It was the first week of November and Lily had never felt more confused in her whole life. When she was a little girl, Petunia had always told her that boys had 'germs' and that they played games with girls at schools like 'kiss chase' to pass on these germs. Petunia had always told her that girls couldn't be friends with boys, and Lily being the younger sibling; had believed Petunia.

From a young age, Lily knew that there was something different about her. How she could leap from the swings at the park at the highest point and land on her feet gracefully; with no marks on her to suggest that she could have hurt herself. Picking a daisy from the grass and holding it in her hand and watching as she made the petals open and close repeatedly. Petunia told her to stop because people would find her weird and she'd be taken away to be experimented on.

She met Severus Snape, who told her what she truly was. Severus had shown her that it was okay to be different and that she wasn't alone. He was a wizard and she was a witch. Then she got her letter from Hogwarts and had never felt happier to know what adventures that she'd go on, with Severus at her side. Severus had become her best friend; it was the letter and her friendship with the Snape boy that caused her relationship with her sister to turn sour. Petunia constantly called her a freak from the day she got on the Hogwart's Express.

When she started at Hogwarts, she realised that Petunia had been wrong in saying that you couldn't be friends with boys. Although she had her friendship with Severus, she also made a good friend in Remus Lupin; the only marauder who she liked. But her friendship with Severus was beginning to crack by the end of their fourth year when James Potter saved Severus's life, but the boy was told to not speak of it. By their fifth year, she ended her relationship with Severus due to the fact that his interest in the dark arts only grew and he called her 'mudblood'.

And since the end of sixth year, she had found an unlikely friendship in James Potter. Well, that's what she thought they were. She had been less hostile towards him and she could see he was trying to change; and the two of them had shared two kisses and she was starting to realise that her feelings towards the Potter boy were changing. This is what confused her. James was supposed to be a boy who showed off to try and impress her and his efforts failed, he was supposed to be a boy who hexed people for the fun of it, a boy she was supposed to dislike.

Now she was feeling conflicted, the two sides of her battling each other over what she was supposed to feel about James Potter. One side was screaming at her to stop the madness and to go back to hating him, a leopard never changes it spots. The other was calmer, a voice of reason in a sense. It was telling her that it was okay to like him, that people could change if people were willing to give them a chance.

It was just she was finishing dinner and exited the Great Hall that Tuesday evening when James walked into the entrance hall covered in mud.; having just finished Quidditch practice. As she decided to go over and talk to him, his fellow teammate Keira Hunt entered the castle and ran over to James. Keira was a blonde haired, green eyed fifth year who, according to rumours, had slept with James when she was thirteen. Lily rarely paid attention to school gossip but just watching the blonde bat her eyelids at James, twirling a lock of hair around her finger. She felt a surge of annoyance overcome her but resisted the urge to move from where she stood. She frowned in confusion as she watched James show no interest in Keira's flirtations, his facial expression remained like he was bored.

It was when she saw Keira lean in for a kiss that made her blood boil in anger, she stormed past the two of them and up the staircase; heading back for the common room.

"Lily!" James called.

She didn't stop, she carried on walking as James ran to catch up with her. Lily had never known jealousy before and seeing Keira lean in to kiss the boy she liked was enough to make her mad.

"Lily!" James yelled.

It was when they reached the seventh floor corridor that James pulled her into an empty classroom. She swore loudly when he waved his wand and locked the door before casting a silencing charm around them.

"What's up with you?" James demanded, mud dripping onto the floor.

Lily rolled her eyes.

"Keira Hunt if you must know." she yelled.

"What about her?" asked James.

"Flirting with you in the entrance hall, I saw everything." Lily growled.

James exhaled heavily and moved closer to her, his arms resting firmly but gently on her shoulders. Lily tried to move away from him but he held her still, he gave her a small smile and went to move in for a kiss. Lily pulled away from him, and took his hands off her shoulders, she paced the room for a few minutes; neither of them saying a word.

"Lily?"

She turned to him, feeling more confused than ever.

"What?" she snapped.

"I didn't reciprocate her advances." James muttered.

"Hardly matters." Lily replied.

James frowned and once again moved towards her, she backed towards the door; hitting it with a small thud. James was inches away from her, he was so close that she could feel his breath on her face. It was just him being this close that made the side of her that wanted James scream in triumph over the side that wanted her to not like him at all. The last two kisses that they had shared had caused her to lose focus on her surroundings and what had been going on, it was like she had always had some barrier around her to protect herself from getting hurt and James was beginning to tear down those barriers.

"What do you mean it hardly matters?" he questioned.

Lily gulped, it was hard for her to think straight.

"It's just hard for me to accept that you can change." she answered.

Still he didn't move, merely smiled at her.

"Because before I was a constant show-off, detention goer and prankster who sought attention?" he chuckled.

She nodded dreamily, his hazel eyes warm; this was making her lose focus once more. Dammit! She thought.

"Lily, I'm trying here. The only girl who's attention that I want now is yours; you're the only girl that I like." James stated.

"What about Keira?" asked Lily.

"Keira's just a teammate." replied James.

"But you've shagged her before yeah?" asked Lily.

James went red and shook his head.

"I never slept with her, those were rumours that Snape started because he saw us walking back from practice once. He assumed that because we were alone and we were harmlessly flirting that we were sleeping together." said James.

"Why would Sev-

James huffed, "It hardly matters now, it was two years ago! Can we not talk about Snape?".

Lily blinked, slightly surprised at his snappiness.

"Sure, what would you prefer to talk about?" she asked, feeling a little annoyed that he had snapped at her.

James rolled his eyes and pressed his lips to hers, instantly moving them against her own. Lily clung to his shirt as his tongue entered her mouth and his hands went to her waist, gripping firmly there. Once more Lily forgot about where they were, what they had been talking about and the fact that James was in his Quidditch robes covered in mud. After a few minutes, she pulled away to gasp for air and gave him a smile; the part of her still fighting to stop her feelings for the boy seemed to be losing right now.

"So how about you come with me to the village before Christmas holidays?" asked James.

"Second date?" she teased.

James grinned, "I was thinking more of a third." he replied.

Lily frowned, "Third?" she asked.

"Because tonight we're not on duty and I want to surprise you." James answered her.

Still continuing to frown, "Potter if you think I'm going to sneak out after curfew-

James silenced her with a quick peck on her lips, causing her to blush the same colour as her hair.

"We won't get caught, I have a handy little thing that will help us." James promised.

Lily nodded dreamily and once the silencing charm had been undone and the door unlocked, the two of them walked back to Gryffindor Tower so that they could shower before James took her for her 'surprise'.

A/N: Hope you like this chapter, the next one will hopefully be up next week. Would be up this weekend but it's my birthday tomorrow! so I'm having a whole weekend to celebrate with family.

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