Both Rachel and Sebastian stood outside of the Lima Bean, holding his cup of coffee in his hand he kept his gaze away from her because he didn't want to talk to her, he didn't want to be here, he wanted to go home and act like nothing had happened.
"Are you gonna talk to me?" Rachel asked him.
"About what?" He shrugged, "You're the one who brought me out here telling me that we need to talk."
"You know," she said to her, "I hate people who won't admit to the truth."
"What are you talking about?" He asked her with a hint of frustration in his voice.
"You know exactly what I'm talking about," she told him.
"Uh, no I don't," he responded childishly.
"You know what," she said harshly, "I don't know what she ever saw in you. Yeah, you two were just sex but I had no idea that she'd want to have sex with such a childish idiot." She shook her head with disapproval, turning on her heels as she headed towards the main entrance of the Lima Bean, he placed his hand on her arm stopping her from going inside.
"W-w-w-wait a minute," he stuttered, "Where the hell did you hear that from?"
"I actually guessed if you must know," she informed him, "But that doesn't mean that she didn't deny it."
"I don't know how the hell you guessed that," he told her, "But you couldn't be more further from the truth."
"Oh cut the crap, Sebastian," she sneered, "I know that you two have been having sex. I guessed and then she told me about it. I'm not stupid."
"I can't believe she told you," he sighed shaking his head as he released her arm taking a step away from her, "A part of the rules were not to tell anybody about it."
"Well you weren't exactly still doing it when she told me," she told him, "She told me after you had the fight and after you humiliated her in Breadstix."
"She told you that?" He asked her embarrassedly.
"She did," she nodded, "And Sam also told me that there was a huge argument between the two of you, that's how I clicked on that you two were more than just friends."
"I didn't mean to hurt her," he told her, "It just came out that way."
"Because you were jealous," she nodded.
"No," he frowned, "It's not because I'm jealous of her and Trouty mouth, he can have her."
"Oh cut the crap, Sebastian," she snarled at him, "I know when somebody is jealous of another person, because believe me, I've actually been there before. You're jealous because you want to be with her, because you like her."
"No, I don't," he responded angrily, "I don't like her."
"You need to tell the truth," she raised her voice, "You need to admit the truth, not only to her but to yourself too."
Sebastian looked around and noticed people inside of the Lima Bean staring at them, he grabbed onto her arm softly and pulled her around the side of the building.
"Will you keep your voice down," he whispered angrily, "If you hadn't noticed, we kinder had an audience in there."
"Just why can't you admit that you like her?" She asked him, "I know that you like her and I don't even know you."
"Exactly," he snapped, "You don't know me so you don't know how I'm feeling."
"But I do know when somebody likes another person," she informed him, "I've liked somebody who I can't be with and I've tried my hardest to make them jealous. And when I saw you in there, you couldn't keep your eyes off her, you wanted to get her attention and your eyes were sad when she ignored you."
"Because I miss her," he admitted, "I miss her so much because we spent so much time together and I miss that."
"But she's with Sam now," she told him.
"Don't you think I know that?" He exclaimed, "I can see that she's with him, he has his arms all over her and he's showing the world that he's dating her." He shook his head and looked to the side, "Okay," he said jealously, "We get it."
"You're so into her," she smiled, "And you just won't admit it. Admit it to yourself that you like her before things get out of hand."
"I don't like her," he yelled, "I don't like her!" He sighed and glanced to the side, he ran his fingers through his hair, "I'm in love with her," he sighed softly.
"Whoa, wait what?" She asked in shock, "You're what?"
"I'm in love with her," he admitted, "I'm in love with her and I didn't realise that I was in love with her until I lost her."
"Oh my god," she responded with shock, "I thought that you liked her but I had no idea that you were in love with her. Sebastian, I'm so sorry."
"It doesn't matter," he shrugged, "Because I've lost her for good now to him and I don't blame her because he's so much better than me."
"Yeah," she agreed, "I'm not gonna lie, Sam is better than you because he would never treat her badly like you did."
"You think I don't know that," he claimed, "I know that I hurt her. I promised her that I would never hurt her, I promised her that I would never do what Puck did to her but that's exactly what I did. I did exactly what he did. I humiliated her in front of an audience, I made her look small and I got what I deserved. I lost her because of my stupid jealousy."
"So," she asked her, "You admit that you were jealous of them two?"
"I was, yeah," he nodded, "But I didn't know it at the time, I thought it was because I was afraid of losing the amazing sex that we had, because believe me, it was amazing."
"Yeah," she told him with disgust as she held her hand in front of her chest, "I didn't have to know that."
"Sorry," he apologised, "I tend to have this problem where I say what's on my mind and I can't stop myself, that's why people think that I'm heartless and cruel, but I'm not, I just can't stop myself, I just don't have a filter until I've said it."
"You need to tell her how you feel, Sebastian," she said to him softly, "She has the right to know."
"No," he responded quickly shaking his head, "Not gonna happen."
"Why not?" She questioned him.
"Because she's better off without me," he told her, "She's better with him because he wouldn't hurt her. He would treat her right and that's what she deserves because she's had so much hurt when it comes to relationships, and I'm not gonna stand in their way of being together."
"You really do love her," she said softly, "Don't you?"
"I do," he nodded, "But I'm not gonna let her know it, I want her to be happy so I'm gonna leave her alone. I'm gonna stay out of her life, the only time that we'll ever see each other is in the Lima Bean because I'm not gonna stop coming here because it makes the best damn coffee."
"But, Sebastian," she sighed, "Santana has the right to know about you."
"No," he replied quickly shaking his head, "Not gonna happen because that'll ruin everything that she has with Sam and I'm not gonna be the one who ruins it because I've already hurt her once before, I'm not gonna be the one who does it again."
"So," she queried, "Are you just gonna leave without saying anything to her?"
"Yeah," he nodded, "It's not like she'd want to speak to me anyways. So, I'm just gonna go without saying anything."
He stepped to the side and started to walk towards his car, his head slumped downwards, his eyes softening and he kept his gaze away from the window of the Lima Bean.
"Sebastian, wait," Rachel called. He stopped walking but kept his back to her. Rachel walked up to him quickly, she stared at his back, "Do you want me to tell her anything?"
"Just tell her that I'm out of her life for good," he told her, "Tell her that she won't have to worry about me coming into her life anymore, tell her that I want her to be happy with Sam because I know that he'll make her happy. Tell her that I won't be hurting her anymore. Tell her, I'm sorry and if I could turn back time then I would, I'd stop it all from happening so I would've never hurt her."
"Anything else?" She asked with a lump building up in her throat.
"No," he replied shaking his head, "That's it."
"Okay," she nodded, "I'll tell her that."
"It's logical isn't it?" He smiled sadly, "You don't realise that you've got a good thing until you've lost it."
Rachel smiled sadly at him sadly, her eyes started to fill up with emotion. He took a deep breath and with that, he started walking again towards his car, he grabbed his car keys out of his satchel, he clicked the open button on the electronic keys, with his lights flashing, he pulled open the door of his car and climbed into the driver's side of the car. Closing the door behind him, he placed his coffee cup into the drinks holder to the side of him. He inserted his keys into the ignition and started to the car, he glanced at Rachel and flashed her a small sad smile, she returned the small smile to him. He pulled out of the parking space and drove out of the parking lot. With a sad sigh she turned on her heels about to head back into the Lima Bean when she's stopped by Santana walking out of the main entrance causing her to stop in her tracks. Santana frowned at her as she walked towards her.
"What the hell was that all about?" Santana asked her, "Why were you speaking to him?"
"He just wanted to tell me to tell you something," Rachel replied.
"Well," she shrugged, "What is it?"
"He asked me to tell you that he's out of your life," Rachel told her, "He said that the only time that he'll see you will be in there because he's not gonna stop going there because he likes the coffee."
"And what else did he say?" She asked her curiously, "Because obviously there's something else otherwise you wouldn't look so upset."
"He said to me that," Rachel sighed, "He said that you don't realise you have something good until you lose it."
"And what's that supposed to mean?" She asked her harshly.
"It means that he didn't realise that he had feelings for you," Rachel told her softly, "Until he lost you."
"You're a liar," she snarled, "He doesn't like me, he doesn't have feelings for me."
"You're right," Rachel admitted, "He doesn't like you." She took a step towards her, "He's in love with you." She took a step to the side and started to walked towards the main entrance of the door before she stopped and placed her hand on her shoulder softly. With a twitch of her shoulder, Santana looked down at her hand placed on her shoulder. "He asked me not to tell you," Rachel continued, "But I had to tell you, you had the right to know." With that she released her hand from her shoulder and headed back into the Lima Bean. Santana looked straight ahead of her and looked out into the distance, she was trying to take everything in that she'd just told her, but would she be able to or would it just be too much for her?