I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing. - Neil Gaiman

Taking a deep breath Serena stepped out of the elevator and made her way towards the main entrance of the hospital where the family of one of her patients was waiting for news about their loved one. Last night the patient was brought in serious condition and needed to go to the OR, the surgery had taken hours and Serena was exhausted. She needed a coffee, food and most importantly sleep after being on her feet for so long but first she needed to talk to the family. It was easy for Serena to spot the wife of her patient because she was surrounded by several people who Serena recognized and knew such as Leslie Shay, Matthew Casey and Kelly Severide. They were here because Serena's patient was Christopher Hermann; a firefighter from their house. As Serena made her way over to the group she took in all the worried faces, one of the things that Serena found to be one of the hardest parts of her jobs were talking to loved ones. Given that what she could tell them news that would make cry with joy or cry with despair. When Serena reached the group she avoided direct eye contact with everyone else except her patients wife as right now she wasn't Serena or Rocket, in this moment she was Dr. McArthur.

"Mrs. Hermann?" Serena began addressing the blonde hair woman who she believed to her patients spouse.

"Yes."

"My name is Dr. McArthur and I'm the surgeon that worked on your husband Christopher." Serena began not a hundred percent sure with what she should say first; these things weren't easy especially when there were several firefighters looking at you trying to read your body language and facial expressions in an attempt to figure out whether the news was good or bad. Which made Serena even more determined to avoid looking at them as she couldn't deal with looking at them especially Kelly right now. She knew they were worried about their friend and colleague but her job right now was to inform Mrs. Hermann about her husband and personal feelings couldn't interfere with hat. "As you know your husband was injured in the line of duty and when Christopher arrived here he was in a very serious condition as he had sustained some internal bleeding from falling through a floor of the building he was in. Because of the extent of his injuries he required surgery and during the course of the surgery there were some complications because of the extensive internal bleeding, which made it very difficult to locate the source of the bleed."

"Oh my god… Is Chris… Is h-he?" Mrs. Herman stammered struggling to ask whether her husband was still alive or not and Serena watched as Chief Boden placed a hand on her shoulder.

"He's alive, it took a fair while but we eventually found the source of the bleed, stopped it and then repaired the damage that was done. Christopher should make a full recovery." Serena announced and Mrs. Hermann burst into tears whilst everyone seemed to let out the collective breath that they had been holding. This moment was what made Serena's job worthwhile, it made the endless hours and countless shifts worthwhile when she told a family that their loved one was okay.

"T-Thank you." Mrs. Hermann said making her way over to hug Serena, who just took it in her stride, emotional relatives hugging her was a part of the job. Following the hug from Mrs. Hermann Serena received several more from everyone else much to her amusement except for Kelly who was just looking at her. "Can we see him?

"Not right now I'm afraid but I will send one of my interns to come get you and take you to your husband when you can see him, I promise." Serena stated and she was about to take her leave and go about grabbing some coffee and much needed food when Kelly walked up to her and she just couldn't leave once she looked at those blue eyes of his.

"You don't know how much this all means to us, thanks Serena." Kelly said before pulling Serena into a hug, she knew that this was probably reminding him of Andy. It had only been a month since Andy had died and so having another colleague being injured in the line of duty was bound to bring up a lot of memories for Kelly and everyone else. It was only natural, being a firefighter was dangerous job and they were all aware that they may not come home.

"There's no need to thank me, I was just doing my job." Serena replied, as a surgeon she was cocky but today wasn't one of those times. Things had been a bit hair for a while and Serena wasn't going to tell them that at point she thought that Hermann wouldn't make it off the table. It was better she played everything off and made less of a deal off it.

"No you weren't, it was more than that." Kelly pressed and Serena just shook her head.

"Firehouse 51 will forever be in your gratitude Serena." Casey said and Serena could feel a hint of a blush appear on her face.

"Your father would be very proud." Chief Boden added.

"Um… So I've got head off and check in on other patients and Christopher but I'll keep you all updated and let you know if any changes although I don't suspect it will. If you need anything Kelly has both my cell and pager number so he can get in contact with me other than that I will see you when I turn a blind eye to all of you being in Christopher's hospital disregarding the visitors policy…"

"Speaking of me, can I buy you a cup of coffee and perhaps have a quick chat?" Kelly asked.

"You had me at coffee Kelly but sure we can do both." Serena replied with a small smile as she kind of needed to talk to Kelly about something and him being here at the hospital was kind of perfect. So the two of them left the others and headed towards the hospital cafeteria for a crappy cup of coffee. "So what did you want to talk about?"

"Nothing in particular I just wanted to catch up and tell you that I really like your scrub cap." Kelly said glancing over to Serena's scrub cap which she hadn't taken off since she had come out of the OR which had rockets on it. The scrub cap had been a gift from the Chief of trauma surgery when she had arrived at lakeshore because of her reputation and nickname. If anyone was going to find the entire thing hilarious then it would be Kelly.

"Thanks."

"Hey Rocket… I just wanted to say that you saving Hermann really means a lot, not to his family but the rest of us. Losing Andy was hard enough on the house but if we had lost Herman then… I don't really know, except that we couldn't lose another man especially not this soon. But what I'm really trying to say other than thank you is that there is nobody I'd rather have taking care of any of us from 51 than you. I know you play it down to me but you are an amazing doctor and I trust you with my life Serena. If I ever needed surgery I'd want you to do it." Kelly said and Serena was stunned by this, by how much faith Kelly had in her abilities as a surgeon.

"You don't know how much that means to me and just so you know I'd trust you to rescue me from a fire and everything else that you do on squad." Serena replied as the two of them continued walking and a few minutes later they had grabbed their coffees and Serena had strategically led them to the ER. "Hey will you follow me quickly? I want to show you something…"

"Sure." Kelly stated not noticing that Serena had picked up an empty chart as she led them into an empty exam room. Once they were in and the door was shut Serena put down her coffee and turned to Kelly.

"Take off your clothes."