Chapter 5: Guilt

Jean rushed through the halls, 'Its all my fault...' He thought bitterly as he came to Marco's room. He didn't hesitate as he grabbed the door and flung it open, he might not of wanted to face Marco, but he needed to know he was okay. He entered the room and found Marco was awake, but alone. "Marco are you okay!? What happened?!" Jean asked as he went to his friend's side. Marco gave Jean a pained smile, "I...I did something really stupid..." He lowered his head. "If it weren't for Armin...I'd be dead." Marco said.

"What happened?" Jean asked quickly. Marco had plenty of bandages on, was he attacked? "Did someone do this to you? I'll kill them-" Jean was stopped by Marco shaking his head. "I did it..." Jean shook his head, "Marco, you'd never...You wouldn't do it, don't lie to me!" Jean said. His best friend would never do that to himself or anyone else. "I'm not Jean, but I wish I was. I'm sorry" Marco said. "Don't apologize, I should. Your my friend and I let something come between us because I was stupid. I'm sorry Marco." Jean said.

Marco chuckled, "Dude, you sound like an actor from some sappy soap opera on tv." Jean smiled, no matter what, Marco was still Marco. "So has anyone visited you?" Jean asked. "Yeah." Marco nodded, "As you can guess Armin, he went with me to the hospital and the nurse told me he stayed for a while. The earlier he came again with Mikasa and Eren. Then Sasha and Connie stopped by with flowers. They just left." Jean nodded, he felt even worse, he was one of the last ones to visit and hadn't brought a gift. He'd be sure to next time.

They two remained in mostly silence for the remaining three and a half hours Jean stayed where they did things like watch TV, eat lunch, or gaze out the window. Jean somewhat reluctantly left his friend but promised to be back soon. "Oh don't worry, I don't want to be an inconvenience." Marco said. Jean shook his head, "Your my best friend and I want to do this" Marco smiled as Jean left the room, his smile remaining even after Jean shut the door.

"Oh, hi jean" a familiar voice said, it was Armin. "Armin" Jean said out of partial surprise, Mikasa and Eren were there as well. They waved and Jean gave them a nod, "visiting Marco?" Eren asked. Jean nodded again and looked at Armin, "um Armin? Thanks for saving Marco, I can't think of what would've happened if he died." Jean said, fearing for a moment he'd get all teary and cry. "I'm just glad he's okay, if anyone you should thank the paramedics and doctors" Armin said. Jean nodded and decided not to keep Marco waiting alone. They went their desperate ways without another word.

Jean didn't think he'd make it out the hospital, back home, and into his room before bursting into tears. It was his fault, he had pushed Marco over the edge and of it wasn't for pure luck he'd be dead. Jean muffled his cries with his pillow and cried for what felt like ages. When he finished and his breaths were no longer ragged he got up and left the house. He was going to make things right.

Marco was reading a book Armin got him from the library when there was a knock on the door.
"Come in" he said, he was getting a lot more fosters than he thought, which added to the guilt he felt to the grief he must've caused them. To his surprise yet again, it was Jean with a bouquet of flowers. "Hey Marco, I got these for you." Jean said. "Thanks Jean" Marco said as he took them. Jean sat down by him as they entered a period of silence. "Marco?"

"Yes Jean?" Marco asked. Jean fidgeted, "I...want you to be my boyfriend."

How was that for a plot twist? Don't worry there is a method to my madness, thank you for reading this chapter and I'll try to update soon.