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I read the reviews and I deemed all the comments have asked nicely enough! (Lol I feel so powerful) Anyway this is slightly AU but still follows the anime's plot.

DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING; Not Shingeki no Kyojin or its characters or anything that deals with the anime!

Mikasa sighed for the hundredth time. Since Keith informed the 104th trainee squad that they were going to graduate everyone insisted that they should go to the local pub to celebrate. Eren of course decided to drag Mikasa along with him, telling her that it would be fun. She agreed only when she overheard Sasha boasting that she would drink the most. Mikasa shook her head, It was only a one time deal, right? Or rather twice. It's been a month since she had slept with Sasha and they didn't have much interaction since then. Mikasa shook her head to clear the thoughts while Eren tugged her along with him. She grudgingly followed, making sure to keep her face indifferent.

When Eren and her reached the pub they saw that most of the squad was already there, drinking and having an all around good time. Mikasa looked around and saw Christa and Ymir drinking together. Ymir looked very amused as Christa made a face when she felt the alcohol burn her throat as it went down. She gagged a bit and punched Ymir's shoulder when she laughed at her.

Mikasa looked back and saw that she lost sight of Eren. After looking for him for a minute she found him chugging a mug of beer with Jean. Jean caught her looking and lifted his mug with a wink of an eye. Even without the flushed face Mikasa could tell he was drunk. She sighed and walked up to the bar. She tapped the wood and a bartender appeared. He glanced at the jacket before smiling at her, "What will it be sweetcheeks?"

Mikasa frowned at her new nickname, "I'll just have a mug of beer thank you." The bartender nodded and gave her a mug. She took a sip and sighed when the alcohol left a tingly burn down her throat. She took another sip and looked at the scene before her. Christa was now obviously drunk and Ymir had trouble talking to her about anything without her spacing out or laughing hysterically. Mikasa chuckled at this and looked around. Eren was now having a chugging contest with Marco and was hopelessly losing. She sighed at her step-brother's stupidity. She looked to the left and her teeth began to grind with what she saw.

Sasha was talking with Conny and they were both smiling and laughing a lot, too much for Mikasa's liking. She shook her head again, What the hell is wrong with me? She drank the rest of the beer and tapped the counter again. The bartender reappeared, "Anything else sweetcheeks?"

Mikasa said with the slightest of slurs, "Give me the strongest drink you got."

The bartender raised an eyebrow, "Are you sure?"

Mikasa nodded, "I'm positive."

He nodded and gave her a shot. Mikasa looked at this incredibly, "Is that it?"

He laughed, "You know what they say, don't judge a book by its cover! Trust me, with this little baby you won't be seeing straight in less than a minute."

Mikasa nodded and took the shot, gagging as the burn went down her throat. It was defiantly working, she could feel her mind start to numb. She looked back at Sasha and her frown deepen, she was now giggling at something Conny said and was leaning on his shoulder. She growled under her breath when Conny kissed Sasha on the forehead. She looked back at the counter and glared at the empty shot glass, blaming it for Sasha's behavior. Her ears strained but she heard Sasha laughing. It finally became too much, she whirled around but instead of seeing her with Conny she was now talking to a wasted Christa. She was laughing hysterically when Christa looked around bewildered, wondering where Ymir had run off to even though she was behind her the whole time. When Christa finally saw her, she yelled with joy and jumped on Ymir, giving her a drunken hug. Ymir laughed and hugged her back with a drunken smile.

Mikasa frowned at the scene and felt something she was new to, jealously. Wait why am I jealous? This doesn't make any sense. Only a fool would not see that Ymir and Christa are hopelessly in love. Thinking about it now she sighed, looking at Sasha made her heart pang in a way she was now accustomed to every time she looked at the woman but she still did not know the reasoning for it. As she pondered this, Sasha caught sight of Mikasa and staggered over to her. She gave a lopsided grin, "Hey Mikasa!"

Mikasa jumped at the yell and looked at Sasha. If any doubt was in her mind on whether or not Sasha was drunk was gone now. The left arm of her jacket was slumped to reveal her shoulder. She wasn't even trying to cover up her accent. Mikasa sighed and fixed the jacket, "What is it Sasha?"

Sasha pointed to the space right of Mikasa, "You were watchin' me. Why?"

Mikasa pushed the arm down and commented coldly, "You seemed to have a lot of fun with Conny and I heard your laughter even from here."

Sasha nodded, but in her druken state it looked more like she was bobbing her head, "Yep he's pretty cool." A frown took place of her smile, "But he did somethin' I didn't like."

Mikasa raised an eyebrow, suddenly feeling a strange urge to throw Conny at the nearest titan. "And that was?"

Sasha fidgeted, "He kissed my forehead."

Mikasa didn't respond, she tapped the counter and the bartender appeared, "Want the shot again?"

She shook her head, "No I would like another mug thank you." She was given the mug and took a drink, still ignoring Sasha.

Sasha frowned, "What's wrong with you? Pay attention to me!" With the last sentence she threw her arms around Mikasa and caused her to spill her drink. The bartender simply laughed and gave Mikasa another, saying this one was on the house.

Mikasa made sure to set the mug well away from Sasha's reach before addressing her, "Why didn't you like the kiss?"

Sasha smiled, "Cause he ain't you." She said it so simply, so easily, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

Mikasa shook her head, Must be the alcohol. She looked at the girl who was content with rubbing her head along her shoulder, "How much have you had to drink?"

Sasha looked up without lifting her head from her shoulder, "A few. Conny dared me to try this really good drink and then I had a few more and then I lost count."

Mikasa rubbed her forehead, "Okay that's it, I'm taking you home." She paid for both her and Sasha's drinks and the two left. Sasha leaned against Mikasa and wrapped an arm around her shoulder for support. She was giggling at something funny and Mikasa became confused, "What's the matter with you?"

Sasha giggled again, "When I was talkin' about Conny you got all jealous. It was funny."

A faint blush spread across Mikasa's cheeks, "I was not jealous!"

Sasha leaned in close and whispered into Mikasa's ear, "Was to."

Mikasa's blush increased and the two walked in silence for the rest of the trip. After ten minutes they finally reached the training grounds but instead of heading towards their cots, Mikasa took a left straight to the dinning hall. Sasha didn't seem to notice or simply didn't care, she just continued to laugh about gods know what.

The two reached the dining hall and slipped in. Mikasa led Sasha to the kitchen and made her sit on the metal table. She did as she was told, swinging her legs to and fro with her ever present smile on her face. Mikasa rummaged through the kitchen and found a glass. She filled it with water from the sink and handed it over to Sasha, "Drink."

It took the girl two tries to finally touch the glass and she gulped it down. When she was done she frowned, "This ain't beer."

Mikasa sighed, "No it's water. You drank too much and I made you come with me so you wouldn't get more drunk."

Sasha giggled, "You said cum."

Mikasa blushed, "Not like that you pervert!" She sighed when Sasha continued to giggle at the word. Suddenly Sasha stopped giggling and became very quiet. Mikasa raised an eyebrow, "What is it now, do you have to throw up?"

Sasha shook her head, "No, but" Sasha trailed off and was lost in thought. Mikasa allowed her to get her thoughts in order and heard her whisper, "I just realized somethin'." She looked up and Mikasa couldn't read what was in her eyes, "We graduated. We're no longer trainees." She looked away before whispering, "I'm joining the scouting legion."

Mikasa stared at the girl for a few moments before asking, "Why?"

She looked at Mikasa, "My friend was killed by a titan. I had to watch as it tear her limb from limb from my hidin' spot. When it finally lifted her to its mouth to kill her she saw me. With her remainin' arm she brought her hand to her mouth and made a be quiet gesture as it ate her." Tears were in her eyes, "I was too scared to help her so I figured that I should do my part and help defeat the titans so people wont have to keep watchin' their family and friends die."

Mikasa took this information in before asking, "But why the scouting legion, there are other ways you can help without being in a situation so dangerous."

Sasha shook her head, "No, I want to help in the most direct way I can," a weak laugh escaped her throat, "although admittedly I'm terrified of titans."

Mikasa pulled Sasha into a tight hug, whispering, "You're very brave you know that?"

Sasha nodded and pulled back to see Mikasa, "You're joinin' the scouting legion too?"

Mikasa nodded, "I have to protect Eren."

At the name of the boy's name Sasha looked away and frowned at the glass. She looked up and sighed, "You care for him a lot, huh?"

Mikasa nodded, "He's the only family I have left."

Sasha shook her head, "Not like that! There are rumors Mikasa, of you and Eren secretly bein' together."

Mikasa shook her head with a sigh, "I've heard them too. They aren't true Sasha. I do love him, but only as a brother."

Sasha nodded and looked relieved for a second before shyly asking, "What about me, how do you feel about me?"

Mikasa shrugged, "You don't annoy me like Jean or Conny. You're a good friend Sasha."

Sasha's shoulders sagged at the word friend and Mikasa wondered what she had done wrong. She looked up and asked almost desperately, "What about that night a month ago? Friends don't do that. Why did you even sleep with me?"

Mikasa couldn't say anything for awhile. She herself had no idea why she had slept with Sasha. She looked away before saying, "I honestly don't know. I guess I was feeling lonely and you are very beautiful."

Sasha interrupted her with a sarcastic laugh, "So that's it? I was just your booty call?"

Mikasa shook her head, "No it wasn't like that. When I saw you getting yelled at by Keith for stealing that potato I was surprised by your beauty." Sasha looked at Mikasa and allowed her to continue, "And when I heard your country accent I knew I had to steal one night with you." Mikasa looked down and admitted, "I thought that if I slept with you one time I would forget about you and focus on my studies but" anger fueled Mikasa as she grabbed onto Sasha's shoulder, "dammit I can't! Ever since that night you dominated even more of my thoughts! I find myself dreaming of you almost every night and I just don't know what to do about it! I can't be in the same room with you anymore and not thinking about that fucking night. I never felt so helpless and so uncontrol over my feelings and I am just sick of it! I feel so stupid and clumsy around you so I started to avoid you and these fucking feelings keep getting worse and I don't even know what the fuck they are!" Mikasa's rant surprised Sasha, she never saw the woman in front of her with so much anger and frustration in her eyes. Mikasa continued, "And the worse thing is that I don't want them to end, even though they are driving me insane I keep finding myself wanting to be encased with those emotions. I just- I just- mph!"

Sasha ended Mikasa's rant by roughly grabbing her and pulling her in a near desperate kiss. Mikasa quickly returned it, she immediately deepen it by pushing her tongue into Sasha's mouth and the two began a battle of the tongues, one that Mikasa won easily. Mikasa crawled up on the table and straddled Sasha's hips as her arms rested on her shoulders. Sasha groaned at the extra weight and rested her hands on Mikasa's hips.

Sasha broke the kiss, panting, "Mikasa~ I- I want, ah~" Sasha's sentence ended in a tiny moan as Mikasa's lips grazed her neck. Sasha threw her head back as Mikasa licked at her pulse point. She lightly nibbled and sucked hard to leave a hickey to replace the one that healed on Sasha's neck.

She kissed up to Sasha's ear and licked the outer shell before asking huskily, "What is it that you want?"

Sasha whimpered, "I- I want you Mikasa."

Mikasa smiled slightly and tugged at her jacket, silently telling Sasha to take it off. Sasha obeyed the order eagerly, wanting to please Mikasa. Once the offending garment was off Sasha set to work to remove her shirt, blushing at the stare Mikasa was giving her. She tried to take off her shirt but Mikasa's hands stopped her. She unbuttoned the shirt but didn't take it completely off. She reached back and took off Sasha's bra without having to take off her shirt. Mikasa quickly kissed her breasts, slowly moving closer to her nipple. Once there she sucked it in, causing Sasha to moan loudly. Mikasa played with the unattended breast as her teeth nipped and scraped Sasha's nipple. Sasha could only moan at the feeling, her hands grabbing at Mikasa's clothes and trying to get them off with little success. She only succeeded with taking off her scarf. She gasped as Mikasa switched breasts, she rocked her hips up and felt Mikasa shudder above her. Mikasa pulled back and let the go of the nipple with an audible pop.

Sasha shivered as Mikasa got off her lap to stand in front of her again. She looked up and whimpered, feeling very shy suddenly, "No please don't stop."

Mikasa smiled slightly, "Don't worry I wont." Mikasa went on her knees in front of Sasha and she immediately understood. She blushed as Mikasa pulled her belt off and undid the button of her pants and pulled down the zipper. Sasha laid on her back to help Mikasa take off her pants easier. Once off she leaned back up to see Mikasa's head in between her thighs looking at the wet spot on her underwear. She looked up and asked, "Did I cause this?" Sasha could only nod, feeling too embarrassed to say yes. Mikasa looked up and repeated her question, "What is it that you want?"

Sasha's blush increased and covered her face, "Mikasa please don't." Mikasa raised an eyebrow and began to lean back, away from where Sasha needed her the most. Sasha buried her hands into her hair to keep her from moving away any further, "Please Mikasa, I-I need you."

Mikasa looked back at the wet spot and reached up a finger to stroke it. Sasha's breath hitched and her hips rolled to the sensation. Mikasa asked once again, "What is it that you want? Be specific."

Sasha groaned, Mikasa was simply too cruel! But god she couldn't deny that this was making her so excited. She swallowed her pride and stated, "I want you to pleasure me Mikasa." Her eyes squeezed tight as she gave up the last of her dignity, "I want you to fuck me! I-I want you to lick my pussy and make me cum so hard."

Mikasa chuckled at the words and leaned forward. She moved the underwear away from her prize and took a bold lick, collecting all the juices that had spilled out of Sasha. Sasha let out a hoarse moan and the grip in Mikasa's hair increased tenfold, to the point of it slightly hurting her but Mikasa didn't care in the least bit. She took another lick, this time making sure to make contact with Sasha's clit. Her hips spasm and Mikasa had to hold her thighs down to keep her relatively still. One of Sasha's hands left Mikasa's hair to grip at the table's edge as her head was thrown back as lewd noises escaped her lips. Mikasa was surprised at how Sasha was acting, Do I have that much of an effect on her? Feeling a little smug she teased Sasha's opening with her fingertips before she plunged two fingers inside the hole easily. Sasha let out a small scream as her other hand gripped the table's edge as her hips bucked up into the hand. Mikasa continued to plunge her fingers in and out of Sasha as her tongue massaged her clit.

Sasha's moans grew more frequent and louder as did the motion of her hips. Mikasa could no longer safely lick Sasha's clit and leaned back to look at her face. Sasha was panting hard between moans and her eyes were squeezed shut in an attempt to force the orgasm off. She took a quick peak and saw Mikasa watching her with that indifferent expression of hers. She groaned, "Mikasa, please fuck, ah~, me harder." If it were any other time Sasha would feel embarrassed at her words but right now, with her mind destroyed by pleasure, she couldn't care less.

Mikasa fasten her fingers pace and smiled slightly when she began to hear little slaps of flesh meeting flesh. Careful not to disrupt her rhythm she stood up and licked at Sasha's open lips. A moan was cut off when Mikasa kissed Sasha. Sasha wrapped her arms around Mikasa's shoulders and humped at her hand, trying to make the fingers go deeper within her. As Mikasa pushed Sasha's tongue back into her mouth she pressed her thumb against Sasha's clit. It only took a few rubs to send Sasha over the edge. She broke the kiss to scream, "MIKASA~!" Her grip on her shoulders tightened as her hips frantically thrusted into the hand, still moaning as she rode out her orgasm.

Mikasa watched this with a small smile pulling at her lips. She couldn't believe how gorgeous Sasha looked even in this compromising position. Mikasa's eyes went to her face and took in the beauty that not even the greatest of sculptures could capture. Her eyes where wide and Mikasa chuckled with how only pleasure, pleasure she had given Sasha, filled them. Mikasa's eyes trailed downward to her torso. Her unbottend white shirt hanging open to reveal a still shivering and naked body. A thin layer of sweat covered the skin and made it glisten. Mikasa's looked at her chest, they were amazing and perfect, not too little or too much clevelege, but just enough to compliment her body. Mikasa looked down and let her fingertips trace the toned muscles of Sasha's stomach, causing the girl to tremble at the slightest touch. In the back of her mind Mikasa was a little amaze about how little fat she found considering that Sasha was known as the most hungry girl in the world. Her fingers trailed downwards to brush the dark curls and her smile grew a little as she found that some of them were coated with a sticky substance. She got back down her knees and sensing Sasha's eyes on her, leaned forward once again to clean her sex of the cum that poured out during her orgasm. Sasha moaned but gently pushed Mikasa's head away, "No~ I'm too sensitive." Mikasa gave an annoyed huff at being denied of tasting Sasha but knew that if she were to ignore her, she would be giving Sasha more pain than pleasure.

Mikasa stood up and looked at Sasha. She was already asleep. Mikasa smiled at this and thought about how adorable Sasha was. She looked around and grabbed her clothes. She grabbed Sasha and lifted her up bridal style. Sasha just gave a soft groan in her sleep and snuggled closer to Mikasa. She blushed at this and ran out of the dining room. She ran back to her barracks as fast as she could, not wanting anyone to see her with a naked Sasha. She opened the door and peaked in, sighing with relief when she saw nobody came back from the pub yet. She walked over to her cot and laid Sasha down. She turned to her left and pulled the sheets down the bed. Once done she moved Sasha from her bed to her own. She laid her down and tucked her in into the bed. Mikasa smiled when Sasha squirmed and muttered, "Mikasa" in her sleep. Mikasa went to her own bed and laid down under the covers, lying on her side so she could see Sasha. Her eyes closed and the girl fell asleep with a content smile.

Few Hours Later

Sasha groaned as her hangover banged her head. She got up weakly and gasped at the nakedness of her body, Last night- it wasn't a dream? She looked to her right and saw Mikasa sleeping soundly. She smiled and looked around. Half of the cots were filled with passed out people, most of which she could easily tell their hangover will destroy them in the morning. She looked to her far left and smiled, Christa and Ymir were sharing a bed and on further investigation, Sasha blushed as she noticed clothes on the floor near the bed. She looked back to her right and sighed. Sasha got up quietly and put on her clothes before lying back under the covers. She moved around into a few positions but found none of them gave her the rest she needed. She huffed and turned over to look at Mikasa. She was turned facing her and by the slow rising and falling of the sheets Sasha could tell she was deeply sleeping.

Sasha whined, "How come she can sleep so easily." An idea popped into her head and a smile spread on Sasha's face. She got out of her bed and tiptoed to Mikasa's. She looked at the bed and frowned, apparently Mikasa was a bed hog. She gently pushed Mikasa to give her more room, Mikasa just let out a little grunt and let Sasha move her. Sasha lifted the covers and got in, snuggling close to Mikasa.

What she didn't want to happen of course happened, Mikasa stirred in her sleep and rolled over to glare at Sasha, "What are you doing?"

Sasha still smiled even though most would have run away, "I couldn't get comfortable in my bed."

Mikasa raised an eyebrow, "So why are you in mine?"

Sasha shrugged and placed an arm on Mikasa's waist, feeling a little relief when she didn't push the arm away, "I wanted to cuddle."

Mikasa sighed but gave no resistance when Sasha spooned with her. Mikasa wrapped her arms around Sasha and whispered, "You're so needy."

Sasha giggled, "And you're so cute."

Mikasa looked away, "I am not."

Sasha, "Yes you are. Your attitude can be very scary sometimes but you're still very cute."

Mikasa smiled at the compliment and told Sasha, "You're very beautiful as well you know."

Sasha shook her head and hid her face in Mikasa's neck, "No I'm not, there a lot of people more pretty than me, Christa, Ymir, and especially you."

A small blush spread across Mikasa's cheeks and she shook her head, "No I am not. Here, let me show you." She reached down and slowly lifted Sasha's chin to look at her. She looked up and touched her cheek gently, "Your skin is so soft and simply kissable." To prove her point she kissed her cheek, her fingertips moving to touch her lips. When she pulled back she looked at her lips, "Although your lips are much more soft and kissable." She removed her fingers and replaced them with her own lips. Sasha kissed back and let her tongue ask Mikasa's permission to enter. Mikasa opened her mouth slightly and met Sasha's tongue with her own.

Mikasa shuddered when Sasha intertwined their legs and she lifted her leg so her thigh would brush against Mikasa's precious spot. She broke the kiss, "No we can't, people will hear."

Sasha groaned but pulled her leg down, "Okay okay but you owe me." She looked away from Mikasa and stared at the ceiling. She asked suddenly, "What am I to you?"

Mikasa lifted her head from her pillow to look at the country girl, "What to do you mean?"

Sasha looked at Mikasa and rested her hands on her hips, "Exactly what I meant, what am I to you?"

Mikasa looked away, "I-I don't know. We're defiantly closer than friends. Lovers maybe?" Mikasa hated this, she hated not knowing what the two meant to each other.

Sasha sighed, "That's it?"

Mikasa looked at the woman and whispered in frustration, "I don't fucking know Sasha! What do you want from me!?"

Sasha growled softly, "What about your love dammit!" She slapped a hand on her mouth but it was too late, the words were already spoken. She looked away and allowed a few tears to leak through her eyes, "You're not the only one who couldn't stop thinkin' about that night. Everytime I saw you, my heart beats so loudly that I'm surprised you don't hear it. I didn't like Conny kissin' my forehead because he aint you, I wanted you to kiss me, not him." She looked up at Mikasa with a few more tears coming out of her eyes, "Is that so much to ask? For you to love me as I love you?" Mikasa stared at Sasha for a moment before reaching up to wipe the tears out of her eyes. Sasha slapped the hand away and hissed, "If you love me then why won't you show me your heart? Why do you always look at me with an indifferent face when you make love, no I can't call it that, when you fuck me."

Mikasa got on her hands and knees to hover above Sasha. She warned, "If you don't keep quiet someone will hear you." She looked around and saw nobody had awoken. She looked back down and tried to touch Sasha's face again. This time Sasha allowed Mikasa to touch her but the tears wouldn't stop. Mikasa's heart gave a painful pang at the knowledge that she had caused Sasha to cry like this. She thought about what she should say but finding nothing, decided to talk freely. She stared into Sasha's eyes, "If you want me to tell you I love you cannot." A few more tears leaked out of Sasha's eyes. Mikasa's shoulders sagged as she confessed, "I just don't know if I can love someone Sasha, I'm so used to keeping my feelings hidden after my parents were killed that I just" she sighed, "I just don't know if I can love you as you deserved." She looked at Sasha and saw that the flow of the tears had slowed. Mikasa growled under her breath, "Fuck this." She looked at the woman under her, "If you want to hear the truth then here it is; I can't stand seeing or even thinking about you being with another person. I hate it seeing you sad and I despised the fact that you joined the scouting legion because I don't want you to get hurt. And I-" she growled in frustration, "fuck! If you want me to say it, fine! I fucking love you Sasha Braus! I don't know how to love another but if you want me to love you, to give you my heart, body, soul, whatever the fuck you want well then go ahead and take it! I want you to but you need to give me all those things in return and-"

Sasha interrupted Mikasa by suddenly grabbing her head and pushing their lips together desperately. Tears still came out of her eyes but now they were ones of happiness and love. Their lips and bodies molded together beautifully and Sasha groaned, "Mikasa, I love you."

Mikasa broke the kiss and smiled fully, allowing her eyes to fill with the emotion she could now identify as absolute love, "I love you too." The two kissed again and snuggled against one another. They fell into a blissful sleep, knowing that in the morning their first sight would be of each other.

Author's notes

Cliché ending I know, but hey, at least it's something. I had to add some angst in the ending because I figured that Mikasa's coldish nature would make her not recognize the love she has for Sasha and Sasha's carefree nature would make her upset at how Mikasa hadn't express her love yet. As stated before nice reviews=more chapters (if I have the time, I'm in the middle of a huge story project). I love you all!