Castle stared at Kate in shock. "You're still pregnant?" Castle asked quietly. Kate nodded in response. "I, I don't know what to say Kate. I thought we were done with all the secrets and lies. What on earth possessed you to hide something this big from me Kate?" Castle raised his voice in frustration.

"Castle. You have to understand. I knew you would agree with the doctors if I told you the truth. I was going to tell you. I was going to take the professionals advice. But when I saw you with baby Lucas, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't Castle. I want this so badly and I know deep down you do too. I promise I was on my way to tell you today." Kate sobbed.

Castle was still in shock. Kate was pregnant. Part of him was jumping for joy, the other part was angry. Angry and scared. This can't happen. There are too many risks. There was no way in hell he would let Kate put her life on the line. If something happened to her, it would end him. Yes he would have loved Kate to have had his children. He had often pictured what they would look like. A little girl. All Kate in looks, but with a touch of his own personality. Castle stood there thinking things over in his head. He looked up and into Kate's eyes. "Kate you knew the risks. I thought we agreed this just wasn't in our future. This was a decision I should have been involved in. I need some time to process all of this. I'm going to take a walk. I'll be back later." Castle said as he made his way over to the door of the study.

Kate watched as he made his exit. Screw this she thought. "It was all soothing words and cuddles when you thought I had taken the doctor's advice. You don't want this. You never did. I did this for us Castle but if you don't want this. I'll do it on my own. How could I have been so wrong." Kate lashed out. She was scared. Scared to death.

Castle turned around fully prepared to engage in a row that Kate obviously wanted to have. But with one look at her. He knew how frightened she was. Frightened of the reality of being pregnant. The reality of the risks involved, frightened that he didn't want this and frightened that she might be in this alone.

He walked towards her and put his hands on each side of her head. "Kate. I'm in shock. I'm worried that this is all going to be too much for your body to handle. That I'll lose you. That I will be standing in a hospital with a newborn baby, but that you won't be there. I'm aware that this is happening. Your 13 weeks now there is no longer a choice to be made on that. I'll love this baby of course, but you need to know if something goes wrong. I'll choose you. I'll always choose you. I love you Kate Beckett. Don't ever doubt it." Castle spoke softly as he pulled her closer.

Kate relaxed against him visibly relieved. She was glad Castle knew her so well; she didn't have the energy for an argument. But there was one thing worrying her still. "Castle. If something did happen. I think that you should..." Kate whispered against his chest until Castle cut her off mid sentence. "Not negotiable Kate. I'll always choose you."

"Now I still need that walk. I've had some big news. I'm going to be a dad again" Castle beamed. Kate's smile lit up the room. He had to be upbeat for Kate. He was still worried sick of course, but the fact was this was real. Kate was pregnant. They were having a baby, he could only pray that everything would be okay.

"Before I go though. I'm making you a sandwich. You're going to have to pick up your eating Detective." Castle said as he ran his hand along her still smooth stomach. "Maybe I'll pick up some vitamins and buy some food while I'm out" Castle muttered thoughtfully. Happy tears ran down Kate's face, soaking into Castles dress shirt. Large thumbs smoothed them away and gentle lips placed a soft kiss on her forehead.

"Chicken and salad?" Castle asked.

Note: Okay still no internet. I have my computer so I've written this at home and will post it at the library or at work. Keep in mind I have written this without looking at the last chapter so I hope it all matches up. I endeavour to write another chapter in the next week or two