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They laid there for what felt like an eternity. Their breathing slowed, their skin cooling down, and yet they didn't move or speak. Santana's mind was jumbled up with so many questions, so many thoughts, so many conflicting wants and desires.
"Santana," Dani finally whispered out. "We need to talk."
"Why?" Santana whimpered, her voice coming out much weaker than she had intended.
Dani sat up and turned so that her legs were swung off the bed, her back to Santana. The Latina frowned as the blue-haired girl just sat there. "Why? Because of what just happened, that's why." Her voice was firm and commanding, and Santana didn't think she'd be able to say no without feeling guilty.
Santana sat up as well, and Dani turned so that they were facing each other.
"And don't think you can get away with kissing me again," Dani insisted.
"What am I supposed to say?" Santana asked weakly. "I'm not trying to avoid the topic, I swear, but I literally do not know what I'm supposed to say. I already told you that I like you."
"Well, what do you want to... do about it?" Dani asked carefully. Santana lifted her gaze and looked at Dani's dark eyes. While they were brown like Santana's, they were very different. Less guarded than Santana's, and a little lighter. They had a certain sparkle about them that Santana actually loved.
"What do you want to do about it?" Santana countered.
"I think... I mean, if you want to, then I think we should... try?"
"Try what?" Santana questioned cautiously.
"I don't know, like... d-dating? Like, unofficially but... you know... I—" Dani stammered out, wringing her hands together and looking down at her lap.
Santana didn't answer immediately. She thought hard about this decision. She liked Dani, there was no question about that. There was no telling whether Santana and Dani would actually work well together as a "couple", and what was wrong with trying to be together, but unofficially? No labels, no formal commitment. And nobody had to know... right? "Does... does anyone have to know?"
Dani bit her bottom lip, hesitating. Santana felt really bad suddenly, asking her that question. Dani was comfortable with her sexuality, she didn't mind if people knew it. But Santana was insecure, and she couldn't risk her parents finding out, or worse, her Abuela. Her friends might not judge her, but what about the whole of McKinley, the school that she had ruled for three years now?
If she wanted to hold her reign, she had to stay in the closet. Maybe... maybe one day she could come out. But not in high school, no. It would be too hard, too complicated. What if her parents weren't cool with it and they kicked her out? There were so many things to consider. So many things that could go wrong. Santana sighed. "I'm sorry, for asking you that. But if my parents find out, I have no idea how they'll react. They might kick me out, disown me, and I have nowhere else to go. I just... I can't risk it."
Dani sighed, giving Santana a reassuring smile. "Nobody here has to know, if you don't want anyone to know. But I... I might say something about it to my best friend in LA, you know? We tell each other everything."
"That would be fine. It's not like she's going to come tell my parents," Santana told Dani with a small smile, which the blue-haired girl returned.
They were quiet for a moment, and then Dani stood and went for Santana's guitar. "How about you listen to my new music now?"
Santana smiled. "Sounds like a good idea."
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As she played the guitar, with Santana's eyes on her skillful fingers strumming the strings, Dani tried to cool herself down. Truthfully, she was still feeling very hot and bothered from that make out session. Santana might be used to them, but Dani hadn't ever had sex.
It wasn't hard to understand why, if you asked her. She hadn't ever been interested in guys, and she didn't know many other lesbians. Of the few she did know, she hadn't ever really liked any until Santana. So truthfully, Santana was, hopefully, going to be a lot of firsts for her.
She was Dani's first real crush, she was the first person she ever made out with, maybe eventually they could be girlfriends... maybe after that Santana could be Dani's first.
Santana wasn't Dani's first kiss, though. When she was younger, and conflicted with her sexuality, Dani told her best friend, Anna, that she was really confused and didn't know what she was. Anna, being the best friend that she was, told Dani that she could kiss her if she wanted, to test it out. Dani had been hesitant, but eventually agreed. And there was her first kiss, with her best friend.
It wasn't Dani's fault that she hadn't ever liked anyone enough do anything with them. Santana might've once thought that it was cool to hook up with people, and thankfully she wasn't like that anymore, but Dani had always found it relatively repulsive. Guys had always wanted to hook up with her, honestly, but she always turned them away with a disgusted look and a wave of her hand.
Judging by the way this town worked, Dani had to guess that she was the only virgin in her senior class.
She finished the new stuff she'd written for the guitar and looked up at Santana. "What'd you think?"
"I think that I've never heard anyone play anything that awesome on a guitar before," Santana responded. Dani couldn't help the blush that came to her cheeks as she looked back down at the instrument and ran her fingers over the strings.
"Thanks," she said to Santana, a small smile playing on her face. She knew she was good at playing the guitar, but hearing it from Santana felt so awesome.
"Are you getting hungry?" Santana asked.
"Why, are you?" Dani returned with a chuckle. Santana nodded sheepishly. "Then sure."
They went downstairs and found some food to eat, which they ate while talking about casual things, like Glee and school. Dani loved that they could talk so friendly, even after how awkward they both probably felt earlier. She just hoped that the awkward feeling could go away all together, eventually.
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Dani had to head home after the ate, so Santana walked her to the door. Ever since their conversation, she'd had a little pit of nervousness in her stomach, and she really wanted it to go away. She wasn't used to being so nervous over one person.
"Text me later?" Dani asked as she stepped outside.
"Sure," Santana replied with a smile. Dani hesitated, and then leaned forward and gave Santana a small peck on the lips, before lowering her eyes to avoid Santana's. But the Latina just smiled. "See you tomorrow."
"See you," Dani returned, giving her a smile before she walked away from the door, which Santana closed.
The Latina sighed, a smile playing on her face. She felt so happy and relieved, even though she still felt a little stressed. She went back in the kitchen and cleaned up the food they'd had out, and then her doorbell rang. Curious, she went back to the door and opened it. She was more than surprised to see Kurt and Rachel standing on her porch.
"What are you doing here, hobbit? Lady Face?" she snapped.
"We're giving you an intervention," Rachel insisted, as she and Kurt stepped into Santana's house without the Latina's permission.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Santana demanded to know, feeling confused and let alarmed at the same time. "I'm not doing drugs or shit like that."
Rachel and Kurt exchanged a concerned glance. The latter explained, "A Gay Intervention."
Santana's heart began to race, and she closed her front door, as if she though the neighbors would hear them say the G word. "What on Earth are you talking about?"
"Oh come on, Santana," Rachel told her. "We might not be your best friends, but we're the only ones that have a class with you and Danielle besides Glee Club."
"So?" Santana asked.
"So, we see the way you look at her, in class and during lunch," Kurt told her.
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Santana insisted, shaking her head. But her heart was still racing, and she had began to break out into a light sweat. She was kind of freaking out. Dani said no one had to know, but evidently, some people were already suspecting.
"Don't play dumb," Rachel commanded.
"I-I'm not," Santana tried, but her stutter gave her away.
"Santana," Rachel started in a softer voice, "you can tell us."
Santana shook her head furiously as she walked deeper into her house, back towards the kitchen. "There's nothing to tell."
"Santana, we're trying to help you," Kurt told the Latina. "You've been so up and down with your moods lately, and that's not healthy."
"So why do you care about helping me, anyway? I'm a bitch to you guys!" Santana exclaimed, turning and looking back at them.
"Being a bitch is your exterior," Rachel started to explain, and Santana sighed. "You've been nice to us, and we've seen you be nice to other people to. Danielle for one, and last year you were nice to Brittany. You're a bitch when you're trying to keep things locked inside."
Santana winced at the mention of Brittany. She knew that Rachel was right. She was only a bitch when she was holding things inside of her. It was like a defense mechanism, or a lock mechanism. To keep her emotions from pouring out of her. "So what are you trying to get me to admit to you?" Santana asked, crossing her arms.
"The truth. The reason that you've been having such a hard time," Kurt told her.
Santana closed her eyes, because she felt that tears were starting to form inside them. She didn't want Rachel and Kurt to see them. She didn't want to tell them her biggest secret. She didn't want to tell them about her and Dani. She didn't want them to know that much about her. But here they were, waiting for her to say something. Finally, she said in a voice barely loud enough to hear, "Do you want me to tell you that I'm gay?"
"If it's true," Kurt agreed.
"Then fine, I'm gay," Santana told them, opening her eyes and glad that no tears escaped.
"I knew it!" Rachel exclaimed. Santana rolled her eyes and turned and went in her kitchen, cleaning up the rest of the dishes.
"Does... does Danielle know?" Kurt asked carefully. Santana nodded, keeping her eyes on the dish that she was scrubbing. "Is... is she—"
"Why don't you ask her?" Santana suggested. She knew that Dani didn't care if people knew about their "dating" or whatever, or her sexuality, but she didn't want to give up that information without permission.
Kurt and Rachel exchanged a confused look, and Santana just continued cleaning the dishes. Rachel asked, "Well never mind, do you like her?"
Santana nodded.
"I knew it, I so knew it," Kurt exclaimed this time. Santana just sighed. These people were insane.
"So, you're really not going to tell us anything about Danielle?" Rachel asked the Latina.
"What Dani wants to tell you guys about herself is her decision, not mine," Santana snapped a the shorter girl.
"So she is gay?" Kurt asked. Santana huffed.
"I said ask her yourself."
"Oh, and you get to call her Dani," Rachel said with a wide smile. Santana rolled her eyes, but she felt one side of her lips quirk up. She did get to call her Dani. "What's the smile?" Rachel teased.
Santana scowled at the brunette. "Don't you guys have some musical obsessing to do or something?"
"We just want you to know that if you ever need to talk or something, we're here for you. We won't tell anyone your secret, I swear," Kurt promised her. "See you tomorrow, Santana."
Santana just nodded, and the two divas left. Honestly, she felt a huge weight lifted off of her shoulders.
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