"Even a stranger could tell Hiei doesn't want children" Botan said to Shizuru retrieving another Kleenex from the box she held. Beneath her lay a whole box plus more soaked with tears. She had been in the same position on the couch bawling for over 45 minutes now.

"Well yeah." Shizuru said putting out her cigarette in the ash tray. The house wreaked of smoke now. Botan didn't know how she could just have one right after the other, after the other. "It's time the fire demon grew up though. He can't always get what he wants and he can't always be the selfish bastard he is now."

"I guess" Botan sobbed

"Are you going to keep it? Shizuru asked, afraid to even breech the subject.

"Of course I am! I cant,..no I wont end an innocent life because I'm too selfish to care for it." Botan sighed.

"Look, his reaction and his thoughts aside. None of that can even come until you figure out a way to tell him." Shizuru said reaching into her coat pocket for her pack of cigarettes.

"Oh I always dreamed of having a child with someone who so desperately wanted one. Telling them by watching baby movies and making foods that start with baby" Botan daydreamed.

"So do that then" she said flicking her lighter.

"With Hiei? Yeah right." Botan huffed.

"Well it might distract him enough to the point where he won't kill you" Shizuru said laughing, slowly quieting down until she realized Botan didn't quite find it to be that funny.

"You might as well live out your little fantasy. He's not going to be happy any way you tell him." Shizuru said.

"I need time to think" Botan said walking to the pregnancy tests and putting them in a small bag. "I could gift wrap all 9 of them!" she said giggling nervously.

"Happy we fucked up day. Here's some sticks I pissed on?" Shizuru said blowing smoke into the apartment.

"Oh be quiet" Botan said as the rain began outside again. "I have a while to tell him. I don't have to do it tonight.

Shizuru stood "Well you should probably decide that little detail. I'm sure he'll be coming inside soon" she said giving a small wave. "Let me know if you need anything."

"Shizuru,...please don't tell the gang yet." Botan pleaded.

"Sure" she said as she left the apartment, about to close the door when she passed Hiei entering the apartment.

Hiei squeezed out his cloak at the door and hung it to dry on the coat rack by the door "Have you stopped puking all over everything?" he asked as he walked past Botan.

"Euhm,,...uh" Botan mumbled as she shoved the bag of pregnancy tests into a cupboard of the dining room. "I feel a little better"

"Good. The house was beginning to smell putrid" Hiei said. Botan's ears began to ring as she heard the tell tail whistle of that damned tea pot.

"Are you making tea?" Botan asked, afraid of the answer.

"Yeah. Kurama said you should drink some" Hiei said entering the room with the two small coffee cups. The steam from the tea drifted across the room, filling it with that horrid aroma.

"Uh,...you know I really don't feel like tea right now." Botan said backing away from him. She would do anything at this point to get away from the smell.

Hiei sipped his own, placing hers harshly onto the counter. "Kurama's orders" he barked.

"Uh,,.oh uhm but I really prefer sugar in my tea. I just emptied the sugar bowl yesterday. Shucks." Botan said snapping her fingers in fake disappointment.

"Your acting stupid." Hiei said as he approached her, backing her into a wall of the dining room. Oh lord was he ever close now. The tea lingered on his breath and seemed to drench every word he spoke. Her stomach lurched with every movement his mouth made.

"No,..." Botan said.

"Why are you backing away from me? Turning me away. Sick at the mere sight of me?" Hiei spoke.

"Uh,..-well its not...I"

"Prove it." Hiei said crossing his arms firmly in front of his chest.

Botan scurried to the side to escape from him "I can't even think right now" Botan whimpered walking into their bedroom. Hiei followed her with his cup. Great. She laid onto her side of the bed. "Lay down" Botan almost commanded Hiei.

"Why are you demanding so much physical contact?" Hiei said refusing to lay for her.

"Hiei please,...I really can't do this right now." Botan begged of him shoving her face into the pillow.

"You will talk to me right now! You stupid ferry girl. All you do is bitch that I won't join in some foolish relationship with you, but when I attempt a conversation about your well being you withdraw" Hiei shouted at her.

"Everything isn't always about you, ya know!?" Botan shrieked as she sat up in bed, tears coming down in steady streams upon her delicate face. "I don't feel well and you are shouting at me. Forgive me for just wanting to get some sleep and regain some of my sanity. I promise I will tell you. I really will Hiei. But,...I need some time okay?"

"Are you dying?" Hiei seemed to ask so easily, so emotionally unattached.

"No,..." Botan strained to get out without growing more angry.

"Hn. I'll wait." Hiei said sitting on the side of the bed. "I can make you feel better." he began to smirk.

This was the last thing on Botan's mind. Although it had been almost a week,...if not more. The idea of any type of movement made her nauseous. Especially the thought of that tea ridden mouth anywhere near her. However, who was to say they would ever be together in that way again. As soon as she told him he would surely leave her. Who is she to refuse him? One last time,...to remember the happiness the awkward situation had brought them. "Will you brush your teeth first?" Botan asked. "Oh and wash your hands please"

Hiei stood slowly. That was the strangest request he had ever heard. His hands were clean,..and he had brushed his teeth already today. He should've told her to suck it up but at this point another bout of crying would damper his chances.

Authors note: Lemon? No lemon? Review and let me know your thoughts. I promise she will reveal her secret next chapter as well!