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Before anything I will just like to apologize for something, I only learned now that I have been calling the Survey Corps the scouting legion and I am too lazy to change the last chapter, so uh I'm sorry? Can't tell you when it takes place. Why? Cause I'm cruel like that, rated M! ANGST!

DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING; Not Shingeki no Kyojin or its characters or anything that deals with the anime!

Armin looked around the group, "We will distract the titans in the storage room with these guns on the elevator." Armin gestured to the gun Jean was currently reloading. "When they get close enough aim for the eyes. While the seven are blind seven of us will swoop down and kill them. The seven to kill the titans should be the strongest. Mikasa, Annie, Jean, Reiner, Connie, Bertholdt, and Sasha." With each name call he looked at each person, his gave lingering on Sasha the longest. He looked back down on the blueprint, "You are the most essential part of this whole plan, you must kill each titan at the same time in order for this to work."

Everyone except Sasha nodded in agreement. She looked down, Why me? I am not one of the strongest, am I? While she was wondering this everyone began to make their way to the storage room. The seven quietly took their positions. Sasha couldn't help but feel everyone's eyes on her, as if they doubted her abilities. She shook her head to clear it. She looked down and spotted the titans aimlessly walking around.

Sasha looked to her left at Mikasa. Mikasa looked back at her and nodded. Sasha looked back and saw Armin with everyone coming down on the elevator. He looked at everyone and back at the titans. They saw Armin and began moving towards him. Armin held up his hand, "Hold!" the titans were fifteen feet away. "Hold", now ten feet, "hold" five feet, "aim" Sasha knew that Armin could reach out and touched a titan, "FIRE!"

All at once the soldiers set fire on the titans, efficiently destroying their eyes. Armin looked at Sasha, "NOW!" Everyone swung down, Mikasa, Annie, Jean, Reiner, Connie, and Bertholdt killed their titans without a hitch. Sasha, however, slipped up and did not cut deep enough and fell on her back. She looked up, her titan already turned around and stared at the girl. Tears leaked out of Sasha's eyes, "Sorry f-for stabbing you in the back so suddenly." The titan roared and took a step towards Sasha.

"SASHA!" Mikasa saw everything and used her 3D maneuver gear to swing to the titan. She brought her blades down but she misjudged her timing. The titan was alerted by Mikasa's scream and was able to side step away just in time. He reached out with a hand and caught Mikasa. Mikasa screamed her deviance and stabbed the hand but the titan didn't give any reaction. It lifted her above its open mouth and dropped her. Before she could swing away the titan snapped its jaws. Immediately blood spewed from Mikasa's mouth as she screamed in pain. The titan bit down harder and succeeded in biting Mikasa in half.

The upper half fell on the ground the same time Sasha's knees met the floor. She stared at Mikasa and sobbed, "No oh god no!" She ran to Mikasa and ignoring Annie who killed the titan scooped up her love into her arms. She looked at her face and wiped away the blood but all she did was smear it on her face. She cried, "Mikasa, please look at me!"

Mikasa opened her eyes and weakly lifted her arm to touch Sasha's cheek as she whispered, "Sasha."

Sasha cried harder and looked down at Mikasa's body. She saw her intestants on the floor, "Oh god Mikasa please don't die!"

Even as the words left her mouth Mikasa's eyes were already dimming. Before they closed however Mikasa's last words were, "This is all your fault."

Sasha jumped and looked around. She was in the middle of the street in Trost. She shook her head, "Have I been day dreaming?" Sasha squinted at the sun and sighed, "I have been." She looked around and sighed again, she had been counting the dead bodies after Eren had plugged the hole in Trost and the military killed the remaining titans. She walked down the street with her eyes on the ground, "She's right. If I had been stronger she wouldn't have to die." Sasha shook her head, What am I thinking, Mikasa saved my life and killed that titan. What is wrong with me?

Sasha turned the corner and saw a small group of soldiers crowding around something. She walked to them, "What are you doing here? Don't we have orders to look for bodies?"

One of the soldiers pointed to what they were staring. Sasha followed the finger and her eyes widen. The soldiers were staring at a blob of something slimy that encased a soldier's body. The soldier explained, "Titans don't have digestive organs. When they have eaten their fill they puke it out and this is the result."

Sasha grabbed her hair as her head shook side to side, "No, no."

The soldier gave her a look, "What's wrong, do you know this soldier?"

Sasha nodded and backed away from the scene as she sobbed. The soldier incase in the blob wore the standard trainee uniform although the jacket was shorter than most, ending at its waist. What give the identity away though, was the fact that it wore a scarf, Mikasa's scarf.

Sasha screamed as she bolted up in her bed. She panted, trying to keep her voice down as she looked around. She was in a room somewhere with a bed at either side of her, each with a sleeping person. She looked down and buried her face in her hands, "God dammit." She had been having a nightmare within another. Her body shook with relief, Mikasa was safe, she was alive. Sasha laid down and stared at the ceiling as memories flooded her mind. She had joined the Survey Corps along with Connie, Christa, Ymir, Annie, Mikasa, and a few others. She's now in an abandon castle training for tomorrow. Her thought seized up, tomorrow is the 57th expedition to take back Wall Maria. Sasha shivered in fear, she's going on that expedition which meant she had to face titans again. Flashes of Mikasa's dead body went through her mind.

Sasha sighed and quietly got out of her bed, I wont get any more sleep. Sasha tiptoed out of the room and began walking around the castle. Since the month she been here she explored every part. She walked down the hallway and turned to go up the stairs that she knew would lead her to the roof. She opened the door and stepped outside to enjoy the night air and forget her dreams.

As she took one step forward however she knew that she would find no comfort from her dreams here. A figure leaned against the railing and stared at the woods in front of the castle. Even in the dark of the night Sasha knew of only one person that was as stupid as her to resist sleep. She walked forward towards the person and tapped its shoulder. Instead of looking back the person sighed, "Hello Sasha."

Sasha chuckled weakly and wrapped her arms around the figure's waist, "Hey Mikasa. What are you doin' up here?"

Mikasa turned around and shrugged, "I could ask you the same thing." She frowned and touched Sasha's cheek, wiping a tear away with the pad of her thumb, "Why are you crying?"

Sasha's eyes widen, she hadn't realized she was crying. But because Mikasa made her aware of it, she couldn't stop the tears from falling. She buried her head into Mikasa's shoulder, "I'm useless, I wasn't able to kill that titan and I apologized to it! You had to save me which put you in danger and I-I" Mikasa was surprised when Sasha's fingernails dug into her shoulders, "I heard about Eren! I know he tried to kill you and you were stupid enough to try to talk sense into him!"

Mikasa's teeth grounded together, she loved Sasha, really she did, but she couldn't help but feel anger towards her for yelling at her for trying to protect Eren, "He's my family Sasha, what did you expect me to do? Abandon him?"

Sasha shook her head, "No I didn't mean it like that!" She pulled back and stared into Mikasa's eyes, "I'm just afraid that I was goin' to lose you and I thought that Eren might hurt or even kill you!"

Mikasa growled back, "Says the one who joined the Survey Corps! I saw you Sasha, you were crying at the ceremony!" She looked away and said in a much lower voice, "Why would you do that Sasha, why would you join the most dangerous legion when you could live safely in the inner walls as a Military Police Officer!?" She looked at her and now tears were flowing out of her eyes, "You think you're the only one afraid of losing the person they love!? Sasha I-I have been having such terrible nightmares every night. Some of them are about me not being able to kill that fucking titan and having to watch it eat you! Others about Eren dying or it's Armin, o-or others and not being able to do a fucking thing!" Mikasa stared at Sasha, "I-I don't want to lose you so why did you join the Survey Corps!?"

Sasha stared at Mikasa, she never seen her so broken down, so raw, so vulnerable. She pulled her into a hug and it was Mikasa who now sobbed into her shoulder. Sasha didn't know what to do so she rubbed her back, whispering soothing things like she and everyone else aren't leaving her and that the nightmares aren't real. She frowned, I'm such a bitch. I always saw Mikasa as a strong person, somebody who didn't need anybody to help her, somebody who I could always depend on. Sasha sighed, I was so wrong. Mikasa isn't some goddess with super powers, she's just like me, a human with emotions and who needs me to be strong for her.

Sasha looked down at Mikasa and saw that she had stopped crying. Sasha kissed her, showing her how much she loved her when she found no words to suffice. She kept the kiss chaste and broke it after a minute. Mikasa wouldn't have it, she pressed their lips back together desperately. Sasha allowed Mikasa to lick her bottom lip but it was her who pushed her tongue into her mouth. Sasha shivered when she explored Mikasa's mouth. Whenever the two found any time alone together, even if it were a minute a two, they would kiss but the intensity of those kisses always amazed Sasha. She could kiss Mikasa a thousand times and still feel her heart skip a beat with each smack of the lips. Sasha broke the kiss and looked at Mikasa. Mikasa looked back with half-lidded eyes that were full of love and lust.

The two kissed again, this time it becoming more desperate and needy. They weren't going to lie to themselves, tomorrow they could very well be eaten by a titan. Sasha broke the kiss and literally ripped the shirt off her chest. She kissed down her chest and took off the bra. She took a nipple in her mouth and sucked it harshly, too desperate to give Mikasa pleasure to bother being gentle. Mikasa moaned, "Sa-sasha~" and tried to take off her shirt but slapped her hand away. Sasha switched nipples and massaged the unattended breast, not giving Mikasa the chance to try to take off her shirt again.

Sasha pulled her head back and looked up at Mikasa. Mikasa was already panting with a giant blush on her face. Sasha shivered at the knowledge that she had caused Mikasa to be like this, to be puddy in her hands. Sasha kissed down Mikasa's chest and down her abs, she would never admit it to Mikasa but she secretly found them very sexy. She pulled down her pants and underwear and saw how excited Mikasa was. She kissed up the legs and Mikasa gently pushed her head back, "Not here."

Sasha whined, "Mikasa please, I-I want to make you feel as good as you made me feel."

Mikasa chuckled, "No I meant not on the roof. It's too cold." Mikasa put on her shirt without buttoning it and her pants. Sasha noticed with great interest that she hadn't put on her bra or panties. Mikasa grabbed her hand and led her downstairs. The two walked around until Mikasa stopped the two. She opened the door and Sasha looked inside, there was only a bed that looked as if nobody used it in forever. As the two entered the room Sasha could've sworn that she saw something in the corner of her eye but she ignored the nagging feeling as she closed the door. Mikasa kicked off her pants and as Sasha watched her peel off her shirt she lost what little control she had left. She tackled Mikasa on the bed who gave a little grunt of surprise when her back hit the mattress. Sasha didn't wait for Mikasa to get comfortable before pressing her lips together with a hunger that only Mikasa could cure.

Mikasa kissed back but Sasha took control of the kiss. When she broke it she kissed down Mikasa's jaw line and up to her ear. She all but growled, "I don't want you to hold in your voice." Sasha grabbed Mikasa's breasts and rolled her nipples between her fingers. Mikasa moaned and arched her back as Sasha continued, "Tonight I'm going to show you what I can do." She smirked at the blush on Mikasa's face. Sasha bent down and took a quick swipe of her nipple with her tongue. Mikasa's back arched as a little mewl left her mouth. Sasha shivered in delight as she took the nipple in her mouth, loving the reactions she was receiving from Mikasa when she scraped the nipple with her teeth and bit it a little.

Sasha continued to torture Mikasa as she stopped playing with her breasts and agonizingly slowly kissed down Mikasa's stomach. She kissed her abs and when she reached her belly button she looked up. Mikasa was staring at her with her hands gripping the bed sheets. Sasha locked her eyes on Mikasa's as she allowed her tongue to dip inside her love's belly button. Mikasa groaned, "Stop teasing."

Sasha couldn't help but smirk, by the greatest of gods did she love this side of Mikasa! "What's the magic word?"

Mikasa groaned again, "Fuck!"

Sasha looked down and the sight of Mikasa's legs rubbing together to create some friction drove Sasha crazy. She forgot about her teasing and reacted on pure instinct. She kissed at both of her knees and Mikasa's legs opened up. Sasha kissed up her thighs and nipped at the skin which caused Mikasa to moan loudly and for one of her hands to tangle in Sasha's hair. Sasha shivered when she reached Mikasa's outer lips. She licked up the slit and smiled when Mikasa let out a small whimper. She accidentally bumped her bundle of nerves with her nose and was shocked when she felt Mikasa's ankles dig into her shoulder blades. She looked up and was struck by how open Mikasa looked. She was openly moaning, not caring if anyone heard her, and her hair stuck to her face as she panted. To Sasha she never looked so beautiful and it warmed her heart to know she had caused this. She bent her head and continued her work. Her hands rested on Mikasa's thighs and forced them apart as she licked at Mikasa's most sacred place.

Mikasa trembled when she felt Sasha's tongue swipe at her clit. She moaned, "Sasha~" she loved the way Sasha made her feel so loved when she knew she shouldn't be. She was selfish, she wanted Sasha to love her and only her, a broken girl who's only skill is to kill. But even as these thoughts crossed her head she looked at Sasha and their eyes locked, Mikasa could only see love in those eyes as she pleasure her. Mikasa squirmed and her back began to arch off the bed, "I-I'm close!"

Sasha smiled and redoubled her efforts. She felt Mikasa's body squirm underneath her and her body heating up. Mikasa's moans were becoming more frequent and high pitched but Sasha couldn't be bothered with worrying about her voice becoming too loud, the two were far too lost in their own little world. Sasha used her fingers to penetrate Mikasa and plunged them in and out of her. Mikasa's grip on her hair tightened as she nearly screamed. Sasha continued to lick at Mikasa's clit and moaned when Mikasa panted her name. The vibrations from the moan pushed Mikasa over the edge, she let go of Sasha's hair and gripped the bed sheets to the point of her knuckles becoming pure white, she sat up, putting her weight on her hands as a soundless scream escaped her lips. Mikasa's hips frantically humped at Sasha's mouth and fingers and Sasha was more than happy to continue her actions to help her beloved ride out her orgasm.

After five minutes of Mikasa praising Sasha's name her back finally touched the bed again. Sasha drank all of Mikasa's cum with a smile. When she was clean Sasha kissed back up Mikasa's stomach to her breasts and finally kissed her lips gently. Mikasa shivered and wrapped her arms around Sasha. Sasha smirked and received a half hearted smack on her arm, "Shut up."

Sasha's smile increased, "I didn't say anything."

Mikasa looked up to glare at Sasha but all she could see was love and adoration. She continued her glare however and pointed to Sasha's forehead, "You were thinking it though."

Sasha laughed and kissed Mikasa's neck, "I was only thinkin' about how cute you are when you ain't glarin' at everything."

Mikasa glared at her but she failed to do so when Sasha continued to smile at her. A small smile spread on Mikasa's face, "Just go to bed you idiot."

Sasha snuggled with Mikasa and wrapped her arms around her waist, "Fine" a yawn escaped her mouth, "love ya."

Mikasa kissed her cheek but when she pulled back soft snores already reached her ears. She smiled lovingly at Sasha, "I love you too Sasha."

The next morning

Mikasa sighed when she felt something stir behind her. She tried to get comfortable again but the thing tightened its grip around her waist. She turned around and smiled, How could I forgot? Memories of last night came to her as did a blush on her cheeks. She looked outside and watched as the sun began its climb and brighten the sky. She whispered, "How beautiful."

Sasha stirred again and pulled Mikasa closer to her as she said sleepily, "Not as beautiful as you."

Mikasa looked at Sasha, "You awake now?"

Sasha whined and buried her head into Mikasa's hair, "No I'm still asleep."

Mikasa chuckled, "Dork." She looked back outside and sighed, "We should get up soon."

Sasha snuggled deeper into the bed, "No I think i'll stay here." She rubbed her head against Mikasa's neck which caused her to giggle as her hair tickled her neck. Immediately Sasha sat up straight, "Yo-you just giggled." Mikasa began to think that she did something bad when Sasha tackled her, "SO CUTE!"

Mikasa laughed and halfheartedly pushed Sasha away. Sasha whined and pulled Mikasa into a hug rubbing her face against her chest, forgetting that Mikasa was still naked.

Mikasa let out a small moan as Sasha's nose hit her nipple, "N-no." Sasha pulled back and saw Mikasa's blush, she looked down and noticed that Mikasa was naked. She smiled and let her hand cup Mikasa's cheek, leaning in to give her a soft kiss on the lips. Mikasa was shocked by Sasha's gentleness, usually the girl was so full of energy that whenever they made love it was fast. Sasha let her hand trailed down Mikasa's cheek and past her chest, not before giving her right breast a quick squeeze, then down to her abs. She traced them with her pointer finger and the feather-light touch sent Mikasa's mind into a frenzy, whenever a nail accidentally scratched her skin she shuddered.

Sasha leaned forward and licked her neck, "You're bein' awful submissive today." She gave the skin a light nip which made Mikasa gasp, "I like it."

Before the two could go any further however the door opened up. Sasha jumped and whirled around, making sure her body protected Mikasa from the person's eyes. Mikasa grabbed the bed sheets and covered herself. She looked over Sasha's shoulder and saw Hanji Zoe standing there with a perverted smile on her face, Shit. First Ymir and now her? Hanji looked between the two for a moment as a little bit of blood escaped her nose, "Sorry for the interruption but you two should get dressed. We are leaving in a little bit." She turned to close the door but before she did she looked over her shoulder at the couple, "Corporal Levi also told me to inform you two that if you two decide to have fun in the middle of the night make sure you are a little quieter."

Mikasa's face grew aflame while Sasha gave a goofy grin, not feeling the least bit of embarrassment for how loud she made Mikasa moan. Hanji left the two and the smile disappeared from Sasha's face. She whimpered in fear, "Today we are leavin' the walls." Mikasa had to strain her ears to hear Sasha's last sentence, "We are goin' to fight the titans."

Mikasa sighed and rubbed her forehead, "You really are terrified of the titans aren't you?"

Sasha's head whipped to Mikasa's, "Arent you!?"

Mikasa shrugged, "You learn to suppress the fear when you're fighting."

Sasha looked down at her hands, "What if you don't know how to yet?"

Mikasa sighed again and pulled Sasha close to her, "Then I will do my best to protect you until you can."

Sasha leaned her head on Mikasa's shoulder, "Thank you. I know I'm just a bother but I-"

Mikasa silenced Sasha, "You are not a bother at all Sasha so don't say that."

Sasha looked away, "But I'm always screwin' up, l-like at the storage room."

Mikasa sighed, "Then redeem yourself. Kill a titan for the one you lost."

Sasha stared at Mikasa and didn't see any disgust or annoyance, she just saw knowledge and love. She got off the bed and fetched Mikasa's clothes. She gave them to her, "Thank you for believin' in me."

Mikasa grabbed the clothes and kissed Sasha's lips, "Someone needs to."

Sasha watched as she got dressed and asked, "Before you asked me why I joined the Survey Corps. Do you want to know the reason?" Mikasa looked at Sasha, she hadn't expected her to say, and nodded. Sasha sat at the edge of the bed as she explained, "When I first joined the trainee squad it was out of anger. I wanted to kill the titans because of what one of them did to my friend but as I trained and trained I realized that wasn't it. You see after she had died my father found me cowerin'. He yelled at me and asked why I hadn't run away and alert everyone of the titan. I told him I was afraid that if I had left my hidin' spot another titan would see me and kill me. He just looked away and said he was disappointed in me. The next week I ran away and joined the military." Sasha looked at Mikasa and pointed at the girl, "You are also part of the reason why I joined the Survey Corps." Mikasa's eyebrows raised as Sasha explained, "When you saved my life you also made me indebt to you. So now I have to repay that debt by killin' as many titans as I can and if I don't I would be disgracin' your name."

Mikasa sighed, ''Those are good reasons I have to admit but I still don't like the idea of you joining the Survey Corps." Mikasa fiddled with her scarf and looked at Sasha, "Do you want to know why I joined?"

Sasha raised an eyebrow and guessed, "Because you're good at killin' titans?"

Mikasa chuckled and shook her head, "No, even before I found out I was good at that I already made my decision." She looked at the scarf, "I joined because of Eren." Sasha frowned at that. Mikasa noticed the frown and smiled, "You don't need to be jealous of him Sasha, I already told you I see him as family, nothing more and nothing less."

Sasha nodded but the frown didn't go away, "I know, I know but everyone keeps sayin' that you two are made for each other."

Mikasa chuckled, "Well Eren talked to me about Hanji and I doubt that everyone wont know we are together by the end of the day." A frown replaced Mikasa's smile, "Although if that woman tells everyone how she found out I am going to feed her to one of her beloved titans."

Sasha stared at Mikasa, she loved her but she could be very scary sometimes. She laughed nervously, "Well um can you explain why you joined because of Eren?"

Mikasa shook her head of thoughts about hurting Hanji and looked down, "My parents were killed." Sasha's eyes widen in surprise as Mikasa continued, "We were making clothes, my mother and I, as we waited for Eren and Dr. Jaguer to arrive." Mikasa's eyes filled with sadness and hatred as she continued, "We heard the door knock, my father went to open it. When he did he was stabbed by a man. He looked at us and fell down on his knees." Mikasa stared at the floor, "He died right in front of my mom and I. She grabbed the scissors we were using to cut the clothes and tried to stab the man who killed my father. Another man told her to stop resisting or else he would split her head open with his ax." Sasha pulled Mikasa into a one sided hug as she shook with ill-hidden emotions, "She didn't listen and was killed. The last thing she told me was to run, but I couldn't move, I couldn't run away. The men took me to this abandon house in the woods and I saw the leader. He was a disgusting fat man. He looked at me and left the room." Mikasa's hand gripped her scarf. "Apparently Eren and his father came to the house some time after they took me. I stayed in the house for an hour and learned what those pigs were going to do with me." Her face twisted into a sneer as she snarled, "They were going to sell me to some rich pervert! Before they could though Eren knocked on the door." A little chuckle escaped her, "I never asked how he knew where to find me but he did. He told them that he was lost and when the man who killed my mother came close to him Eren stabbed him." Mikasa looked at the window, "He ran out of the room and when the man who killed my father went to catch him he died. I didn't see what happened to him but when Eren came back into the room he was covered in blood. He cut the rope that bound my arms and before I could warn him the pig came back into the room. He went at Eren and began to choke him. I-I just stood there, thinking that I would have to watch another person die again. Eren looked at me and told me to fight, that if I didn't fight I could never win." Mikasa's hand gripped at her scarf again, "I grabbed the knife Eren had dropped and stabbed the bastard in the back. I pulled it out of him as he let go of Eren. When he turned around to attack me I slashed his throat. After that I don't really remember. Suddenly I was outside and Eren's father was looking for any injuries on me. He yelled at Eren for doing something so reckless. Eren yelled back saying that if he had waited for the military police they would have taken me away a long time ago. Eren looked at me and I said it was cold, I just wanted this nightmare to end." She looked at the scarf, "This was his before he gave it to me. That day his family adopted me and since that day I always wore this scarf as a silent reminder. I vowed that I would always protect him, as he protected me that night. Do you understand now? I have to always follow Eren so I can protect him and keep him safe because without him, I probably be dead now." Mikasa finally looked at Sasha and was surprised to see tears in her eyes. She reached up with her hand and wiped a tear that had escaped away. "Sasha, what's wrong?"

Instead of answering Sasha pulled Mikasa into another hug, "Mikasa, that's so sad! I-I never thought someone like you could have gone through something like that!"

Mikasa patted Sasha's back, "It's okay Sasha, I have moved on."

Sasha pulled back and smiled even though tears were still in her eyes, "You really are amazing."

Mikasa smiled although it didn't reach her eyes. A knock was heard from the door as Levi's voice called out, "You two better not be fucking in the bed and getting everything dirty!"

Mikasa growled and got up. She walked to the door and opened it. She was met with the ever looking-bored Corporal Levi with Hanji standing behind him. She shook her head, "What me and Sasha do is none of your fucking business."

Levi scoffed, "If it isn't my business how come I could hear you moaning her name down the hall?"

Mikasa blushed and Hanji was the one who said, "Calm down Mikasa, Levi is just jealous that you got to have some fun before the expedition."

This didn't help Mikasa's blush go away but she still said, "Well it still isn't any of his business!"

Sasha walked behind Mikasa and looked at Levi, "Mornin' sir, what's for breakfast?"

Levi sighed, "We were having delicious food but since you already ate" Mikasa glared at Levi and Sasha blushed, "then you don't need breakfast."

Sasha gave a whine, "B-but Mikasa wasn't all that filling!"

Immediately Hanji burst out laughing as Mikasa whacked Sasha's head, "Sasha!"

Levi scoffed and walked away, "Anyway you two better get your asses in front of the castle in ten minutes! We're leaving with or without you."

The three women watch the corporal leave and Hanji sighed. She looked at the couple and smiled, "Don't mind him. You get used to him after awhile." She looked between the two, "Although he may not act like it, he really is happy for you two. He just cant show it because his ego was crushed last night." When she saw the women's confusion she explained, "Well Levi went to see Ere- uh I mean somebody special last night he was turned down."

Mikasa's anger spiked but Sasha asked, "Who was it?" She gasped, "Was it Petra?"

Hanji shook her head, "No but nice try." She turned to walk away, "Congratulations you two, see you in a few minutes!"

Mikasa growled under her breath, "If that bastard thinks he can sleep with him after beating the shit out of him I swear I will-"

Sasha interrupted her, "You know who it is? Tell me! Actually let me guess, is it Hanji? No, it has to be Jean, or perhaps Reiner?"

Mikasa sighed, she loved Sasha, but she could be a real idiot sometimes, "It's not any of them. Also don't expect me to tell you if you get it right."

The two walked out of the castle as Erwin was giving orders, "In your positions!"

The two glanced at one another, they had forgotten that they were in different positions. Sasha grabbed Mikasa's hand and gave it a tight squeeze before letting go, "Don't get hurt okay?"

Mikasa nodded, "You too. I'll see you in a bit." The two split apart and went to their horses. They followed Erwin as he led them to the gate. As he gave the signal for it to open the two stole a glance at one another and looked forward, if they were going to die today then at least they spent last night together.

Erwin gave the order that scared as much as excited the two, "ONWARD!"

Author's notes

WHY CANT I END THESE THINGS WELL!? Ugh. Well I guess I should explain my madness (I even have a certificate and everything) I wanted Sasha to know about Mikasa's past and for the two to explain their reasons for joining the Survey Corps. Also, knowing about Sasha's first real encounter with the titans just screamed nightmares! Sorry if I made Mikasa a little too out of character, I thought that with her spending so much time with Sasha would bring out some of her emotions. Oh and just a little heads up, this story originally intended to be a one-shot so now I am not sure if I should make this into a story or not.