The ambulance rushed to hospital and Gabriela looked afraid at Matt. He was being monitored and his vitals were stable, but still unresponsive. At the hospital the gurney was immediately taken away and she sat down int he waiting room, shaking. She knew couldn't stay with him and there was nothing but waiting now.

For hours, she was just waiting. Waiting for news while she saw the families passing her by. They came in, were helped and they went home again.

''Is there any update on Matthew Casey?'' She grabbed the coat from one of the nurses that passed by.

''Dawson, right? From ambulance 61? I will check and ask.''

The nurse walked away again and returned after what seemed to be another eternity.

''He is in surgery. He had a second stroke. Dr. Mason is with him. There is nothing I can tell you about the damage this stroke has done, sorry.''

Gabby thanked the nurse and she looked around as the ER was getting emptier and emptier as it was alter at night. Well, for now. As it was a saturday night the place would be crowded within a few hours with drunk people who feel or people whom just plainly drank too much. The people they brought in a lot at night when they were on shift. Tired she looked around and looked at the small bench in the corner, laying down on it and closed her eyes.

''Gabriela?'' Dr. Mason, the doctor who had been treating Matt after the first accident woke her up and sleepy Gabby looked at her.

''Can I talk to you for a second?'' Gabby nodded and walked after Mason to the hallway.

''Is he going to be okay?''

''I hope so, but I have good hope he will. He just came out of surgery and we managed to stop the bleeding. He is in the PACU now. We are not sure if the stroke did any damage yet.''

''Can I see him?''

''It is the middle of the night, most patients are asleep there and he is still under anesthesia. He will probably be in his own room by tomorrow.'' Mason said and Gabby knew she wouldn't deny her access, but as she couldn't support Matt, she knew it was better to not wake up the other patients.

''Guess I am coming tomorrow then.'' Gabby bow her head.

''Keep yourself strong, he is strong. Don't worry, he will get through this.'' Mason laid her hand on Gabby's shoulder for a second but walked away then.

''Can I ask you something?'' Gabby asked before she could leave the hallway.

''Anything.''

''Was the stroke triggered by something?''

''Well, I can't tell you. We knew one of the arteries could burst another time but we had hoped the medication would prevent that. I am not sure what you mean by triggering.''

Gabby became a little nervous; ''I mean, he bumped his head yesterday, could it have triggered it?''

''How do you mean, did he bump his head at work? I was doubting he should go back to work already.'' Mason shook her head.

''No, no. It didn't happen at work.'' She assured her and Mason shrugged.

''I can't tell you for sure, but the bleeding happened at the same spot it happened before, if he bumped that part of his head, it could be a trigger, as the arteries were weaker.''

''But if he hit his head two days ago, could that still be the cause?'' Gabriela asked, worried.

''It could, pressure could have built up in the artery after the bump. But Gabriela, I can't tell you for sure. Let's just focus on him getting better. I will see you tomorrow, try to catch some sleep.'' Mason said with a friendly smile and Gabriela nodded, leaving the hospital.

At home, she curled up in her bed and started to sob. The other side of the bed was empty and cold and she knew that was her fault. How could she be so stupid, pushing him? He was in the hospital and she knew it was her fault.

They were supposed to be together here now, every night. He promised to stay with her and now he was gone, because of her.

The night was sleepless as she kept blaming herself.

Returning back to the hospital she was guided to his room and she looked frightened at the bandage around his head, just like it had been a few weeks ago. The monitors were beeping and she laid the duffel bag on a chair, walking to his bedside.

''Hey babe.'' She laid her hand on his and rubbed over it. Matt's eyes remained closed and she tried to keep herself from crying. Not just that he was here again, but also that it felt it was her fault because she had pushed him in the shower.

''Gabriela, are you okay?''

Gabriela looked up at dr Mason, who was checking his monitors.

''I am sorry, I didn't hear you walking in.'' Gabby wiped the tears away with her hand.

''Any changes over the night?''

''No changes, but he should be waking up soon.''

Mason left the room again as she was paged and Gabby looked back at Matt.

''I am so sorry babe. I know this is my fault. Please wake up.'' She sobbed again as she grabbed his hand a little tighter. Her phone rang in her purse and cursing she stood up, was she even incapable of putting her phone on silent? She grabbed it out of her purse and wanted to press the call away until she saw it was Boden. Shoot, she had even forgotten to call him.

''I am sorry chief.'' She said while she took off the phone.

''Where are you and Casey?''

''He...we are in the hospital...he had a second stroke yesterday morning.'' She said with a shaking voice. After explaining the situation she sat down at his bedside again, holding his hand.

''Come on, wake up sweetie.'' She whispered as she looked at his face and carefully caressed his face, afraid to hit the NC under his nose and she stood up to get some water for herself. She kept feeling guilty as she walked to the vending machine. Mad she hit her hand against it as the water bottle was stuck and some people in the hallway looked at her and without the bottle she walked back to the room, sitting down next to his bed again and she hide her face in her hands again, sobbing. She felt so useless as she couldn't help him and guilt was eating her.

Suddenly she looked up as she felt a hand touching her arm and looking up she looked up and saw Matt opening his eyes, slowly and they kept opening and closing.

''Don't cry, babe.'' He suddenly whispered, weakly and she started to laugh through her tears.

''It hurts.'' He mumbled then, closing his eyes again and she grabbed his hand as always, rubbing over the back of his hand with her thumbs.

''I know, you are going to be okay.''

''What happened?'' He moaned and the door opened and Mason entered. ''Good morning sunshine. You better not be waking up more often in a hospital bed.''

Matt just gave her a wry smile with his eyes closed and Gabby left the room so she could examine him. Again she walked to the vending machine, to find the bottle had actually had fallen down now and she grabbed it out.

''Gabby.''

Severide came walking down the hallway.

''Hey, no shift?''

''Well, somebody had to bring the flowers. Boden gave me twenty minutes. Can I see him for a second?''

Gabby and Kelly walked back to his room as Mason just walked out and signed Gabby to stay for a second and Kelly walked inside.

''Hey.''

Matt just smiled and Kelly could see in his eyes he was happy to see him. Kelly sat down for just a minute to say hi from everybody int he firehouse as Gabriela looked at the doctor.

''He is doing very well.'' Mason said with a smile. ''I had expected some kind of damage and I only checked only a few things...but untill now everything seems pretty good. I think that is something that is really surprising, especially since the bleeding has been going on for a longer time than the first time. He is going to be fine, I am sure.''

Gabby sighed relieved and entered the room as well. Kelly left again to go back to shift and Gabby sat down again.

''How are you feeling.''

''Not so well.'' He admitted

''Go to sleep then, you should give that head of you some rest.'' She caressed his cheek and he closed his eyes, falling asleep again.

How could she ever tell him this was her fault?

NOTE: So Matt is 'safe' again, but will he recover? Or are they too positive about his state now? Did he really come off this well? Will Gabby ever tell him it might have been her fault? Do you blame her?

I hope you liked this chapter! Not much of a cliffhanger this time but I won't tease you with a cliffhanger after every chapter. Please tell my what you thought about this chapter! Thank you for reading