Hiei climbed over Botan's frame gently planting small bites along the nape of her neck. The toothpaste just covered up the smell of tea leaves. The underlying tea leaf smell was still detectable. Botan exhaled deeply and fully, attempting to fight off the nausea.

Hiei grasped his hands around her waist pulling her closer to him. The sudden jerk was even more nauseating. Botan pushed him over, which Hiei mistakenly took for play. She sat up "Hiei,,..." she whimpered.

"Hn?" He asked staring up at her, angry she was still clothed.

"I really need to stop" Botan said holding him down. "I know I agreed to do this tonight but,...I really really feel ill"

"Why are you holding me down?" Hiei asked quietly, void of any emotion, genuinely curious of the reasoning.

"If you move I'll throw up." She said remaining still "I need a minute for my stomach to settle."

"Do you think I'll take advantage of you?" Hiei questioned, now even quieter than before.

"No,..." Botan said covering her mouth and nose to avoid any of the tea's scent to allow the nausea to worsen.

"I wouldn't,..." Hiei said

"Thank you" she whispered slowly climbing off of him.

"You need to see Kurama" Hiei said sitting up on the side of the bed.

"I'll see a doctor soon. I promise. Right now,...I need to pay the bathroom a long visit." Botan said covering her mouth again, gagging on the way to the bathroom. Loud retching and vomiting was heard from the few rooms away.

As strange as it was. He almost felt sympathy for her, almost. Hiei poured her a glass of water and got her a cool washcloth, placing it on the back of her neck as she vomited.

"Hiei,...can we talk" Botan muffled from her face still in the toilet.

Hiei leaned against the shower wall, waiting patiently.

"Hiei,..." Botan said rising from the floor. She trudged into the dining room, grabbing the bag that contained the pregnancy tests. Guiltily and slowly she walked back into the room. "Its,...its my fault. I know it's my fault, but before I go any further...can I ask for patience, and inside voices? Botan pleaded.

Hiei tried to peer at what was behind her back. "Hn,..."

"I" Botan started,...pausing for a full three minutes before starting again "I,...I was enjoying the fling that we had. It felt so exciting, so fulfilling to be wanted for once. It's really all I ever wanted in life. I know it's not what you want,...to be wanted that is. But,...it was just so amazing that I guess I became distracted,...careless in my nature." Botan said, her hands shaking as she lifted the bag to her chest. She opened it and from within the bag, grasped a single test in her hand.

Hiei waited, quietly almost seemingly respectfully for her to finish. She was so shaken,...he couldn't imagine what she was going to reveal. She must have someone's head in that bag. That or someone's dead body.

She pulled the test from the bag and handed it slowly to him as the hyperventilating began "I,...I...I'm sorry"

Hiei took it from her gently, eying it up. He turned it upside down, sideways, front ways. It made no sense to him. He had no idea what this foreign object was. "What is this?" he asked shaking it.

"Its a pregnancy test" Botan said, crying for what seemed like the millionth time that day. "'I'm pregnant"

Hiei gazed up from the test slowly, eerily "Are you positive?"

Botan sniffled reaching into the bag, grabbing them all in her fist. "I'm pregnant" she placed the second test into his lap. "I'm pregnant" she said placing a third. "I'm pregnant", a fourth. "I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant" she said allowing the rest to fall into his lap.

Hiei took the time to quietly examine each and every test, ensuring they looked the same, as if she hadn't already done it. He was so deathly silent. Botan had never been so afraid.

"Well,..."

"I thought you were on the pill" Hiei stood, unevenness in his tone. However, he didn't raise his voice.

"I missed 3 doses" Botan said, her eyes glued to the floor. She was ashamed to admit she did such a thing. She was a grown woman after all.

"Is that why your ill?" Hiei asked.

"It's called morning sickness" Botan said, rubbing the length of her arm.

"I'm sure you've already decided to keep it" Hiei said avoiding eye contact with her.

"Yeah,..."

"What about what I think?" Hiei asked

"Well,...what...what do you think"

"I think your a damn fool for allowing this to happen." Hiei said throwing the tests into the trash. "I think I should've known better than to get involved with someone like you who wants so much more than what she already has. You're a romantic sap and you thought that seducing me would get me to propose to you and marry you and have this,...this,...this kid! Did you do this on purpose?"

"No,..." Botan said whimpering as she cried. Those words were like ice to her soul. She imagined Hiei would be mad, throw stuff, storm out, maybe even leave forever but she hadn't expected this type of accusation.

"Are you telling the truth" Hiei asked, staring into her eyes.

"Hiei I am telling you the truth. I wouldn't plan this on purpose. I know what terrible parents we would be. I know how much you hate children. I know how much you don't want a child. I can't even remember to take my pills. How would I remember to do everything a child required from me. We're just so hopeless, separated or together. I know now two wrongs will never make a right"

The air between them grew tense and thick as more time went by without anybody saying anything. "So,...what should we do" Botan finally broke the air with the question.

"I want to tear that child from inside you. I want to rip it to shreds. I want nothing more than to end this putrid excuse for an existence." Hiei growled.

Botan covered her mouth in both shock and disgust "HIEI! I cannot believe you would,...well I can...YOU'RE TERRIBLE."

"I want to. But I won't." Hiei said walking into the living room, staring into the window where this all began.

"Why won't you,..." Botan questioned. It was so hard not to be angry, to be rash. If any other normal person had said those words to their pregnant acquaintance they would have had them arrested. Hiei was different. It was enough of an amazement that he informed her he wouldn't do it.

"I need to be away from you" Hiei said putting his cloak back over his body.

"F-forever?" Botan asked

Hiei turned to look at her face. It was so pale, so spent. His mouth didn't even twitch, his cold red eyes spoke everything that needed to be said. He released his death glare upon her and exited the door in one swift movement. He shut the door passively and quietly.

Botan crumbled onto the floor sobbing again. I guess at least he was patient, and he didn't really shout at her. It is what she asked of him. She didn't ask him to leave though. The hormonal bouts of crying were beginning to make her feel like the fool Hiei made her out to be. Hiei would return in time, she thought,...she hoped.

Hopelessly defeated she drug herself up to the couch and laid across it, exhausted. She spent the entire night on that couch, jumping at every small creak the wind caused or crack of the old house. The morning came slowly and painfully, but still no Hiei. She felt so awful. She hadn't eaten all day yesterday and had thrown up everything she tried, even water. The sleepless night didn't help much either. She knew she had to eat something, if not for her than for the child. Botan stood from the couch en route to the kitchen. She had stood too fast, her knees felt as if they would buckle from underneath her. Her mind felt clouded and confused. She fell into the door frame, breathing heavily. The light headed haze began to form around her until the image she once saw turned into a blur. That blur turned black as she felt herself smack off the table that started it all. The pain erupted within her just before her consciousness was lost.