Chapter 4
"I love you…" Allison's words replay over and over in Isaac Lahey's mind. However those words were not spoken out loud for him to receive, but for her ex-lover Scott. Ever since the night of her death, a deep and permanent ravine has formed in his heart. Allison is gone, for good. To make matters worse, she didn't even love him. He was just the receiver at the end of a telephone line with a lost signal. That's not true- she did love you- just not how much you would have liked her to.
Isaac shuffles along the sidewalk kicking loose stones into the road. It's been a week since the funeral and a month since she left this world. Once again, he is left with nobody. Everybody leaves him eventually, the good and the bad. He should know the drill by now- let no-one in and there's no way to get hurt. If only it were that simple. It takes a lot for a sweet heart to harden. Isaac's is solid cold stone.
Scott has taken Allison's death pretty hard too, Isaac has observed. Well they were lovers. Isaac grimaces. He notices that Scott tends to leave the house around midnight every night for a few hours. Probably to clear his head…I wonder where he goes… Isaac has attempted to tail him several times before but Scott is near impossible to track- the boy's too damn fast. Isaac is often awoken at night due to bloodcurdling half howl, half screams coming from Scott's room. It's as if he's trying to gather his whole pack together again but then suddenly painfully remembers that now there's a member missing he can never get back.
Isaac must admit he often has difficulty sleeping too. Instead of nightmares though, he just spends hours lying on his back, counting the countless cracks in the ceiling. He feels empty, just a void in space. He has trouble stringing a sentence together at times because he has no more words left to say, none that matter anyway. It's pointless- the whole concept of life and death and love- the whole lot of it.