A/N: I am currently not feeling well, but I wanted to update anyway.
I really appreciate all of the kind words and reviews that I received from the last chapter.
There's a sprinkle of het this chapter.
I had a lot of fun writing this chapter and I hope that you will all enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the wrestlers, they all belong to WWE. If I owned John or Seth, I'd never leave my apartment.
Chapter 2: What Seth Really Wants
It's been a few weeks since John and Seth almost kissed and things are relatively normal between them. However, John is still pissed at Evan for killing the mood that night. Seth is in the living room watching TV when he spots a shirtless John come in. John is fresh from the shower so there are still water droplets sliding down his perfect abs. Seth quickly looks away when he realizes that he's staring.
"Like what you see?" John taunts.
"Not in the way that you think. I wish that I had a body like yours. I don't lust after your body. I don't want to touch it or anything like that," Seth explains.
Before Seth can react, John playfully tackles him. They both fall off of the couch and John ends up on top of Seth. John's hands are supporting Seth's back, so neither man is hurt. John straddles Seth and he uses his strength to make sure that Seth can't escape. He positions Seth's hand on his still slightly damp chest.
"I know that you want to touch me," John whispers seductively.
Seth tries to push John off of him, but he's just not strong enough. John also has a firm grip on Seth's hand. Seth is unwillingly caressing John's hard abs and he tries to ignore the weird tingling sensation that he's feeling. Seth is convinced there's a reason that his body reacts oddly whenever he's in close contact with John. John releases Seth's hand, but he remains on top of him.
"You have no idea how many times I've pictured you under me like this," John reveals.
"John―"
Seth doesn't finish his sentence and he lets out a gasp instead when John sneaks his hand up his shirt. Seth has never been touched so intimately by another man and it's freaking him out. Seth is sweating profusely and he's pretty sure that his heart is going to beat right out of his chest.
John further excites Seth by slowly licking his sensitive lower stomach. Seth uses all of his might to create some separation. When he breaks free, he gets up and quickly retreats to his room. He's trying to breathe and clear his head when John knocks on his door.
John starts pacing outside Seth's door. "Fuck! I'm so fucking sorry, Seth! I don't know what I was thinking. I just lost control. Shit! I'm so damn stupid!"
Seth wants to say something because he knows that John is feeling extremely guilty. Seth is angry and his emotions are all over the place, so he chooses to ignore John. John eventually stops knocking and Seth is grateful. Seth has a pounding headache and he just wants to sleep. He definitely doesn't want to analyze what just happened between him and John.
Seth usually feels refreshed after taking a nap, but that's not the case. His head still aches and he still doesn't know what to think about John. It's been awhile since Seth has gone out and he could really use a drink. He texts Roman and asks if he wants to go with him to the bar. Roman says that he will meet him at the bar.
"Isn't John normally your wingman? I'm surprised that he's not here with you," Roman mentions.
Seth finishes off his third beer. "I really don't want to talk about John right now."
"You're drinking like a fish and you flinch every time that I bring up John. What happened?" Roman asks.
"Johnny is my best friend and I love him platonically, you know? His unrequited crush on me never really bothered me. I mean it makes me uncomfortable at times, but that's to be expected, right? He took things too far today," Seth comments.
"What did he do?" Roman wants to know.
"I'll spare you the details, but he acted inappropriately. I kind of resent him a little bit for it. If I'm being honest, I hate him for confusing me," Seth admits.
"Did he kiss you or something?" Roman questions.
"Yeah, or something. I'm not gay, but for some reason whenever John touches me or looks at me in a certain way, my body reacts strangely," Seth tells Roman.
"Strangely as in you pop a boner?" Roman wonders.
"No! I mean like I'll either shiver or sweat a lot. My heart beats wildly and I'll get this odd feeling in my stomach. Stuff like that," Seth clarifies.
Roman smirks. "That's called attraction."
"I don't think so. I've been attracted to plenty of women and my body has never behaved that way," Seth points out.
"I know that you don't want to hear this, but maybe you're bi like me," Roman suggests.
"That's ridiculous! I love women. I'm looking around for one that I can take home tonight," Seth replies.
"Really? You never have random hookups. You always wait until you're in a relationship to have sex," Roman responds.
"Well it's been awhile since I've been in a relationship. I'm going through a dry spell and I really need to fuck someone," Seth unabashedly states.
"You're way more honest when you're drinking. We should do this more often," Roman says with a smile
"I'll be right back. There's a hot chick at the bar," Seth announces.
Seth makes his way through the crowd of people to get to the bar. There are a few people between him and the cute girl with two-toned hair. When she orders her cocktail, Seth slips beside her and volunteers to pay for her drink. She smiles at him and gracious accepts his offer.
"Thank you. I'm Kaitlyn," She introduces.
"No problem. I'm Seth," He replies.
"I really like your hair," Kaitlyn compliments.
"Thanks. I like yours too," Seth lets her know.
"You're not like the normal guys that come to this bar. So what brings you here?" Kaitlyn asks.
"Actually, you are exactly what I'm looking for," Seth flirts.
She licks her lips lasciviously. "I hope you're what I'm looking for. I want to get my world rocked tonight."
Roman drops Seth and Kaitlyn off at Seth's place because they're too drunk to drive. He says that he will take them to their cars in the morning. They thank him for his generosity. Seth and Kaitlyn stumble inside his apartment. It's a little after 1:30 a.m. and Seth thinks that John might be sleeping. He takes Kaitlyn into his room and they immediately start stripping out of their clothes.
"My roommate is probably asleep, so let's try not to be too loud," Seth tells Kaitlyn.
Kaitlyn nods before she kisses Seth softly. Seth eagerly accepts Kaitlyn's tongue into his mouth. He picks her up and gently places her on his bed. Kaitlyn is spread out completely nude and Seth grows hard at the sight of her beautiful body. He joins her on the bed and he kisses her again while one of his hands fondles her breast.
"Your tits are amazing," Seth praises.
Kaitlyn's retort gets cut off when Seth takes one of her nipples in his mouth. She groans softly in appreciation. Kaitlyn loves the way that Seth is worshipping her breasts. Seth makes his way down the rest of her body.
Kaitlyn opens her legs and Seth can already see how wet that she is. He spreads her lips so that he can see her in all of her glory. He slips one finger inside her and she groans softly. Her body quivers in ecstasy when Seth gets in between her legs and slowly licks her clit.
"Oh, Seth! Fuck!" Kaitlyn accidentally screams.
John is in his room down the hall and he can hear the passionate noises coming from Seth's room very clearly. He listens to Seth's moans of pleasure and it cuts John like a knife. Seth obviously likes women and John thinks that maybe he should stop deluding himself. John thinks that maybe he should just give up thinking that Seth will ever reciprocate his feelings.
When Seth wakes up in the morning, his head is throbbing. He feels a body beside him and he briefly panics. Seth sighs in relief when he realizes that it's a woman next to him and not John. He turns over and he's surprised to see that she is already awake. Seth is still hungover and he doesn't remember everything that happened last night.
"Good morning, stud," Kaitlyn greets with a laugh.
"Good morning, beautiful," Seth replies.
"It's kind of early, so I don't know if you're hungry or not. Your roommate cooked me breakfast earlier. He made some for you too," Kaitlyn tells him.
"Really?" Seth questions.
"Yeah, he was really nice. He's a good cook too," Kaitlyn adds.
"Wow. I'm surprised that he was polite," Seth mentions.
"Is he an asshole or something?" Kaitlyn wonders.
"He has a big crush on me. He normally doesn't like anyone that I'm with," Seth explains.
"Oh, that's awkward," Kaitlyn comments.
"Yeah, tell me about it," Seth responds.
After Roman takes Seth and Kaitlyn to get their cars, Seth goes back to Kaitlyn's place. She shares her apartment with her adopted siblings, but it's pretty spacious. Seth makes himself comfortable on the couch while Kaitlyn goes to her room. Kaitlyn comes out a few minutes later wearing just lingerie.
"I think we went 2 rounds last night. Are you ready for round 3?" Kaitlyn asks.
"Oh, definitely," Seth answers.
After having sex with Kaitlyn and watching TV with her, Seth heads back home. He wants to talk with John now that he has had time to calm down. Seth opens the door and he's surprised when he walks in on John and some guy making out on the couch in the living room. Seth awkwardly clears his throat.
"Oh, shit. Hey Seth," John eventually says.
"Hey," Seth repeats.
"I'm Phil. You must be Seth," Phil comments.
"Yeah, nice to meet you," Seth responds with a fake smile.
"We were getting ready to watch a movie. Want to join?" John asks.
"I'm actually pretty tired. I'm going to take a nap. Maybe some other time," Seth declines.
Before John can say anything convincing him to stay, Seth escapes to his bedroom. Seth isn't sure why, but there's something about Phil that irks his nerves. A few hours later, John kisses Phil goodbye and says that he'll see him later. Seth waits a few minutes after Phil leaves before he comes out of his room to speak with John.
"Is Phil your new freak of the week?" Seth taunts.
"He's an old friend actually," John remarks.
"Right. Everyone kisses 'old friends' like that," Seth sarcastically mentions with a roll of his eyes.
"Ok, so we were fuck buddies back in college. We hooked up a few times before I met you," John admits.
"And now you're seeing him again?" Seth probes.
"Why are you so interested in my love life suddenly? I didn't drill Kaitlyn about your relationship when I met her this morning," John replies.
"Speaking of Kaitlyn, I'm pleasantly surprised that you were nice to her," Seth states.
"I realize that it's really not fair of me to treat the people you're intimate with like shit. Being an ass to them isn't going to make you suddenly want me," John tells him.
Seth raises an eyebrow. "Ok. Who are you and what have you done with my best friend?"
"I had an epiphany last night. I'm your friend and it's time that I start acting like it," John adds.
2 Months Later
John is lounging around on the couch as he catches up on shows on the DVR. It's the first time in a while that John is actually spending time at his apartment without Phil. They've been pretty much attached at the hip since they started dating a couple of months ago.
Seth is shirtless and sweaty from a workout when he enters the living room. John glances at him before turning his attention back to the TV. Seth sits down next to John and he's practically invading John's personal space. Seth is shocked that John is ignoring him.
"I'm sitting here half-naked and you haven't hit on me once. Am I getting fat or something?" Seth jokingly asks.
"Of course not. Your body is perfect," John replies without looking in Seth's direction.
"Ok, what's going on with you? You've been acting really weird lately," Seth points out.
"I've just been treating you the way that a friend should. It's not fitting for me to flirt with you," John answers robotically.
"Where is this coming from? Did Phil say something to you?" Seth wonders.
"You should be happy that I'm not making unwanted advances toward you anymore," John declares.
Seth touches John's arm and he's astounded when John flinches. "It's like we've switched roles. I'm normally the one that shies away from the physical contact."
"You can't touch me, Seth. You have no idea how much you tempt me by just existing. I already lost control once and—"
"So that's what this is about. I've already forgiven you for that incident," Seth lets him know.
"I know, but I don't want to risk losing you as a friend. I don't trust myself around you, so I've been keeping my distance," John explains.
"I miss you, John. The fact that you flirt with me is just a part of our unique friendship. It's practically a part of your personality. I never get to see you anymore because you're always with fucking Phil. I just want things to go back to how they used to be between us," Seth pours his heart out.
"Things can't go back to how they were. I fucking pined after you like some lovesick puppy. Sometimes it hurts just looking into your eyes and not seeing requited emotions there. Phil is good for me. He's a really decent guy and he loves me," John reveals.
Seth rests his head on John's shoulder. "I'm sorry, Johnny. I wish that I loved you that way. It would make everything so much easier. I'm so damn selfish. I can't give you what you want, but I still want you as my best friend. I want you to break up with Phil. I wish being friends with me didn't cause you so much pain."
"How can you want me so much, yet it's not enough?" John whispers rhetorically.
John and Seth sigh in unison. John runs his hands idly through Seth's hair and he pulls him in closely. They're both wondering how their friendship got so complicated. John's feelings for Seth started out innocently; it was a simple crush. But then John completely lost his heart to Seth. Their moment of melancholy silence ends when Seth's phone vibrates.
"It's Kaitlyn. She wants to see me," Seth says.
"Go," John demands.
"Are you sure?" Seth checks.
"Yeah. She's good for you. You should go be with her," John tells him with a sad smile.
Kaitlyn gives superb blowjobs. She does things with her tongue that makes Seth see stars. She's currently on her knees with her talented mouth wrapped around Seth's cock. Normally, Seth would be rock hard and leaking pre-cum by this point. Several minutes have gone by and he's still limp. Kaitlyn lets out a sound of frustration and stops sucking Seth's dick. She zips his jeans back up and joins him on the sofa.
"Am I doing something wrong?" Kaitlyn desperately wants to know.
"No, I'm just distracted," Seth answers.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asks.
"It's John. We're drifting apart," Seth speaks.
"That doesn't sound like such a bad thing," Kaitlyn gives her opinion.
"Why would you say something like that?" Seth snaps.
"You said that he has feelings for you, right? So, you need some separation. I didn't want to say anything before, but I don't think it's healthy how attached that you and John are," Kaitlyn confesses.
"John and I are just close. There's nothing wrong with that," Seth defends.
Kaitlyn shakes her head in disbelief. "Oh my God! I'm such an idiot! I'm falling for you and you're in denial about your feelings for John."
"I'm not in denial about anything," Seth argues.
"Stop lying to yourself, Seth. You don't think it's weird how you're not freaked out by the fact that he's practically in love with you? You sound so jealous whenever you complain about Phil. Sometimes when John is talking, you look at him like he's the only person in the world that matters. I didn't put it together before just now," She retorts.
"You don't know what you're talking about," Seth replies fiercely.
"You should hurry up and come to terms with your feelings before it's too late. It's only a matter of time before John moves on from you. And when he does, Phil will be waiting for him with open arms," Kaitlyn warns.
"I really don't harbor those types of feelings for him," Seth denies.
Kaitlyn sighs. "Keep telling yourself that, Seth. I wish that I would have paid attention to the red flags sooner. You'll never gaze at me the way you do John. It hurts. You want him, not me. I deserve to be with someone who truly desires me."
"Are you breaking up with me?" Seth asks.
She nods. "Yes. You'll thank me for it later, I promise. My heart hurts now, but I know that it will only get worse if I were to stay in this relationship. I wish you the best of luck with John. I really do. You're a good guy, Seth. You deserve to be happy."
A/N: This chapter was full of drama and I thoroughly enjoyed it.
The next chapter will be the last one and I can't wait to share it with you!
There's more drama and tons of sweetness coming up next.
I can't wait to hear all of your thoughts!