A/N: I wanted to go to Comic Con...stupid Australia.
Mild Kleenex warning.
Disclaimer: I don't own CM.
Upon hearing the shatter of glass and JJ's heartbroken cry, Sandy leapt to her feet.
"Henry, sweetie, wait here, ok?" she said gently. Henry nodded, jumping up on the couch and flipping through the TV channels until he found the Cartoon Network.
Hurrying towards the bathroom, Sandy worried about what had happened. JJ had seemed to be doing ok. She hadn't been crying as much, and her smile broke through more often.
Pushing open the bathroom door, Sandy found JJ curled up against the wall, the knuckles on her right hand slashed open from punching the mirror.
"Jen...what's wrong?" she asked softly, kneeling down beside her, careful to avoid the glass.
JJ fumbled through the broken glass, cutting her fingertips as she closed her hand around the pregnancy test. Pressing it into her mother's hand, she buried her face in her now folded arms.
Sandy's heart fell as she realised the test was positive.
This was a definite downfall.
"I can't do this...not by myself-"
"You're not by yourself. You have me and your team-"
"But I don't have Will!" JJ snapped, fresh tears falling down her cheeks. "I don't have Will in the time when I need him the most! This child is never going to know its father!" she exclaimed angrily. "Just when I thought I could start moving on, this happened! I can't go through this without Will, it was hard enough the first time when he was actually there!"
Sandy pulled her hysterical daughter into her arms, kissing the top of her blonde head as she sobbed heartbreaking tears into her mother's shoulder. "I can't even begin to imagine how you feel right now, Jen. But I do know some things for sure," she said soothingly, running the tips of her fingers through the lengths of JJ's golden tresses. "You can't give up. You can't give up on this child, because everything happens for a reason. That child is a part of you, and a part of Will, and in nine months, will be a living, breathing reminder of how much Will loved you"
"It's fresh pain...," JJ whispered. "It's another reminder of just how alone Henry and I are"
"I know...I know...but like I promised before...that will go away one day. You wait and see, this child is going to help you move on. I can promise that. And I can also promise that you are not alone. There are so many people around you that would be at your side in a heartbeat, Jen, don't ever forget that," Sandy said reassuringly.
"Promise?" JJ sniffed, her eyes blurred from tears.
"I promise," Sandy replied, kissing JJ's temple before settling back against the wall, her arms tightly around her daughter.
JJ lay back against the headboard on the bed she had once shared with Will. Her hands lay on her still flat stomach. There was a small smile on her face, despite the tears that had welled in her eyes.
It was like Will had left behind his love for her. In a physical form.
Listening to her mother's words, JJ had realised she was right. A baby wasn't such a terrible thing. She might not have Will, but she definitely had the team and her family there to support her.
"Mommy?" Henry said softly. JJ turned her head, spotting Henry in the doorway. Patting the spot beside her, she smiled as Henry leapt up onto the bed and snuggled into her side.
"Hey little man...what's up?" she asked.
"Why did you break somefing the 'smorning?" he replied innocently. JJ took a breath, lifting Henry so that he was sitting in her lap.
"I was scared, buddy," she started gently.
"Why?"
JJ ran her hand through Henry's blonde hair, tucking it behind his ears. "Because I'm going to have a baby"
Henry's eyes widened as he smiled. "You havin' a baby?"
JJ smiled, nodding as she kissed his forehead. "I sure am, buddy"
"Why you scared?" Henry asked sweetly. JJ bit her lip, not quite sure how to respond. Hugging him tightly, she swallowed before speaking.
"Because...when I had you...Daddy helped me. But this time...I have to have the baby by myself," she explained as best as she could. Henry reached up, putting his arms around her neck.
"You has me, Mommy, I help you," he said warmly. A single tear escaped JJ's eye as she buried her face in against the curve of her gorgeous boy's neck.
"I love you little man," she whispered, holding him as close as she could. Henry giggled, cuddling closer, but not before he lifted his head to kiss her cheek.
JJ smiled, pecking his little lips, a little thing she and Henry always did. She hoped that Henry's little brother or sister was as sweet and kind hearted as her little angel.
Emily smiled when she opened her door to find Morgan standing on the doorstep. "Hey stranger," she teased, stepping aside to allow her former colleague into the house. "You forget where I lived or something?"
"A'ight, a'ight," Morgan laughed, holding his hands up in surrender. "Been busy, but I'm here now, aren't I?"
Looking around, he realised that all of Emily's belongings were still strewn around the condo. "I thought you were leaving tonight?" he asked, turning around. Emily shook her head.
"I'm staying for a bit longer. For JJ," she explained. "I want to be here for her"
Morgan smiled softly, nodding slightly. "We all do. She's family"
"I want to do something for her...but I don't know what. Is there anything we can do?" Emily sighed. Morgan reached out, placing his hand on Emily's shoulder.
"We be her friend. Her confidante. Her shoulder to cry on. She'll appreciate that much"
JJ smiled as Henry put his toothbrush back in the cup on the counter, kneeling down and patting the small of his back as she looked at him.
"Buddy, I have an idea. Something you can do before you go to bed, if you like," she said softly. Henry's eyes lit up; any excuse not to go to bed was a good one in his books.
Slipping his little hand into his mommy's, he padded softly through the house behind her. He watched as she grabbed matches and candles from the kitchen, before leading him to the master bedroom.
Sitting down at the dresser, JJ lifted Henry into her lap. Carefully, she lit the candles, and set them either side of one of the pictures of Will.
"Do you want to talk to Daddy?" she asked softly. Henry nodded. Reaching up, JJ took one of the candles and placed it in Henry's hands, keeping her hands over his to prevent an accident.
"Go on," she encouraged gently.
"Hi Daddy," Henry started uncertainly, looking up at JJ for confirmation. When she nodded, he continued. "I misses you lots and lots. On Tuesday, there was a Daddy day at pweschool, and I got sad, 'cause you weren't there. Mommy is sad lots...can your angel powers make her happy?"
JJ choked back a sob as tears spilled over her lower lashes. However, she couldn't fight off the smile that Henry had brought to her face.
"I yuv you," Henry said softly. "Night night. Sleep tight. No let the bed bugs bite"
Lifting the candle from his hands, JJ wrapped her arms around Henry, hugging him tightly.
"Momma, you hug me too tight," Henry giggled. JJ loosened her hold on him, kissing the top of his head.
"Sorry buddy...I just love you so much," she replied. Henry smiled.
"I yuv you too, Mommy," he said softly, standing up on JJ's knees and wrapping his arms around her neck.
"Oh...nice hug buddy, but you are heavy!" she exclaimed, lifting him up as she stood, somehow getting him onto her back so she could piggyback him back to his room. Henry giggled as she carried him back to his room.
Once he was settled, she returned to the dresser, pulling her knees up to her chest. Looking at the photo of Will, she wiped away her tears.
"I miss you...this has been so much harder than I thought it was going to be," she sighed, running the tip of her fingers over the curve of his face. "I've had some rough patches...but I'm doing ok. We're both doing ok. We just miss you so much it hurts"
Heaving a deep breath, she brought one hand down to her stomach. "We're having another baby...but for some reason, I feel like you probably already knew that," she said softly, smiling. "I'm going to take it day by day...Henry and I will get through this. I love you"
Leaning forward, her gaze lingered momentarily on Will's smiling face, before she blew out the candles, plunging the room into darkness.