It was her mission she took on the role that no one else wanted , no one else wanted to take on the task and well she had nothing left to lose .

At least some of you read this and that is all that matters. we are still in the past but at times I do hear how I want this too turn out .

Disclaimer – I own nothing from this show.

Still in flashback

Renee, sat down on the aging stairs of the porch, all of the burning pain she had felt before was gone. She looked at the sun setting in the sky and sighed to herself. Maybe Missouri had the right idea of sending her out here. After about twenty long minutes ,she decided to go into the house and get to k now her host , it was the least she could do .

After taking a hot shower like Bobby had suggested ,Renee came padding down the stairs in a t-shirt and jeans along with bare feet and wet hair . A warm welcoming smell greeted her nose.

"Mmmm Bobby, what did you make it smells amazing?" she asked as she sauntered into the kitchen. A pot was simmering on the stove and Bobby was chopping a garlic clove in half and it looked like he was spreading it on what looked like homemade bread. Two beers sat on the counter and Bobby only smiled.

"Help yourself, just open one of those for me "

" Sure , so what is for dinner and you defiantly did not have to do this for me " she told the older man ,as she leaned against the kitchen sink.

"Ah, well it is my pleasure. I normally don't have much company besides Ellen and Jo and some times the boys "

"The boys?" she asked, not sure who he was talking about.

"Oh. Uh Dean and Sam Winchester. Their father was a good friend of mine Have you come across them"

"I'm not sure. I think when I was waitressing a while ago. I may have met them briefly.' Renee told him. Something started to nag at the back of her brain.

Bobby placed the bread on a plate and placed it on the table. "Well don't just stand there get some bowls out from that cupboards over there and the silverware is in that drawer. Let's sit down to eat "

Renee smiled and meant it for the first time in a long time. She sat down across from Bobby and they talked for a while. She helped him clean up and followed him into the living room. He grabbed an eastwood movie, nodded towards the couch and started the movie.

'Hope you like Clint "He chuckled. Renee nodded, not to make him happy but because she really did like Clint eastwood movies.

After a few hours, Renee had taken up the whole couch and fallen asleep. Bobby got out of his chair locked and salted up his home. He took another look at Renee sleeping, picked up a blanket and placed it over the sleeping woman then headed to his bedroom. He took a look out of his window before settling down and missed the man standing in the middle of his salvage yard with his angel wings spread out and a blood stain on the chest of his shirt.

Dream state –

Renee sat dangling her feet off the pier she was sitting on. The sun kissing her skin. She was just enjoying the moment, when with in minutes she heard feather rustling around her. A sense of calmness came over her; she turned her head towards the man sitting next to her.

"What do you want Loki" she asked him in an annoyed voice. Loki/demi god/trickster "what mess do you need help cleaning up this time?"

"Nothing, just wanted to come by and say hi. I haven't seen you in a while and well since …." Gabriel gave her a hurt look and stopped ,he couldn't say any more and His Father knew he wanted to he wanted to wrap her in his wings and spew his never ending love to her . Instead he just sat in silence next to her.

Renee tried to read the look on the demi-gods face "Loki "she tried again but he stopped her with sadness and anger on his face.

"Its Gabriel and you know it. I haven't been Loki to you in a long time, I'm Gabriel the arc –angel "

Before he could take it back Renee grabbed his hand "Wait, what?" she had asked and just like that he was gone. Renee sighed wondering what he meant by she had always known he was an arc angel.

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Gabriel stood on the plane between heaven and earth. His golden wings stretched out soaking up the sun's rays. He felt a presence next to him. Castiel stood close to his brother with a worried look on his face, Gabriel was looking to calm for just having the love of his life's memory erased . The fact the woman had no idea how much the arc angel loved her.

"How's tricks Cas" Gabriel asked knowing full well he would end up getting the 'it is better this way 'speech.

"I am worried about you" Castiel responded.

"Worried about me? " Gabriel scoffed at him "Don't be I am right as rain, good as gold and sweet as candy. I mean I even let Dean live" he added.

"I. I can take it away you know. The pain of the loss you feel "Castiel offered. Gabriel shook his head no.

"You were bonded to her?" castile asked even though he already knew the answer.

"I'll be fine Cassie. back to banging Kali in no time " Gabriel raised his wings and disappeared in hopes of regaining what he had lost .