A/N You guys made me giddy over your lovely reviews! Thank you so much. To my lovely beta LadiJ, you are the best! Love you Sweetie. This is semi cannon, but mainly all my head cannon. Please excuse any mistakes, and enjoy the ride. The song that goes with this chapter is 'Somebody That I Used To Know' by Gotye
I own nothing that is Glee, thank God, cause I know if I did ya'll would hunt me down and beat the shit out of me! I also have no rights to any the songs mentioned.
Mercedes POV
As Mercedes walked into the choir room her stomach was tied up in knots. She would see him again. Her steps faltered. Kurt seeing the stress on her face reached for her hand and gave it a squeeze. Mercedes sent him a small smile and held her head high as she walked into the room. She was Mercedes Jones, Diva. A diva yes, but one with a broken heart.
The squeels and hugs from the members of the New Directions made her smile. Joe and Sugar's hugs bringing a true smile to her face. As she greeted them all she found herself face to face with him. She couldn't deal with that pain right now. She simply nodded at him and went to greet Artie. For a moment she thought she saw a flash of pain in his eyes. Yeah right she thought to herself, If he felt any pain it's because Britt, the love of his life is gone.
FLASHBACK
The pain of knowing that Sam didn't want to try to keep their relationship over the distance was almost more then she could take. But what really broke her was when Tina told her about Sam and Britt. Sam, the same man that told her he would always love her. that she was the cream rising to the top. that they would always be together. that he would always fight for her. The same man that told Britt he loved her and that she was always the one he wanted.
So much for his always, everlasting love. It seemed like he was always was only a blonde Cheerio away. Not just any girl, but her TroubleTone sister. She was angry and hurt. Not only at Sam but at Britt too. It seemed like their brand of love for her lasted only if she was around, because as soon as she was gone they fell into each other's arms. But that's what she deserved for believing that a guy like Sam would want her after being with Quinn and Santana. He just reverted back to type and he got what he wanted and dropped her. How silly of her to think she could keep him.
PRESENT - CHOIR ROOM
As she listened to Mike talk about booty camp again, she groaned inside. The groans and hell no's made her chuckle. It also brought back a memory she wanted to forget. The comment made by Sue still rang in her head. But not in a good way. The implausable sexual tension between Aretha and the Kentucky Fried Stripper, what a laugh. If she had only knew.
Feeling eyes on her she looked around and found Sam staring at her. She quickly turned around not acknowledging him. Why was he staring? He never noticed her before. She glanced at Kurt but he was looking hard at someone. She folllowed his line of sight. Kurt was looking at Sam...why was he staring at Sam. Mercedes shurged and turned her attention back to Mike. Yeah booty camp, she thought with a smile.
As Kurt came forward, Mercedes had to grin. it would be just like old times making costumes for the club. With Unique and Marley helping it would be a full on girl fun time. Tina would know all the gossip and Unique and Marley she knew were fun from previous visits.
Mercedes slowly got up as she still felt Sam's eyes on her. Well she would just have to ignore him. Just as he had been doing to her for months. She could do this. Sam meant nothing to her, it was a lie, but in order to get through this she had to believe it. God help her.
Mercedes had to laugh as Unique squeeled "Bring it mama Mercy!" "This year we are not going to follow the past performances of New Directions." she said as she shot Mr. Shue a look. "The judges have said songs from the 2000's. The theme for this year's compation is Emotions of a Relationship. So we are going to bring it. Mr. Shue, Kurt, Mike, and I have come up with a set list that is fresh and not the old New Directions."
The group seem excited by the news of doing current songs. The way Sam was staring was beginning to make her nervous but she was determined not to show it. "The songs will be on the board. Don't be afraid to step out of your box. Kurt is going to pass out a list of the songs we have picked but like I said, if you have one you would like to try out then please feel free to showcase it"
''The songs to choose from will be, Next to Me'' by Emeli Sande. 'Just Give Me a Reason' by Pink feat. Nate Ruess, 'My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark' by Fall Out Boys, 'Beneath Your Beautiful' by Labrinth feat. Emeli Sande, 'Princess Of China' by Coldplay, feat. Rihanna, and 'Troublemaker' by Olly Murs feat. Flo Rida, 'Just a dream' by Nelly, 'Until the End of Time' by Justin Timberlake, and 'Wanted' by Hunter Hayes. '' As Mercdes named out the songs you could hear the excited buzzing in the choir room. ''There will be try outs for the songs so think carefully of what song best fits your voice and who sounds best with you. Pop, R&B, Country and Western will all be welcomed''
As Mercedes walked to her seat she glanced toward Sam. He was looking at her and was not even trying to hide the fact. Feeling confused she just looked away and sat down next to Mike. Why was he staring? The look in his eyes was familier but that couldn't be. Britt was his one and only. She was just the girl that gave her virginity to him. Shaking her head she turned her attention back to what was being said in the room. Mr. Shue told them since it was Thursday, they had Fiday and the weekend to think about and practice the songs because Monday auditions would begin.
THE LIMA BEAN THE NEXT DAY (FRIDAY)
As Mercedes walked to the door she heard her name called. Turning she saw Kurt hurrying to catch up with her, he had called her last night asking her to meet him at the Lima Bean, He said he had something he wanted to talk to her about.
Kurt eyed Mercedes, while she looked put together and as beautiful as ever, he could see that something was wrong. Giving her a warm hug and kiss to her cheek, Kurt guided her inside. "Go get us a table and I will get our coffee and something to snack on"Kurt said. "Ok, it's just going to be the two of us right?" Kurt nodded and left to get their order.
While waiting on Kurt, Mercedes mind kept wandering back to Sam and yesterday. She was so confused and not sure of what to think. "Here you go and a muffin to sweeten the deal" he said. "Deal? What deal?" she asked. Kurt laughed and eyed her with a smirk, "So tell me again about all the guys you are seeing in LA." "You know I'm not seeing anyone." Mercedes said suspiciously, "So why the question?" Mercedes knew Kurt and he was up to something. What, she didn't know but he wasn't leaving here until he spilled.
"Diva, you know I love you and your happiness is always important to me. Before you say anything let me finish. You're not happy. In fact you are miserable." Kurt held up his hand to stop her before she could say anything. "Say what you want but I know you. You haven't had a real smile or really laughed in months and we both know why...Sam."
Mercedes couldn't say anything, first she was stunned that Kurt had brought up Sam's name. Second, he was right, at one time she would have denied everything and went all diva on him. Over the past months Mercedes had matured, and found out the hard way, living in the land of denial was a place for fools and cowards. Looking around, after taking a deep breath Mercedes decided to go with the truth. Trying to lie to Kurt was like taking a lie detector test that she knew she would fail.
"Diva, are you still in love with Sam?" Kurt gently rubbed her hand as he waited for her to answer. Mercedes felt the tears coming but she was not going to cry over Sam, she had spent too many nights doing that. "Yes I am Kurt, but why are you asking me?" she asked. "it doesn't mattter, he's moved on and I'm just a distant memory for him. He may no longer be with Britt but he won't stay single long. Apparently he needs a girl on his arm and I can't be that for him right now."
"What if I were to tell you that Sam was still in love with you and wanted you back?" Kurt asked. At the look on Mercedes face, Kurt took a scoot back in his chair and prayed he wouldn't be wearing her coffee. Mercedes said nothing just looked at Kurt, no smile, no frown, just a blank look. Kurt was becoming nervous.
"What did you say? Why did you say it? Better yet, why should I even listen to you?" she demanded.
"I had a talk with Sam last night. I'm sure you have noticed that he's always staring at you. He stares at you every time you are anywhere around." Kurt stopped talking as Mercedes' palm slapped the table. "Kurt, I don't know what game Sam is playing but I want no part of it." she snapped. "Remember, Britt is his one and only. Me, I was just someone that he fucked under the disguise of being his girlfriend. While I was busy falling in love with him, he was busy getting a nut." Kurt could hear the hurt and anger in her voice. By now the tears were falling freely and there was nothing she coud do to stop them. Kurt grabbed her hands and held them tight.
"Mercedes, listen to me, have I ever lied or led you down the wrong path just for shits and giggles? Kurt asked. Mercedes searched his face and could find nothing but truth and honesty. Still she said nothing. Kurt looked into her eyes "Sam loves you Mercedes and more than that he is in love with you. He knows he fucked up and he wants to make it right."
"Why now Kurt? Is it because Britt is gone? Why now? Why should I believe anything out of his mouth? Do you believe him? What the hell is going on with my life?" The questions were coming so fast and hard that Kurt didn't have a chance to answer them, he simply did the next best thing and held his best friend's hands and let her cry.
"Mercedes, Mercedes!" Kurt finally got her attention. "I know how much Sam hurt you. So if I am coming to you on his behalf then you know I have a damn good reason. You need to talk to him, don't shut me out, you know I would not risk our friendship for anything. Sam may be my friend but you, you are my sister from another mister."
"Why Kurt? Can't you just tell me? Why do I need to talk to him?" Mercedes asked, her hands trembled and Kurt could hear the quiver in her voice.
It broke his heart to see her tears, but he knew they needed to talk. The only way to right this wrong was to get them back together. They were soul mates and what they had together could not be bought. You either had it or you didn't. They had it.
"Mercedes, please, talk with Sam. All those questions you have, he can answer them and more. You know I hold your happiness above everything, I wouldn't risk it. Take my word for it you need to talk to Sam. You won't regret talking to him." Kurt pleaded with her.
Looking into Kurt's eyes Mercedes could see nothing but his honest belief in what he was saying. Sighing, knowing she needed to be an adult about this she nodded yes. Kurt let out a breath he didn't even know he was holding. Leaning over the table he gave her a hug, promising her she wouldn't regret it.
Mercedes took out her phone and sent a text to Sam.
Kurt thinks we need to talk. Come to my house tomorrow at 1pm ~ Mercedes
Sam heard his phone, a ringtone he hadn't heard in months. With shaking hands he looked at the text message. Taking a deep breath he replied.
Kurt is right. I will be there, Thank you Mercy ~ Sam
"Kurt, if this goes wrong, I'm taking you to the carpet" Mercedes said.
"If this goes wrong Diva, I will gladly let you, just give me time to take care of one mistake first " Kurt replied.
A/N Thank you guys for all the wonderful reviews! Mega hugs and love to you all! I hope you enjoyed the chapter. How do you think this conversation will go down? Will Sam be completely honest with Mercedes?
Until the next time 3
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