Chapter 3: Kagome?
So, I do admit, while this fanfic is going to be extremely dramatic with adventure and romance and all that, but I really don't want to stray too far from the character qualities given to each of the characters originally (except for corrupted Kagome of course)
(Kagome's POV)
We walked until my eyes met with a familiar sight. The well. We stopped in front and I wondered if Inuyasha would give me the "it's too dangerous here" lecture.
"Kagome, I'm sorry. Because of me, you got hurt." Inuyasha dove right into his speech, letting his head droop down, "I-I messed up, but I want you to know that I will kill Naraku and find a way to get that darkness out of your heart, ya hear me?"
Shut up. Inuyasha, you deserve to die. Inside my head was the voice of an entirely different person. I didn't know how long I could force swallow her words because I threw them up. I wish he would stop talking.
"I will protect you with my life, because I owe that to you." He continued, "I do care about you Kagome, but dammit, Naraku proved to me that I have to work harder."
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. SHUT UP. SHUT UP. "SHUT UP!" There I went, "INUYASHA, THIS POISON IS SUPPOSED TO HATE ALL THINGS PURE! SO, NOW IT'S IN ME AND I'M TRYING TO FIGHT THE URGE TO KILL YOU! BUT I FUCKING WISH I NEVER WENT DOWN THAT WELL RIGHT NOW! AND YOU WERE STILL STUCK ON THAT TREE DAMMIT!" I don't curse normally, and letting those words glide off my tongue felt wrong. Then again, I felt wrong.
Inuyasha was again frozen.
"YOU SAY YOU FUCKING CARE FOR ME, BUT YOU WERE OFF TO SEE KIKYO!" I couldn't stop the rage inside me, "JUST ADMIT IT, INUYASHA! YOU GET ALL PROTECTIVE OF ME ALL THE TIME, EVEN WARDING OFF KOUGA FOR SAYING HE HAS FEELINGS FOR ME! WHILE AT THE SAME TIME, YOU ARE LEAVING ME TO FIND YOUR OLD LOVER! I SHOULD MARRY KOUGA, OR BETTER YET, I SHOULD LEAVE HERE AND NEVER RETURN! MARRY A REAL MAN IN MY OWN TIME! AT LEAST THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT HIM DISAPPEARING ON ME! But while I feel hatred towards you and myself, my darkness has unlocked new abilities. And I don't need to rely on some half breed to keep me safe."
He sat down, leaning his back on a tree, "I don't know any other way to apologize to you..."
My body urged for me to attack him, but I would not allow it. I already succeeded in disgusting myself with the way I spoke to him. I didn't mean any of it. Well, I did wish he would stay with me, but caring for someone else doesn't make him bad. And now, I've hurt him. And I didn't know what to say to take it back.
Hahaha! Look at that filthy dog, finally realizing what a worthless piece of shit he is. Kill him.
"I'm going back to the hut." I couldn't be around him. I don't know why my anger targeted him specifically while feeling indifferent towards everyone else. Was it because I was hurt by him? Did that effect how the poison grasped my emotions? But I also wish him peace. Even when I'm upset, I never wish him harm or sadness. Maybe that's why I am able to stop myself from killing him.
You are stupid for caring for that half breed. You deserve to die, too. Kill yourself. How I did hate myself right now. Sure, for some reason, my corruption brought out an attack I didn't know I was capable of, but I feel so weak on the inside. I could destroy a village with my new power, but I am pathetic.
"Kagome!" Sango approached me, worried. "Where's Inuyasha?"
"In the forest." I answered, "Sango, I said some stuff to him that I really shouldn't have. I don't know how to control my tongue around him. And I'm scared I soon may not be able to control my actions...What do I do!?" My confusion spilled out of my eyes. I felt her arms pulling me into a warm embrace and I shoved my face into her shoulders, holding onto her as a newborn would to its mother.
"I know you can conquer this." She said, " I don't know how exactly, but you are strong Kagome. So strong."
You are weak, bitch. Weak.
I left Sango to sleep in the hut after drowning her clothes in my sadness. Greeted with nightmares, I woke up not too long after and just laid there, trying to understand why it was so hard to not let my emotions get the best of me.
Inuyasha walked in and sat on the other side of the room.
"Do you really hate me, Kagome?"
"No. I don't think so." I wanted him to leave so I wouldn't have another chance to shout.
"Keh, then tomorrow, let's go out and see if there's anyone around who might know of some cure for you." His voice had it's normal tone to it, "That poison makes you vulnerable."
Not vulnerable, bastard. Aware of your shit. A constant battle this was.
I didn't really know what to say. Normally, his determination to look out for me would make me happy, but I don't really know how to feel right now.
He walked out, with nothing more than a low growl escaping from his mouth, as if my pain was his.
Okay so normally my chapters aren't that short. But I had little time to write today and I wanted to add to the story as fast as possible. I'm on break next week which means more and longer chapters! :) COMMENTTTTTTS I LOVE THEM!