"So does being in love with me pain you so much that you had to stay away for an entire year?" Ciel asked, his fingers ran along the older man's jawline then trailed down along his neck.

"It's quite shameful for a creature such as myself to fall for a mortal being, you surely understand that."

"Why not stay away an entire lifetime then, wait until I'm long dead...Never mind; I'm still your dinner, are you sure you even know what love is?"

"Sadly I'm very sure I know this feeling, I've felt it before; promise me you will not leave, it hurt to feel you in so much pain." He whispered as he placed his hand against the scar marking the blue eyed man's side.

Each night the two men retired to Ciel's bedroom where they lived in their private little world. He could still sense the tension and betrayal coming from his master, it was understandable; he didn't even trust himself anymore.

"I still loathe you for that, I still wait for you to leave once more; what made you return to me?"

"My last love ended with me finding her lying dead on our bed all because I had left her side, I feared I would find you in a similar state; I had to come back to see if you were still alive or if I would soon lose you. I had planned on returning, we have a contract; I knew you would be quite disappointed if I ignored it."

Ciel kissed the older man almost as if he wished to comfort him.

"So you have been in love, how long ago was that?"

"Many years before your time, I had hoped I'd never feel love again after that. I should damn you for making me feel such a way, do you hate that you love me as much as I hate that I love you?"

"Passionately; a nobleman in love with his butler, a mortal in love with a conniving demon. Nothing about this is right, even if it was all in the name of lust it is quite obscene. Love weakens every being living and otherwise, I refuse to be weak; I refuse to allow you to be weak. Will you still hold true to your word when the time comes?"

The younger man sat upon the demon's lap, his fingers tangled in his hair, and his face merely inches away from Sebastian's. The butler's hands held firmly to his master's hips, his fingers rubbing over his soft flesh.

"Yes I will still hold true to my word, despite my feelings for you."

He had never told a lie before, it felt so odd to tell one now after all of these years. The satisfied look in Ciel's eye told him his lover believed him, he felt the tiniest bit of guilt for lying to him, but it couldn't be helped. He couldn't imagine how angry and betrayed the younger male would feel if he knew the truth. There was no way in the very depths of Hell that Sebastian could kill him, not now; at one point in time he dreamed of the ways he could kill him, as time went on he thought of kinder ways to carry out the act, and now he almost had himself fooled into thinking the man sitting atop him could never grow old and die.

"Did you try to not love me?"

"For an entire year's time, it did nothing but make me long for you more." Sebastian replied.

He loved this man more than he knew was right or healthy, it would be his damnation to love somebody this strongly. He had attempted to stop, it was a possibility he could have tried harder, but now he was at the point of no return. The moment his lips pressed against Ciel's in a passionate kiss all thoughts and concerns faded from his mind, the fingers in his hair tightened their grip giving a small tug. He couldn't help but moan at the sensation, his tongue invaded the younger man's mouth tasting him; he moved them so that Ciel now lay beneath him, the noble's left leg wrapped around his waist pulling his lower half down against him. He could spend night after night this way, with those slender legs wrapped around him, that blue eye filled with lust staring up at him, and the feel of those lush lips pressed against his own. His hands roamed over the other man's body, caressing and lightly scratching at every spot that was available, his fingers traced every scar that only added to the blue haired man's beauty. Sebastian kissed along his neck his sharpened teeth grazing over his skin, he could hear his quickened heart beat, and his labored breaths. For a man with such a death wish he seemed to be so alive in these moments.

"Sebastian" His voice a breathy moan, the demon's name a desperate plea falling from swollen lips.

"What is your wish my Lord?" He whispered against his neck his warm breath tickling his lover's skin sending a shiver down his spine.

"I love you, I want you to take me and mark me as yours."

So much more confidence with his last words, his voice steadier, but lust laced each letter. Sebastian nipped at his neck stirring another moan from the other man, he moved back to his lips kissing him roughly. Nails dug into his back dragging downwards leaving light red welts in their path, he loved when his master could be forward and rough with him. This was a body he could spend centuries worshiping, these were moans he could listen to for lifetimes; he wished the bites and scratches Ciel left on him would last forever. He loved his master, he loved him more than he imagined he could love a human, and how that terrified him. He knew it scared the younger man, he could feel it, but they continued on testing where this could lead. He wished the roles were different and the times were more advanced, he wished they were in a state of place where their relations with one another could be more open and less secretive.

"I would destroy Heaven and Hell all for you my love."

He meant it, he would defy every God and demon just for the sake of the mortal man he loved so deeply. He would spend his nights gaining back his trust asking for forgiveness, making love to him, and falling asleep with the younger man in his arms.