And here we are, Chapter four! It's reading time!(:
Disclaimer: Big time rush is not mine. Neither is 'Something That We're Not' by the lovely goddess Demi Lovato
Chapter 4:
"Aren't your feet cold?"...
I jumped at the sound of Kendall's voice behind me and spun around to face him. I looked down at my feet which were in a pile of snow. They were dark red, starting to look slightly blue-ish in places.
"Can't even feel them." I said cheerfully sending him a very fake smile. He rolled his eyes at me and I wiped the smile off my face. "Why are you in my room?" I asked him. "Don't you have a hockey practice you're supposed to be at?"
"Practice is an hour and a half long. We all left 2 hours ago, well except for Logan. He just barely made it to practice on time." He said. Had I really been standing out in the snow for an hour and a half? I looked down at my dark red numb feet again. They indicated I'd been standing in the snow for quite some time.
"That still doesn't answer my question of why you're in my room." I snapped, biting the inside of my cheek.
"You left this at my house Friday." He said as he held my phone out to me.
"Toss it to me." He shook his head.
"How about you come in here and get it so you can unfreeze your feet." Kendall suggested. I glare at him.
"What if I like my feet being frozen?" I asked, hesitating to go back inside.
"No one likes their feet being frozen." He laughed. "Just come back inside." I hesitated but went inside and he handed me my phone.
"Thanks" I said with a half smile.
"Anytime." he said, sending a smile back at me. "So why the troubled look?" He asked leaning against the wall as I walked over to my bed.
"Nothing." I said trying to sound as convincing as I could, however my voice got higher and squeaked when I said that so I was busted. He raised an eyebrow at me.
"Liar." He said with a smirk. I rolled my eyes. "Come on what's wrong?" he asked sitting next to me. I sighed and fell back on my bed covering my face with a pillow.
"I'm a slut." I mumbled into my pillow.
"Huh?" Kendall said as he took the pillow away from my face. He looked confused.
"I kissed Logan." I sighed. Wait no I didn't. "Well he kissed me actually, and then he just left. But the thing is, I still have a boyfriend in Chicago. I never broke up with him when I moved. I didn't even tell him I moved though. I mean he probably knows now because I told our coach so he probably told Chris and the rest of the team and besides I'm here not there. He was an asshole though, I –" I stopped. "Why am I telling you this?" I snapped. "I shouldn't be telling you this. I just met you three days ago, It's none of your business."
"So you didn't tell your asshole boyfriend you were moving and you're still technically together but Logan kissed you." Kendall said trying to make sense of what I just told him. "Why don't you just call the guy, break up with him, and go talk to Logan and go out with him."
"Because I don't like Logan. I mean I like him, he's a nice guy and he's really sweet, you all are, I just don't like him like that. And it's not as simple as just calling him and say 'Hey I moved out of state and didn't tell you. By the way we're over.'" I snapped.
"Yes it is, you just said it. So why not actually tell him it." I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"It's really not. If you knew Chris you'd understand."
"So explain it to me." He said. I clenched my jaw and shook my head. How is it that this boy can get me to just say anything he wants to hear.
"It's really none of your business. It's in the past and I'd like to leave it there so don't try to dig it up." I snapped.
"What are you hiding Elle?" he asked, his eyes full of curiosity and a hint or worry. He's smart.
"I'm not hiding anything. Why are you so interested in my life in Chicago?"
"This is my first time asking about it, and you're being defensive which tells me that something happened that you don't want to bring up, I wanna know what that is so I can help." I glared at him.
"I don't need help. I can manage just fine on my own. Like I said it's in the past so just leave it alone." I snapped.
"It's obviously not in the past if you're still worrying about it now."
"It is in the past." I said, my voice raising in irritation.
"Then what are you worrying about?" He asked, his voice raising too.
"It's none of you damn business!" I yelled. "It's none of your business, there's nothing you can do to help with it because it already happened. Just stop bringing it up!" My eyes were starting to water. He looked almost shocked by my outburst. "You should leave now." I said quietly as I violently wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my shirt to keep any tears that were there from spilling over. "I'm serious, leave. Thanks for bringing me my phone. Now go home." He looked frustrated as he stood up. He turned to leave but turned and faced me again. He grabbed my wrist and I winced slightly in pain.
"Stop doing that to yourself." he said softly. He dropped my wrist and walked out without another word, closing the door behind himself.
I stood there for a moment with tears slowly running down my face. He had no right to bring up my past, or comment on what I do to myself. He barely knows me, it's none of his business. I grabbed the book that was sitting on my nightstand and chucked it at the wall hoping to get Kendall's attention.
"Fucking asshole!" I yelled as I slipped down onto the floor and pulled my knees up to my chest. I sat there for only a moment when my door opened again. I looked up to see Darin standing in the doorway. "What do you want?" I snapped, wiping the tears off my face.
"Would please stop throwing things? Your brothers and sisters are trying to sleep. And I don't want to here that kind of language in my house anymore. I don't want my children growing up around that kind of foul language." He said, his voice irritated and exhausted.
"Excuse me did you say your house? This is my mother's house, not yours. She bought it, she owns it, every single one of the kids in this house is hers, and she's the one who gets to keep it when she gets sick of you and files for divorce. Don't even think about telling me what is and isn't aloud in this house because that's my mothers job. Not yours." Darin looked at me and shook his head.
"Let God have mercy on you, you troubled child." he muttered as he left my room. I closed my eyes tight for a moment then opened them with a sigh. I pushed myself up off the floor and climbed into my bed pulling the covers tight up to chest. I hate people so much, everyone is just so nosy and irritating and controlling. I pushed that aside and cleared my head as I tried to fall asleep.
Morning
"Leigh get down here, we have to leave now if we're gonna get to school on time!" I yelled up the stairs as I pulled on my boots and tied them.
"Who cares if we're late?" Leigh said in an irritated tone. I raised an eyebrow at her as she walked down the stairs.
"Mom's gonna let you out of the house like that?" I laughed, she was barely wearing anything. She had fishnet leggings with short shorts over them, a bright blue strapless cropped corset top and
"She doesn't care." Leigh said rolling her eyes. I grabbed my black cardigan that was sitting on top of a box.
"Just put this on so you don't look like such a tramp." I said throwing the cardigan at her. She rolled her eyes and put it on. "Wait are those my boots?"
"Who cares if they are. You said it yourself we're going to be late for school" she snapped picking up her back pack and slipping into her jacket. I glared at her as I put on Kendall's jacket, grabbed my guitar case and threw my bag onto my shoulder. "Where'd you get that jacket?" she asked.
"It's Kendall's." Leigh rolled her eyes and followed me out the door.
"So you're going after Blondie now?" she laughed. "You really can't make up your mind. I don't blame you though. He's got a nice body, and his eyes are amazing."
"Leigh would you shut up? I'm not going after Kendall, or any of the boys. Kendall just lent it to me because I didn't have a coat on Friday." I said as we walked by his house. I could see him sitting at his kitchen table with his younger sister eating breakfast.
"He's trying to get get in your pants." She said with a smirk as she pulled out a cigarette put it between her lips and lit it. I looked at her with wide eyes. Is she stupid?
"Leigh what are you doing?" I snapped, grabbing the cigarette from her. She glared at me.
"Well I was smoking. Now I'm debating killing you." She snapped. I rolled my eyes at her.
"Well stop debating killing me for saving your ass. Darin's outside still. If he sees you smoking he'll kill you. He can't do shit about me." I said taking a drag as we walked down the street. I handed it back to her as we turned the corner. "Here."
"Thanks." she muttered before taking a drag. I kicked the snowbank as we walked to school, Leigh handed me the cigarette so I could have some. I inhaled the smoke and blew it out then handed it back to my sister.
"You know that's bad for you right?" Leigh and I both jumped and turned around. "Every cigarette you have takes seven minutes off your life." Kendall said with a smug look as he, Logan, Carlos, and James walked down the street behind us.
"What's seven minute's gonna do for me?"I asked. Kendall shrugged as he took the cigarette from Leigh and took a drag. He coughed and made a disgusted face.
"How do you people like that?" he asked. Leigh and I both laughed.
"It's an acquired taste." Leigh said with a smirk taking her cigarette back. I nodded in agreement.
"Kinda like black coffee." I said.
"Except this causes cancer and coffee makes you hyper." James said.
"Exactly." I said with a nod. "By the way this is my little sister Leigh. Leigh, you already know Eyebrows, the Latino with the helmet is Carlos, the smart looking spiky haired dude is Logan, and the tall pretty boy is James" I said pointing to each of the boys individually. I watched her as she kept smiling at James who smiled back.
"So Elle is it embarrassing that your younger sister is taller than you?" Carlos laughed. I glared at him and punched his arm. He rubbed his arm and narrowed his eyes at me. "Evil." he hissed. I just rolled my eyes and smirked.
"So Leigh, do you like hockey? Or music?" James asked, giving my sister a look he shouldn't have been. I walked over to him, stood on my tip toes, and grabbed his ear, bringing his face level with mine.
"If you even think about hitting on my 14 year old sister, or trying to get in her pants, I will castrate you." I whispered harshly. He nodded vigorously and stood back up avoiding all eye contact with Leigh as we continued walking. Leigh glared at me but I just shrugged. Leigh may be a spoiled rotten bitch but she's still my sister and I do what I can to keep players away from her.
Everyone stayed silent for the rest of the way to school until Leigh broke the silence with a sharp "Bye." as she stormed off to her first class. I rolled my eyes and kept walking with the boys.
"So Elle how's your head?" Logan asked as we all walked into the school. I had completely forgotten about that fact the I'd hit my head on the ice last night so I assume I'm okay.
"Totally fine." I said hitting the back my head a couple times before opening my locker.
"Good."
"What's your first class Elle, maybe one of us could walk you to it." Carlos said cheerfully. I pulled my schedule out of my bag.
"I have Creative writing, then Pre Calc, Study Hall, and then Chem. I have third lunch." I said.
"You have first though third with me, Logan's in second with us and then you have lunch with all of us." Kendall said. Oh great, I get to spend my entire day with him.
"Great." I said, trying to sound as excited as I possibly could. How had I not noticed him in my classes on Friday?
"Well I gotta get going to class, wanna make sure I get there early." Logan said before leaving.
"And our class is on the complete other side of the school on the third floor so we'll see you at lunch Elle." James said nicely then him and Carlos left. I turned back to my locker door, fixing my hair and beanie in my mirror. I slipped Kendall's jacket off and handed it to him.
"Here." I said. He laughed and shook his head.
"I'm not taking that back until you bring your own jacket. Or until spring, which eve comes first." He said. I glared at him and threw his jacket in my locker.
"Fine." I said rolling my eyes as I straightened out my clothes. I looked up at him. "You ready to go?" I asked. Kendall nodded. "Okay then, lets go." I closed my locker and spun the dial, making sure it was locked. I noticed Kendall was staring at me. "What?" I snapped.
"Nice beanie." he said simply with a mischievous smirk. I rolled my eyes and started walking. This was going to be a long day..
Lunch
After three long classes of dealing with Kendall I'd managed to get out of study hall early and without him. It was pretty easy, I just told the teacher I wanted to find the cafeteria on my own. When I got to the cafeteria James and Logan were already there. I walked over to their table and set my bag and guitar case down.
"Where's Kendall?" James asked through a mouth full of food. I shrugged as I sat on the bench across from the two boys.
"Still in study hall I'm assuming. I left early, he was annoying me." I said with a small laugh. Logan and James just shrugged an went back to their food. I leaned over and opened my guitar case, pulling out my guitar.
"That's a nice guitar." James said, admiring the guitar in my hands "Where'd you get it?" he asked.
"My aunt gave it to me for my birthday when I was six." I said as I started playing with it.
"It's a Gibson Hummingbird right?" Logan asked. I nodded and smiled. I was surprised Logan knew anything about guitars, he didn't look like the type that was very into music.
"Yep it is, I have a Les Paul at my house but I don't dare bring that to school. I was worried about bring in this one to school."
"I don't blame you." James said. "Those guitars cost thousands." I nodded. "Play something." James begged. I rolled my eyes but did as he asked. I started playing a song I had written a few months back.
I shoulda known when I got you alone
That you were way too into me to know
This isn't love boy, this ain't even close
But you always think we're something that we're not
And now you call me every single night
I only answer cause I'm too polite
We happened once, or maybe it was twice
Yeah you always make it hard for me to stop
But you always think we're something that we're not
Hey!You wanna be more than just friends
I can't go through this again
Stop trying get inside my head
Don't wanna do more than hookup
It's getting stupid cause
I shoulda known but I forgot
That you think we're something that we're notHey!I hear you're telling every one you know
That I'm the one like you cant let me go
And you just keep on blowing up my phone
Cause you never seem to know when you should stop
Don't introduce me to any of your friends
Delete my number, don't call me again
We had some fun, but now it's gonna end
But you always made it hard for me to stop
Now you always think we're something that we're notHey!You wanna be more than just friends
I can't go through this again
Stop trying get inside my head
Don't wanna do more than hookup
It's getting stupid cause
I shoulda known but I forgot
That you think we're something that we're notHey!Something that we're not
Hey!
You think we're something that we're not
Yeah, you think we're something that we'reNot gonna happen dudeYou wanna be more than just friends
I can't go through this again
Stop trying get inside my head
Don't wanna do more than hookup
It's getting stupid cause
I shoulda known but I forgot
That you think we're something that we're notHey!You think we're something that we're not
Something that we're not
Something
You think we're something that we're not
But you think we're something that we're not
I looked up from my guitar to see that now not only were Carlos and Kendall here now and looking at me in awe but so was almost the entire cafeteria. I looked around as I set my guitar down and everyone started clapping.
"Elle that was amazing!" Logan said happily. Carlos picked me up and gave me a tight hug.
"Carlos I can't breathe" I said tapping his forehead. He put me down and patted me head, still smiling.
"Play more pretty stuff!" Carlos begged. I rolled my eyes.
"Nope, that's it Carlos. Sorry." I shrugged as I put my guitar back in it's case. Carlos sat on the bench and started pouting. I laughed. "Pouting isn't gonna get me to play anything else Carlos."
"Dammit!" Carlos muttered
"You can sing, you play guitar, you play and like hockey. What else can you do?" James asked in awe.
"Can we keep her Kendall!" Carlos asked, jumping up and down like a puppy. Kendall just rolled his eyes and gave me a sly smile.
"I suppose we can keep her." Kendall sighed. There's gonna be a catch. "But only if she can answer one question." Told ya.
"And what's that?" I challenged.
"Who's the song about?" he asked. I glared at him.
"A guy in Chicago and that's all the answer you're getting." I said simply.
"For now." Kendall said so only I could hear. "We can keep her Carlos." Carlos's eyes widened and he hugged me again, jumping up and down.
"Can't breathe." I reminded him again. He put me down.
"Sorry Elle" Carlos laughed.
"You really like hugging people." I mused. He nodded excitedly with a big grin on his face. That guys a giant happy ball of energy.
And there it is! Elle's officially part of the group. Carlos is so happy. I swear that boy is not meant to be sad, he's just a constantly happy person. I think if i ever saw sad Carlos i would cry.
Anyways, I hope you guys liked this chapter. I'll update again real soon.
Bye now my lovely's