Here's Chapter 16! I'll cut the chit chat and let you guys get reading!

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush, if i did, the show would not be ending and i would be the happiest girl alive

Chapter 16:

"Fine, you really wanna know? My dad walked out when I was four years old then all of the sudden out of no where, when I was six, he brought my mom to court and fought her for custody of Ray Jay, Leigh, and I. He eventually go custody, I have no fucking clue how, and we went and lived with him, only seeing our mom one weekend a month and most of the time she wasn't home. We lived with him for three and a half years before my mom found out that he was a raging drunk and was abusing us physically, emotionally, and sexually, with the exception of Ray Jay, he only had to deal with the first two. Mom didn't get enough evidence to get him sent to jail, but he tried choking Ray Jay one day and that's what got us the restraining order. He doesn't give a shit about a tiny little piece of paper though. That's why he's here." I told him harshly, my voice shaking. He took a minute and processed everything I told him then spoke.

"What about Chris, what did he do to you?" He asked, his voice calmer this time. I took a deep breath then spoke again.

"Chris wasn't always an asshole. He was really sweet when I first met him, which is why I agreed to go out with him. He turned into my dad, only he was sober when he did the things that he did. It was tolerable to begin with, mostly because I was used to what my dad would dish out, but at the beginning of the school year we had a hockey game and we won so there was a huge party back at Chris's house. Even though I wasn't one for partying I went because I was on the team and it was Chris's house, I pretty much had to be there. I went upstairs after 5 minutes of being there and then an hour later a couple of Chris's friends came upstairs." I took a deep breath and gripped my hands tightly on the steering wheel as I kept talking. "They raped me and then went around telling everyone that it was my choice and that I was willing. Chris was beyond pissed about that. He wanted to know why I would have sex with his friends but not him. I went home with a busted lip, a couple cracked ribs, and a giant bruise on my shoulder blade. I told my mom I got in a fight with some senior bitch."

I glanced over at Kendall. I'd never seen him look so angry. His fists were clenched so tight his knuckles were white and his jaw was clenched tightly. He didn't speak for a minute and we sat in silence.

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" He asked me.

"No one would believe me if I'd told them. Chris had made it seem like was a slut and slept around when I was with him even though I didn't. I never even kissed anyone else even though I'd really wanted to sometimes. Plus, his dad was the police chief and Chris had him wrapped around his finger. If he said it wasn't true then it wasn't true. It would've only caused more problems than I already had."

"Why not quit the team after that happened?"

"Hockey was the one thing I loved, and was good at. It kept me going on my worst days, even if I had to see those asshole's everyday."

"So you never told anyone?" I shook my head.

"Only Janelle. Ray Jay's girlfriend and my best friend. That was only because she was at the party. She's never told anyone though."

"What are you going to do about them being here?"

"I don't know. I can't really do anything. I don't think the restraining order applies in Minnesota. He hasn't tried bothering us in years so my mom didn't bother checking." I said shaking my head.

"I'll talk to Carlos' dad about it if you want." He offered. I shook my head.

"I don't need the cops involved and I know Carlos will find out some way if you do. I don't want the other guys knowing. Hell, I don't even want you knowing. The more people know the wore things will get." I sighed.

"I don't know how else to help you, Elle." He sighed.

"Help me?" I laughed, "You can't help me, I don't need help. I didn't want to tell you any of this and I don't want your help. All I want is to forget any of what I told you happened. And bringing it up, talking about it, that just made it worse. I was finally starting to not feel like all of that happened yesterday when I moved here. I thought I'd have a fresh start, that I'd be able to forget about it, but I can't. I remember it even more vividly than when I got here. Especially with those two assholes here."

"I won't bring it up anymore." He said handing me the keys. I nodded slowly and started the car, then drove back to my house. "Wanna go to my house?" Kendall asked. I shrugged as I grabbed the bags from the car.

"I dunno." I said hesitantly. Kendall rolled his eyes and gave me a half smile.

"I won't bother you about anything. We can just lay down, watch those movies and you can let your hang over go away." He offered. "I'll even make you coffee and a bowl of Froot Loops." I smiled and laughed.

"Fine, but only because you're making me coffee and Froot Loops." I said hitting him in the leg with one of the bags.

"You can even have the tiger blanket." He laughed.

"Yeah I was taking that whether you were gonna let me or not." I informed him as walked over to his front door.

"Okay, now you can't have that blanket." He said as he unlocked the door.

"Why?" I whined childishly.

"You were going to steal if from me." He laughed.

"Please?" I begged, giving him puppy dog eyes. He sighed and shook his head.

"Fine." He said reluctantly as he walked into the kitchen and started making my coffee. I smiled and clapped.

"Yay!" I said happily. He laughed as he jumped up on the counter while we waited for the coffee to be done.

"Hey, while you're doing that do you mind if I shower?"I asked.

"Go for it." He said. "You can grab a towel from my room, I don't think mom's done laundry yet." He said I nodded and walked to his room.

I grabbed the cleanest towel I saw and then walked over to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I turned on the water then undressed while I waited for the water to heat up. I quickly checked under the sink for band-aids, then pulled the ones I was wearing off. I got in the shower and hissed and the water got in my cuts. I made sure I didn't take too long, I didn't want to make Kendall wait too long so I washed and conditioned my hair, shaved, and washed up then got out. I dried off and got dressed quickly then wrapped my hair in the towel. I walked out and met Kendall in the kitchen where he was waiting with two cups of coffee and my cereal.

"Take a long enough shower?" He joked as he handed me my coffee. I nodded slowly as I took a sip of my coffee.

"I'm in love with your shower." I told him. He raised an eyebrow as me as he sipped his coffee.

"Why?" He laughed. I shrugged.

"It gets really hot and the water comes out of all the sides and stuff so you don't get cold." I told him.

"You're weird." He laughed. I shrugged as I picked up my cereal and started walking to his room. "Where are you going?" He asked.

"Movies!" I said simply as I set my cereal and coffee on his nightstand and jumped on his bed. He followed me into his room with the movies, aspirin, and food in one hand, and his coffee in the other.

"Which one are we watching first?" He asked as he set everything down. I shrugged.

"Nightmare Before Christmas." I told him. He nodded and put the movie in the DVD player as I moved the pillows on his bed so the they were comfortable. I grabbed his tiger blanket and wrapped it around myself as he came over and sat next to me. "Wait, before you sit down, toss me a hair brush." I said as I took my hair out of the towel so it fell down to my lower back. He handed me a brush then sat down next to me as I brushed out my hair and braided it off to the side. I leaned back and immediately focused on the movie.

About halfway through the movie Kendall got up. I looked up him curiously.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Don't give me those puppy dog eyes. I'll be back in like 10 minutes, I just want to take a quick shower." he said as he grabbed his towel from the end of the bed and walked out of the room. I sighed and moved over to the middle of the bed, curling up under the blankets and going back to watching my movie intently. About ten minutes he walked back into the room with his shirt over his shoulder as he dried his hair with the towel.

"Move over?" He asked, tapping my shoulder trying to get me to move. I looked up at him, not taking my head off the pillow and shook my head. He rolled his eyes and shook his head. "If you don't move over I'll sit on you." he said.

"Do it, I dare you." I challenged. He rolled his eyes and moved toward the bed. I immediately moved over.

"I knew you'd move." He laughed as he sat on his half of the bed. I shrugged and laid down, placing a pillow on his lap and resting my head on it. I finished my movie while he filled out his application. "I've never seen anyone watch a kids movie more intently than you were." Kendall laughed. I stuck my tongue out at him as I sat up and took my hair out of the braid it was in.

"It's my favorite movie of all time." I said simply as I ran my fingers through my hair.

"So what are we watching now?" He asked. I shrugged.

"I dunno, you pick." I told him. He shrugged and put in the first disk of the zombie movies and pressed play all, then sat back down next to me.

"Sit in front of me." He said, moving his legs apart so I could sit in front of him. I did and leaned back against his chest.

"Why'd you want me to sit here?" I asked. He shrugged as he rested his hands on my shoulders.

"I dunno, figured you're probably stressed and could use a good shoulder massage." He said as he started rubbing my shoulders. I instantly relaxed, shutting my eyes and leaning my head against his chest. He laughed at my reaction.

"What?" I asked without opening my eyes. He laughed.

"Nothing." He said, I could hear in his voice that he was smiling. I opened my eyes and looked up at him. He had a huge smile on his face.

"What?" I asked again with a small laugh.

"Nothing, you're just cute when you smile like that." He said. I shook my head as I closed my eyes again.

"Shut up and watch the horrible zombie movies." I laughed.

Kinda short, I know. Chapter 17 is underway though. I probably won't be able to update again until Sunday night maybe Monday afternoon at the latest if i finish it before then due to the fact that i have to go to Massachusetts to put my beloved grandfather to rest. I'll make sure i update the story as soon as i can though. Thank you for reading my lovely's(: