Description: New Dawson's Creek story that I have been working on. Its based before the shows high school graduation but post Joey and Pacey's break up at prom.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the original story.
Authors Note: if this story receives reviews I will update it regularly.
Consequences and Actions:
Chapter #2
(Pacey's pov)
" I'm not asking you, I'm going to that doctors appointment Jo.", I state in a calm voice that lets Joey know I mean business. I know that it isn't going to be that simple. It never is with Joey. But dammit I deserve to be at that doctor's appointment with her tomorrow! If Potter actually is pregnant, that is my child that she is carrying. I have as much a right to be at that doctor office as she does. Joey can argue with me until her face turns blue, I'm going with her whether she wants me to or not.
" Not if I don't want you to, you're not! Pacey, you lost that privilege when you broke up with me at prom.", barks Joey before raising a defiant eyebrow in my direction. ….Ouch, she really knows how to wound a guy. Guess I kind of saw that one coming. Our parting ways was my decision; Joey never had much of a choice. I regret every single word that I said to her that night. It wasn't my intention to shatter her heart at all let alone in front of the entire senior class. When I saw Joey smiling and dancing with Dawson though, that was the last straw. Something inside me snapped and I unleashed all my bottled emotions and insecurities on her.
" That might be true, but I have a right to know if you're carrying my child!", I shout back in return. My gaze never leaves Joey's. We stand in silence for a few minutes waiting for the other to give in, neither of us does though. Picking a fight with Joey is the last thing that I want to do, but she isn't giving me much of a choice in the matter. If she is pregnant, I deserve to know. It really hurts that Joey attempted to keep this fact from me. I understand why she did though, I don't want to but I do. We're not together anymore; Joey probably didn't want to say anything because she was afraid of how I would react. I'm not a complete jackass though; she should know whatever
happens I'm going to be right here beside her. …..Whether…whether Potter wants me there or not.
" It doesn't make a difference if I am or not Pace! It isn't like I would actually….", starts Joey heatedly before cutting her words short. It isn't like she would actually…what? Keep it? Is that what Joey was going to say? I cannot believe her right now! How could she even say a thing like that! Is she being serious right now? Would Joey really go through with that if she were pregnant? What about what I want! It is my child too if she is pregnant! Don't I get a say in the decision making process?!
Knowing what Joey was going to say next, I look at her in disbelief," Are you telling me that you would actually….do that?"
Biting down on her bottom lip, Joey brushes a strand of hair behind her ear," I don't know….maybe."
" No! I won't let you Potter.", I yell out in frustration before pacing back and forth. That may be an option for Joey but it isn't for me. If she is carrying my child, I'm going to do everything in my power to take care of Joey and the little guy…or girl. Do I see myself as a father at seventeen? Honestly, no I don't. These things happen though and if Joey is pregnant, this isn't something I'm going to run away from. Not now and not ever. The thought of Potter terminating a being that we made together…it is unbearable. I can only pray that she is only panicking and not thinking rationally right now.
" It isn't your decision, Pacey! We graduate in less than a month and I start Worthington in the fall. I am seventeen! I can't afford to have a baby, Bessie and I can barely manage to feed Alexander and ourselves. Besides, I worked way too hard for my scholarship to Worthington.", points out Joey in an freaked out manner. The look in her eyes is one of anxiety and exhaustion. Does she honestly think that she will be going through this alone? How can Joey not see by now that I want to be here and do anything that I can for her? I would never bail on her and our potential child. Whatever I have to do to make sure both the baby and her are taken care of and have food in their mouths, I'm going to do if necessary.
" That is what you are worried about, school? What about the fact that you could be pregnant Joey! You…you would really have that done Potter?", I question in a dejected tone. It is all that I can do not to let the tears fall that I'm holding back currently. Worthington and starting a new life beyond Capeside is more important than the potential life of our child? I'm sorry I just don't believe that Joey is that heartless. It is no secret that she's stubborn, but I know for a fact she wouldn't do anything so cold. She has to just be frightened and talking crazy nonsense right now…right?
Not wanting to have this conversation anymore, Joey zips up her coat and stands up," Do you really think it is something I want to do Witter? I have to think about my future which I can barely afford, let alone a baby."
At a loss for words, I breathe a heavy sigh," Well…where are you going Jo?"
" Obviously I can't go home without Bessie yelling at me. I'm going to stay at Dawson's, he invited Jen, Jack and I for a movie night.", responds Joey with a tired expression on her face. My entire body tenses up at mention of Dawson's name. He is still a sore spot for me even though Joey and I are no longer an item. I'm not a moron, I know Dawson has every intention of getting Joey back now that the two of us are no longer together. If he hasn't made his move yet, I know that it is only a matter of time before he does. The question that is killing me currently would be will Joey take him back?
" Should have seen that one coming.", I mutter mostly to myself as I'm slowly consumed with jealousy. The mere thought of Potter with another guy, let alone Dawson, is enough to drive me mad. Far as Joey is concerned, I have no right to give a damn. After all I am the one who ended things with her, it wasn't the other way around. Joey was happy with me and I tore her world apart and stomped on her heart. What I think now probably means nothing to her these days. Still this doesn't stop Joey from glaring up at me. crap, guess maybe I thought that a bit too loudly if she heard me. Knew that I should have kept my mouth shut, here comes round two.
" Is that supposed to mean something Pacey?", challenges Joey, the tone of her voice daring me to answer. Crap, there is no way out of this. If I didn't want to pick another argument with Joey, it is too late to shut up now. May as well get out everything now while I still have the chance, it was never a secret that I envied Dawson. I'm not even all that sure why. Sure they have a history together, but it isn't much of one. Ten years climbing in and out of Dawson's window and watching movies together followed by another year and half of trying to figured out whether they belonged together or not. ….Doesn't sound like much of history to me. Still, it was enough for me to feel threatened by and get in the way of my happiness and love for Joey. ….
