A/N: Here we are, the dreaded drama. Had a few ideas where I was going to take this chapter so a big thank you Drielly Karine-BRASIL, for your input in guiding me on what avenue I should take. Thank you all for the reviews and follows.
As Lina and Jane slowly took over Maura's bedroom, so did they take over the doctor's heart. When the doctor was at work all her thoughts where on Lina and how the little girl was doing at school. If she was okay, did she like school? Did she have friends that treated her right? If her thoughts weren't on Lina, they were on Jane, always wondering if the detective was being safe? Was she eating properly? Maura's mind and heart had unintentionally wrapped itself around the whole Rizzoli family.
Many months had passed since Maura had started working again and every night was spent as bonding time with Angela and occasionally with the Rizzoli brothers. Tommy would stop in almost weekly and according to him life couldn't be better. He had successfully obtained and held his job (the longest in his life) and was saving up to propose to his girlfriend Lydia. It was during their weekly chess game that Tommy shared a secret that he hadn't told anyone else. The reason he wanted to marry Lydia was because she was pregnant with his baby. Maura was ecstatic to share with him a secret, even telling Tommy that if he needed anything at all that he could as her of it.
Frankie on the other hand, seemed to be on a "dry spell" with the "ladies". Maura had found this information out when she had offered to help with repairing Frankie's motorcycle. It was over Sunday dinner (another one that Jane had missed) when Frankie had mentioned to Angela that he was going to take his motorcycle to Giovanni. Since that meal, Frankie and Maura would slowly work on the bike during nights that Frankie actually had off. Idol chitchat would always ensue and in that time the two had become closer than Maura had ever expected. This had been the reason why on Frankie had stopped by Jane's desk to talk to her on his way out.
"Janie?" Frankie says trying to get his sister to look away from his computer. "I need to talk to you about something."
Waving her hand in a circular motion, Jane prompts her brother to continue as she herself continues to type away. "I was…thinking…you know…I have been…" Frankie stumbles over his words as he tries to hide his embarrassment.
Still not making eye contact Jane growls, "Get it out Frankie."
"Well, I have been spending time with Maura no—" He starts but Jane rudely interrupts him, "Everyone has been Frankie, so has Ma and Tommy. What's your point?"
"If you would stop cutting me off I could get it out!" The guy speaks a bit more abrasive but also tries not to piss off his sister. "I want to ask Maura out."
"WHAT?" Jane finally stops what she is doing to look at her little brother. "No, nonono…no. HELL NO!" She yells catching the attention of some of the officers milling around. "Absolutely not."
"Janie!" Frankie looks at his sister with puppy dog eyes. "Come on I have been on such a dry spell with the ladies."
"So you just want to use Maura for sex?" Jane grits her teeth and for a moment Frankie fears she could possibly pull her gun on him.
"No!" He honestly answers. "She is brilliant…sexy…she knows how to fix a motorcycle…she's—"
"Kind and caring…amazing…" Jane stares at her desk, and Frankie can see her deep in thought, and he notices the blush form on his sister's cheeks. "Frankie, she is my friend and I don't want you to do it…but I am not going to hold her back from happiness."
And Frankie does not miss the fact that Jane had mentioned Maura's happiness and not his. It doesn't take a genius like Maura to know that Jane's hesitation isn't because Maura is Jane's friend but something more.
"Alright, it is just about sex." Frankie lies. "I just really wanted to get laid."
"Frankie! STOP!" Jane makes a disgusted face. "That's my friend and you are my brother! I don't want to hear this."
"I wasn't thinking properly. I'm sorry." He gives his sister a small but sad smile. "Not only are you her friend but you are living with her and you guys are happy. I don't want to step in and ruin anything."
"Thanks, Frankie." Jane is more than happy to hear that her brother is backing off from asking Maura out. "Don't mention it sis."
"Oh, but maybe you could mention a good prostitute from your undercover days." Frankie jokes and watches his sister's face scrunch up again in revulsion before she starts laughing, "I'll ask Rondo to hook you up with Cruella."
"She sounds captivating Janie." Her little brother makes his way to the hall. "Tell him to bring her to Sunday dinner."
Crawling into bed next to Maura, Jane snuggles into the covers and comes to rest along Maura's side. It has become natural for the both of them to sleep in bed together. This arrangement had started a week after Maura started working and it has never been brought up in discussion nor has the way it makes either of them feel about it.
Maura looks up from her book as Jane flicks on the TV, "Lina did her homework but she needs you to sign her permission slip for her field trip. I set it on the table, so when you wake up you need to take care of that."
"Okay, thank you Maur." The blonde puts her book down and turns off the lamp next to her bed, before turning on her side. And like every night, Jane scoots so her arm is lying against Maura's back. "Frankie and you are getting close huh?"
The blonde lets out a long exhale before she begins, "Yes, why do you ask?"
"He wanted to ask you out." Jane blurts out before she can stop herself. She had planned to keep what her and her brother talked about quiet but it just slipped. "WHAT?" Maura turns and sits up now fully engrossed in the conversation.
"Today, he came to ask me if that was okay and everything."
"Well…what…what did you say?" The blonde asks, eager to know what Jane had told Frankie. "I said no at first…but I realized it wasn't up to me. It's your choice."
"That's good." Maura says glad that Jane was opposed to the idea. It gave her hope that the brunette maybe reciprocated her feelings. It wouldn't be a crazy notion, it was Maura's impression that Jane had feelings for her friend Emily when she was younger and that maybe Jane could have feelings for her too.
"So you would want to go out with Frankie?" Jane asks when she mistakenly takes the blonde's response for hope in her brother's affections. "No!" Maura says quickly before sliding back down into the covers. Reaching out her arm and pulling Jane into her she further explains, "No, I am not looking for a relationship with any man right now." She answers as honestly as she can. And the blonde's answer breaks the unease Jane has felt since her discussion with Frankie.
"Yeah, neither am I." Jane settles against the other woman as she watches Maura drift off into sleep.
"NOOOOOO!" She screams out in pain as the second blade pierces into her hand. "GOD NO! Please God! HEEELLLLLP ME!"
"Now Jane, we both know God can't save you now. You're mine to do as I please with. I want you to beg Janie. Beg me to stop." Hoyt's voice is more than frightening as he hovers over her. "I want to hear my name roll off your tongue." He whispers in her ear while rubbing his nose into her hair.
Pulling out the third scalpel, she welcomes her fate. "Just kill me." He smiles at her and rakes his fingers down her left arm and pulls at her wrist. "HOYT!" She screams giving into his request. When he pulls away and reaches for the scalpel she whispers a silent prayer for it to be quick.
Maura is startled awake when she hears the familiar gunshot of Korsak's gun. Since Jane had moved into her home the memories had been scarce and when she did have them it was mostly when she was awake. They would pop into her mind as déjà vu more than a full memory; it had been months since she had a dream like this.
Looking around, Maura sees the brunette's eyes on her. Maura looks into Jane's eyes and she knows the answer to the question in her mind. She heard. She has heard what Maura had been dreaming and now the brunette knows.
"I can explain." Maura starts but Jane is quick to cut her off. "What the fuck Maura?" Jane dodges the blonde's hand as it goes to reach for her. Standing she stares straight at Maura. "Why?"
"It's not something I asked for! It just happened." Maura tries to explain but again Jane doesn't let her finish. "Like hell it just happened! For someone who never talks about her past, you are sure quick to look into mine!"
"What?" Maura asks a little confused.
"Don't act like you didn't look me up in the police records and see my statements. Did you stalk me from the moment you met me?" Jane accusingly points her finger at the blonde. "How did you even get into them? They were sealed documents. What did you throw money at someone and they were just thrilled to help you?"
Maura rises to her knees and crawls on them to the end of the bed. "No! Jane no! I didn't do any of that. See." She vigorously pulls down the collar of her nightshirt to show Jane her neck. "I didn't Jane."
But Jane isn't thinking clearly in this state of mind. She feels violated and weak. "You fucking liar!" She yells as she steps back from Maura. "You took this way too far Maura!'
"For someone who never speaks of her worst moments, and yes I know what they are for you, you sure as hell snooped into mine." Jane continues to yell but stops when Maura who is crying begins. "What…what do you want to know…Jane? WHAT!" She chokes out, not bothering to wipe the tears that flow so freely from her eyes.
"That I killed my baby when I fell down? That I myself almost died? That I had to have major surgery and blood donations to live? That I was in abusive relationship? That before you, there were times that I didn't want to live anymore?" She looks pleadingly at the brunette, "Is that what you wanted to know Jane? Does that make you happier to know that?"
It makes Jane cower for a moment but she rights herself and returns the question, "I don't know, did it make you happier to dig into my past?"
And before either of them can get another word out they hear a teary little voice, "Momma? Maur?" Lina asks whipping at the hair that is plastered to her face with tears. "Why are you yelling?"
Calming herself, Jane kneels down to her daughter's height. "No reason Stinky. I need you to grab a pair of clothes and put your shoes on, okay? Once you do that then meet me at the front door."
Not moving her head, the little girl's eyes shift to Maura. "But I don't want to leave my Maura." The blonde chokes back her tears as she watches Jane whisper something into Lina's ear and then the little girl walks to Maura and hugs her thighs as the blonde kneels on the bed. "I love you, my Maura." And at this the woman does begin to cry. "I love you too Princess Lina."
When the little girl leaves Jane looks to Maura and she can see the brunette has tears in her eyes. "You have one more chance to come clean and then we're leaving. So think carefully, did you look into my files or look into me period?"
"No." Maura says with such conviction that for a moment, Jane believes her. "Liar." Jane says under her breath as she walks out of the room.
Jane and Lina wait in front of the big wooden door for the person inside to answer. The door swings open mere seconds before Jane goes the knock again, almost punching her brother in the face.
"Wow!" Frankie screams as he dodges his sister's hand. "You almost got me slugger."
It's close to four in the morning when Jane reaches her brother's apartment. She would have just used her key but since Lina was with her she didn't want to chance anything. "Come in, I was just going to go running before heading in for my shift."
"Oh." Jane looks a bit crestfallen as she looks to the floor. Frankie finally takes in his sister and niece's appearance and states, "But I'm guessing this isn't a happy visit being that it's four and you both look in the state you're in…what happened?"
Looking down to her daughter Jane sees that she is still sleepy, "Hey Stinky, why don't you go and watch TV in Uncle Frankie's bed." Nodding her head, Lina makes her way to the bedroom. While Frankie makes some coffee Jane sits at the small table in his kitchen.
"So Janie, what's goin' on?"
"I don't know Frankie, I messed up…really messed up." Jane says, as remorse sets in. "I went off and I don't know if I was in the right."
"Why don't you tell me everything from the beginning and I will help ya decide." Her brother comes and sits at the table and grabs for her shoulder.
After Jane recounts what had occurred just hours before, Frankie stares down at the table deep in thought. "Let me get this straight," Frankie begins. "You sleep in Maura's bed…with Maura? And you threw all of what you had away because she found out what happened with Hoyt?"
"First of all, I don't 'sleep' with her." Jane makes the quotes much more drastically then needed to prove a point before she continues. "Second, I don't know what we had Frankie. It was a weird friendship that I probably ruined with my outburst. And third, she didn't just find out…well I don't think she did." Jane cups her face with her hands as if she can erase everything that happened from her mind. "She said she didn't look into my files and you know she can't lie; but she knew stuff that only I know, stuff that's in those sealed files Frankie."
"Well did she say how she knew?" Frankie stands to pour more coffee for himself before silently asking Jane if she wanted a refill. Shaking her head to indicate that she would she plays with the cup before answering. "I sort of didn't let her explain…I was so sure that she was lying that I didn't let her speak."
"Jane, you need to go back to her and hear her out. Plus, you need to grab some different clothes because you can't go to work in pajamas."
"I know little brother, I just don't want to go back with my tail between my legs." Jane hangs her head as she admits her thoughts. "I think I might wait a few days. Let the dust settle before going back."
"Well take all the time you need." Frankie says as he pats his sister's back.
Maura's side of everything is coming up next and Constance makes an appearance in the next chapter. And don't worry the fighting will die down…I think…