Title: Kamui and Subaru's ABCs
Rating: T
Warnings: KamuiSubaru
A/N: So I feel as though it's been a long, long, long time since I've written character death ficc for these two, too bad this one isn't.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kamui, Subaru or any other characters created by CLAMP.
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T: Touch
Subaru knows that Kamui is the ray of light descending from a flood of darkness to guide him along so that he can endure the heartache of their painstaking journey.
He closes his eyes and he thinks of the slimy hands and the piercing stare and he's attracted to it. Yet, he clearly recollects it's Kamui's long thin fingers that have a hold on his arm that keeps him where he is. He doesn't take another step into the other world.
"Remember?" Subaru remembers Kamui telling him, "we're running away, together."
Subaru takes in a deep breath, a step back, he turns around and hugs the other lightly, he wants to apologise, but the words just won't leave his lips, "I'm fine."
Subaru also remembers the day where he stood peering out the frosted window, his diamond sharp nail just above his wrist, waiting for the right moment to daintily slice open his own skin. He hadn't even touched his wrist when he could already smell his own blood mingling with the atmosphere, and he knew straight away that Kamui would jump into the room, frantic but with a poised appearance.
It didn't even take a second for Kamui to arrive and understand what was happening.
"You know", Kamui stares at Subaru's wrists, "it's not possible for you to die from something like that."
"I know", Subaru says back softly, "that's why I didn't do it."
"Your blood fills the whole room, Subaru, you were going to cut it open, weren't you?" Kamui sighs and as Subaru's nail retracts back to what is considered a normal length with blunt edges.
Subaru does not say anything but continues staring at Kamui.
"If you're hungry for blood, you can have mine", Kamui offers, walking closer and sticking his arm towards his twin, "so long as you don't cut yourself."
Subaru touches his brother's arm, it's cold, oh so cold. But he can hear the warmth and sincerity in the other's voice, "I'm fine", he tells the other.
It's the love that makes him shine, makes him stand out like white on black.
To Subaru, it's a blessing.
"Are you okay?" Kamui asks, he touches Subaru's shoulder gently, as though reassuring the other that he was still here.
That they have yet to falter.
Subaru opens his eyes and looks up and into Kamui's eyes. He gives the other a small smile, "I'm fine", because of you.