My Name Chapter 3: Facedown
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Hey everyone! Me again! Hope you're all doing well! 3rd and final chapter of the night!, the next one will be up soon! This chapter deals with Hannah and her past, along with a small explanation on how she and Roc end up together! Hope you enjoy! Until next time my minions!
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My name is Hannah, and I am a victim.
Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Abuse; it was a horrible word. It was hell, it was death, it was sorrow. And I went though it.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
My boyfriend was never the best to me, I'll admit that. He would always get really mad at me for some odd reason that didn't even have anything to do with me. But if I told him that... Well... He beat me until I cried. I took it. I loved him...
Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
My family was always concerned, my mother even went so far as to buy me a handgun just incase my boyfriend turned violent. She wasn't aware that he already had, quite often, leaving black and red scars along my pale skin.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
My name is Hannah, and I am useless.
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gon' to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
When he discovered the gun in my bag, he beat me for not telling him about it. Then he raped me... Twice. It was my first time, and it was stolen from me by someone who didn't even think twice about it. My first time was hell, and I'll never get it back... My vagina was much more important than my heart to that bastard...
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
It was like that for me day in and day out; beat, rape, cry. Beat, rape, cry. I couldn't escape, and no one would help me, no matter what I did to subtly inform them I was being abused. I knew I couldn't outright tell someone, my boyfriend would find out and beat me.
I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
Heed my lecture.
Do you know what it feels like to be afraid to wake up, lest you disturb the sleeping tiger beside you? It's unbearable. I just wanted to die, and when I told my boyfriend this, he took me out to an alley to sodomize and murder me.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
My name is Hannah, and I could see the fog of death.
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gon' to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found
When I woke up, I was not resting in a layer of clouds, but on a hospital bed, with a large plump nurse standing over my bed, wearing a smile that told me that she was a mother; only a mother could smile like that. She informed me that a nice young man and his girlfriend had rescued me and brought me to the hospital. Elsa and Andrew; they were amazing people, but it was their friend Roc who would become my savior.
Face down in the dirt,
she said, "This doesn't hurt",
she said, "I finally had enough."
We hit it off during his first visit. He had snuck himself in some McDolands, disgusted at the thought of ingesting hospital food. He shared with me when he heard my stomach grumble. I was wary, but accepted none-the-less. Maybe he wasn't the same, maybe he didn't want to harm me.
Face down in the dirt,
she said, "This doesn't hurt",
she said, "I finally had enough."
Eventually Roc began to visit me every day; he would bring me books from the library and would always sneak in a small burger from McDonalds for me. I never asked him to, he said he just wanted to. I couldn't help myself, I was falling in love with him.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough
He's coming round again.
My name is Hannah, and I was healing.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gon' to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found
One day my worst nightmare came to fruition; my ex-boyfriend found me. I never even had time to make up an excuse as he walked into my hospital room and wrapped his hands around my throat.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Just as I was beginning to feel my life slip away from between my lips along with the last of the oxygen in my lungs, I suddenly felt my ex-boyfriend's weight lifted off of me, along with a loud crash and cursing from two different sources.
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's gon' to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found
It was Roc; he was the one who had saved me. He had just come for a visit, and found my ex attempting to murder me. The staff would only tell me that Roc made sure that my ex would never bother me again. I still wonder what happened.
Face down in the dirt,
Roc and I are now a couple, and I'm happy every single day of my life. I now know that the man I love truly loves me back.
She said, "This doesn't hurt",
My name is Hannah, and I am a survivor.
She said, "I finally had enough."
Who do you love?...