So bam another upload. Sorry if that messes anyone up but tadaaa two chapters in a row. Just wanted to add that the whole motherly figure idea I got from LilFlyergirl's story memories. I loved that story and loved the idea of him going to search for his mom. Sorry if some of you arn't happy but I wanted to make R a bit of a mama's boy and since in mine his dad died early I figured that he would turn into a mamas boy anyways. Anywho enjoy and would love some feedback.

I blink back to reality. The kitchen has remained unmoved despite my latest memory trip. I decide to go for a walk a moment; I grab my shoes and head outside. And of course it doesn't escape me that Julie would probably like some time alone from me for a while. I kick the dirt as I walk down the alleys and into the main centre. Several people know me now and the fear of me and the other ex-zombies has passed, except for a small few that mainly scowl at me as they see me. I wave to those I know as I see them and one woman and her child invite me and Julie over for dinner sometime. I smile and continue on my way.

It's an interesting thing, being one person and remembering you were another. It's hard to accept that my life has already had so many complications that there was an entire lifetime I'm only beginning to remember. As I kick a rock down the street I lose myself again, suddenly I feel my legs go weak, my head spins and I feel incredibly heavy and then everything goes dark as I fall to the dirt.

"Nora it's not like it's his fault. Obviously there was somebody before and it's not exactly like I'm mad at him or anything like that I guess it just hurts a little; like I'm not the only person or something."

Nora looks at her and puts her arm on her shoulder.

"Urg, this is stupid and I feel so selfish. Why do I feel this way about it? I shouldn't be in here I should be helping him."

"Well clearly you solved your own problem. Glad I could be of help."

Julie gives her a look and rolls her eyes. Nora draws a grin on her face and tosses her a Kleenex.

"Go get em' tiger! But first clean up that snotty looking face of yours."

As I walked downstairs I was surprised to see that R was gone. I figured with a day like this he most likely needed to get some air. I grabbed my coat and headed for the door. I traced his usual route down the streets and up the alleys; I notice something on the ground in the distance something large. I hesitantly move closer as my feet tip toe towards it. As I squint I notice it's a person and run towards it getting closer I finally see who it is and my heart stops.

"R!"

My fourth birthday… I'm eating the cake with my fingers and my sister yells at me… I throw the cake at her.

…My first soccer practice I am seven… I fall and break my arm.

… I kiss her for the first time, its awkward but nice… She breaks up with me after two weeks.

…My mother wipes away her tears as she sees me on the stairs.

…My mother kisses me on the cheek before prom.

…My father pats me on the back after we fix the lawn mower.

…I hold the letter of acceptance in my hand.

…My sister runs off as soon as we get to the concert… I find her later on in the evening as two men harass her…I punch them and break ones nose.

…My sister moves away…We promise to keep in touch.

…The news talks about a disease…We evacuate…School turns into a shelter…Mother sent away…On my own…My first kill, blood stains my shirt…Meet her, she is surrounded… Meet Tommy and Jim…Jim dies…Tommy's lost… Me and her…Surrounded…

I throw myself up on the bed and scream at the top of my lungs. A nurse comes in and pushes me down to the bed, everything is a blur and I quickly calm myself down.

"W-where am I?" I say between pants, my head is spinning and I can hardly see what's going on around me. "Where am I?!" I yell and realize I must have startled the nurse. The doctor comes in with a large syringe and I realize I need to calm down.

"I'm sorry… but I'm really confused… where am I?"

The nurse touches my shoulder and lays my head back down the pillow; it's then that I notice Julie at the other end of the room. How long has she been there? She looks into my eyes and immediately cowers away, turning her face and I can only guess crying. I want to run over and comfort her, the nurse is still holding me down and the doctor is standing near waiting to see if I'll need to be sedated or not. I take a few breaths and relax. After a few moments the nurse releases me and the doctor waits at the edge of the room. Julie walks closer trying her best not to show her sadness. I reach my hand out for her and she takes it. Her hand feels so much colder than mine and her eyes look tired.

"What happened?" I ask, she takes a moment and studies my face.

"You collapsed in the street two days ago. I brought you here. What happened?"

I think for a moment, trying to make sense of everything and suddenly everything comes back to me. I feel my pulse quickening again and I feel a need to scream again. Julie grabs my hand tighter and I look up at her smiling face.

"I know everything. I think I remember everything. It feels like my brains going to explode right away but I remember it all."

She looks at me again and her gaze becomes more intense.

"Julie I need your help."

"Of course; with what?"

"I need to find my mother."