Chapter Six

It's been 2 days.
2 days since my birthday.
2 days since Alec kissed me.
2 days since he began to ignore me.
And 1 day since I had finally realised what they expected of me.

I knew that they want to turn me into a vampire but they expect me to kill with them and be proud. I know sometimes I can sound pretty morbid but I would never take an innocents persons life away. I tried to explain that to Demetri and Felix-who I have became pretty good friends with-they suggested the Cullen's diet that's only on animal blood. But killing Bambi... That one of my favourite Disney movies. I couldn't do that either I love animals; way better then people.

I wouldn't really survive as a vampire, unless it was like The Vampire Dairies because I could just heal them then compel them to forget. But here, in the real world, it's either kill them or transform them which will lead to a lot of other deaths. I don't want to become a monster.

Monster. Is that really what I think these vampires are? Yeah they've done some terrible things but in the end what is the definition of the word 'monster' these people kill to survive, Jack the Ripper didn't he killed for the thrill of it. That probably makes him more of a monster.

I glared at the wooden door in front of me it looked as if it was staring back into my eyes mocking me. Taunting me. I was slowly going insane that's for sure. I thought to hard, I over-think too much. "Why did that step-monster of mine have to ruin my life?" I muttered bitterly to myself. "If it wasn't for her, I'll be in England living a normal life, surrounded by normal people and not having to become a blood-sucking murderer." Great now I'm talking to myself. I quietly growled before heading off to the shower.

After I got ready I swiftly walked out of my room made my way to the kitchen smiling when I noticed the chef was already in here. "What would you like Mrs Swan?" the human male asked politely.
"Please can I have some waffles, bacon and egg?" I replied sitting at one of the chairs.
"Sure I will be right on it, go and take a seat at the dinning table I will bring it in once its done" I nodded before shuffling out of the room and into the next.

The rest of the day wasn't interesting, or the next, or the one after that.

3 days left

The word 'monster' haunted me every time I was left alone I could feel someone whispering it to me. Every time I close my eyes I saw a pale figure with a innocent face but blood dripping down from her eyes and mouth slowly creeping towards me before they pounce. But I am awake by then. Screaming and thrashing around. The first night that happened Demetri and Felix came, the second only Demetri and third: no one. I haven't seen Alec since the kiss.

I don't want him to see me so week. So vulnerable. My hair tied back in a loose bun with strands sticking out, my tear stained face and my black vest with grey sweatpants wasn't very flattering. I only ever sat in the corner huddled into a ball, my heart beating out of my chest every time a small noise was heard. The light always had to be on I can't have it off I see her face in the dark. Her face I always draw without realising. Her face haunts my sleep. Her voice whispering into my ear.

I haven't been eating. Or talking to anyone. I just sit huddled together whispering 'she's coming' and shouting to be free for to let go off me.

Slowly, slowly insanity is creeping up on me.

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Sorry it's short its just a filler but don't forget to comment.