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10. All Alone Means To Not Worth Living
In The Red Garden
Lord Redbrick carried Juliet over his shoulder with Tybalt following behind with her clothes. She screamed and screamed and struggled and tried a bunch of time to escape his grip but she couldn't and not to mention that she was naked under a blanket. But she didn't care that she was naked or the other gnomes were watching her, Juliet ran toward the gate to get back to Gnomeo but Lord Redbrick blocked her way and he picks her up again and takes her back to the grotto.
"NO, NO! LET ME GO! HE NEEDS ME! PUT ME DOWN! Juliet screamed and pounded her father's back to release her "LET GO OF ME, DAD! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DO THIS TO ME! Juliet screamed again in anger toward him.
"Oh yes, I do! He throws her to the ground with force. Making her hit the ground, she covers herself with the towel to not be exposed but she was still heartbroken.
She gets back up on her feet, standing up to him "It's my life! And I'm going to escape as many times I need to! Because I love Gnomeo with my life!
"I'm not going to see my daughter turn into a failure! Next to that imbecile will only bring you is shame! Gnomeo is a despicable Blue! He yelled in anger.
"Then I will have a miserable life, because that Blue makes me happy! And that Blue is more of a man that you! She growled at him.
But Lord Redbrick rose up his arm and smack her across the face, making her hit the floor "THAT'S ENOUGHT! He growl as Juliet sobbed on the ground "I will not watch you end in the garbage! He grabs her by her shoulder; tighten his grip on her as she sobbed.
"Dad, Gnomeo is fighting for me because he loves me! He makes me happy! She sobs through her tears.
"And I'm your father! And you will do what I say!
"Juliet! Nanette gasped when she stops Juliet and hop toward her, seeing how horrible Lord R is being to her "Lord Redbrick, let her go!
"Nanette, go take Juliet to the grotto and make sure she gets dressed and she stays there..! Lord R order, aggressively but Juliet cut him off with her sobbing.
"No, I have to go with him! And what do I have to do for you to let me go, Dad?! She yelled in anger, almost drowning in her tears.
"SHUT UP! Lord R slaps her across the face making her hit the ground again. "YOU'RE BEHAVING LIKE A SPOILED BRAT! And you will never see that bastard again. And from now on, you will do what I say, you like it or not, with or without force! He growl at her, as she sobbed on the ground.
"You're a monster" Nanette stated at Lord R as she pulled Juliet up "I cannot believe how a father would treat his child like this"
"What I did to her was something that I should have done a long time ago. All she's done was cause trouble but this was crossing the line! Now take her to back to her pedestal and make sure she stays there and she doesn't escape again! Lord R yelled in anger.
He grabs his daughter by her neck "I will deal with you later" he lowers his voice at Juliet who was still sobbing and throws her to the ground again, and he walks off to another direction.
"Come on, Jules, let's go" Nanette pulled up the crushed girl
"No, no, please, Nanette, no" Juliet sobbed as Nanette took her to the grotto
Minutes later, after she got dressed, poor heartbroken Juliet was in the arms of her frog friend, crying out loud by what happen this morning and how her father and her cousin almost killed her husband again. She sobbed in her arms as Nanette stroke her hair, trying to calm her down. But no matter how many tears or how many tissues Juliet needed to calm herself down and to stop crying, she couldn't stop crying or thinking about Gnomeo.
"There, there, don't crying anymore, calm down" Nanette whisper as she stroke Juliet's long hair.
"I don't want to live anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore. And please don't start by telling me that I'm still young and that I have a life ahead of me" she sobbed with all her tears on her face; she wipes her tears and blows her nose with a tissue and continues crying.
"And what do you want me to say? Nanette ask, still stroking her hair
"Nobody cares about me. Nobody cares about what I feel. What's the point of living if everybody looks at me as a traitor?"
"No, don't say that because you are not a traitor and everybody here does love you, you got me, you got your Dad, your cousin who is now with us, but you are not alone"
"Yes, I am alone, Nanette. He was the only one who cared about me, that's why I have this huge pain inside of me. And you know me, you know that I'm tough and I don't cry but this loneliness and suffering broke me. He brought the real me, the one who has been locked up inside for a long time and had the chance to be myself. That's why I cry and I'm worried about him. What should I do?
"Maybe you should just forget about him" Nanette sighs as she rubs Juliet's shoulder. Juliet was shocked by what she heard!
"How could you say that?
"I'm saying that because you can't keep this up. You can't keep hiding and running away. Every time you guys try to be together, it always backs fire on you. Forgive me when I tell you this, Jules, but you lost the game, after everything you've been through, you lost the war and the battlefield"
"But I love him"
"I know you do, but what more can you do?
Nanette held the broken hearted girl in her arms, feeling her shake. She gave her a lot of tissues and she blew her nose so many times but more tears came out of the pain she was feeling her heart. She felt like one of those girls that her family hates the guy she loves and now they hate her but will never be accepted their love for eachother. Like one of those defenceless girls that all they can do to is cry day, but the pain she was in right now was too much she could bear, she turned into the weak girly girl she never wanted to me. She felt so alone and didn't want to leave like this.
"Nanette, will you please go, I need some time alone to think" she said softly
"Sure, kid" the frog sighs and leaves the child alone with all her sorrows and tears.
That evening, Juliet was still in pain but she soon stopped crying for a while but she was still destroyed inside, she was a mess. She had her long hair all messed up and she had her clothes were torn up and she was barefoot, but her face was pale and her eyes were still red from all the crying for hours. She lay down on the cold pavement to her pedestal, looking up at the sky with her worried thoughts. But soon her cousin came to talk to her but he had no luck in getting her forgiveness.
"You have anything to say? Tybalt ask
"I don't want too" she said, not facing him
"You know, it's not good to be curled up back here, you can get bored"
"I don't get bored, I'm just lonely. With nobody that gets worried about me"
"I know how you feel; I have felt alone my whole life. I felt solitude, the anger. I hated my mother because she never paid any attention to me. You and my aunt were the only people who cared about me"
"Sometimes I feel that it's better for my dad if I didn't existed"
"He's just trying to protect you, like I'm here for you now"
"Why'd you do that? Why can't think about it before you dragged me way from him?
"Listen, Jules. Believe it or not, I get worried about you because you're my little cousin and I don't want you with that Blue"
"That Blue is my husband. And I don't care what you, or my dad or any of Reds have to say about that"
"You'll see it one day that that Blue is your enemy, you'll see"
Juliet scoffed by what he said and she couldn't believe what he did this morning. She also couldn't believe that he got put back together, she prefer him to be smashed. He and she never got along, not even since they were kids. Nobody cared what she was going through, the pain she was in right now. She didn't even had the strength to escape or go back to see her husband, but she couldn't even get up from her spot. She felt so alone without him, she looks sky and thinks of him. she never felt this amount of crying and her being so tough and thinking she could never cry after her mum died, but Gnomeo broke her and he made her feel the emotions that she thought she abandon, but no, she was wrong. She was always so brave and looking out for herself and not letting anybody stand in her way. But now all she cared about was him, more than her life that now to her, didn't really matter or wasn't worth living any more.
Juliet's POV
Times like this I really wish my mum were here to help me, to comfort me. But I was alone, nobody understood my pain. I stare out into the open, staring into space with my thoughts of her and a memory of her when I was younger and she was always there for me. I kept staring as I started getting a flashback of my mum and when I was 8-years-old.
(Flashback with 8-year-old Juliet and Lady Redbrick)
It was the day when I left the Red garden when I was 8 for the first time but my Dad and Tybalt found me and brought me back in by force. I was with my mum with my head on her lap, she stroke my hair. She didn't seem so angry because she understood why I did it.
"You know, that I wanted to give up a dozen slaps in your behind for leaving the garden, but when I found out that you got hurt, I almost die" my mum said, stroking my cheek with my head on her lap.
"Forgive me, mum. I just wanted to go outside for once and I'm sorry for lying to you" I said, sighing, feeling sorry about going out the garden for the first time but I almost got hurt in the alley until my dad and the Reds found me and brought me back.
"Why didn't you tell me? You know that you could trust me in anything" she asked me, while stroking my hair.
"Yeah, mum, but you don't do anything to help me with my dad. He treats me like I was a little girl"
"Yes, I know, my love. But you will always be our little girl. We will always see you like that"
"I'm not a little girl anymore, mum. I do Kung-Fu, I can climb trees and I know that soon I will have the great adventure one day that I almost had today" I smiled at her as I look up at her.
"Oh, my girl. I have to tell you that your father got really mad..." she sighs but she was soon cut off.
"Marina, leave me alone to talk with Juliet, please" my dad walked in, with a low tone but I knew that he was mad and was going to yell at me. And by that I got off of my mum's lap and she gave my dad a look, meaning to go easy on me and she left me alone with him.
"Now, you're going to explain to me, young lady. Why on earth did you go outside?
I stated silent on the ground, looking up at him, not wanting to speak to him and he gave me an angry look. He always treated me and my mum in the worst way, not physical but emotional you can image if we didn't do what he says.
(End of Flashback)
Juliet's POV
That's it! I have had it! I can't live like this way anymore! I knew what I had to do to end my suffering. Knowing that my Dad never cared about me or never gave me the same amount of love my mum did. And who would care if I even take away my life? But I had to think this carefully because... what would Gnomeo think by this? He would never forgive me, he would go on or be happy again, that would kill me to see him unhappy and feel miserable because of me. To be honest, it's better for him if I do this because all I have done was cause him was troubles and problems like with the court trial and I made him give up everything he loved and leave his mother, and it was my fault that he almost got killed last night. I think that every time he goes near me, there was a threat or chance to get himself killed and I couldn't let that happen. He means more to me than my own life but he deserves to me happy and not be killed because of me. And the other fact was my Dad... what would happen if he finds me dead? He would freak out because he spend all these years keeping me safe and putting me up in my pedestal to not get hurt, and what would he do if he finds me dead? But then again, he's mostly the reason why I want and need to do this; he never really cared about me as a father, more like my owner or my bodyguard. My whole life, he gave me protection, he gave me safety, but he never gave me what I really needed from him, his love and his affection like any father would love his daughter, and I never had that. In fact, to him, I'm invisible or I don't exist to him, and when I do, it's always when he needs to yells at me or to put me back on my pedestal. I thought it was best everybody that I don't exist, that way, I won't get in the way of anybody's lives. Not in my Dad's, not in Gnomeo's or anybody's.
I once read on a newspaper that I found in the alley, it had an article about suicide and it said that the teenage suicide was the 3rd death of the world. And it also had a list of how you can suicide yourself like drinking drugs or poison, drowning yourself, chocking, shooting yourself with a gun, taking pills, burning your skin. But the most common suicide of all was cutting your veins, no matter which ones, especially on your wrists. It also said that when you lose 2.5 of your blood, you pass out immediately. I scared me when I read that, but it didn't scare me now because this was something I was sure about doing.
I have decided what I'm going to do it.
I went behind my pedestal to do it; I grabbed a knife that looked like a dagger that I got from the shed, without anybody seeing me. I pass my fingers on the pointy edge and seeing my reflection on it, seeing the sadness and the angst in my eyes. I knew what I had to do. (A/N: I know you guys know where I got this from, and I'll tell you guys about this at the end) I looked around, taking in all that surrounded them. This entire Red garden. I don't know what to think of it, if it was my home or my prison, with all the people in it that now see me as a traitor and that gave me more the reason to do this. I placed the cold knife on my wrist. It was now or never, I'm not backing out. I wiped off all of the tears from my eyes; I took at deep breath and shake all of my fears than turn into bravery as I held the dagger closer to me. The last thought, the last picture that I had on my mind was my beloved husband but I was doing this for him, no matter how much it hurt me to do this, but it was decided.
"Forgive me, Gnomeo. I love you"
At full speed, I slice off my veins on both of my wrist! I release the dagger from my hands and I started bleeding really fast and I was starting to get dizzy and to lose consciousness and I was getting this big head quake. I got down on my knees and I saw my reflection on a little puddle, I was slowly turning pale, I looked at my wrists and they were still bleeding, it looked scary of how much blood I was losing but I didn't regret this. It soon hit me, I fell to the floor, practically crawling and I slowly closed my eyes but then I heard a screaming voice calling my name.
"JULIET!
To me, it sounded like Nanette, screaming my name, echoic. But I lost consciousness and everything went black until I finally died on the cold pavement. I knew that there was going to be big commotion about this. And I also hope that seeing what I have done, it will finally open my Dad's eyes of how miserable and lonely I have been feeling for years and it will put an end to this feud, at least I'll be happy with the peace between our gardens. And Gnomeo will know that I will always love him, no matter what, and that I did this for him and only him. In less than a second, all I saw was darkness and felt my body go limp...
Alright, first of all, I know that the stupid dagger and suicide thing is from the original play. But I wanted to do something different and change something, so instead of a dagger through her chest or drinking poison or something, I had her cut her veins with a dagger. It seemed less painful and less bloody and less risky and less stupid.
And we all know that I HATE the original play with the stupid drama, and dying, and blood, and all the crying by the original Juliet (CRY BABY!)
That's why I ADORE this gnomy Juliet because she's tough, she's strong, she's ninja, she's a tomboy (Kinda) like me (Kinda again) (*laughs*) Anyways, please leave a message and a review and I'll get back to u, beeeep! (Wink)
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