Broken Hearts
Chapter 2
A/N:
I struggled a bit with this chapter but I hope you enjoy it :)
Have fun!
It was a very cheery evening. Tom enjoyed it very much so far.
It was the premiere of "Avengers" and he was having fun, as he chatted with colleagues and fans about his favorite role of the film: Loki.
After having this dream, nothing very special happened to him since then.
No voices in his head, no more illusions. Just quiet and peaceful evenings.
And now he finally got to finish the movie and to be here.
"Hey there!" Tom greeted the fans he saw as he walked by on the red carpet.
He suddenly felt someone's touch on his arm and turned around.
The actor noticed a pair of green eyes staring at him, demanding to follow. Like hypnotized he followed the person that pulled him towards a lonely, dark corner away from the cheering and shouting crowd.
There he was pressed against the wall, as he got back to his senses and realized what he just did.
Finally he could make out the person that led him here.
Tom remembered that dream again…With his reflection…Green eyes, pale skin, black hair and low voice.
"H-Hi there…n-nice costume you got there…" he said nervously, hoping the 'fan' would let him go.
"Costume?" The other man chuckled dangerously. "You still don't get it do you, Mortal?" he growled.
"G-Get what? I don't understand." Tom asked a bit frightened.
"You still think I'm nothing more than an illusion, don't you?" the person growled.
"Look, I really respect how you can stay in 'character', but it's enough now." Tom warned.
"Tom, Tom, Tom." The stranger laughed and let go of the actor.
Tom managed to catch his breath, avoiding the strangers gaze. "What do you want? An autograph? A photo?" Tom asked nervously.
Loki chuckled. "You're cute, still thinking I'm some kind of fan."
"O-of course." Tom stumbled.
"Never had I thought you'd be so naïve." Loki mumbled, grinning.
"I-I'm gonna go now…" Tom mumbled nervous and was about to leave.
Tom only took one step forward as Loki's hand grabbed the actors arm and pulled him close.
"Enough with the jokes…" Loki whispered in a serious tone, his expression dangerous, and his face close to the actors face.
And suddenly the actor felt enormous pressure around him and light spread through the atmosphere.
As the actor dared to open his eyes, which he had squeezed shut because of the bright light, he found himself in his own hotel room.
"H-How-" Tom stuttered and trembled, backing away from the god.
"How do you think, Thomas?" Loki smirked and came closer.
Tom felt the wall behind him, he was trapped…
"W-What do you want from me?" Tom pressed himself against the wall more, as he felt the god shift close.
"What I want?" Loki whispered and seemed to think for a moment.
"I want what I can never have…" He mumbled then and Tom swallowed, the answer not really helping.
"W-Why me?" Tom breathed.
"You still don't understand…" Loki sighed.
Then everything went white around Tom, a feeling that seemed far too familiar…
As Tom finally woke up, he found himself bound to his own bed.
He swallowed hard as he remembered…
He looked up as he heard footsteps coming closer, already knowing who it was. He slowly raised his head and looked at the raven's eyes. These emerald green eyes…
"What do you want from me?" Tom asked weakly, almost desperate.
Loki came closer, kneeling down before him and making Tom look up at him by cupping his cheeks.
"Answers…" Loki hissed.
"W-What answers?" Tom whimpered at the tight grip Loki had on him.
"Just everything…" Loki answered, though it didn't really help Tom understand anything.
Loki finally let go and Tom let his head fall.
He watched the god stand up then, walking through the room as if he was deep in thought.
"How come?" Loki finally mumbled after a long time of silence.
"W-What?" Tom asked confused and swallowed hard at the glance he earned for his question. He had absolutely no idea of how he should handle this situation, he didn't know what Loki wanted from him and he couldn't read the atmosphere, not sure of what the god would do next and what he was capable of.
"How come you've got everything I ever wanted?!" Loki snapped at him, coming close again to look the mortal in the eyes.
Tom expected anything, but certainly not this.
"W-What are you talking about?" and as soon as Tom asked the question, he already regretted asking.
"You know damn well what I am talking about, mortal! Don't play dumb with me!" Loki spat.
Tom shuddered, afraid of the god might do to him.
As Loki saw Tom's look, he took a deep breath to calm himself and then sighed.
"People love you, you have a happy life, a family and friends…What gives you the right to be happy?! What did you do to deserve that?! How come you have everything and I don't?!" Loki first talked calm, but jealousy and anger came over him again.
Tom blinked surprised. "W-Well I'm sorry for that…" he mumbled confused.
"No you're not, you will live your life after I'm gone, happy and carefree, while I wander through the 9 realms, searching for peace…But I won't let that happen!" Loki snapped.
"L-Listen, I know you had a hard life, I probably am the only one in the world who knows that best, but-" he was cut off by Loki's deep growl.
"You know nothing! How dare you tell me that you know better than anyone! You took the right to act me and what happened?! You have thousands of people who love, admire, even worship you for that…Those things that you played actually happened to me and what did I get?! Nothing but pain, depression and hatred! I should be the one to be loved! So don't tell me, that you understand!" Loki shouted.
Tom tilted his head to side, trying to avoid most of the screaming, which hurt in his ears.
Loki stared at the mortal, his look could probably kill people and Tom was glad he wasn't looking at Loki.
"I-I…" Tom stuttered, trying to say something to calm the god. „I'm very sorry…you're right, I have no idea what you have gone through and what pain you suffered…" Tom whispered and finally made eye contact with the raven haired man.
The god really seemed to calm down a bit. He took a deep breath, seeming to think about something.
"Tell me, mortal…" Loki finally said. "How did you do that? How did you win all those humans for yourself?" he asked.
"W-What?" Tom asked confused, but at least thought about what could be the reason. "I-I don't know…" as he looked the god in the eyes again, he swallowed hard and thought harder.
"I think they tried to understand you. In the movie they must have seen the pain of your figure, your role as shadow of your brother…I tried to show them the pain you have been through as best as I could and they really seem to understand." Tom tried to explain.
Loki stared at him for a while.
"Do you really think you understand my pain? The pain of my life as the dark sheep in my so called family?" Loki asked, but it wasn't an angry tone this time. It was broken and full of sadness and with a glint of hope in it.
Tom looked at him, before he carefully nodded.
"Yes…"