So guys, sorry for the late update, I had MAJOR writer's block and well this was an intense chapter so it took extra long. I promise to update sooneAmin the future. Hope you like and keep reviewing!
It was dark, the smoke was everywhere. "ALEX?! , MICHAEL?!" Nikita kept screaming in their ears, a little light headed, Alex begun to get up, her head was pounding like she was suffering from some massive hangover and her legs were numb. Searching for Michael in this cloud of smoke and dust she was confused, distraught. She grabbed her ear piece and threw it on the ground, she couldn't handle all the screaming. She was tired, so tired.
Inside the van, everyone was freaking out, all they had heard was a loud bang and then complete silence. After sometime calling out to them Nikita decided to go out herself.
"That's it guys I'm going out, I can't take it anymore, they aren't answering!"
"Have you LOST your mind?! , that place could be swarming with agents by now, and what help would you be if you go there limping" birkhoff screamed at her.
"But one of us have to check out what's wrong, where they are, I'll go" Sean countered after being silent all this time, Nikita had totally forgotten about him being there.
"We...we're fine, or at least alive" Michael's voice came in between deep breaths through the micro phone.
"MICHAEL? oh thank god you're alright, where are you, are you hurt?" Nikita answered clearly relieved.
"Where's Alex, is she with you, why isn't she answering?' Sean cut in.
"She's hurt, but conscious, guys just come and get us, I don't think I can move her myself"
Nikita heaved a sigh, relief flooding over her,as she raced the van to the spot. Over there they saw Michael crouched next to Alex. Michael was alright, hurt, but alright. Sadly she couldn't say the same for Alex she was laying there helplessly, bleeding. Sean shot out of the van before Nikita could say anything. Truth was she didn't know what to say so she just quietly followed.
"Alex! Alex!" Was all Sean could say.
"Is.. Is Michael alright, I tried to save him, pushing that physco back, is he alright?" Alex asked her head was still pounding and her vision was blurry she couldn't make out anything except for Sean , once she him, she no longer felt scared or cold. She felt relieved. That burning sensation near her stomach was nearly gone but she still couldn't move her legs.
"He's fine, but what about you are you in pain?" Sean asked, the pain clearly visible on his face. It was evident that he was suffering but he still tried to hide it behind a smile for her sake.
As he began accessing her injuries she quickly stopped him, looking into his eyes, brought tears in hers. It seemed as if she had realized something, something inevitable and inescapable.
"Hey, why are you crying, don't worry I'll get you help, let me just get you to the van". Sean said as he reached out for her, with the intention of carrying her back to the van.
"No, no you can't, I've lost to much blood, you'll just be wasting your time, our time, together" she said
"But... But I can save you! This can't be it, it doesn't have to be you'll be fine, I promise, let me take you to a hospital."
"No Sean, stop, listen to me were too far from the city, we'll never be able to make it in time. just remember, I love you. And nothing can change that, nobody, not ever. Don't cry, I'm here and I'll always be with you in your heart" as Alex said this, it was as if her heart had been broken into a million pieces when she saw the agonized look on Sean's face as he began to realize what she meant.
"No! No! It's not fair! I can't lose you, not you too. It should have been ME! You did this to protect me. But it was my job and I failed. I'm sorry I'm so sorry. I failed you just like I had failed my mother" Sean said between tears. He felt so helpless, so alone
"Don't, don't do that to yourself, you didn't fail me, you saved me. You gave me something I never thought I could have, something I didn't think I even deserved. You gave me love and you made me learn to love myself. You saved me Sean, you saved me."
"Please don't go, I need you, I love you, please Alex. I can't survive without you, I don't know how. We were supposed to grow old together, remember just you and me".
"I know, but you have to survive, to live for the both of us, I'm not leaving you, I'll never leave you, I'll always be with you in you heart and in all those beautiful memories we created together
And Nikita, please don't cry I love you too, you're the reason, I'm here in the first you for making me so strong, for believing in me and making me a part of something bigger than just me or even us, if it weren't for you I would have had no purpose and no opportunity to help someone and most importantly I would have never met Sean, if it weren't for you, I would have never been happy." Alex said with a weak smile, tears running down her face
"Oh Alex" was all Nikita could say before bursting into tears.
"It's not fair! It's not fair!" Sean muttered over and over again with Alex laying there in his arms
"No, it's not. But Sean, I'm happy here in your arms, this is what I wanted it to be like in my final moments, Lying here in your arms, surrounded by everyone that I love, and Birkhoff ( he let out a weak chuckle) with your perfect face being the last thing that I see, so don't be sad Sean, be strong, be strong for the both of us and finish this mission for both of us. I love you Sean, more than anyone I have ever loved in my life." And with those final words Alex closed her eyes, finally giving in to her injuries.
"No! No,no,no please Alex, please don't do this, don't be please, I love you, I love you so much." Sean kept screaming trying to wake her up.
Nikita couldn't take it anymore, this was too much, the over-whelming feeling of loss and regret. She couldn't do it, this was the first time she realized how truly dangerous her mission was, and not just for her. She started to sob uncontrollably in Michael's arms, who just stood there quietly not letting out a single word. He was just terrifyingly still, blaming himself for everything, feeling unworthy of even a final goodbye. He had never been very close to Alex, be he had always felt responsible for her and for some reason felt like he had not only failed her but failed Nikita as well.
Sometime passed and they just stood there, Nikita in Michael's arms, Birkhoff standing still in the background and Sean just lying there clinging on to a now lifeless body of Alex. When they heard vehicles approaching.
"It's division! They must have heard the blast, guys we have to get out of here or they'll kill us all" Birkhoff said finally breaking the cold silence between them.
"C'mon lets go, we can't take them on right now, we're heavily outnumbered, not to mention the lack of weaponry" he continued
So they rushed to the van with the exception of Sean who didn't move an inch. This is when Michael finally talked.
"Have you lost it, you want to die like a coward at the hands of the same people who murdered your girlfriend?!" He screamed standing over Sean
"I don't care, I'm not leaving her side ,you guys go ahead", Sean said, it was sad to see him so broken and defeated.
"She is GONE! And she's not coming back ever! And I know it hurts and I know that you just want the pain to go away but stop acting like a coward and avenge her death! She at least deserves that. You have to make the people who murdered her suffer and lying in the grave right next to her is not going to help anyone, not you, and certainly not her. You say you loved her, prove it. Now get up!" Michael commanded dragging Sean to the van, leaving Alex just lying there, looking peaceful and happy.
Back at the beach house, nobody wanted to do anything or even say anything. It was like a dark cloud had descended over them one that seemed follow them around everywhere they went. Little did they know that their period of intense grief was going to be cut short by an unexpected surprise.