Chapter 17
I walked down the hallway following my "mother" refusing to look at her as she led me to what was sure to be a tortuous afternoon. I just keep reminding myself that its for Jareth's sake and only because she is the head of the Fae council, that's the only reason that I'm doing this. Unfortunately we were already at the door to the queens chambers and Tana was waiting impatiently for me to go inside.
Right as I walked passed her I said "This is going to be fun isn't it "mother." with way to much emphases on the word mother.
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"Mother your being ridiculous! I've been dressing myself for nearly half a millennium surely I can dress myself for tonight." I said as my mother rummaged through my closet.
She turned around and looked at me with her hands on her hips and said "Jareth I am your mother and yes you are a grown man but Jade and I have worked together to coordinate yours and Sarah's outfits. Sarah's is he only one hanging in her closet and I have to make sure you wear your's now stop whining."
She turned back around to continue her searching. I turned to my dad and he just shrugged his shoulders in a questioning manner and I threw my hands up in defeat. I didn't have time for this. I had to go get the official ring and get her parents and here my mother was forestalling me from doing it.
"Mother I don't have time! I'm sure whatever I pick out will go just fine with what Sarah is gong to wear. Now let me pick out my clothes or hurry."
Mother turned and glared at me and turned back to my huge walk-in closet and stormed all the way to the back and disappeared. When she reemerged she was carrying an outfit that I personal and intentionally put in the back of my closet. I never intended to wear it again.
My mother was holding white gloves, a midnight blue velvet coat incrusted with jewels and black tights. She was holding out the exact outfit from the ballroom where I first danced with Sarah.
"Here we are! It wouldn't have been so hard to find if it hadn't been in the back of you closet Jareth!" mother said
"Mother are you sure about this?" I asked questioningly
She just shook her had yes and pointed in the direction of the bathroom for me to go put it on. Instead I just snapped and I was wearing it instead of my black tights and white poets shirt. I smirked at my mother and went off to get Sarah's parents.
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(in the queens chambers down the hall)
I stood silently as my mother walked around me putting on the finishing touches. When she suddenly spoke.
"Honestly Sarah, how long are you going to keep ignoring me!"Tana said
"Well I didn't think we had anything to talk about." I said
"Let's talk about this marriage, I'm not sure I approve."
"Well I'm not sure that I really care what you think" I said turning around suddenly
"Well I am your mother and I think I'm entitled to a say."
"Yes, you would have been entitled to an opinion and I might have taken it into consideration if you had acted like a mother and been there."
"I already told you Sarah I had no choice, I had to leave. I missed you the whole time we were apart and I never stopped loving you. Even though I wasn't there I'm still your mother."
"Missed. Me. Ha! That's a laugh! Loved me. That's the funniest yet. If you even half missed or loved me you sure had a funny way of showing it. I waited years for you to come back up our driveway. You left me as a child, you abandoned me.
When you left Dad remarried and had another child with his new wife. I still somehow believed that it was my fault you two got divorced and my fault that you didn't come back or want to see me. I felt like I wasn't good enough. Do you know how many times I tried to end all of the suffering my life was causing me. My life wasn't fair. The only reason my life started to turn around was because I made the best mistake of my life. Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered I fought my way to the castle beyond the Goblin City to take back the child I had so selfishly wished away and along the way I fell in love. At the time part of myself knew I had fallen for Jareth and I mean hard but I was to stupid to accept it. In the end I was forced to make the hardest decision of my life."
Tears were streaming down my face but I didn't care. Tana's head was hung in sorrow as she silently cried. I could hear the sound of feet smacking hard against the stone floor coming fast up to my room followed by the shouts of my name and banging on the door, but I continued going.
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(Back in Jareth's room)
I got back about fifteen minutes ago with Sarah's parents and now I was sitting back in a chair in my room watching our parents. Irene Williams was talking to my mother and Robert Williams was talking to my father. Occasionally Jade and I or Drake and she would make conversation but for the most part we just kept to ourselves. I mindlessly played with a crystal and waited for the time to go get Sarah. But all commotion in the room came to a screeching halt as we all heard a shout followed by many more vocal comments from my dear Sarah.
"Missed. Me. Ha! That's a laugh! Loved me. That's the funniest yet. If you even half missed or loved me you sure had a funny way of showing it. I waited years for you to come back up our driveway. You left me as a child, you abandoned me."
Before anyone else could react Robert Williams was running down the hallway with me following close behind.
When we finally reached the door separating Robert and I from Sarah he began immediately trying to open the door but it wouldn't open because of the protective barriers.
Robert turned around quickly and said "Why won't the door open? I want it open right now!"
We explained quickly that no male could enter the room and he then turned to the women of the group pleading for entrance.
"Please will one of you go in and get Sarah?" Robert pleaded
My mother and sister both shook their heads no and he turned to his wife and begged.
"No Robert she can take care of herself and I have feeling that this is something that she will have to do. Now listen."
We all turned back to the door and listened as Sarah continued to yell and Tana.
"In the end I had to choose between winning back my brother that I had fought so hard to "win" back. Or potentially my only chance at love. All he asked was for my love in return for his.
But you smashed my heart as a child. I offered it to you on a silver platter and you took it and destroyed it, I trusted you. Now here was this man in front of me offering me his heart, he poured heart out to me and was waiting for me to either accept it or smash it. You could look at him and tell he loved me, he did everything just to make me happy. I wanted more than anything in that moment to accept his offer but you took my heart. I felt like I couldn't love him like he deserved, I wasn't worthy and I was scared to try to love again. So in the end I broke his heart and completely shattered myself.
Now years later he came back and I love him more now than I could have ever imagined then. He gave me a second chance. I love his so much, so much more than I loved you. You broke my heart when you left but if he ever leaves it will destroy not only my heart but my world, my life and my sanity. He is my world now and without him I can't live. I may have turned his world but he completely bent mine to revolve around him.
That is why I have to forgive you. You caused me so much pain, I would never wish that on anyone not even my worst enemy. That is why I have to forgive you. So I can go on with my life and have my family with Jareth because he gave me a second chance. So I forgive you."
There was a long pause. Waiting. Everyone was waiting for someone to speak. Everyone seemed to hold there breath. Finally Tana spoke.
"Too bad I never loved you."
Everyone winced as the sharp SMACK rang through the door. The door was flung open and Sarah's tear streaked face was seen as she ran down the hallway. No one moved everyone was in shock they either looking after Sarah or at the crumpled Tana kneeling in the floor.