Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush or Dustin. I only own the storyline, Allie, Lily, and Sammi.
"Uh, sure," I say quietly.
"Well, go get ready!" he says and I do. I shower and leave my hair wet. I throw on a pair of jeans and my favorite t-shirt. I come upstairs and grab my phone.
"Okay, I'm ready," I say and give a weak smile. He walks out to his car and I follow. He opens the door for me.
"Thanks," I whisper and get in. He shuts the door and walks around the front. Once he gets in, he pulls out of Lily's driveway. He turns onto the freeway a few moments later.
"So where are we going?" I ask and wrap my arms around myself about ten minutes later. He notices and his eyes look like he's hurting.
"You'll see," he says. I start to feel the corners of my mouth twitching up and I let the smile come. It feels good to smile for real. Kendall notices my smile and he smiles back.
"Almost there," he says and turns off of the freeway. He parks the car at a park.
"There are a million parks by my neighborhood," I say and look at him skeptically.
"But not this one," he says and smiles. He gets out and I do before he can open my door. He hurries over and helps me out of the car. I put my hands in my back pockets.
"Follow me," he says and walks towards the woods. I stop when we reach the tree line.
"Uh..." I say and back away as he goes in. It runs through my mind that he could try to rape me or something worse.
"Oh," he says softly. "Allie, I would never hurt you," he says softly and puts a hand on my shoulders. He puts out his other hand. "Do you trust me?" He asks. I take his hand with hesitation.
He smiles and then turns back around. He leads me through the tree line and I realize there is a trail.
"W-where does this go?" I ask.
"To a clearing," Kendall says and keeps walking. I shudder involuntarily and tighten my grip on his hand. He notices and I see his green eyes on my blue ones.
"I won't let anything hurt you," he says protectively and squeezes my hand for reassurance. He turns again and we walk in silence for a few minutes. The trail thins until it's barely a trail.
"How much farther?" I ask and look around at the dense woods uneasily. He points in a direction and I see trees starting to thin. I immediately feel relaxed, even though I'm in the middle of the woods with someone I barely know. We hit the clearing and it's not exactly a clearing. There is just a gap in the tree line and sun coming through. It's maybe 20 square feet. There is an old beat up bench-swing over towards the tree line and a tire swing hanging from a branch that juts out over the clearing about ten feet in front of the bench-swing.
"Wow, how did you do this?" I ask.
"I didn't. My dad showed it to me and I just came here. The path we came on used to be a bike trail. He's a big biker," he says and sighs.
"What's the sigh for?" I ask after a moment's silence.
"When I was little, my mom left and my dad always biked. He used to make me go biking with him. I used to think my dad loved biking more than me, and it turns out I was right. He hasn't made one of my concerts or come to see me out here in Cali," he says.
"Oh, I-I'm sorry," I say and I realize that we're still standing in the same spot. "Let's go on the swing," I say and untwine our hand. I walk over to the swing and sit down.
"So," he says and sits down after me. "Since I told you about my parents, what are yours like?"
"My parents were the nicest parents you could ask for," I start slowly. "My dad was a workaholic but he tried to come home. I don't think he ever realized how hard he was working," I say and chuckle at the memory.
"Were?" he asks.
"My mom was a stay at home mom and she always took care of me and Lily. She would keep us from fighting, she'd cook for us, she'd do everything for us," I say and my voice cracks. "Which only made it harder for me and Lily when she died," I say quietly. Kendall takes my hand again and squeezes it for reassurance.
"They went away on their first vacation from us ever. They were on their way back from the airport. They came home on the late flight. They made it almost all the way home," I take a deep breath. "They got hit and killed on impact three blocks away from my house at the time," I whisper.
Kendall takes my hand in both of his. "I'm so sorry," he says.
"It's okay," I say quietly and walk over to the tire swing. "Want to give me a push?" I ask and he smiles. After we both take turns on the tire swing we go back to the bench. We both sit in our thoughts for a few moments.
"Kendall," I say softly and he looks down at me. "Thanks for staying with me," I almost whisper. "It really means a lot to me," I say a little louder.
"Allie, don't worry about it," he says and gives me a reassuring smile. I feel the corners of my mouth twitching and I let the smile come.
"You have a beautiful smile," Kendall says and my smile grows.
"Thanks," I say and look away. I feel a blush creeping up on me. I stare at a butterfly that's twirling through the clearing.
"Tell me something," Kendall says and I cock an eyebrow.
"Do you, or did you have feelings starting to develop for me when you came to the concert?" he asks.
"Yeah, I do," I say slowly. "B-but I'm not ready to do anything Kendall, I-I just need a friend right now."
I see his eyes drop.
"Yeah, I know," he says quietly.
I look down at my hands.
"If you need a friend, then I'm here to be your friend," he says and takes my hand. I look up at him and he smiles. I take my hand out of his and I stand.
"Thanks for taking me here. We should come back here together," I say and look over the small clearing again. I see Kendall at my side.
"Yeah, we should. Do you want to go get coffee?" he asks.
I nod and see the butterfly disappearing into the woods.
"Come on," he says and smiles. We get to his car and he takes off towards Starbucks. He puts on a pair of sunglasses.
"Nice sunglasses," I comment and he chuckles.
About 10 minutes later he pulls up next to Starbucks. He even pays for my coffee.
"You didn't have to do that," I say quietly and walk towards the door. We both step outside and we walk to his car when out of nowhere a man with a camera starts to get in my face. I grab Kendall's arm and he hands me his sunglasses.
"Come on sweetie, I want to see what Kendall Schmidt's girlfriend looks like," the man says and smirks. I quickly put the glasses on and I grip Kendall's shirt tightly because I'm so scared. He helps me into the car and we drive away in silence. I take off his sunglasses and I start to cry.
"Don't cry," he says softly and takes my hand.
"That was terrifying. How can you stand that?" I ask with a shaky voice. Kendall shrugs and pulls into Lily's driveway. We both get out of the car.
"The worst part is when they assume every girl that I'm with is my girlfriend," he says when we both get inside. I nod in response and sit down on the couch.
"I take it you don't want to go anywhere else today?" he asks and sits down next to me. I shake my head no and pick up the remote. I go to TiVo and put on The Big Bang Theory.
"This is my favorite show!" Kendall says and I smile.
"Really? Mine too," I say and he smiles back. We end up watching random Big Bang episodes until Kendall has his arms around me and we fall asleep on the couch together.
I wake up the next morning in Kendall's arms hearing Lily scream when she walks through the door.
"Allie! Oh my god," she screams and I run over to her and she hugs me in the only way an older sister can. I wrap my arms around her and I feel tears going down my face again. My body shakes from how hard I'm crying.
"Oh my god, are you okay?" she whispers in my ear. I nod on her shoulder and she grips me tightly. I see James walk in carrying her suitcase. He looks over at Kendall and nods. The next thing I realize is that Kendall and James joined in our hug and their squeezing us, picking Lily and I off of the ground. They start laughing and sobs wrack my body. I feel so much better that Lily is here but I feel a wave of pain knowing she wasn't there for me. The sobs express my confusion.
"Sh, it's okay," she whispers and James and Kendall go towards the kitchen. Lily strokes my hair and I grip her tightly so I don't collapse. She moves me towards the couch. We sit down and she comforts me. "Will you tell me what happened?" she says in a soothing voice. I go through the process in more details with her than I went through with Kendall and she wraps her arms around me reassuringly when I'm done and I feel a new set of tears coming on.
Kendall and James leave me and Lily to us. Lily and I pick up her house a little and then we both sit around watching TV.
"I don't think I'm going to go to school this week..." I say slowly.
"It's okay. Spring break is next week. If you want you can take classes online next term," Lily says. "You can get you GED if that's all you really want." I nod in response.
"I'm going to go to sleep," I say.
I go in my bedroom and check my phone. I have a few texts from Kendall and one from a friend named Sammi.
Sammi: hey girl. Want to go get nails done?
Me: sorry can't. Rain check?
I read Kendall's texts.
K: Hope you're okay.
K: Call me if you need anything.
K: If you'd like, you can come to the studio with me tomorrow :)
Me: I'd like that. Would you pick me up tomorrow?
K: Yup! I'll be there around 9 :)
I sleep restlessly. I toss and turn and wake up in a cold sweat once. When it gets around 4 I give up on sleeping and just lay in my bed thinking about what I want to do about school. Around 6 I get up and shower. I put on a light purple V-neck and some skinnies.
I go upstairs and pick at a muffin until I see Kendall at the door. I grab my phone and go outside.
"Ready?" he says and smiles.
"Yup," I say and we get into his car and drive off.
Along the way I turn in the radio and sing my heart out. I've always sang to the radio and around the house. It was one of my favorite songs by The Fray.
When it's over I look over at Kendall and he's staring at me.
"Eyes on the road," I say jokingly.
"Wow, that was really good," he says.
"Yeah, you're probably just saying that," I say and look down so he can't see my red face.
"No I mean it," he says and pulls into the parking lot of the studio. He gets out and opens my door. He runs inside and I just walk in a few moments later behind him.
"She's amazing! I want you guys to hear her!" I hear Kendall say around the corner and I follow his voice. "Right? Sing Allie," he says and I look down.
"No thanks," I mumble and James and Carlos laugh.
"Come on, you did for me," Kendall pleads.
"Yeah, but..." I trail off.
"You can't be that bad," Carlos says and James laughs again.
"No thanks..." I say again and look around. "Where's Logan?" I ask.
Kendall, James and Carlos all look at each other. "Late," they say at the same time. I laugh and Kendall takes my hand and leads me around the studio showing me everything.
"Wow, this is so cool," I say and he leads me into a room with couches and video games. He turns on the TV and puts on a music channel. Adele comes on and Kendall starts singing along. He stands and offers a hand. I take it and he stands me up. He starts dancing. I can't help but sing along with him and then he takes me by the waist and twirls me. I laugh and he keeps dancing. I laugh lightly when the song ends and I didn't realize that Kendall is looking at me the same way he was in his car.
"Wow," I hear behind me and I see Carlos standing there.
"She is good!" James yells and I look down at my feet and blush.
"Told you!" Kendall says.
"We were just coming to say that we're going to be filming soon," Logan says softly and they all walk out, leaving me and Kendall.
"You tricked me," I say.
"It was the only way to get you to sing again," he says and smiles.
"Well go film," I say and he takes my hand and leads me to the set. I watch them film for a while and talk with some extras. Everything suddenly goes black.
"Guess who?" I hear behind me.
"Uh..." I say nervously then the person takes their hands off of my eyes. I turn around and see James standing there.
"But... You were just filming... And you… What?" I stutter.
"I'm a ninja," he laughs and does some sort of ninja move. I can't help but laugh.
"Sure," I say. "Hey wait, are you and Lily... You know?"
"Yeah," he says and smiles but then everything goes black again.
"Really, again?" I say and I hear Kendall's laugh.
"Kendall," I say and he uncovers my eyes.
"Wow you're good," he says and I smile. "Hungry?" he asks and I nod. We walk over to a table filled with food and we both take plates back to the room we were in earlier.
"Hey aren't you supposed to be in school?" he asks.
"Yeah, but spring break is next week and I'm going to take classes online or get my GED," I say softly.
His eyes light up when I say 'spring break'.
"Are you doing anything for spring break?" he asks but I can tell he's trying to hide excitement.
"No, nothing planned," I say.
"Oh, nice nice," he says and I cock an eyebrow.
"Nothing," he says but I still don't believe him. "Seriously!" he says.
"Okay then," I say.
"I have to go check something," he says and practically runs out the door.
"Alright," I mumble but he's already gone. He and James walk slowly into the room a few minutes later with huge grins.
"Yes?" I ask slowly.
"We're taking you and Lily to Hawaii!" they yell at the same time.
"What?" I almost yell and I hear Lily on speakerphone say the same thing.
"Are you serious?" I say and look at Kendall. He nods and I run to hug him. He picks me up and spins me around.
"Thank you so so much," I whisper in his ear.
The week goes by so slowly. I barely sleep but I go to set with Kendall every day and hang with the guys. Lily comes two days and we all have a great time. After every day we all go out to eat somewhere. On Thursday, me and Kendall end up going out to eat alone.
"Hey, have you ever gotten kicked out of Wal-Mart?" he asks randomly.
"No," I say and smile. He takes my hand and runs to his car. He drives us to his house and he runs to his closet. He throws me a cowboy vest and I put it on.
"Why do you have a cowboy vest?" I ask and he just laughs. He puts on a reindeer Christmas headband and I smile.
"Wait!" I say and grab hair gel. I make his hair stick straight up and I laugh. He throws me a bright pink bandana. I fold it and wear it like hippies do. He laughs again. He turns and pulls off his shirt. I see he torso. 'Oh god,' I think to myself. 'Please don't turn around,' I think and of course he does. I see his abs and his chest. I force myself to look at his face and he smiles. He pulls out two t-shirts.
"Hannah Montana or Cookie Monster?" he asks. I glance at his torso again.
"Hannah Montana, definitely!" I say and he laughs. He puts the Hannah Montana t-shirt on. Then I realize how tight it fits on him and I have to force myself not to look at his abs.
He puts on his favorite sunglasses and I put on my reflective aviators.
"Ready?" he asks and I smile and nod. We drive to Wal-Mart and walk in. We walk casually to the bikes until Kendall sees a Princess and the Frog bike. He runs over to it, hops on and honks the horn. He drives off in the store still honking the horn like crazy. I grab a swim noodle that's by the bikes and chase after him. When I get close I start hitting him on the head with it and he starts laughing like crazy. We realize that three workers are standing at the end of the aisle and we turn around. Two more are at the other end and we both laugh. We go towards the one with two people and Kendall jumps off his bike and starts running. I laugh and follow him. We run from the workers and stop in the magazine section and I'm so out of breath from running around and laughing. Kendall is too.
We grab magazines and pretend to read them with our back turned on the aisle. The workers run up behind us.
"GET OUT!" one of them yells and we drop the magazines and run towards the exit. When we get outside we run to his car and jump in. We both start laughing really hard.
"That was really fun!" I say when I catch my breath.
"I know right?" he says and I laugh even harder.
"How did you know getting kicked out of Wal-Mart was fun?" I ask curiously.
"Dustin and I used to all the time," he says and starts the car. I nod and we drive off.
"Coffee?" we both say at the same time and we laugh. When we get to Starbucks I take off the cowboy vest and he laughs. I start to untie the bandana.
"No, leave it on," he says and smiles. "I like it," he adds and I blush. He takes off his headband.
"Leave your hair gelled," I blurt out. I cover my mouth and get out of the car and quickly go inside.
We get the coffee and decide to go for a walk down to the nearest park. We put on our sunglasses when we get outside. We walk down to the park sipping our coffee. We sit down on the bench and watch all of the kids play.
"Don't you wish you were a little kid again?" he asks. I nod and sigh. We leave each other in our thoughts until I see someone that keeps looking at us from behind a tree.
"Kendall, do you see that guy over the-" I stop when I see he has a camera. Kendall sees him too and we both get up. We start walking briskly back to his car. When we get there, there are at least four men with cameras and the one behind us.
"Oh god," I whisper and he takes my hand. I hide behind his arm and he helps me to his car. I can hear the men yelling at Kendall asking him questions about me. He gets into the car and the lenses are pressed against the glass. I turn towards Kendall and he smiles weakly. He drives off.
"How do they know where to find you?" I ask.
"Sorry, obsessive tweeting," he says and I smile.
"Are you following me?" I ask and he nods.
"I haven't been on in forever," I say and decide to check from my phone. I go on and realize my mentions are full of people asking me questions and mentioning me in conversation and everything. I realize I've gained 4 and a half thousand followers.
"Whoa," I say and he laughs. "How'd I get so many followers?"
"Like I said, obsessive tweeter," Kendall says and I check his profile. He mentioned me a few times saying he was hanging with me and at the studio with me, Lily and the rest of Big Time Rush. Then another saying he was eating and then saying he was at Starbucks with me. I check Lily's profile and see that she's enjoying her 2000 new followers. I laugh and set my phone down.
"Want to go to my place and watch a movie?" he asks. I nod and we go to his place. When we get there he goes into his room and changes his shirt. I pick out a movie and put it in. Kendall comes back with popcorn and I smile. We sit down on the couch together and watch Iron Man. We keep shifting to get comfortable until my head is in Kendall's lap and I fall asleep. I shift into fetal position in my sleep and he puts his arms around me. I wake up with a gasp and burst into tears again.
"Shh, Allie it's okay. I'm here," he says. I wrap my arms around his neck and bury my face into his chest. I calm down and he kisses my forehead.
"Are you alright?" he asks. I nod with my face in his chest and he laughs softly.
"Want to talk about it?" he asks. I shake my head with my face still covered by his chest and he laughs again.
"What's so funny?" I say muffled by his chest.
"Nothing, it tickles," he says and I smile. I stay there in his arms until I fall asleep again and I wake up in the same position the next morning.
"Morning," he says and I yawn. "How did you sleep so much?" he asks.
"What time is it?" I ask.
"10:30," he says. "You fell asleep around 7 too," he adds.
"I slept through the night?" I ask and I realize it was the wrong thing to say.
"You don't sleep through the night?" he asks with concern. I bury my face in his chest and shake my head. "Why not?" he asks.
"Because when I wake up I'm too scared to fall back asleep," I mumble into his shirt.
"Oh I'm sorry," he says. I lift my head from his chest and look in his eyes.
"Don't be, I think the only reason I did really fall asleep was because I knew I was safe," I answer.
"You feel safe with me?" he asks. I blush and nod sheepishly. "Don't be embarrassed," he says. I bury my face in his chest and he laughs again.
"You're like my best friend," I mumble in his shirt and look up at him. He's smiling down at me.
"You're like mine too," he says and I know it's my turn smile.
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