It was her mission she took on the role that no one else wanted , no one else wanted to take on the task and well she had nothing left to lose .

At least some of you read this and that is all that matters. we are still in the past but at times I do hear how I want this too turn out .

Renee, smiled as she felt warm hands and arms surround her, heat searing lips touched the back of her neck. Signing, she turned around and looked into a pair of whiskey colored eyes of her angel.

"My beautiful lady dinner waits you "Gabriel whispered into her ear. He took her hand and led her into the kitchen of the house she was staying at. The kitchen was bathed in a warm glow by the candles he had placed all over the place. The table was set with ivory plates, candles on the table and dinner on the counter.

Renee felt her heart skip a beat as she took in the sigh before her, this was by the far the sweetest thing he had ever done.

"Gabriel "she breathed "what is this for?"

" This is for you , you deserve this and I wanted to do something nice for you " he told her as he pulled out a chair for her . And then he saw a shadow walk past him, he knew it was his brother.

" excuse me for one second I'll be right back " he told her as he kissed her hand . Renee smiled then nodded and turned her attention to the food on the counter.

"Castiel, what did I do this time to get this visit "Gabriel cocked his head as he asked his brother.

"Gabriel, you can not keep doing, what you are doing. You have to stop falling for Renee. If you do not I will have to force you. You know that there is a bigger picture and you can not possibly be this selfish " Castiel tried to reason with him .

" I do know and this is the last night I have before I have to go play ' Trickster" for awhile . But I wanted one moment with her not surrounded by evil and demons and angels and Winchesters " Gabriel told him ' and then you can mind erase both of us if you think you have too "

Castiel studied his brother for a minute and decided he was being sincere in his plea " fine a few hours and then I'll have to erase part of her memory of you , she will remember you but not remember being with you "

"Thank you Castiel" Gabriel said to his brother. He turned his back and walked back into the kitchen. Renee stood at the counter with a glass of wine , he smiled and gathered her into o his arms and kissed her .One kiss turned more and Gabriel turned them more passionate and needful almost possessive way , making Renee push him back slightly . Something was wrong.

"Gabe, what is wrong, what is going on?" she searched his face for any kind of sign.

"What? nothing is wrong , I can't smoother you in romance and passion " he asked Renee playfully . He took her hand and led her in the direction of her bedroom and for what seemed like an eternity Gabriel bathed Renee in blissful happiness.

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Renee opened her eyes, the warmth she had fallen asleep with was no gone. It was replaced with a chilliness that made her frown. She reached out her arm to the other side of the bed and found that it was cold. Lifting up her head she looked around her spacious room for any signs of her lover. She rolled out of her bed, grabbed a robe that was placed on the chair next to the bathroom door. Tying the robe closed she opened the bathroom door and stuck her head in.

"Babe?" she called and waited for an answer. Where there was none she wandered downstairs and saw a large floral arrangement sitting on the counter. She felt the cold fingers of dread circle her. She fingered the card, picked it up and read it.

'Rachel- Goodbye- Gabriel 'was the entire card read. With in seconds Renee felt light headed and dizzy as the words sunk into and then the anger crept in.

"Gabriel!" she yelled trying to control her emotions "Gabriel, get your feathery ass down here now! You do not get to do this "she took a deep breathe and waited for a response. Nothing but silence greeted her.

After an hour the realization that either Gabriel was dead or was being a dick sank in completely. Renee caught the glimpse of a photo they took together in England at the Clinton bay's shack. He looked so happy in the picture. The anger returned and she grabbed the frame hurling it towards the wall. She felt a little better when she watched the glass shards sprinkle the ground. Suddenly she heard the rustle of feathers behind her and she turned around.

"Gabriel 'she breathed as the shadow became clearer.

"I can't be here "he told her in barely a whisper and he wouldn't look at her but stared at the ground.

" what is going on ?" Renee asked as she stepped closer and not ready to believe his lie of nothing.

Gabriel ,took a step backwards and out of reach " I crossed a line , I never intended to and it has to stop ' he explained looking at her with his golden orbs.

"Please , don't do this , please I'll do what ever the fates want , don't walk away , we are so good together ….please Gabriel , please don't " she begged him in a broken voice .

Renee, had never begged Gabriel. Not in the bedroom, not in the open Never and he was pretty sure it was going to kill him to be so cold to her but he had to do it .

" Listen toots , this was never suppose to happen , I … I was only looking for a good time " the words stung his tongue as they came out of his mouth it hurt to tell her that she never meant anything to him .

" what kind of trouble are you in , because I don't buy anything you are selling " Renee told him , as she stepped closer to him she saw Castiel. Before she could move out reach, Castiel reached out and touched her hand and she stumbled towards the ground. Gabriel rush forwards and made sure she didn't hit the ground and placed her carefully on the couch .

" It had to be done Gabriel, when she wakes up she wont remember being in love with you " Castiel told him .

"Wait, what?" Gabriel asked.

"She was in love with you. and I erased that from her " Castiel said to his brother " You know it was not meant to be "

"I didn't know that she never said anything, she will remember me?" Gabriel asked with a defeated tone.

" Yes but only as the Trickster , I'll allow you to say goodbye to her " Castiel moved away from where Renee lay ,and watched his pain filled brother walk over to her to say farewell .

No longer would she think of him with kindness in her heart or a smile on her lips when she teased him . He would be the hated "trickster" to her and Gabriel had to fight to keep the hurt buried in his chest. He sat down at the edge of the couch and looked at Renee then he knelt down to be closer to her and stroked her cheek .

"Why didn't you ever tell me?" he asked with wonder. After a few moments he heard Castiel clear his throat. He stood up and looked at Castiel "I'm leaving 'was all he said and disappeared.

Okay I had to change a few things for the next chapter. Thank you for reading this.