Here's Chapter 11 for you my lovely readers(: It's longer than the previous chapters so I hope you guys enjoy it!(:
Disclaimer: Big Time Rush is still not mine, no matter how much i wish they were. I also don't own Nightingale. That lovely song belongs to the ever amazing Demi Lovato
Chapter 11:
After that little thing with Kendall when Logan and James left, I fell asleep. When I woke up, Kendall was sitting at the foot of my bed playing with his phone. HE glanced over at me as I sat up.
"Hey, Sleeping Beauty is awake again." He said as he put his phone back in his pocket. I nodded slowly and groaned as I felt the pain in my shoulder, wrist, ribs and thigh coming back. "I'm assuming your goofy drugs wore off?" He asked. I nodded and leaned against the headboard of my bed.
"My everything hurts." I whined.
"Take another?" He asked. I shook my head.
"I don't want to get addicted, plus I don't like them. They make me all tired and I have no idea what's going on or what I'm saying."
"So you don't know what happened before you fell back asleep?" he asked.
"No, I do." I said. "I just have no idea why I said any of that."
"But you do remember?" He asked. I nodded. "You just didn't mean any of it."
"I don't think so." I said.
"You don't think so?" He said raising an eyebrow at me.
"Stop asking me questions when I'm all tired and coming off drugs. I don't know anything right now other than I hurt." I snapped as I got up from my bed.
"Alright." He said with a shrug.
I sighed as I walked over to my closet and pulled my hockey jersey off its hanger and changed into it.
"Wanna shut the window?" I asked and ran a brush through my hair and threw it into a bun. Kendall nodded and closed the window for me. I walked back over to my bed and sat down again, playing with the cuffs of my jersey. "So I talked to James." I told him, breaking the silence between us.
"About what?" He asked. I rolled my eyes.
"What do you think dumbass." I said. "The whole dibs thing. I don't think he's mad at you anymore."
"Yeah, you'd be surprised about that. James can seem like he's going to forgive someone and then it gets worse." He laughed.
"No, I really think he's not mad anymore. I explained to him that I'm not really looking to date anyone, and what he saw, well I don't know why it happened. I told him if it'd been him the same thing probably would've happened but it just happened to be you. I also told him that I really don't think of him like that. He's more of an annoying brother." I said.
"Well, either way, I broke the rule of dibs so I have to pay the price." Kendall said simply.
"We'll see about that." I told him as I looked down at my feet.
"No Elle, I wronged a friend and broke a rule, so now I have to make it right."
"So running through a crowded public place in your underwear somehow makes it right?" I asked.
"Not necessarily, but that's what we do as punishment. It's been that was since we all were in pre-K." He explained.
"So this probably isn't the first time this has happened?" I asked.
"Not even close." HE said. I sighed and shook my head.
"You four are the absolute weirdest boys I have ever met." I said as I stood up and walked over to the glass doors that led to my balcony. I opened the door and walked outside, leaning on the railing and looking out into my back yard. Kyle and Wesley were outside with Jason and Layla making a huge snow fort.
"Remember when we were their age?" I asked Kendall as he walked up next to me. "Well, not in the terms of us knowing each other, but do you remember when you were that young, and you didn't have to worry about anything other than, should you go inside and get some hot chocolate, or should you finish you snow ball fight and defend your fort."
"Yeah, I remember." He laughed. "I remember one year Carlos refused to go inside until he'd beat me, Logan, and James in a snow ball fight. We all ended up sick after being outside for almost 17 hours."
"That's believable." I shrugged. "I remember when I was Wesley's age, I think that was when we lived here in Minnesota for the first time, I had this friend, and we'd read 'The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe' in school and we decided that my mud room was the Wardrobe and that outside was Narnia when the White Witch was still controlling everything. We actually packed two bags, one for each of us, and we left. We walked in the woods behind my house for a good 5 hours before my mom found us."
"I really wouldn't doubt that you would do that." Kendall laughed.
"Yeah? And why's that?" I asked. Kendall shrugged.
"Because that's a really childish thing to do. Most of the time, you act way older than you are, or you don't have as much fun as someone your age should, so naturally, most people would assume you weren't very childish when you were little. I know for a fact you are though because every once in a while, when you think no one's really paying attention or you just don't care, you have your moments where you act more childish than even Carlos."
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked him, raising an eyebrow at him. He smiled and laughed.
"No, it's a great thing." He said shaking his head, a smile still on his face. "I love seeing you forget about everything and goof off Elle. I wish you would more often."
"It's not easy to do most of the time." I said.
"You ever going to tell me why?'He asked. I shrugged and turned to him.
"Maybe if my life depends on it." I told him before going back into my room. Kendall sighed and followed.
"I'm gonna get you to tell me one of these day." He said as he sat down on my bed. I rolled my eyes and grabbed a book off my desk.
"That's really unlikely." I laughed as I walked back over to my bed and sat down next to him.
"Whatever." He sighed, a slight pout appearing on his face.
"No pouting." I said poking his cheek. "It's nothing personal against you Kendall, it's just not something that I'm emotionally ready to talk about. I'm still coping with it."
"I understand that, I just wish you were ready to talk about it. I hate knowing that something happened to you and I can't do anything about it." He said. I frowned at the anger in his voice. Why does he have to care. Why?
"Kendall, there's nothing that you can do about it now and there's nothing you could've done about it. Everything bad that's happened happened long before I moved here and before I knew you." I told him. He shook his head.
"That's not the point Elle. The point is, How are you ever going to get over what happened unless you tell someone? It doesn't matter who, your mom, your step dad, Ray Jay, me, one of the guys, hell you could tell my mom, she loves you. Not telling anyone isn't going to help you, all you're doing is holding it inside while it slowly eats away at you." He said. I could tell he was trying not to sound angry with me.
"You don't know what it's like Kendall." I snapped. "I can't even say it out loud to myself, let alone, my parents, or my brother, or you guys, or your mom. I really doubt you've ever had something happen to you, that no one else knew about, that was so bad that you can't even say it out loud to yourself." I hissed.
"Just try Elle! Please!" He begged. I shook my head.
"I can't!" I shouted. "Why can't you just leave me alone about it!"
"Because I care about you Elle, a lot!" He shouted back. My head snapped toward the door when I heard it open.
"I hope I'm not interrupting anything." Darin said. I shook my head and rubbed my eyes.
"Nope. Not interrupting. What do you want?" I asked.
"Your mother wanted me to see if you were going to eat anything and if Kendall was staying for dinner." He said simply.
"Uh, no, I'm going to Kendall's for dinner. The guys are gonna be there and his sister hasn't seen me in a while so I wanted to go see her." I lied. Kendall raised an eyebrow at me. I shrugged and looked back at Darin.
"I'm not too sure that's a good idea." Darin said skeptically. I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Don't worry, I'll use those damn crutches if I walk around and you don't have to worry about me getting in trouble. I'm not Leigh." I told him. He sighed but nodded.
"Be home by 10." He said sternly before leaving and closing the door behind himself.
"So wanna have dinner at my house?" Kendall asked sarcastically.
"If I stay here he's gonna bring up that little scene you caused and I'm not dealing with that. Plus I need to get out of here." I snapped as I got up and walked over to my closet. I pulled out a pair of jeans and changed out of my sweatpants quickly. "Toss me that boot." I said pointing to my combat boot that was sticking out from under my bed. Kendall tossed me my shoe as I sat down and slipped into my socks and boots. "Your mom won't care if I go over there?" I asked.
"My mom loves you. I'm pretty sure your her favorite out of everyone."Kendall said as if it were obvious.
"Your sure?" I asked again. Kendall laughed and rolled his eyes.
"Just shut up and put a jacket on." He said tossing me his jacket, which I had still not returned.
"You'll get this back eventually." I promised him as I pulled it on over my jersey. Kendall shrugged.
"It looks better on you than it does on me." He said as he walked toward the door. I followed behind him and he stopped in front of the door. "Jump up." He told me. I shrugged and jumped on his back. I hated being carried but it was better than using crutches. I grabbed the crutches with my left hand so Darin wouldn't have a fit, and wrapped my other arm around Kendall's neck. Kendall carried me carefully down the stairs and set me down my the door.
"Awh how cute." Leigh said sarcastically, pretending to gag as she walked past Kendall and I. I reached out and punched her shoulder. "Bitch." She mumbled as she walked toward the kitchen.
"Bye mom." I said I headed out the door.
"Bye hun." My mom said, I could tell by her voice she was distracted.
"Make sure you're home by 10 so you can go to school tomorrow. And make sure you're using your crutches like you're supposed to." Darin said. I ignored him as I shut the door behind Kendall and myself and we walked over to his house.
"After you." Kendall said as he opened the front door. I laughed and rolled my eyes.
"And I thought chivalry was dead." I said as I walked into his house. "Thank you."
"Any time." He said as he closed the door behind himself. "Mom, I'm home! I brought Sleeping Beauty with me!" He announced as we walked toward the kitchen. Mrs. Knight walked out of the kitchen and gave me a hug.
"Elle it's so nice to see you." She said happily. "We've missed seeing you around the house."
'I have to say, I missed being here. It's so much quieter than my house." I said smiling back at her.
"Elle! Thank God you're here!" Katie squealed as she ran up to me and hugged me. "I missed you and the guys are coming over and they're unbearable when you're not here!"
"Hey Kates, I missed you too." I laughed as I hugged her back. "How bad have they been without me here?" I asked Katie and Mrs. Knight.
"Let's not answer that question." Kendall said quickly as he dragged me into the living room. Mrs Knight laughed as she and Katie followed us.
"They've been horrible!" Katie said dramatically. "The entire time you were in the hospital, they were destructive or laying on the couch pouting."
"James refused to do his hair at all." Mrs. Knight laughed. I rolled my eyes.
"And she doesn't just mean not styling it." Katie said. "He didn't wash it or anything."
"They were bad." Mrs. Knight said.
"Jeez, you guys are lost puppies. Moping around your house doing nothing. It's not like I was dead." I laughed.
"Uh, you could've been Elle, you were in a coma for over a month." Kendall reminded me.
"But I wasn't dead. I was just sleeping." I told him.
"So how are you feeling Hun?" Mrs. Knight asked. I shrugged.
"Not too bad." I said. "I'm really sore because all the pain meds wore off but I'd rather be sore then all drugged up and tired and not knowing what I'm saying."
"She's really funny when she's on them." Kendall said.
"Yeah, so are you there Mr. Hockey Accidents." Katie said. I laughed.
"I am not." Kendall disagreed. Katie rolled her eyes.
"Yeah, okay." She laughed.
"So, what do you kids want for dinner?" Mrs. Knight asked as the front door opened and James, Logan and Carlos walked into the house.
"Corn dogs!" Carlos shouted.
"Oh, and mac and cheese." Logan added.
"Don't forget those dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets." James agreed. Mrs. Knight laughed and rolled her eyes.
"Alright boys." She said as she headed into the kitchen.
"You know, you don't live here, you shouted just walk in here and demand food, and if you are, knock first." I scolded the three boys. They all looked down at their feet with guilty expressions. "Yeah, you better be ashamed. You should show Mrs. Knight more respect. She's like a mother to all of us."
"She pretty much is my mom since my mom's always gone." James said. "All my school papers have her as my emergency contact."
"See." I said simply. "Show her more appreciation. Clean the house for her once in a while, don't demand food, and stop breaking stuff so often."
"Elle, you're a sweetheart." Mrs. Knight said as she brought 6 cups of soda into the living room for all of us kids.
"Well, it's true, you're like a mother to all of us. Especially James and we, and obviously Kendall but he doesn't count." I said. "I know you were at the hospital before my mom was after the accident. You're always cooking for us, and treating us like we're your kids."
"Because you guys are my kids. Katie and you are my girls and Kendall, James Carlos, and Logan are my boys. You all practically live here, I get attached" She laughed.
"Oh, Ellie, I got you something!" Carlos said throwing his back pack on the ground. He opened his bag and pulled out a bag then threw it at me. I caught it with my good hand and opened up the plastic bag.
"Gummy worms!" I said excitedly.
"Keep looking." Carlos said with a big grin on his face. I opened the bag again and pulled out a can of monster.
"Monster! Carlos you're awesome!" I said jumping up and hugging him. "You have no idea how bad I needed this."
"Well considering you've been doing nothing but sleeping, I figured you could use your favorite energy drink and candy." He laughed.
"Thanks Carlos." I said with a smile as I opened the can of monster and started chugging it.
"Wait, Elle, you were in the hospital for a month, shouldn't you be out of your cast by now?" Katie asked.
"Should be. But not only do I heal really slow, I kinda re-broke it before I got out." I said. Katie raised and eyebrow at me.
"How?" She asked.
"She slammed it off a table and broke her old cast and cracked the table." Kendall said, still amused by it.
"Remind me to get you next time I need to hurt someone." Katie laughed. I smiled and leaned back on the couch.
"And why would you be needing to hurt anybody Kates?" I asked. She shrugged.
"Because people piss me off?" She said simply. I shrugged.
"Good enough reason for me." I said in an amused tone. Kendall laughed.
"You influence my little sister too much." He said.
"You're the one who lets her watch FOX when your mom's at work." I said. "I just influence her slightly more."
"Yeah, sure." He said sarcastically.
"Ellie can you play guitar with your wrist broken?" Carlos asked.
"Not really." I told him. "Why?"
"Because, I wanna listen to music and all of us love it when you sing." He said.
"Well, I can sing and if any of you know how to play guitar or piano, I hate sheet music for a song I wrote." I offered.
"James is really good at piano and Kendall is is really good at guitar!" Carlos said excitedly. I shrugged and pulled out a few pieces of paper from my jacket pocket. I handed the papers to Kendall and James and they both looked them over. They shrugged and James walked over to the piano and Kendall grabbed his guitar. I sighed waited for James and Kendall to start playing.
"I can't sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything's in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?
I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
Somebody speak to me
Cause I'm feeling like hell
Need you to answer me
I'm overwhelmed
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I need a star to follow
I don't know
I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
I don't know what I'd do without you
Your words are like a whisper come through
As long as you are with me here tonight
I'm good
Can you be my nightingale?
Fell so close
I know you're there
Oh, nightingale
You sing to me
I know you're there
'Cause baby you're my sanity
You bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
Oh
Mm, mm
Mm"
Carlos, Logan James, Kendall, Katie and Mrs. Knight immediately started cheering, and complementing my song, Carlos threw in a couple loud shouts of approval.
"Ellie that was great!" Carlos said happily.
"You wrote all of that yourself?" Katie asked. I nodded. "You have a real talent." she said.
"Elle, I have a great idea!" James said excitedly.,
"Oh God, this otta be good." I laughed.
"You and me are gonna be famous together! We'll make lots of money, play at sold out shows, own like..5 houses, and then I can marry Nicole Scherzinger!" He said as he jumped up on the coffee table.
"You're gonna marry Nicole Scherzinger?" I said skeptically, raising an eyebrow at him. "THE Nicole Scherzinger, from the Pussycat Dolls?"
"You haven't been here for one of his fantasies yet have you?" Logan asked.
"Apparently not." I said. "Are you done not James?"
"Nope," He said. "Because this is the part where I shake ma booty!" He said turn around and putting his ass in our faces, repeating "I'm gonna be famous and marry Nicole."
"Carlos!" Kendall yelled over James.
"Got it." He said as he jumped up from his spot, slapped on his helmet and tackled James off the table. I screamed in shock as I watched James and Carlos fall on the floor and start attacking each other.
"Does this happen often?" I asked, my eyes wide as I pulled my legs up on the couch, away from James and Carlos.
"Unfortunately." Logan sighed as he rolled his eyes.
"Well, you've now seen the James fantasy. You're officially part of the group." Kendall laughed as we watched James and Carlos beating each other up.
Alrighty, so what'd you think? Let me know and stay tuned for Chapter 12 which will be up very soon. Thanks for reading!(: