A/N - I know what your all thinking, is Jacob dead or alive. Find out right now.
Rated M for Violence, Coarse Language and Sexual Content
I do not own anything
Taming The Alpha
Chapter 19 - I Can't Lose You, I'll Lose Myself
I couldn't stop crying as I heard the news, the man I agreed to marry, the father of our child and the love of my life was gone all because of Sam Uley. Rachel cried beside me as Embry soothed her, Claire soothed me.
Paul got up and walked out
"Where are you going?" Quil asked
"I know he's not dead, Jacob is a fighter he's not gone so easily." Paul spat he ran out and phased
"I think I need to lie down." I whimpered
I ended up sleeping and when I slept I didn't want to wake up I was happy in my memories of Jacob, in our love-making, the way he made me smile, how he knew me so well. I jolted awake facing the reality that Jacob was truly gone. Then I heard a thud against the front door. I got up grabbing the fire-place poker. I opened the door slowly and saw blood on the door, I cried tears streaming, then I looked down to see Jacob I dropped the poker and ran to him then he disappeared, I cried then he reappeared standing in the farther corners of the forest. I ran holding my stomach once I got to the still standing house that I used to live in I went inside and into the basement and I saw Jacob in a pool of blood but his chest was still livid.
"Leah, help me." He rasped
I woke up for real grabbed my jacket, the car keys and drove over to my old house. It was burnt down badly, I went around the back and opened the cellar to the to see nothing in the midst of darkness I crept downstairs even more and tripped landing on top of someone I quickly moved away from the carcass and whimpered
"Leah." I heard in the corner
I turned and saw a little movement in the darkness
"Jake." I cried
His topaz eyes illuminated in the dark and I gasped in relief and cried hysterically
He slowly dragged himself towards me I cried and ran to him, I lifted his head on my lap and caressed his head crying
"Lee don't cry." He rasped
"I thought I lost you." I cried
"Ssh, we have to get out of here." He whispered
I lifted him up guiding his arm around my shoulder and slowly dragged him out once we got to the car I helped him into the passenger seat and I got in the driver's seat and drove him to Billy's, Embry and Rachel came out of the house, I stopped and went to the passenger seat to get Jacob's out, I heard Rachel scream and Embry running towards us to help me. He carried Jacob as I followed behind and he laid down on his old bed. We got a hold of Jacob's grandfather and he drove down to help Jacob. When he rested I held his hand
"I love you." I whispered kissing his palm
"I love you too." He rasped
I cried and he stroked my stomach
"I thought I lost you." I cried
"I thought I was a dead man, I didn't think I was going to survive, but how did you know where to look?"
"I had a dream that you were calling to me, like our mating allowed us to find each other and I found you."
"That's never happened before."
"I'm just glad you're safe now." I sighed
I stood up and laid down next to him he sighed and wrapped his arm around me lazily and slid down to my stomach soothing it I laid my hand on top of his and I felt a third heartbeat under our palms.
The next few days had gotten better and before we all knew it Jacob was back to his happy-go-lucky self. I became bigger over the next few weeks which frustrated Jacob because he had become even more sexually needy, each morning I would feel his erection getting bigger and poking my butt. Then one morning when I woke up before him, he was still fast asleep, so I was gonna seduce him since we couldn't have sex because it would hurt the baby. I planted kisses on his neck nibbling and licking. He groaned
"Leah." He moaned
I slipped out of bed and grabbed my maternity lingerie and put it on then I walked into the bedroom to see Jacob on his back still sleeping I crawled and slid under the covers where his legs lay, I licked up his leg and sucked his balls, slowly and sexually. He moaned above making me smirk then I started licking up and down his shaft.
"Oh god Leah." He moaned
I bit down on the tip
"Fuck." He roared
He lifted the sheets to see me devouring his shaft I looked up and winked
"Fuck Leah, how did you know I needed this." He grinned
"Well half the time were in bed I can feel you against my ass."
He grinned then his eyes bulged
"What are you wearing." He growled
"Come under the covers and find out." I purred taking off my panties and throwing them to him he growled and came under I giggled and he caught my ankle and slid up my body I giggled as he stroked my cheek
"I love you." He whispered
He kissed me softly caressing my breast softly I moaned as he bit my nipples and rubbed my wet core
"God who knew pregnant women could get so wet." He growled
I moaned and he started licking down my stomach and to my core, he licked my inner thigh and moved up to my clit where he sucked and bit making me cry out in more want.
"Fuck Jacob, more!"
He inserted two fingers and bit at my folds and clit
"Fuck, I'm going to come." I yelled
Then Jacob hit my G-Spot and bit my clit all at once making me come so hard
"Damn Lee, you just squirted." He chuckled
I smirked and winked then slid down in the confines of our sheets and stroked his shaft he groaned and came right there I grinned and slowly got out of bed
"Leah." He said
I knew that tone its the "we need to talk about what happened." I didn't want to talk about it, what was there to talk about saying how I told him so, not to go alone not to make promises he can't keep.
"Yeah Jake." I smiled turning back
"You know we need to talk about what happened." He sighed
"There's nothing to talk about." I sighed
"That's bullshit and you know it. You're shrugging away what happened like it was nothing when it is something."
"Jacob, you almost died that's all there is too it."
"I fuck Leah." He growled getting out of bed
I walked towards the room door and he caught my hand
"Leah, talk to me, you have to talk."
"I don't have to if I don't want to."
"You're turning back to the bitter bitch I met at the club."
"I AM NOT A BITTER BITCH!" I screamed and started crying
Stupid Pregnancy hormones
"Leah, I didn't mean that." He sighed sadly
I cried when he tried to take my hand in his I ripped it out and ran to the washroom to cry he knocked softly on the door
"Go away." I cried
"I'm not leaving until you open the door and we talk about this."
I stayed quiet and sat in front of the door