.

"Okay," he said. "Um, Helena, would you like to take a seat?"

We sat down. Helena studied me and Tobias. Didn't really care for Alison. I wonder why.

"Helena's a pretty name," he said. "It's a strong Greek name."

"They name me this because they told me I was the holy body of God," Helena said. "I was the original."

"Helena," I did interjected. I had to correct this. It drove me insane. "None of us are the original. Cloning doesn't really work that way. You see, you need an adult to take cells from so whoever our original is, she's older than us. She has to be at least eighteen years or older than us. That's if she even is still alive. They could have cloned someone who has since passed away. We don't know. There are a lot of uncertainty."

"Is that because science told you?" Helena asked. "Science is stupid. You don't know it's right."

"Well, it's because we have proof," I retorted. "Science can be proven and I can prove it to you if need be."

"There is proof of God," Helena said. "We are here because of Him."

"I don't know if there's a God Helena," I went on. "There isn't proof. Not at all. I'm not sure what they told you but that's not true. As I said, I can show you whatever you want me to."

"Helena, how did you feel just now?" Tobias asked.

Helena looked at Tobias. It was like she was thinking. That's when she said I was smart. Which, I guess, made me smile. So then, Tobias said, "No, that's not what I meant. Are you happy or whatever?"

"I do not know," Helena said. "It is mixed. I am happy that you are all kind. Sad that seestra does not like me."

"Sister?" Tobias looked from Helena to me and Cosima.

"Well, the cell inside of their surrogate birth mother split while it was inside her," I replied.

"So, their clone twins?" Tobias asked.

"Don't you dare use the c-word," Alison complained.

"Okay, sorry," Tobias said. "So, Helena, why do you think she doesn't like you?"

"I have killed," Helena said. "I killed three people and she is upset."

"Helena, are you sure about that? Four clo-ugh-people are dead and then you killed your mother," is what I really said.

"I did not kill four or five or whatever you may think," Helena said. "I kill only three."

"Okay, now, Cosima why do you say it's four or five? I'm confused." Tobias asked.

"There were three clo-people she killed in Europe and then she followed a German one of us, Katja, and she killed her! Plus, like I said, she killed her mother!"

"I followed Katja but I could not kill her," Helena said. "There are others."

"Sarah told me they found a doll's head at the crime scene. She told me that she found a Bible with a passage circled. The place was trashed and there was a doll's body on the Bible," is exactly what I stated. "They could have taught you because women do make great snipers. It's because they tend to be more patient than men. Women are also thought to have better eye sight."

"It was a woman," Helena said. "Someone else."

"Who?" Tobias asked. "Who was it who hurt this girl?"

"She would not want me to tell her name," Helena said.

"You're in a safe place, Helena," Tobias said. "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay."

She looked him over. Judging him. Her eyes did light up which creeped me the fuck out. I knew there was nothing good to come from that.

"You could go after them, yes?" she asked. "Make them hurt the way I hurt others?"

"Revenge leads us down a dark path," Tobias said. "We want to heal, we want to move away from the violence. Would that be okay with you?"

Helena sank into her chair. "I suppose so."

"Good," Tobias said with a smile. "Now, Helena, I want to talk to you more. Is that okay with you?"

Helena looked at him again. She then finally nodded her head.

"Alright, can you come back here alone tomorrow?" he said.

This is when Alison interjected and went bat shit crazy. "NO! THERE IS NO WAY YOU ARE GOING TO BE HERE WITH HER ALONE! Come on! Do not do that to me! She could be here with me or with Cosima. Or.. SARAH! Yes, Sarah. She loves Sarah!"

Tobias turned to her and placed hand on her knee. "It's fine, Alison," he said. "Helena isn't going to hurt me." He turned back to Helena. "Isn't that right, Helena?"

She nodded her head again. She looked from me to him and then over to me. "I would like this very much."

"Would it be okay if we had a side bar over here?" I asked.

We went off to the side and I asked Alison, "What exactly do you think you are doing? You can't just blurt that stuff in front of her! Don't you think that could hurt her?"

"Well, honestly, I rather hurt her before Tobias gets hurt," Alison retorted.

"Oh come on!" I said. "There is no way that is going to happen. Helena isn't trained to kill just anyone. She's trained to kill only those who hurt her, namely us. She's not going to murder an innocent guy because the Bible tells her not to. She believes in that and we have to respect it. We have to give Helena some trust here if we don't, she'll never recover."

"I don't think that is going to work," I said. "The reason she killed her birth mother was because she was angry over being split up. This all happened in front of Sarah by the way. Just wanted to clear that up. Anyway, I think she really just wants to get close to Sarah and that was the best thing she could think of. It's programmed in her."

"Sarah mentioned something about deprogramming her," Alison said. "She told me about it. She said that was what Leekie told her."

"Leekie wouldn't be the one to deprogram her, it would have been my father," Tobias said. "There is no way he would be gentle about it. I have to do it. Allow me to do this."

While we were busy, the little... well, she did escape. Through a window. We had no idea it was even happening. So fucking self-absorbed.

"Damn it! She's gone!" I yelled. "Sarah is going to have a heart attack! I'm going to go find her. I can't handle this and Alison, you damn well know why."

That's when me and Alison got into a fight. I was offended by some things she said and I left. When I left, I called Sarah.

Sarah picked up the phone and was really short tempered.

"What is it, Cosima?" she barked at me.

"I just wanted to let you know that psycho clone escaped our sites," I said to her.

She blew up. "What the bloody hell do you mean she escaped? Why didn't you morons tie her up?!"

"Right, because that worked so well the times you've tried?" I said.

"I can't handle this right now, Cosima. Now I have to go bloody look for her because I don't know what she's going to do next."

I tried to talk her out of it but Sarah wouldn't listen. That's when I tried to call Alison but her fucking phone was off. So, I gathered up some change and took the fucking bus to Bobby's bar. I drank for a while before I left and went back to Felix's apartment.

Alison and I waited for Sarah. That's it. That's my version.

Alison's mouth was gaped open. "I do not act like that," she said.

Sarah shook her head. "No, you both paint me like I'm some sort of psychopath! Like I just yell and scream. I never do the right thing. Like I'm a mean-spirited fuck up. Is that what you think?"

Cosima and Alison stayed quiet on the couch. Sarah paced back and forth shaking her head.

"That is not how it happen," she said. "I'll tell you how it all happened, yeah?"

Sarah recounted the story through her eyes:

Cosima said her science speech and then I got mad at her. We fought for a minute before she tried to apologise to me. I really wasn't having it. Cosima, I'm sorry but that was uncalled for. I was hurt. So then you said:

"Sarah, I'm sorry if I offended you but you have to admit that you may have passed something to Kira and if Helena is your twin, she's got the same properties in her biology."

To which I said: "What are you going to do Cosima? Are you going to shoot me to see if I live just to prove a point?"

"No, why the hell would you even say that?" Cosima shouted back at me.

"Because you're always on about science! That's all you care about! When I told you to stay away from Delphine, you went on about the science and I was right wasn't I? She betrayed you and you still go back to her! How do we know we can trust her?!" That's when Paul came over and broke the fight up.

Delphine stuck her nose in it. "He is right. Don't you think we have better things to do than to fight."

Paul did grab unto my arms and did pull me in. He did say that he was going to go look for Kira. He asked me to take the rest of you lot to go meet Helena. He had the intention of killing her and really, so did I.

Then Delphine opened her mouth again. "Yes, we must look for Kira. She is important and we cannot rest until we find her." Cosima kissed her cause she thought it was the best thing in the world for her to say. I do admit, it was nice. But shit, Cosima.

I then said, "Yeah, we each have our strengths. I'm brave and strong while Cosima is intelligent and resilient. And Alison has her traits as well."

Alison took what I said out of context and she started to shout at me. "That's not true! I can do so much more than you people give me credit for! I'm so sick of being left out of things and you two thinking I'm nothing more than a stupid house wife! You know someone called me head strong and they admired me!"

"Hard headed maybe," Sarah said. And then, "I know what you are, Alison. If you want to help, use your strengths and don't rely on your weakness, yeah?"

Alison was all pout face after that. Like she had these puppy dog eyes. Makes you feel like you are disappointing yourself. Damn it. Anyway, Delphine and Paul left. We then left after them to go to where Helena asked me to meet her.

I knew Alison had some thought about me being street trash the minute I opened my mouth about eating at the place. I didn't really fucking like it either okay? Just so you know.

Helena was eating that fucking Jell-o again. I don't get what she has to put sugar in it. It's already got bloody sugar in it! How much more fucking sugar are you gonna put in it, yeah?

So she called us over, right, that's when Alison started her little bitch fit. "I can't do this. She is way too scary. Isn't this your problem, Sarah?"

I said, "This is all of our problems! I thought I tied this bitch to a tree but she got loose. She could kill us all, yeah?"

Alison did another rant. Made Helena feel shitty and then we all sat there like awkward fucks until Helena said, "So these are the others?"

I nodded my head and said, "You were going to meet the rest of us at some point, meathead. How did you survive anyway?"

"Not here, I will tell you later," Helena replied. "I want to know about the others."

"How do we know you won't kill us like you did the others?" Cosima asked.

"I will not," Helena said. "I only hurt those who hurt me."

"If that is true, than how did the others hurt you?" Cosima continued to pester her.

"Tomas said that they hurt me so I went and hurt them," she explained. Yes, she fucking stuck her face in the oatmeal. I don't know why. Maybe she likes the warmth and wants to be close, yeah? I don't fucking know.

That's when Alison said something stupid. "God doesn't like murderers, Helena. That hurts people!"

"Tomas told me to do it so I did," Helena said as she stuck her tongue out.

"Why do you trust me so much?" I said. I didn't bloody blurt out shit. I was thinking about it, yeah? So than, Helena looks over to me. She tilts her fucking head at me.

"You are my seestra," she said. "These others, they are mere copies."

That's when Cosima went on a fucking science rant. I couldn't understand anything she said. I just couldn't follow it. Something about us being twins and we could sense something from each other because of biology or some shit.

She got pissy and said, "forget it. Let's just go." I did have my hand on my gun as we walked out cause we were going where no one was going to see us.

We walked into the warehouse, Helena turned to look at me.

"You ruined my favourite jacket. It is covered in blood," is what she really whispered to me. "It was my favourite and now I cannot wear it."

"I'm real sorry Helena but did you forget that you shot and killed our mum?!" I shouted.

I jumped on her and I punched her a bunch of times. You got me off. I wasn't done kicking her ass. That's when Helena said, "you do not understand what it was like for me! THEY ONLY TAUGHT ME HATE!"

Alison gulped pretty loudly and said, "We should bring her to Tobias."

"Why to him? Taking her to him isn't going to change who she is, Alison!" I shouted.

I took out my gun and pointed it at Helena. I was going to blow her fucking head off. And what do you two know? It could have worked if she had no bloody head!

So then Cosima sides with Alison.

"Cosima, even if that did help, there is no way she'd be ready for society," I said.

"Yeah, but it's worth a shot," Cosima said back to me. "Wouldn't you want someone looking out for you if you were in her shoes?"

That's when we heard Alison talking to Helena.

"You are wrong. I would have had it better. I would have had my Seestra to help me and I would have had a brother too," she replied. That's when she pushed Alison a bit and walked over to us.

Alison said her bit about taking her to Tobias again. I don't really trust anyone but us, yeah? So I didn't think this was a good idea.

"The only way she'd get any good help is if we stick her in a house for nutters," I did say it angrily because I was pissed off!

"I just think that might be the best for Helena," Alison whined. "It can't hurt."

"Who is Tobias?" Helena asked.

"He's a very nice man who helps people. He's a nice chap, blah blah blah."

"He cannot take away the past," Helena said. "It is done."

"Right but the future is still being written," Cosima said and then Alison jumped in.

"You can still have a good life, Helena. You can if you let him help you."

Went to Tobias anyway, he looked at us weirdly. I gave him a dirty look and he psychoanalysed me. Bloody hell, I hate that. So then Helena asked if Alison was with him because Tobias was stupid and kissed her.

You know this part about the helping so then I said, "she's beyond help."

"Sarah!" Alison whined. "You have to be nicer. Why are you so angry all the time? Helena needs love too!"

"Fine! Do it yourself," I said. "I'm going to go cool off for a bit. Check in with Paul. I'll see you later, yeah?" That's what I said. Did none of pay attention to me?

When I left, I walked all the way back to Felix's flat. I walked inside, took the mobile and called Paul. He picked up and we talked.

I asked him what was going on and he told me he was working on it. Delphine had found some files it seems. She took them from Leekie. So then Paul told me he was looking into working for Rachel so he could get closer to Kira.

We hung up and I left the flat. I walked around for what seemed like hours. That's when I got a phone call from Cosima who told me Helena had escaped. So, of course, I went after her. I knew where she went.

When I found her, she was curled up into a ball. She was crying on a mattress. I didn't know what to do. So, I walked over and tried to talk to her. She didn't want much to do with me at first. Then she started to crawl over to me. She hung onto my leg. She cried on me.

"Seestra, I'm not crazy," she said. "I just did what I was told. You saw what they do. You were the one who made me see the light. Why do you hate me so much?"

I didn't know what to say. "I don't hate you but you shouldn't have killed our mother. She was important to me. I was waiting my whole life to meet her. I wondered what she looked like and now I'm starting to think that she really wasn't my mum. I don't have a mum. I really don't. You don't either. We were made, Helena. They bloody made us in some sort of lab. I'm losing my mind."

I don't know if Helena understood me or not. She stopped crying. I told her I was sorry for shooting her. She said it was okay.

I couldn't bring myself to be there much longer. My stomach was hurting so I left. I picked up my mobile and ordered a pizza. Which still isn't here. What is with that? Anyway, I went back to the flat to see Alison and Cosima waiting for me.

They sat in silence as they all looked at one another with resentment.

Meanwhile

Alyssa walked behind the back of the pizza place. She crouched behind a dumpster. She was stalking the delivery boy. She had bugged Sarah's phone and could hear everything. She knew now that Sarah had a daughter. She knew that they were getting back at the ones that made this all happen.

Alyssa needed a way in and this was her best bet. From inside her jacket, she pulled out a gun. She held it tightly in her hands and the moment the pizza delivery boy was alone, she made her way over to him quietly. She stalked him until she was ready. She shoved the barrel of the gun into the boy's back. He jumped.

"Oh God," he said. "I don't have any money. Please, don't hurt me."

"I won't," she said. "I'll let you go if you take off your clothes, give me the address you are going to and let me take care of this pizza for you."

"Wait, what?" he asked. "Isn't that silly?"

"I'm the one with the gun so do it," Alyssa said.

He didn't say anything more. He took off his clothes, dropped it in the chair of his car and placed the pizza on top of the car.

"Now, step away, don't look at me. Just keep your back turned," she instructed.

He did as she said. She started to take off her clothes. She threw it all in the back seat and started to get dressed. The clothes was a bit big on her but it fit. She took the pizza and placed it in the car. She kept the gun on the boy.

"Now, you go away and don't look at me," she said.

The boy didn't have to be told twice. He took off running. Alyssa got into the car and made her way to Felix's flat.

Back at the Felix cave:

Felix walked into the flat. He had gone out to see if he could find a lead on Kira from his sources. He could feel the tension in the room. He looked from Cosima to Alison and then to Sarah.

"What the hell happened?" Felix asked.

"Nothing, Fee," Sarah said. "I just know how I look like to this pair."

"Sarah, I just told the story the way it happened for me," Alison said. "I meant nothing by it."

"Yeah, same here," Cosima said.

"Oh," Felix said as he nodded his head. "So you were trying to get a story straight for me and the others right? That's cute. I don't need to know details just what happened."

"Short story, Helena asked Sarah to meet her," Cosima said. "That much you know. So, we all went right? Paul's idea. We meant her, took her to a shrink and she ran away. We didn't know that Sarah here saw her and left her alone because she felt bad that she was crying."

"That was not it at all! I did feel bad but I left her be because maybe she can change," Sarah tried to explain herself. "I don't know what to believe anymore. I thought she was dead!"

"Sarah has a heart? Shocking," Felix said. "Helena is fucked up in the head. Maybe a shrink can help with that."

Before Sarah could reply to it, there was a knock on the door. "Who the fuck could that be?" she asked. "Oh right, might be the bloody pizza I ordered. About bloody time."

She walked over to the door and opened it. She looked into the her own eyes once again. "OH SHIT! You have GOT to be kidding me?! ANOTHER ONE?!"

Alyssa smiled coyly, "Pizza's here."