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Sherlock. Everyone told me it would get easier. That I would be able to accept the fact that you are gone. Lying bastards. It's not getting any easier. Im taking medication. That's not helping either. The nightmares, they never stop. I hate to sleep, knowing that when I do, I'll be in a world of darkness and loneliness. But then I know, when I wake up, I'll be in the same situation. I hate this realizations after you have gone! We didn't even know each other for that long of a time, but without you it feels like im missing a part of my heart; my soul. Sherlock Holmes. Come home. This instant. Please. -JW
They say I have PTSD again. I think it's just straight up insanity. Me, going mental, because of you. I wonder if you look down on me from heaven, or up from hell. I wonder what you would do in my place. 'Sherlock's Dead Doctor'. Ha. You would get over it though, wouldn't you. I was only your companion, nothing more. You never felt anything like the way I feel- felt to you. Manipulative bastard. I left the house for longer than an hour today. I had a panic attack and one of Mycrofts people took me home. It's nice to know he still cares about me, even when you don't. -JW
Remember what I said before about coming to you? Well the time is coming. My biggest problem is to whom I leave the note with. Mycroft? Harry? Lestrade? No. I think I'll just leave one next to your grave. A nice sentiment, dont you agree? The voices are telling me to go. To jump of St. Bart's, just like you did, all those months ago. God, Sherlock. Why didnt I tell you I loved you? We had a magnificent time, so why do I feel so empty? Alone? Incomplete. I just can't deal with the ghost of you anymore. I'm so sorry. It's almost time to go, Mister Holmes. And I am ready. -JW
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