Chapter 10: What are Diapers.
Okay I'm back and Happy New Years everyone! Well, now Kagome's gone all mommy, but how will the poison react?
(Kagome's POV)
Well, it's been a while since I was back home. Or at least it seems it.
Love the fresh scent of pollution.
"Whatever..." I mumbled. Now, I'm talking to myself. I'm really talking to myself right now. What.
I walked out of the shrine to see my house still upright. I smiled. "Hope I haven't worried anyone."
While I neared the door, I could hear the tv on and Mom yelling at Souta to put it lower.
"Mooom, c'mon! I can't hear it when it's soooo low!" Souta countered her demands.
"Souta! I'm on the phone! Turn it down!" She growled. Oh how I missed them!
Slowly, I opened the door, which of course was unlocked. The house smelled like Ramen. Yum. I ambled into the living room, where Souta was watching some cartoon. It didn't take long for him to notice me.
"Hey, sis!" He greeted, waving, "When'd you get here?"
I smiled, "Just right now."
Mom rushed in, "Did I hear Kagome?"
I nodded, and soon, Gramps was in too.
But they weren't the only ones to enter the living room.
"Keh, Kagome can you hurry up and do what ya gotta do so we can get back?" Inuyasha mumbled, leaning against the wall. Can't say I was surprised that he followed me. And can't say I'm surprised that he's rushing me right now.
"Oh, Inuyasha! Why don't you stay for dinner? We have Ramen!" Mom offered. And of course he couldn't refuse. So in a couple minutes we all found ourselves eating dinner at the table.
"Mom, I have to go get some baby supplies!" I informed her. She looked a bit confused.
"Why? Did you rescue some child?" She inquired.
No, in the short period of time since I last saw you, we had a child. It's being raised in the Feudal Era.
"Well, obviously." I snapped, "Why else would I need baby supplies."
She looked a little hurt at my sarcastic response, but nodded her head. "I'll give you money. You and Inuyasha can go get whatever you need."
"Why would I take Inuyasha?" I questioned, slurping the broth from the ramen.
"Keh, so I can make sure you don't take too long." He answered before my mom could explain her reasoning.
Stupid bitch. No one needs to be watched by some immature dog.
"I'm gonna take the amount of time I want whether or not you're there." I frowned, "I don't need a dog to watch me."
The table looked shocked and uncomfortable.
"Kagome, remember manners." Mom put a hand on my shoulder. But I stood up, dropped the dish into the sink, and held my hand out.
"Just give me the money so I can go. Baby needs me." I demanded.
Mom looked appalled, and she frowned, "Kagome, what's gotten into you?"
Tell her, Kagome. Tell her what got into you.
"Nothing." I sighed, "I just have to get back to the baby."
She looked a bit defeated, but nodded, handing me money. Soon, I was out the door and on my way to the store. But I was not alone.
"So, where are we going anyways?" Inuyasha asked. (Luckily Souta gave him a hat before he came after me.)
I frowned, "Just to get stuff. Go back to the house."
"Keh, I'm already here so it'd be stupid to go back." He protested.
"It was stupid to come." I responded.
He didn't say anything but just kept walking with me.
This stupid fucking half breed thinks he has some right to just do what he wants.
I didn't say anything else, either. Now's not the time for an argument. Especially since he's probably not leaving, and I don't wanna s-i-t him by accident in front of people.
We got to the stores. I picked up some formula and a bottle, some mushed baby food, and some clothes I thought might fit Satoru. I decided I would even give him a little stuffed teddy bear. Inuyasha just watched me pick out stuff. He earned a few stares from people because of his outrageous outfit, but that was expected.
"Is that all I need?" I asked myself, before remembering something crucial.
"DIAPERS!" I ran over to get some diapers, and when Inuyasha caught up, he looked a little confused.
"What are those for?" He asked, examining the package.
"These are to put on a baby so when they have to go, they're fine and then we can change them and put a new one on." I replied, having no idea what people in the feudal era did. I can imagine they had some cloth they'd put on the baby, but diapers are better.
I grabbed some diapers and wipes and headed over to the cash register.
"Kagome, how do you not drop a baby?" Inuyasha asked, "Don't they startle you when they cry and don't they move and stretch?"
I laughed in response and Inuyasha looked offended, "You just hold them." I shrugged, "Even when they move."
"Keh, you make it sound easy." He grumbled, "Not like I've ever had experience."
"It's like holding me!" I smiled, "You wouldn't let me go even if I moved!" He blushed, "Well yeah, but still!"
I laughed a bit more, and paid for all the stuff, "Just don't drop Satoru or else!"
We were all done, in less than 20 minutes! Yes! I'll just make some formula at home so that it's nice and warm for him to have when we get back!
Why do you care about that baby? It's a stupid demon.
It's just a baby...
Kagome, no baby can save you. You're gonna waste everyone's time with the stupid infant. And then the parents are gonna come back and kill you. Are you incapable of thinking? You're so stupid. Kagome, you're so stupid.
Should I just take the jewel shard out and bring the baby back at night? What if I corrupt the jewel shard.
I'll corrupt the baby.
... No. The pure innocence is too strong. You can't corrupt that...
"So, can we go now?" Inuyasha asked as we climbed the staircase to my house.
"I...I just gotta warm up some special milk for the baby." I responded, snapping back into reality.
When we were inside, I rushed while Mom looked over what I bought.
"No bib?" She asked, "I'll pack some small face clothes then." How'd I forget.
In no time, I had a bag filled with baby stuff and a bottle filled with formula. I was good to go. Inuyasha held the bag of stuff and just studied the bottle, before we went out into the shrine and jumped down the well.
Sango was holding Satoru, but I took him into my arms and began feeding him the formula. He took to it pretty fast.
"What is that?" Sango asked in amusement. She only knew of baby's getting what they needed from their mother's breast. But she figured that in Kagome's time, they had constructed some sort of substitute for that.
"It's baby formula!" Kagome smiled, "It's like special milk for babies that doesn't come from the baby's mother. I also have some mushed vegetables and diapers!"
"What are diapers?" Miroku and Sango asked in unison.
I replied with the same explanation I gave Inuyasha, and they widened their eyes in amusement.
I stopped midway to burp Satoru, putting one of the face clothes on my shoulder in case he threw up a bit. Then, I finished feeding him and he fell asleep in my arms. I didn't know how much he would drink, but he easily chugged all of it down. It felt good to have him in my arms. Still, this could only be a temporary solution, so I better take advantage of it.
I stood up, still with sleeping Satoru, and wandered over to where Inuyasha was. He stood underneath the velvet night sky, concentrating on something it seems.
"Hey." I said, stopping my tracks on a few feet behind him.
He turned his head slightly to get a small peek at me, then returned to staring at the sky, "What is it?"
"Nothing." I replied quickly, "I just...I just want to talk about things." Did I even know where I was going with this?
This time, he turned his entire body around and just looked at me, "Uh...okay."
"Inuyasha... what if...how will I...I don't feel powerful enough to defeat this thing..." I blurted out, beginning to shake. At this point,
I was so grateful to have this child in my arms to repel the darkness inside of me. I needed to know about certain things. I need to let out certain things now before I lost the luxury of being about to do so freely.
He looked down, "Keh, you're a lot stronger than you think, Kagome...Don't act so weak."
Weak...Inuyasha thinks I'm strong? "I'm not acting Inuyasha." I said, firmly, "I really don't know if I can do it... and what if the infant comes and gets me. I'll be used against you guys. I can't let that happen!"
"Keh..." Inuyasha stared right into my eyes, "If you think I'm gonna let Naraku get to you, again, you got another thing comin'. He ain't gonna put a hand on you, got it? I'm protecting you."
This did make me feel better, but it's not like it still wasn't a possibility. If it's just me on the line, Inuyasha will jump to save me, but Naraku isn't stupid, either. I'm not the only one Inuyasha will fight for. Naraku could use Kikyou against us.
"Inuyasha..." Was all I could say. I didn't want to bring Kikyou up right now. And I didn't want him to think that I didn't trust him. But I don't trust myself either.
"I'm not gonna let anything happen to you, got that?" Inuyasha turned back around, as if assuming the conversation was over.
"But what about me..." I mumbled under my breath.
"What about you?" He asked, still with his back facing me.
"What if I go to Naraku...what if the evil in me wins before you can save me..." My eyes watered. I was surprised I was still able to steadily hold Satoru. I felt like I could fall at any instant.
Inuyasha, in a split second, was right in front of me, hunched over so we were face to face.
"Kagome...I will fight Naraku to the ends of the Earth. And I will help you fight that poison. Just tell me what you need me to do" He was stern. And I knew that was all he could do anyways. I guess I was hoping for something more solid, but that's up to me. He can't save me from this, he can only help. I'm the only one who can save myself.
"...Remind me...of who I am." I choked those words out, not letting a single tear escape.
He nodded, "You should rest."
He was right. I was tired. And at least with Satoru, I could have a good night sleep.
-(Inuyasha's POV)-
Kagome went back into the hut with Satoru. She needs her rest, even if I would prefer to have her company.
It's not like I didn't know what she meant when she was talking about the infant, keh, I'm not an idiot. I knew she was talking about Kikyou. I knew she wanted to know that if I'm tricked again, and she does get caught and controlled by that stupid incarnation, what we would do. But I don't have an answer. I couldn't hurt her. But I still would fight Naraku until the end.
I sat down, with my legs crossed Indian style, and looked back up at the sky.
To my surprise, I would like nothing more than to be free from this world.
Kikyou's words echoed within me, coming from all corners of my mind. Dammit. Because of all the suffering she went through in her life and because of her death, she can't find peace here. I should've better protected her. I shouldn't have been so easily fooled. Now, I have someone else here who I have to protect. Someone I can't bear to let down, and she's suffering now, too. And again, it's because of me. I'm such an idiot.
What will I do if Naraku brings Kikyou into this? Kikyou told me I should protect Kagome; she should be my one priority. She said I've wanted that. Have I? Are my feelings for Kagome stronger than mine for Kikyou?
The thought of losing Kagome made my blood boil. It made me angry. The thought of losing Kikyou just made me sad. What did the difference mean? Dammit!
"Keh, I'll work to protect both." I decided, whispering low to myself. But again, Kagome's face flashed through my mind. Her suffering. The darkness. I don't want Kagome to end up like Kikyou. I want Kagome to be able to find peace here. I want her to overcome this thing. My fists were shaking violently now.
I'd fight all the monsters in Hell to save her.
I heard Satoru's cries. Babies wake up a lot in the night, right? I could now here him calming down while a voice sang a gentle lullaby. It was Kagome's voice. While it was frustrating to have to keep a baby around, especially with it having a jewel shard, it was good that Kagome had a break from fighting. It gave her a chance to figure everything out.
I wish I could do more for her. She trusts me to protect her. I already let her down once. Probably more than that. What does she need from me? I can't keep arguing with her. I need to be better at this. Maybe Miroku can help.
"Keh, I can't stand his damn lectures." I growled, "That bastard can talk for hours." But again, I heard Kagome and I figured maybe if I actually listened whatever damn things he said, I might learn something.
I had made my decision. Tomorrow, maybe while the girls were bathing, I would talk to Miroku. I wouldn't dare do it in front of anyone else. Keh, not even the old hag, Kaede. I better learn something.
Well, that's it and it's the longest chapter so far (word wise). I've been really busy with some of my other priorities so I hadn't updated in a while but I hope you guys liked and it and omg in case you guys like inukag fanfics about them in highschool and all that, check out Troublemaker by JulyyFire and Your Shadow by AshlynnRae. They're both under my favorites and they're reallllllllyy good. I love them!
Anyways, hope you guys liked it! I'm really trying to make it like it could've been a part of the manga/anime, so I apologize if a few times they're out of character, but I try my best to especially keep Kagome the same with how she thinks (other than her being affected by the poison) and Inuyasha with his very distinct character qualities (such as his stubbornness, protectiveness, guilt, and arrogance.)
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