Biology was insanely boring without Edward. Since I'd already been taught all the subjects they're teaching here in Phoenix, I didn't really have to listen, and when I had to listen like I had to today without Edward by my side, I realised how boring being told things you already know really is. Instead, I'd thought about Jake. Is it acceptable for me to find him attractive even when I have Edward? No… Of course not. But that doesn't mean I don't. I'm not gonna lie, Jacob, compared to Edward, has the best body. Anyone with eyesight would know that. You don't even have to look underneath clothes to be able to guess who has the best body. And his warmth… I'm not much of a fan of Edwards' freezing vampire body temperature. It'd be nice to be able to be held by a welcoming temperature that doesn't start to make me shiver after 5 minutes.
There's no point in lying to myself anymore. I like Jacob… More than a friend. But I can't let him or anybody else know that, although, without wanting to seem too full of myself, I can't imagine him being upset to learn my true feelings about him. If I told him, and made him swear not to tell anyone about it, it could be okay… Apart from the fact it could possibly ruin our close friendship. Hey, friends with benefits… How bad could it be? Edward will never have to know.
It's settled then. I have to tell Jake the truth. I'll go straight to his after school.
I finally came back to Earth. Everyone apart from Edward were here eating there dinner. Well, the Cullens just pretended, anyway. Everyone, eating their food, talking to friends… Apart from Jasper, who had been staring intently at me while I was in my deep thought bubble, and still was. Had he felt my arousal over Jacob? Oh fuck, could I get more stupid? Why I didn't think about Jasper's ability before I let my feelings get out of control, I'll never fucking know. God! I'm so stupidly embarrassed. I'm just lucky he doesn't know who I'd been feeling aroused over. I'd die if he knew I thought of Jacob that way. He'd surely tell Edward.
"Hey, Bella… You look like you've done eating. I have to take this homework to English before the end of lunch break. Come with me, please?" Jasper said, beckoning me to follow him.
He knows. Somehow he knows. He's gonna kill me. Oh God, help me. I got up unwillingly and followed him, leaving my other friends with a quick wave and fake smile. Jasper led me inside the school building, and as soon as we entered, he quickly herded me into the janitor's closet.
"Bella, did you forget my ability to sense feelings? You were giving off one hell of a feeling there. One that I couldn't physically ignore…" Jasper trailed off.
"Oh, shit, Jasper, I'm so sorry. I completely forgot, and my thoughts just continued one after another, before I knew it –"
"Isabella, calm down. I understand. Trust me… I don't mind. I'm an honest man, Bella, so I'm gonna tell you the truth. If it was any other person giving off the feeling you gave off, I'd not have mentioned anything whether they knew about my ability or not. But you… You're a different story. I think you're attractive, Isabella, and I'm not going to lie to you, but I liked being able to feel what you felt. Alice hasn't been her usual kinky little self for a long, LONG time, and I haven't felt like that for a long time either. So, I thank you for sharing that feeling with me… And I want you to do it again sometime. I weren't lying when I said I'm an honest man."
It took me some time to process what had just happened. Jasper Whitlock, the most mysterious person I've ever known, had basically just told me I'd made him horny. I stared blankly at him, and I knew he knew I was still absorbing what had just been said.
Before I could dodge, he wrapped one arm firmly around my waist and pulled me to his body tightly. With his other arm, he moved my hair away from my ear and whispered, "Isabella, I'd like it if you kept this to yourself." He came in closer to my ear, and continued, "I know Edward doesn't please you the way you wish him to. If you ever find yourself in that mood… You know where to find me. I'll do the dirty work, and he'll never have to know. He has no idea how well I'm able to control myself around your blood. None of the family do, but I'm sure after having me this close to you without even a slight nibble at your neck, you know you can trust me not to bite."
With that, he moved down to my neck, and kissed it firmly, all the way down to my collarbone. He ran his fingers through my hair and let me go from his grip. I kept still, barely able to keep myself upright, staring into space as the areas his skin had touched mine burned and tingled simultaneously, and the shocks continued to reverberate up and down the length of my body. Jasper's ability serves him well; he knows exactly what I'd like and what feels good, because he feels it too. A perfect situation. The pleasure he gives to someone, he receives back, as well as the pleasure he physically receives back.
And I'm sure he felt my burning passion to kiss him and more, right now, here in the janitor's closet he'd pulled me into.