A/N This is the first time I have ever written a story, EVER! To all my wonderful friends on Tumblr who encourged me to try, thank you. To my lovely beta LadiJ, you are the best! Also a shoutout to Dopespeak for telling me DO IT! DO IT! DO IT!

I do not own anything that has to do with Glee

Sam POV

Sam sat in the back row in the choir room. Everyone was talking about their plans for the future. What am I going to do, he thought to himself. He had the lowest SAT scores in the school's history. Sam knew he wasn't the smartest guy but he also knew he wasn't what the SAT score reflected. Thinking back Sam tried to figure out when everything had went to hell. All of his best friends had graduated and left him behind. She had left him. Just thinking of her made his chest hurt. Sure he had dated Brittney, which didn't last, there were no feelings there except friendship. When she left for early admissions to MIT, he was relieved. They remained friends but that's all they could ever be. But no matter how hard he tried to ignore her when she came back time and time again the ache never went away.

Mr. Shue came in and called for everyone's attention. 'This week we're having some of our old friends stop by. We're getting ready for nationals and we need their help". Various mummers of agreement were heard. "We got here by default so let's show them that we deserve it, default or not. So let's give a hand for Kurt, Mercedes, and Mike!"

All of a sudden Sam couldn't breathe, Mercedes was here...oh shit! What was he going to do? Just breathe, damn it, just breathe. Easier said then done. Mercedes was back.

Mercedes and the others walked in and the room went wild. Joe and Sugar immediately ran to Mercedes along with Unique to smother her with hugs. Sam just sat frozen, he wanted so badly to take her in his arms. But he no longer had that right.

flashback

Sam and Mercy are sitting on her bed.

Mercedes: "So Sam I think we should have at least two skype dates a week and text and call each other everyday. what do you think?"

Sam: "Mercy, do you think that is going to be enough? You will be in LA. Meeting new people, working on your album, and school. I will be here stuck in Lima trying to finish school. I don't want to hold you back."

Mercy just looked at Sam, with her not saying anything Sam began to squirm unable to meet her eyes.

"Sam are you saying we should break up?" she asked quietly Sam could see the beginning of tears in her eyes and he felt like shit. "Just look at Mike and Tina, Santana and Brittney, Hell Blaine cheated on Kurt.'' "So because they all broke up then we will too?" Mercy asked. "Is there someone else you want to see?"

"No! No! just want to save the heartbreak, the loneliness, and tears that will happen because we will be thousands of miles apart, that's all."

Mercedes looked at him for a long moment and with tears falling from her eyes she agreed, not because she wanted to but she could see that Sam had made his mind up.

Mercedes stood up and asked Sam to leave. Sam reached for her but she backed away him. "No Sam, you gave up right when you broke my heart."

Sam's arms fell to his side. As he turned to leave he felt that he had just made the worst mistake in his life. As the door closed behind him tears started to fall from him eyes.

NPOV

Everyone was laughing and talking excited to see each other. Mike looked up and saw Sam just sitting and called him over. As Sam made his way over to the group he could feel the palms of his hand start to sweat. God she looked so beautiful. "Hey dude what's up?" Mike asked, ''you can't give us no love for coming to save New Directions assess?" Sam laughed and gave him hug. As the group all hugged each other Sam finally came face to face with Mercedes. She simply nodded at him with hurt reflecting in her eyes and walked over to Artie. Sam was angry, embarrassed, not to mention a lot hurt. Inside a little voice was asking why are you angry, and hurt, this is what you wanted. You dumped her. She was willing to try.

"Ok, everyone settle down" Mr. Shue said, ''this is the way it's going to work for the next month they are all taking classes by extension to help us. Mike is here to help everyone get the dance choreography just right. Kurt is here to design and help make the costumes and Mercedes is here as your vocal coach.

As everyone took their seats Mike remained standing. "The way we are going to get our dancing on point is to bring back booty camp." Groans could be heard around the room. Mike laughed, "I know but I will be giving one on one secessions for those who need extra help. I know tomorrow is Friday but it's never to early to start"

Kurt then took the floor. "Are there any of you that can sew and design? Tina I know you are a whiz, and Mercedes will be helping us." Unique and Marley raised their hands. "Great, with you ladies helping we can do this! I will get back with you for when we will meet to work on designs and start sewing."

As Mercedes stood, all Sam could do was look at her and think how much of a fool he had been. He didn't know if she had a man but he was determined to find out and Kurt would be the one to know. Good thing he was still living in the Hudson-Hummel home. He had been the biggest fool to ever break up with Mery but he was going to change that. He knew it wasn't going to be easy but then when had it ever been easy when it came to getting Mercy?

Mercedes gave a soft laugh as Unique squealed "Bring it mama Mercy!" "This year we are not going to follow the past performances of New Directions." she said as she shot Mr. Shue a look. "The judges have said songs from the 2000's. The theme for this year's competition is Emotions of a Relationship. So we are going to bring it. Mr. Shue, Kurt, Mike, and I have come up with a set list that is fresh and not the old New Directions."

Excited mummers could be heard along with Artie's praise hand. Looking from one to another with wonder and excitement, they wondered if they be able to pull it off? Hell yeah!

As Mercedes continued, Sam's mind wandered. What could he do to get her back. But first he had to get her to talk to him. As he looked around the room, Kurt, she would be spending time with Kurt. So that meant he needed to get Kurt on his side. This had to work, he needed his Mercy, he had been a fool to break up with her and acted an even bigger fool this year. Time for the real Sam to come back.

''The songs to choose from will be, Next to Me'' by Emeli Sande. 'Just Give Me a Reason' by Pink feat. Nate Ruess, 'My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark' by Fall Out Boys, 'Beneath your Beautiful' by Labrinth feat. Emeli Sande, 'Princess Of China' by Coldplay, feat. Rihanna, and 'Troublemaker' by Olly Murs feat. Flo Rida. 'Just a dream' by Nelly, 'Until the End of Time' by Justin Timberlake, and 'Wanted' by Hunter Hayes. '' As Mercdes named out the songs you could hear the excited buzzing in the class room. ''There will be try outs for the songs so think carefully of what song best fits your voice and who sounds best with you. Also if there is a song that you think would fit into the set then please sing it for us. Pop, R&B, Country and Western will all be welcomed''

Mr. Shue told them since it was Thursday, they had Friday and the weekend to think about and practice the songs because Monday auditions would begin.

Sam smiled, he knew just what song he would sing. What Sam didn't know was that Kurt was watching him the whole time. He knew how his Diva felt about Sam. Looking at Sam he saw that Mercedes was not the only one with feelings. Now how was he going to clean this mess up they had made?

That evening at dinner, Burt and Carol were busy catching up with Kurt. Sam didn't say much, trying to figure out a way to approach Kurt. All during dinner Kurt noticed the looks Sam was sending his way but he ignored him. He knew this had to be handled in a delicate manner. First he had to make sure of Sam's feelings for Mercedes, then concentrate on his Diva's feelings. That would be the hardest to do.

Sitting in his room, thinking about the song he wanted to sing, he heard a knock, "Come in", Sam called. "Got time to talk?" Kurt asked. "there's some things I want to know and only you can answer." Sam looked at him curiously, but nodded. "What do you want to know?"

Kurt stared at him with his head cocked to the side, and asked, "Are you still in love with Mercedes? and if the answer is yes, why are you fucking with her head? More importantly what are you going to do to fix this shit storm? Mercedes is very important to me and when she hurts I hurt. So I need answers and they better be damn good ones"

With Kurt no longer being there to talk to every day Blaine found himself spending more time with Sam. He found out there was more to the blonde then just a fit body and goofy impressions. He had pains, insecurities, and doubts. They also shared another thing in common. They still loved their exs. Where as Blaine had lost Kurt because he cheated on him. Sam had ended his relationship with Mercedes because he was afraid to try the long distance relationship.

When Sam started dating Brittney Blaine was confused, Sam started to behave in an irrational manner. He used maps to find his way around the school. He sat there and said nothing when Brittney called Wade, Mercedes. He told Brittney he loved her and she had always been the one for him. That was when Blaine knew Sam was having serious issues. He tried to talk to him but Sam just kept saying everything was perfect. Perfect his ass, Blaine wasn't stupid.. He noticed that when Mercedes came back to Lima and visited the choir room Sam could not stop staring at her. But he would never speak to her, just stare.

FLASH BACK

As they looked over the song list Blaine noticed that Kurt was watching Sam. Who was watching Mercedes. "Sam, could I talk to you for a moment?" Blaine asked. Sam just looked at him for a few seconds and walked over to him. "So why are you staring at Mercedes so hard?" Blaine asked. Sam blushed and looked down, just then Mercedes laugh rang out. Sam's turned to look at her with a small smile on his face. "I just miss her Blaine. I made the dumbest mistake of my life and I don't know how to fix it" he replied. "The crazy things I did trying to deal with her not being here like dating Brittney, knowing I didn't have real feelings for her. Saying I loved her and she was always 'the one', ignoring Mercedes when she came to town, running around pretending to be Evan Evans" Sam ran his hand through his hair and blew out a deep breath. "It's just one huge clusterfuck and I don't know what to do anymore" Looking at Blaine with pain in his eyes, Sam could only close them and wish he could go back in time and fix the mess his life had become.

"You know she still loves you, she's just really hurt" Blaine said. Sam's eyes widen and he had to sit down. "Ho- How do you know this? Don't say that, just because we're friends and you want to make me feel better" Sam was upset, yet a huge part of him wanted to believe Blaine. Then he thought of the pain he saw in er eyes, pain that he had caused. After promising to never hurt her again. Well he blew the hell out of that promise. Looking down he just shook his head no. He could feel the tears but he refused to let them fall. He had done this to himself, to her, to them.

"I know because Kurt is her best friend and they talk. They talk a lot about what she's going through. Also the fact that I cheated on him" Blaine explained calmly. "Wait, how do you know all of this? Did Tina tell you this?" Sam was confused but really needed to know how Blaine knew all of this.

"Kurt and I may have broken up but we are still friends and we still talk. You both are our friends so your names comes up in our conversations. We noticed the way you two act when you are in the same room. When Mercedes is anywhere near, you're all over Brittney, but the minute she leaves, you can't wait to put distance between the two of you. Kurt has known Mercedes for years and can easily read the pain she is hiding behind and after spending time with her I can too." Sam bit his lip trying to look anywhere but at Blaine, knowing he was speaking the truth. "Sam, you're my best friend, but you fucked up royally. I look at you and I see the pain and how much you still love Mercedes. Do you want her back?"

Sam sighed and looked at Blaine, "More than I have ever wanted anything in my life. But I hurt her so much. I've acted such a fool. Why would she even give me another chance? I can't even get her to talk to me?"

"Kurt and I have been working on a plan. Just leave it to us. Give us a few days to work some things out. But Sam if you fuck this up...well we're putting our friendship with Mercedes on the line for you, don't make us regret it" Blaine looked Sam in the eyes to let him know there would be no more chances, no more help from them. He would be on his own and he would have to get through Blaine and Kurt to get to Mercedes. Meaning he had about as much of a chance as a snowball in hell.

Sam just nodded, he understood and knew that failing was not an option.

PRESENT TIME

Sam POV

Kurt's blunt statement caught Sam off guard. But Kurt had never been the one to beat around the bush, especially when it was something important. Mercedes was definitely important.

"Yes, I love her Kurt, but I messed up big time and she hates me now. I'll never be able to get her back" Sam ran his hand through his hair and took a deep breath. "I was a coward, I talked big, but when it came time to be the man she needed I folded." sighing "I didn't trust that I would be what she would still want once she made it to LA. A boyfriend still in high school, hell, I don't even know if I will graduate. I'm just a Lima loser who would drag her down" Sam could feel the tears coming. "She deserves more. What can I offer her Kurt? What do I have to give her?" Sam didn't even try to stop the tears. He just hurt, if it didn't hurt so much he would laugh because he was the cause of his own fucking pain.

Kurt listened to Sam and heard the truth in his voice. He was still angry with Sam for all the bullshit he had pulled. But more than anything he was mad at him for hurting Mercedes. "Sam, you did fuck up, you had the perfect girl for you, Mercy was with you when you didn't have shit. But did she care? No, she didn't, she only wanted you. Tell me something, Quinn cheated on you, Santana used you as a beard, yet you still talk to them. Brittney who was your girlfriend treated her damn cat better than she treated you. Mercedes only loved you, supported your dreams, accepted you for you and you've treated her like shit. Why?"

Sam closed his eyes, just tell him the truth he thought. "Because Mercy is my everything. I don't just love her Kurt, I'm in love with her. It's always been her and it always will be. Even when I was with Quinn I wanted her. Hell before Quinn, when I saw you guys singing in th quad...I, I just got caught up in the popularity game. Then Santana happened. We lost everything so I just tried to forget her. But prom, prom gave me a chance to have her and I took it. We had that summer, we were each other's first. It wasn't about the sex, there was no sex, we made love." Sam stood up and began to pace the room. Kurt sat on his bed waiting for his answers thinking this is a lot deeper on Sam's side then he and Blaine had thought.

"All the things I did were childish and immature. I was hurting so much and by pretending she wasn't there I didn't have to face it. I know Mercy heard how Britt called Wade, Mercedes and I didn't say anything. No excuse for that but me being an ass. Dating Britt, major stupid, hell even I knew it looked like incest, we looked so much like siblings. The worst part of dating Britt was giving proof to Mercy that the thin, white, blonde Cheerio was what I really wanted. I knew how insecure she was and I just proved her right. Now for the biggest clusterfuck of this whole pile of shit called my life. I told Britt, she was always the one I wanted and that I loved her." Sam laughed bitterly "Now if that isn't the biggest fuck up I don't know what is. The only good thing out of this whole mess is that I've never had sex with any of them. I've only made love with Mercy" Sam looked at Kurt, "So you see it's not me treating her like shit, it's just me being a piece of shit. Now I've lost the only woman I love, fuck my life"

Kurt sat there thinking about what Sam had said. "Sam, I believe you. But Mercedes is really hurting, she loves you, yes even through all this she still loves you. I'm going to help you but so help me you hurt her again and your body will never be found. I'm going to talk to her. I can't make promises but I do know you have a chance but you are going to have to open up and tell her everything and I mean everything." Kurt stood up. "This is your one and only chance, don't fuck it up"

As Sam watched Kurt leave the only thing going thru his head was - Sam don't fuck this up. This is the woman you want to spend the rest of your life with. Don't fuck this up! DON'T FUCK THIS UP!