-Updated from a very long hiatus-
So sorry because I've just (recently) know how to update via cellphone. BTW Im joining world Indonesia forum yesterday. It's nice to know a lot of new people :D
Third chapter of Kai-Mei-Kiyo story. I love all of those character and *almost* can't decide the best ending. This chapter contains a romance most between Meiko and Kiyoteru. But I don't edit the pairing label (I wish there are a label for triangle love XD) Thanks for anyone who already read this fanfic. Im a newbie and don't know how to put an author notes before. _m
III. Coldest Winter Ever
I woke up with a swollen eyes. I drown myself crying untill fall asleep last night. What a stupid girl I am. I almost forgot when the last time I cried. But yesterday I cried twice. My head feel dizzy and shaking.
"Good morning dear..." obaachan look at me with a worry expression, "Kiyoteru waiting you at the terrace. But you looks unwell. Maybe I should ask him to leave without you, Meiko?"
"N.. No, obaachan. I'll prepare myself in ten minutes. It's fine..." I push my forehead and try to stand up strongly. Obaachan's expression hasn't change. I hate to make her worrying me like this. She put my clothes and sweater. They are neat and warm. This woman loves me so much. "Thanks..." And it's all I can say to express my feeling.
"Did you and Kiyoteru quarrel? Because of that blue haired boy?" obaachan asking me suddenly. I look at her and shook my head. What a lame lie of me. I keep in silence but suddenly the atmosphere changed. It's gloomy.
"Meiko, I feel that... You better fix your relationship with Kiyoteru and keep the distance from that blue-haired boy..." Obaachan speak slowly. It's her command. I rarely hear obaachan asking me to do something, and if she asking me, I will try to do my best fullfill her command.
"Okay, obaachan... I understand," I answered with a very low voice. I don't understand what I mean by that 'understand' word itself. I don't know.
"You look pale..." Kiyoteru looking at me seriously when we walking down the streets. In our village, there is always a winter-night BBQ festival that held after school holiday. Every youngster has a duty to buy an ingredients in the morning, prepare the meat, fire and another stuff until afternoon. In the evening, everybody gathered in our village garden and eat together.
"Im okay..." I said slowly. Kiyoteru wear a black scraft with a brown fur in the collar. He is very handsome, as usual. He always been handsome in everything that he wear. His brown eyes are like an eagle. Sharp and paralyzing. He paused his step and sigh, "Im sorry for last night... I don't know why I was like that. Now I feel shame of myself..."
"I dont wanna hear you talk about it... " I cut his sentences and shook my head. Damn. It's dizzy and foggy morning. Winter at this village always been very cold. I walking like a zombie. My eyes covered by a mist. I bumped into Kiyoteru's back several times.
"Uhm.. sorry..."
Kiyoteru suddenly open his hand beside me, "May I hold your hand?"
I look him with a blank face. No. It must be a dream. It must be something unreal that I heard. I pinch my own cheek and it feels hurt. It is true? It is true Kiyoteru ask to holding my hand? His manly eyes covering my sight. I feel a drumbeat in my heart. My ears can hear my heartbeat.
"I can't?" Kiyoteru ask me calmly.
I shook my head, "You.. you can..."
He smile and hold my hand tightly. Both of us are cold because of the temperature. But I feel much better now. We walking together.. As if it's a lover. A lover? I laugh to myself and get rid of that though. Kiyoteru hold my hand just because he don't wanna see me fell down on the street. Yeah... It must be like that. We walk to the intersection in silent.
"Hey, why there's a crowd?" some girls gossiping in front of us. They pointing at huge house that newly built. Hm.. I rarely take this route, I didn't realize that there's a new building here.
"Didn't you know? That's Kaito-chamaa house! And today he left to held a winter concert at the city..." another girl answering enthusiastically. They are all scream together then. I feel dizzy and lay my head on Kiyoteru's back. He cuddle my hair and hug my hips. It's not that Im looking for a blessing in disguise or something...
My eyes are watering when I see a luxurious blue car crossing.
It's Kaito inside, he wears a white formal suit, our eyes met, but I ignore him. I just don't wanna meet Kaito right now. I already promised to obaachan that I'll keep the distance from him. As soon as the car dissapear, Kiyoteru and me continue the shopping.
It was really a hard thing to do. Kiyoteru patiently give his shoulder when I feel unwell. Finally we arrive at my home. I lay myself on the sofa, put a hand at my forehead, seeing Kiyoteru walks to kitchen, put the shopping basket.
"Don't push yourself too much..." he whispering calmly and sit in front of me.
I force myself to laugh, "I never push myself. Don't act as if you never know me..."
"Yeah, I know you..." Kiyoteru suddenly kneeling and kiss my forehead, "Get well soon, Stubborn Meiko..."
My cheek feels like burst. I can't say anything. Kiyoteru's smile looks a thousand times more and more adorable. His brown eagle eyes are shimmering behind his glasses.
"I have to go now... Take a good rest so we can meet at festival, okay?"
I nod my head.
And drown into a very deep sleep.
When I woke up, it's 8 pm. I graps my sweater and looking through the window. Village garden looks crowded. Good, the best part of festival hasn't start yet. I wear my coat, combing my hair and put my shoes.
'so we can meet at festival...' Kiyoteru's voice resound in my head. How I love to hear his sweet voice and warm smile. His polite gestures and the way he put a glasses above his nose. I smile happily and walking to the garden. I see Kiyoteru sitting alone near bonfire. He stood up instantly and walking closer. Maybe this is a time for me to confess my feeling. He has been very sweet to me today.
"Good evening..." I started a cheesy line.
"Hi... how's your condition?" Kiyoteru asked me directly.
"Never feel better!" I answered and clenching my fist, "Th... thank you!"
"Hm?" Kiyoteru see me with a puzzled eyes, "You must be hungry... Let's looking for a food. You like dumplings, right?" he grabs my shoulder and guide my to the dining table. I blushed. His fragrance is very gentle, his brown eyes and pointed small nose make him looks more and more georgeous. I paused my step and see him thoroughtly. My heartbeat become faster and faster. I'll say it now. I'll say it now...
"Kiyoteru..."
"Hm?"
"We... uhm.. I... Im so happy to be your friend and..." I biting my lips and wavering.
"and?"
"And... I love you. I wanna be more than just a friend..." I put all of my though in one pull of breath.
Okay. IM DONE. It's already being said. Im done. Maybe I need to run, hide my embarrasing face behind a tree, slap it, and bury my own self. Argh, there's something strange happen in my stomach. Like a thick wind, moving slowly... makes me feel itchy and awkward...
Kiyoteru smiling and poke my cheek. "Well... I..." he whispering something that I can catch.
"Pardon?" I opened my eyes wide and control my breath.
"Huh? Should I repeat?" Kiyoteru looks clumsly.
I nodded.
"I love you too..." he said it fast and walk away. I catch him with an undescribeable feeling. My lips drawing a very wide smile. I can't believe what he said before. Well, it's something that I wish for a looooong time, but... I... can't believe it. I just can't believe that Kiyoteru said that he loves me... too...
I followed him until he sit on a bench. The cold of white snow, the warmth of yellow bonfire flame... The stars sparkle beautifully. It's a very perfect night with Kiyoteru by my side. I don't know what to say. Kiyoteru either. We sit on a silence. Although I want him to say something. Anything.
"What makes you love me?" Kiyoteru put his smile. A smile that never fade out from his face. A smile that always make me blush instantly.
"I don't know..." I laugh to ease my awkward feeling. "I just can't picture my day without you..."
"Is that so?" Kiyoteru laugh back, "Well, same thing goes on me then..."
We laugh together and suddenly he kiss me once. It's mesmerizing. His warm lips clashing with the cold weather. A kiss that makes me longing for more and more. I cried in happiness. I feel a fireworks burst in my heart. All of his fragrance, his warmth, his whispering voice, all mine at that moment...
Kiyoteru, can you please kiss me again?
"Ah, look! Fireworks!" he pointing at the sky. This is the best part of the festival. I look up the sky. It's suddenly crowded around us. Everybody cheering and amazed. Kiyoteru hold my hand tightly until the festival dismissed.
Overflowing happiness leads me to very long night.
I CAN'T SLEEP. I snuggle at my bed, rolling back and forth, smiling like a retard. Imagining Kiyoteru smile. He is mine! He is my very special one. He is my best friend and my lover at once. Im so happy...
But...
Suddenly there's a knock at my window.
It's 2.35 AM and there's a knock at my window. I hold my breath, holding my katana and move stealthily. Is it a thief? No. There's almost no thief in this village. What? Is it a pervert? No. There's a lot of more beautiful girls than me... and there's no such thing in this village.
Then... What it is?
"WHAT!" I scream and opened the window with a full awareness.
"Sssh! It's me, Meiko. It's me!"
Ah. Blue-haired guy. He already changed his clothes into a long coat and jeans. Kaito... Didn't he has a concert performance? What did he do here? Climbing into my house and knocking my window at a freezing morning.
"What... are... you... doing?" I puzzled and let him jump into my room.
"I just... wanna ask something..." Kaito put a serious face. He looks exhausted.
"And it is?"
"Did you confess your feeling to Kiyoteru?"
I nod my head. "Yes. I love him. I love him since a long time ago..."
Kaito choked and bite his lips, "Is that so?"
"Yes... I..." suddenly I slowed my voice. Wait. Did I say something wrong?
Kaito looks terrible in the eyes, but he laugh and pat my hair, "Well, congratulations... Be happy. I just can't wait until tomorrow to hear it from you. Sorry for the disturbance..."
I hold my breath, remembering obaachan and Kiyoteru's message. Maybe it's time to say it bluntly. I feel a little bit numb at my heart.
"Kaito... Can I ask for something?"
"what?"
"Please. Don't disturb me anymore. Im serious. I try to welcoming you, but I.. just can't. You are too noisy and immature. It makes me uncomfortable..."
Kaito smiling. A smile that suddenly pricked my heart. He nodded and jump to the window, "Okay. Im understand. Sorry for being such a nuisance. Be happy, Meiko..."
... suddenly tears come down my face.
Is this what I really want?
A lot of people say that Im dangerous and cruel. They don't want to go near me because they gonna hurt. I try not to listen it. But now I feel terribly wicked. I should admit that Im really a monster. I should be happy now. But... what is happiness indeed?
-To be continued...