R is for Reflection
Reflection: the act of reflecting or state of being reflected.
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Contrary to popular belief, Noll hated his reflection.
The sight of it made his stomach turn. He avoided looking into mirrors by dropping his gaze from the reflective glass, shying away from the image it offered. Whenever he did look at himself, it emitted a sense of dread and failure in his gut. A guilty chain reaction.
He had failed his mirror-image. He had to force himself to look into his reflection and admit that. It was the only thing that he could offer his apology to.
Because the real person he wanted to say it to wasn't alive anymore.