Warning: This chapter contains scenes of suicide, may be triggering

Tori's P.O.V

It seemed like an eternity before I eventually reached Jade's house, I turned the car off before quickly running to the front door. I opened it, noticing how it is unusual for Jade to leave the front door unlocked.

"Jade!" I shouted panic rising in my voice, I looked around the downstairs quickly but there was no sign of her.

"Jade!" I shouted again running up the long staircase "Jade!"

I moved quickly to Jade's bedroom but seeing no sign of her, I heard a siren outside realising that Beck must have called them. I made my to her en-suite and took a deep breath before pushing the door open.

"Omg" I knelt down beside Jade seeing her lying in a pool of her own blood unconscious, I checked her pulse which was barely there.

I felt a strong pair of arms wrap around my waist pulling me back as paramedics rushed to Jade's side.

"Get off me! I need to be with her!" I screamed as I tried to escape the grasp, right now all I cared about was making sure Jade's okay.

The paramedics rushed past us with Jade on a gurney, me and Beck both followed them.

"You go in the ambulance I'll follow in my car" I just nodded before climbing in the back of the ambulance. I can't believe this has happened; it's my entire fault she's like this. I'm so sorry Jade.

I held Jade's hand as the ambulance flew towards the hospital, the paramedic kept checking on Jade making sure she was okay, but by the looks of things I don't think she's going to be.

I felt the tears run down my cheeks as I held onto Jade's hand tighter, "Please Jade, you need to fight this okay, you have to, please" I sobbed.

...

It had been 2 hours since Jade had been brought to hospital, the doctors keep telling us there's no change. She's in intensive care now, and no one knows if she's going to be okay. No one dares to ask, the doctors told us that it would be best for us to call all immediate family and friends.

She's going to die, that's what he meant but he just couldn't say it. But he's wrong I know Jade and she doesn't give up easily, the Jade I know, MY Jade she's a fighter and she's not giving up.

Jade's mother had arrived not long after we had rang her and told her what happened, Cat was sat crying into Robbie's shoulder, Andre sat just in complete shock not speaking to anyone. I had phoned my mom to come and she was now sat holding my hand while I tried not to shake. Beck's sat with Trina crying, all of this. All of this is my fault isn't it?

I should have listened to her, I shouldn't have said the things I did, if I hadn't then none of us would be here. Jade could die and it's my entire fault. The girl I'm in love with could die and it's my entire fault. She doesn't deserve this, she can be a gank to people but she does not deserve this at all.

"Are you here for Jade West?" A doctor asked breaking me from my thoughts as he approached us.

Everyone rose from their seats and waited expectantly for what he had to say.

"Yes, is she going to be okay?" I asked as no one else had spoken.

"I'm afraid it still doesn't seem like good news, the main thing is that you are all here to support her and she's surrounded by her friends and family"

"What does that mean?"Jade's mother asked pain evident in her voice.

The doctor looked at us all before speaking again "We've managed to stop the bleeding from her wrists, but she also overdosed and I'm afraid we can't say much about that right now as we are still running tests but I am sorry it doesn't look good"

"Can we see her?" I quickly asked before he could walk away.

"Yes, but only two at a time"

"I know you all want to see her but I really need to say something to her, I know she probably can't hear me but there's a slight chance she can, so can I?" I asked gently.

Everyone agreed that me and Jade's mother Sarah could go in first.

"I'm so sorry" We walked towards Jade's room as I spoke.

"It's not your fault, I should've noticed something was wrong with her I'm her mother, but I've just been so caught up with work and I know that's no excuse but..."She trailed off as we reached the door to Jade's hospital room.

I pushed the door open and my heart literally broke at the sight in front of me, Jade had a tube coming out of her mouth with wires connected to her.

Sarah sat down on the chair near Jade's bed and began to cry and apologize to her daughter repeatedly while holding her hand.

All I could do was stand with tears running down my face, unable to move.

...

After an hour Jade's mom had left to go home and get some things, Andre, Cat, Beck and Robbie had all been in to see Jade also apologizing for everything they've done. Whatever that means.

Now though, it was just me left with Jade. I held onto Jade's hand tightly just as I had done in the ambulance. This time I was careful not to hurt her wrists, seeing that they're bandaged. I traced my finger along the outline not putting any pressure on it.

I felt tears come to my eyes as I did this, I can't help but think again that this is my entire fault. It's my entire fault Jade's here.

And I can't do anything about it now, but what I can do is help Jade get through this and make sure she's alive to get through this. That's what I needed to focus on.

I rubbed Jade's hand soothingly trying to let her know I was there, the beeping off the machine reassuring me that she's alive and can hear me.

"Jade, I know I've been horrible to you and those things I said to you at school should never have came out my mouth because none of them are true" Tears rushed down my face as I tried to speak again "I shouldn't have treated you the way I have, you didn't deserve it and I'm sorry"

"Now though, I need you to hang on for me okay" I ran my hand down the side of her jaw gently. "I need you to stay strong for me because I know you can do it. You're Jade West, the strong and brave and beautiful talented girl I love and I know you can do this. You can't give up, I need you Jade, I need you" I cried looking at her softly.

"Seeing you like this breaks my heart and I'm so sorry it came to this but you can get through this. Every step off the way I'm going to be here for you. There are so many people here for you so please don't give up Jade, please"

I brought a hand up to my face and wiped the tears from my face.

"I love you Jade, please don't leave me"

A/N: I'm not really sure about this chapter, sorry if I didn't get it exactly right but tried my best. Hope you like it x