Sticking Up For Myself - Chapter 4 - Jess' POV

That note I got sent yesterday really had me freaked out because whoever sent it knew where I lived and if they wanted to hurt me then they could as I live alone no one would be able to help me. Part of me thought that maybe Lucas followed me home and seen me come into the apartment with Becker but I realised how crazy that sounded, either way Becker promised me that he would speak to Lucas today at work to see if it was him and Becker said he would know if Lucas is lying. I don't know if it was Lucas and I feel bad about blaming him without proof but there's no one else that it could be that I can think of.

When I got to the ADD at work it was only a few moments later when Becker came to my desk and told me that he spoke to Lucas and he had looked Lucas in the eyes, it wasn't Lucas who did the note and I felt bad for making him prime suspect number 1! Me and Becker were back to square one on who could be the person behind the note, Becker knew that I didn't feel safe and promised that he would put everything he had into finding out who wrote the note and I knew that he would. That's Becker all over really, doing everything he can to help someone in need.

At lunch I decided to go find Lucas and tell him that I wouldn't be going on another date with him and I was sorry for not only getting him accused but for sleeping with Becker even though we were supposed to be going out. I know we wasn't boyfriend/girlfriend but I still felt bad because I knew how much he liked me and I still went and did it anyway, I guess the note was right and I was a slut.

I seen Lucas about to go into the locker room so I called him and he came over to me "Hi, can we go somewhere private to talk?" I asked him and he nodded, I knew Abby wouldn't be in her lab because she'll be at lunch with Connor so I walked us there "I just wanted to apologise for Becker's questions this morning but I'm a little scared and we had to look into each possibility" I told him and I leaned against one of the tables as he stayed stood at the door with his arms crossed over his chest.

"Yeah Becker told me you were shaken up after the note… what he didn't tell me though was why he was there… in my girlfriends apartment" Lucas replied and he looked annoyed.

Why would he be calling me his girlfriend? We had only been on two dates so I wasn't exactly in a relationship with him "I'm not your girlfriend, we went out twice. Becker was at my place because he took me home after the club because he didn't want me going on my own" I explained to him.

"Did you the two of you have sex?" He asked.

"That's none of your business" I exclaimed.

Who the hell does he think he is speaking to me like that "You know what? That note's right you are a little slut and believe me when I tell you that you deserve everything that's coming your way" He told me. The tone he used was like a warning tone, he was going to do something to me I could just tell "Little sluts deserve to be treated like they are, you're no more a fairy princess then I am and it's about time you just admitted it" He told me, he uncrossed his arms and took a couple steps towards me.

When he was within arms reach I slapped Lucas around the face so hard that my hand stung a little "How dare you speak to me like that!" I shouted "Get the hell out of here and don't ever speak to me again you little creep!" I shouted again and pushed him backwards but he was so much bigger then me my push really had no effect on him what so ever "Leave" I repeated but this time I used my best threatening tone but he just laughed at me.

I went to walk past him but he grabbed my arm and dragged me back towards him "Let's keep this between us instead of running back to Becker every time you have a problem, stand up for yourself for a change" He stated and left the lab.

Stick up for myself? I haven't got where I am today by not sticking up for myself. People wouldn't give me jobs because I was too young or they thought I didn't have the right experience and every time I was knocked back I went and applied for more jobs and I did what I had to do. Same as at school, I was bullied, eventually I did stick up for myself and when the bully came after me one day I slapped her across her face and she never came near me again. I am more then capable of sticking up for myself I don't need to run to Becker every time, I can handle this on my own.

I left the lab and went to the ADD and started working again even though my break wasn't finished but I was in such a bad mood I didn't want to do anything but work. I can't believe how Lucas spoke to me, he had treated me so well like a complete gentleman by opening doors for me, telling me I look beautiful, paying for the dates and walking me to my door without trying to come in… now he calls me a slut and tells me I deserve everything that's coming my way. I know by the way he said it that it was him who was planning to do something to me and I know the right thing to do would be to tell Becker so he can keep an eye on Lucas or something but I want to prove to Lucas that I can do this on my own and I don't need help.

A hand landed on my shoulder making me jump "Sorry" Becker's voice said and he came and stood next to me "You OK?" He asked me.

"Yeah I'm fine… I was in another world" I told him and laughed a little.

"See I know you better then that and I know that there's something wrong… is it Lucas? Did he do something?" He questioned.

"We're not seeing each other any more. Turns out that you were right and he's not what he appears to be but don't worry I can look after myself and I promise that I'll tell you if I need your help" I explained to him and he smirked and nodded "Anyway… what was it you wanted? You obviously had a reason to come and see me" I said.

"Yes actually. I've got to go to a meeting with Lester and Matt to see the minister tomorrow afternoon and I am supposed to be showing some new recruits around the ARC and I was wondering if maybe you could do it? I know you've got tomorrow off but I promise that it will only be a two and a half hours from 3pm till 4:30pm" He explained to me.

"I guess so but you owe me big time" I told him.

"You're the best" He said and placed a kiss on my cheek.

When I got home I put my bag down on the floor and went into the kitchen and started looking through my cupboards, I was so hungry! I poured myself a glass of wine and my buzzer went making me groan in frustration "Hello?" I said when I pressed the button.

"It's Lucas, can I come up I want to talk to you and apologise" He said. I buzzed him up and opened the front door for him to come in when he came up. Minutes later the front door closed and Lucas came into the kitchen, I leaned against the counter and stared at him in anger waiting for him to speak… that's what he was here for "I want to say I'm sorry for what I said earlier, I was just angry. I thought me and you were together or were going to be together and I was angry that you slept with him… I have no right and I apologise it's just because I liked you" He explained to me.

What did he want me to say? I accept his apology and everything can be fine again? He had no right speaking to me the way he did "Lucas you can apologise all you want but the way you spoke to me was disgusting! How dare you speak to me like that, it's nothing to do with you who I do and do not sleep with. You're not my boyfriend and you never were, we went on a couple of days and I had a great time and I was hoping that we could have became a couple or something but after the way you treated me… no I don't think we could ever become more after that" I told him.

He came towards me and put his hands either side of me blocking me in "Jessica I like you very much and I know that you like me too, go on Jessica tell me that you don't like me. You went on a couple of dates with me and you wanted to be my girlfriend" He said.

"I did want to be with you but not anymore… you seem… unbalanced" I told him. I didn't want to upset him he seemed a little unpredictable.

"Please don't say that" He said.

"Move back Lucas please, you're scaring me a little. Why don't I get you a drink of water and we can go into the living room and we can talk" I told him carefully, I didn't want to scare him or make him nervous because I didn't want him to do anything. I wanted to get him into the living room and then I could call Becker and he can come and remove him from my apartment because I was honestly quite scared right now.

He moved one of his hands and stroked my cheek "You are so beautiful" He told me and removed his hand but then his hand came and slapped my cheek hard "Why are you lying to me? I know you want to be with me so just admit it!" He shouted at me.

Lucas grabbed my arm and dragged me into the living room and threw down on the sofa and he leaned down to my level with his hands on my arms squeezing hard, I know his fingers were going to leave marks on my arms. How was I going to explain the fingerprint bruises? "Please Lucas… don't do this. If you like me as much as you say you do you don't want to hurt me" I said trying to reason with him.

"Don't do that! Don't use my emotions with me!" He shouted and slapped me again.

Will Jess be able to cover the bruises? Will anyone see the bruises? How is she going to get away? Will she eventually tell Becker? Please review, it means so much to me! thank you amazing people!