HI HI HI ! I am so sorry that i haven't updated in so long, but i have been so busy ! School is killing me. I hope you like this chapter, i know i keep saying this, but bigger and better things are coming, the story has to get going, you know ? :) thank you guys for your wonderful reviews, red velvet cupcakes for all ! :D
Beauty and the Beast may seem like just a simple cartoon. But it's always struck home for me. The beast is a violent, bitter, broken man. Belle is a beautiful, intelligent, giving woman. But yet, she finds a way to fall in love with him. She sees past the ugly exterior, breaks through the hard shell, to find the kind soul hidden underneath.
I am the Beast. That's always been clear in my mind, I'm violent. I'm bitter over my mother and father. I always thought I was strong, for surviving through everything. But truthfully, I'm just as broken as the people who sit around me watching Beauty and the Beast play on the television. I'm just better at hiding it. People think that you have to constantly crying, you have to be weak to be broken, but that's not true. You can wear a suit of armour, a armour that only projects anger, when really you're just a pile of pieces inside.
The part where Belle leaves to go take of her sick father plays, and as the Beast says sadly that he let her go because he loves her, I turn my head slightly to look at Cat, who's sitting beside me cuddling Mr. Longneck. She has tears in her eyes, but a slight smile on her face. She catches me looking and grins, a tear leaking over her eye, and dripping down her cheek.
"I love that part," she whispers, turning back towards the screen.
One thing I could never picture when I watched this movie was, who was my Belle. Who was the one who would love me enough to try to find the better man inside. Cat looks more like the little mermaid with her long, red hair, and her vibrant personality certainly matches Ariel's, would Ariel ever be able to look past a man's flaws to love him? I mean Prince Eric seems like a great guy, there wasn't really a flaw to him. However, in the original story, he marries another girl, who he believes rescued him. The Little Mermaid's sisters bring her a knife that the Sea Witch has given them, and tell her that if she kills the prince with the knife, and lets the blood drip on her feet, she will become a mermaid again, and her suffering will be over. In the end, she can not bring herself to kill the prince, and throws herself out to sea. Her body dissolves into foam, but instead of ceasing to exist, she turns into a spirit. She earned an eternal soul because of her good heart. She has to do good deeds for 300 years before she can rise to heaven, but hey, at least she exists.
That version of Ariel loved with all of her heart, and I wonder if Cat is like that. If she loves with all of her heart. She giggles at the moment when the village people and the furniture are fighting, and I can't help but grin and shake my head. I've just met her a few hours ago, but I'm hooked. It's like she's stuck her hand in my chest and left her mark. Even if nothing ever comes of me and Cat, I won't forget her. I'm not in love with her or anything, I'm simply...enchanted by her. That seems to be the only word to describe it, it's like magic.
I turn my eyes to the screen, and see that it's the part where the Beast is succumbing to his wounds, and Belle whispers that she loves him, breaking the spell. I glance over to look at Cat, and see that tears are streaming down her cheeks, but she has the biggest smile.
"Isn't that beautiful?" she whispers to me. She looks at me, and bites on her bottom lip slightly taking my hand and squeezing it, before turning her eyes back to the screen. I squeeze her hand back, interlocking my fingers with her's.
The movie ends, and Cat pulls her hand out of mine to clap loudly at the ending credits. The song "Beauty and the Beast" by Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson starts to play, and Cat softly sings along. Her voice is beautiful.
"Sing with me Beck," she says, grabbing both of my hands.
"Cat...no, I...I'm not a good singer," I say embarrassed, my face turning red.
"Don't say that! Please sing with me?"
"Cat..."
"Pleasy?" she pleads, her big brown puppy-like eyes staring up at me.
"Okay fine," I give in.
"Barely even friends, then somebody bends, unexpectedly," she sings, looking right into my eyes.
"Just a little change, small, to say the least," I sing back. "Both a little scared, neither one prepared."
"Beauty and the Beast," we sing together. She tugs on my hands and pulls both of us to our feet.
"Ever just the same, ever a surprise, ever as before, ever just as sure, as the sun will rise," we sing as we start to dance, our hands interlocked. I twirl her around, and we both start to laugh. She rests her head on my shoulder, and sings quietly into my ear, "tale as old as time, tune as old as song."
I wrap my arms around her waist and we both sing quietly to each other, "Bittersweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong." We just sway to the music for the last few lines, before I give her one last twirl.
Everyone is staring at us at this point. Tori's smiling, Jade's smirking, and Robbie is clapping. But Cat's giggling like crazy, erasing any traces of embarrassment lingering inside of me. Cat jumps on me, wrapping her legs and arms around me, like a koala.
"Thank you for singing with me Beck!" she squeals. I start laughing, and squeeze her back. I start to spin around, and she's screaming and giggling.
"Beck! Stop!" I stop, feeling dizzy, and we both fall onto the couch, crushing Jade and Tori. We're laughing so hard that it's silent and we're having trouble breathing. Tori's giggling, but Jade's screaming, "NO!" causing me and Cat to laugh even harder. Jade's clawing at us and screaming at the top of her lungs. She kicks me off the couch, and I hit the ground hard. Cat comes tumbling after me, landing on me, and Tori lands somewhere beside me.
"Why did you kick me off?" Tori's yelling, sitting up.
"I don't like you!" Jade screams. By the time, my laughing is so hard I've forgotten how to breathe and Cat is rolling around on the ground giggling.
Tori rolls her eyes and stands up, shooting a glare at Jade. "I'm going to bed," she announces, before stomping out of the room.
"We won't miss you!" Jade hollers. I smile and shake my head slightly, before rising to my feet and helping Cat up. Cat flops down on the couch beside Jade, and hugs her.
"Cat!" Jade screams, but Cat only holds on tighter. Jade finally gives in and cracks a simile, while she Cat's arm a little before pushing her away.
"Did you like the movie?" Cat asks, batting her eyelashes. She discovers that Mr. Longneck ended up on the ground during the scuffle, and quickly picks him up, planting soft kisses all over him.
"Even after watching it for the millionth time, it never gets old," Jade says, with a smirk. "I like the part when Gaston falls off the cliff."
Cat giggles a little. "Jadey, that's not nice." Cat lays down on the couch, and closes her eyes halfway. "Even though he is a bad guy."
"Bad guys deserve to die," Jade barks out, leaning back into the couch. "In order to have a happy ending, all the bad guys need to die or go away. That's why there are no happy endings in real life, because there's too many bad guys lurking around." She looks at her feet has she says the last part, and swallows deeply.
"You'll get a happy ending," Cat says, yawning a little. She pulls Mr. Longneck closer to her, and closes her eyes, a slight smile forming on her face, her chest rising up and down slowly.
"Oh great, she's asleep," Jade says standing. She glances at the clock on the wall, five minutes to ten. "We have to be in our rooms by ten."
"Why don't we just wake her?" Robbie suggests.
"No, it's okay, I'll carry her," I volunteer, already placing my hands underneath Cat and lifting her up slowly. I hold her in my arms bride style, and Jade and Robbie look at me surprised.
"What?" I ask, pulling Cat closer, and she leans her head into the crook of my neck.
"Oh...nothing," Jade quickly recovers. "Let's go upstairs." She stomps out of the room without a reply, and Robbie and I follow. I make sure to be careful with Cat's head as we walk through the hallways. I thought climbing up the stairs while carrying Cat might be hard, but she's so light, she can't weigh more than nighty pounds. When we reach our hallway, Jade slams her door shut and Robbie waves goodbye to me, before running off to his room.
I open Cat's door, and close it behind me with my hip. I pull back her little mermaid covers, and gently place her down on the bed. I pull the covers up and tuck her in, making sure none of her stuff animals have fallen off the bed. Involuntarily, I lean down and gently kiss her forehead.
Her eyes flutter open, and I regret it, I've probably freaked her out, I've only known her for a day. My face is so close to hers, I can feel her breath. She looks surprised at first, but than smiles, she places a hand on my cheek, and my heart stops.
"Beck," she whispers.
"Yeah?" I choke out.
"Thank you," she breathes, running her hands through my hair once, before pulling it away.
"No problem," I manage, my heart beating. "Sweet dreams." I pull away from her, and began to leave the room, but before I can close the door, she calls me, so quietly, I can barely hear it.
"Yes Cat?"
"I'm not has scared anymore," she whispers, before her eyes close. I stand there for a few moments, in shock. Her words ricksha around my head, trying to figure out what she means. I shake my head slightly, and close the door. I open mine and close it quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone.
I sit on my bed, and place my chin in my hands. I'm not has scared anymore. What does she mean? That she's not has scared of me anymore, now that we've gotten to know one another? Or that she's not has scared of something else? Is it thing that has brought her here?
I flop down on my bed, feeling lost. I was sent here to fix my own problems, but all I want to know is the girl with the bright red hair's secrets. I just met her, and already she fills my thoughts, makes my heart beat faster. I've never been like this with girls, I've fucked them and forgot them. Cold, yes, but it's the truth. But Cat...I don't want to just fuck her and forget...I don't think I could ever forget Cat. She's in me, like a disease, like a drug has been injected into my veins. She's going through my bloodstream, filling my body with her laugh, her innocence...just her.
But I know that Cat is here for a reason, and that's she's screwed up, badly. Things may never work between me and Cat, and I can accept that, but I can't accept that she's still haunted by whatever happened to her. I don't want that dark place to take her, I don't want to see that look in her eyes...when her pupils get bigger, making her eyes look black. Her body tenses up and it feels colder. Whatever that place is, one day, it's gonna suck her in completely.
And she'll never come back.